Can't sleep, i have dreams, of becoming a well known person, able to support my family, able to drive nice cars, able to migrate out of here, long term dreams. Short term dreams? Usually realistic ones, as reality keeps hitting me on my back. Well. Dreams..
Geek From Mars has been off for quite a while. The geek got lazy and decided to put off this blog for a while but now, he just can not cope with reality so he's back here.
Reality sucks. I've been alright for the past few weeks. It's now the end of 5th week into the 6th semester of my diploma year. How faster can time flow. I've been as lazy as ever. Out of touch as always. I am having this really I'm-Lazy-And-I-Don't-Want-To-Study feeling. College is as suffering as days pass. It's no more like a college, it's freaking back to secondary school where you have like so much work to do, attendance to lecture is compulsory, classes at 8 in the morning, i know i'm whining about necessary stuffs that i'm suppose to do. Imagine how worse would it be when i'm working.
I'm getting distracted easily, feeling pressure by the environment, i think my mentality is playing tricks on me, at home, in college, i just feel i can not fit in, there's like so much flaw in everyone, i'm judging i know. I'm flawed, very, i've been very sensitive to people's judgment and views lately. Sometimes i just get left behind. I'm already out here, living without my family, of course i need friends, but sometimes it hurts so much when friends you know and trust abandon you.
I've learnt to cope with that, just put aside the anger and frustration and smile. Get emo a little, but, just be patient.
The future, it's so near, in just a few more months, i would be graduating from diploma, continue my studies somewhere, or no where ? I've got fairly good grades for last semester, all A's, but accumulate only 3.66 for my CGPA. That's actually out of my expectation, i did not expect myself to perform that well, and here comes the part, where i have to continue striving this semester for good grades so that i can have scholarship for my next level of studies. The pressure is piling up and at times i just want to give up, i'm tired, i don't know why, there's no more a goal, to motivate me. I know there is, but i don't see it, i just don't.
What is the purpose of my life, i don't want to go in to this, but people do ask themselves this question, when they are lost, and don't know what to do.
Other than that, everythings cool. As i said a few months ago i'm assembling a new PC, here it is! No picts because connection sucky..Damn it.
With this baby, i'm just hooked to it all day and night. I just finish playing bioshock. Next would be Hellgate:London. And i have a new addiction, i used to swear that i would never play that game ever, but since WTF modes, ap modes and now ar modes, i'm officially into DOTA. Damn it, it's just so fun. Nothing more to say.
And i sold of my Ipod, getting myself a PSP Slim & Lite. Ice Silver. Will post picts when i get it. No body seems to like silver, don't know why, maybe it's because silver is dull kut.
AS i'm typing, the connection for some reason is so freaking slow. Geram nyer.
Guess i'll continue tomorrow, this would be my first post since last semester break.
signing out.
WHOA..One month plus i didn't blog...Currently having finals..not free to blog..or i'm just lazy..LoL...no updates until then..Boo Hoo
Am building a new PC ! YeePee..
It's been 8 months since that day, and things just went off like fireworks.
One blink of an eye, another month passed.
Am i old or what?
Well, it's a roller coaster ride. I sometimes do think if i'm on the right train.
But i guess every train is the right one with you.
=)
Love You Dear.
Been busy with assignments, tutorials and Student Welfare Committee stuffs. Even though i had time for FIFA07 but i've just got myself updated with the blog-o-sphere today. And i found people(s) bombarded my chatterbox saying that they do read. Anyway, i would present you guys the medal of honour bla bla bla....
But i really appreciate the people that do read my blog. It's just so nice of you guys.
To Chris - I find your blog really interesting. I like the things you talk about and of course, i happened to find out you are a Manchester United Fan, right ? That's why i linked you. LoL.
Things wasn't going really well, assignments are starting to pile up, i've been in a strings of bad lucks. Maths is as sucky as ever, and I've seen people in a way i've never see before.
I've been a busybody, which everybody at times are. But it's not to do that on the road because it's dangerous. Like me. I was driving out of my college into the main road. As i was waiting for the car in front to exit the junction, there was an accident on the other lane, so i looked, as the girl was sobbing while talking on the phone, and a man was shouting something, and then i heard *bam*. I looked in front, it was me. Oh damn not again. My front bumper hit the rear bumper of an accord. To make things worst, she's a lecturer from my college. Luckily it was nothing, i fixed it back for her, and she say she'll call me if anything happens. End of story. NOT.
I didn't notice the damage on my car. Cost me RM80..
I've grown, as in the belly part. I've also become darker. Because of swimming. I've been "assisting" my sir, teach year one students how to swim. LoL. I'm still not fully fit as a result of the injury i had three months ago. I'm still recovering, eating lots of pills. I miss playing football, where i can use my knees without worrying.
I've watch transformers and harry potter !!
Transformers - F&!@##^&* AWESOME !! It was so cool that i nearly choked on my popcorn.
Transformers is so damn cool is freaking awesome is the best movie i watched this year compared to all the sucky movies that i've watch omg i just love the show full stop
Harry Potter - When the movie reached the two hour marked. The story is only half of the book.
I find harry potter's visual effects kinda good, but the story is all short cutted, which makes it kinda boring for people who read the book. I'm just not impressed. Still, i've pre-ordered the 7th book which is due out this 21st and i really can't wait for it. The books are even boxed up to prevent stolen copies or something according to the papers today.
And According to the papers today, and yesterday, well, yesterday, a porsche 911 Targa 4 was stolen from a showroom in autocity juru, penang, and too bad for the guy, the car ran out of fuel, so he had to ditch it. The police recovered it and stupidly had to refuel it to drive it back to the station for evidence. Today's news paper, the porsche was stolen again, this time from the station. I just laughed and laughed. There's really nothing i can say actually.
It's been a different generation since then, i'm not being racist or what, look at the state of out National football team, what can we say, we had high hopes, but we fell. There was an incident at my place, where this guy kicked a car of a friend of mine, a bunch of them where there, and when ask to settle, he took out a knife and threated my friend, which almost resulted into a fight, and a bunch of other people on motorbikes who happened to pass by straight stopped and threw their helmet at my friends. For no f***ing reason. Pathetic. What has our nation become, as we marched towards our vision, devastation and reformation ? Maybe that's what we really need.
Today's is the 19th of July, 6 more days, It would be 8 months. =). Times really passes fast.
I'll just stop here. Until then..
After one year of studying in TAR college, i'm still surviving.
One year ago, it wasn't planned for me to enter TAR College. I was suppose to do Graphic Design in MMU Cyberjaya. I applied and i waited. It didn't came. Dad ask me to look for a backup. With my pathetic SPM results (only 2as). Where could i go?
Luckily i had enough credits. So i decided to look up TAR College. I read about the courses and this course attracted me. I use to hear TAR College is well know for their business courses, not the IT courses. I decided to give a shot at Information Systems Engineering. I downloaded the application form online and submitted it.
And now, here i am. MMU gave me IT in Melaka campus. So i decided to come here instead. Since it offer the course i opt for in TARC.
One year ago.
First semester, i was trying to fit it. I was trying to not be the odd one out, i used to sit alone in lectures, put on my ear phones, and just look at the lecturer lecturing. And then, i had problems. I don't know how badly it effects me emotionally but i know it did. First semester was a bitter pill to swallow. But i carried on, pulling myself together. The subjects where interesting, at least i'm interested to learn. I did think about, what if i'm not interested, what if i study halfway then i give up ? Then came exam, First Semester, GPA 3.3333.
And then came second semester. There seem to be a light shone at me. I know i was not lost anymore. I've made friends, i've done well, i'm adapting. And something happened, that turned my world upside down, from wrong to right, from pain to happiness. It's a great feeling. Semester 2 was a great one. A few blinks and then came exam again. This time i felt i worked quite hard, but not hard enough. Result ? GPA 3.68
Semester 3. I thought it was gonna be easy. With subjects like Web Page Design, which is my favourite, and Tamadun Islam, still not loving it. I don't know if i've done enough, but two subjects would be easy to achieve. It's a 50/50 way, either you win or you lose, because there's only two subs.
And on today, i collected my exam result slip, open it up, and i saw the letters A and a GPA 4.0.
I know it's nothing to some of you smart people out there. But this is the first time i got a 4 Flat. I'm very happy about it. I was lucky too i guess. Even it's a small achievement, but it will be an inspiration to work harder. It definitely boost my confidence a little higher.
I can sense further obstacles are waiting for me.
It's gonna be a busy week. I've a meeting to attend. Swimming lessons to attend. I'm a student assistant, which means i earn money as i teach swimming. Yay extra income ! Booths to attend to, also another extra income, take care of the paper booth where they distribute papers to students who subscribed. At times i get really exhausted because of the long sessions in college. It's really tiring, but i can't complain. Although i love to rot at home.
but i think i'm getting lazy soon. LoL
I'm curious to know who drops by here. Please leave a message in my tag box so that i'd know. Just curious. =). I know usually i blog to myself. I know a few people that sometimes drop by. but i don't update really that often. I know one persons who always comes here. ;)
I've been thinking of changing the design of my blog.
How is this for a start ?
Until then..
Yes, I'm known to my lil cousins as the Shark. because of my head. Other than that, i'm also known as egg head.
Anyhow, i was back in Penang for my uncle's wedding, and it was great. Well, the food was great, make me gain a few pounds more. I've been not exercising because of my leg and i'm here eating my heart out. LoL
One thing i hate about my appearance is my hair. It's because i don't have a clue on how to cut my hair. When it's long, i just tell the hair stylist to trim and cut short. There are a few times which i had bad hair cuts.
Last year in Genting. Click 5 style, according to Kok Chyan
I always complain that i don't know how to style my hair. I don't really like to use wax or gel, because when my hair itches, i hate it.
You can see i don't usually style my hair
All these years i look the same, even theng always say my hair is always like this. When i cut my hair, mum will ask, you got cut your hair meh ?
It's hard to do anything when my hair is long..and my nose is crooked !!
Anyway, i'm back in Penang now for my Uncle's wedding. In the meantime, i decided to get a hair cut. I was planning to just trim it, but i end up looking like this.
Ohh wait, wrong picture. I wished i look like him.
I decided to try something different, like, take a risk, try it, something that will make me look fresh. Through the hair cut, i couldn't really see myself because i had my glasses off. That's what i hate about getting a hair cut, not able to see yourself is just plain wrong. You won't know when something goes wrong. Well, i told the hair stylist to cut like this anyway, and well, it turned out quite like what i expected, but seriously, i don't know whether it's nice or not.
And i will reveal it here...
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Web Cam
This will be the first time i cut it this way. I even had three stipes on the side, just for fun.
My grandmother ask me in hokkien "Lu ka ha mi tao mo??"
Another bad hair style. When will i get it right ??????
*sigh*
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
I wished The Fray would come to Malaysia....*prays hard*
I've been back to KL since last week, 14 of May. Been going to College almost everyday for setting up and rehearsal of Mass Call. It's been a tiring week and tomorrow would be the real day. Time actually pass quite fast, on the other hand i was complaining that time is passing too slow because i miss theng a lot. Come to think of it, it's quite fast also.
So, Manchester United failed to secure the FA cup after a 1-0 lost to Chelsea in extra time. I don't have anything to say. After putting high hopes on Manchester United, they bound to lose. While when you don't concentrate on them, they will win with a brace of goals. People say it's because of the game itself is already polluted by bookies and bets.
Paused.
And Here i am, after two weeks, continuing this post.
I've been busy. Mass Call was a great experience. It's fun and i really enjoy it except for the part where we had to stand for a very long time.
Tomorrow would be the first day of my second year or fourth semester. Kinda fast actually.
Me and Theng had been together for 6 months already. and she made me this..
A Card with mind blowing words *=P* and cookies shaped like Noel. Well, plus load more of cookies which left me craving for more. Yum Yummy. Love ya baby. =)
Time flies, when i look at the freshies that attended mass call, they remind me of myself when i first step into college one year ago. Everything was new and different. Can't believe it's been a year. Sometimes i still wonder if i took the right course, how would my future be.
I still haven't watch Pirates Of The Caribbean. Heard it's good, much better than Spidey3. Headed to Times Square with Theng on sat to watch but it was SOLD OUT, THE WHOLE DAY. Because of Wu Chun, a chinese actor or something which i have no interest in. Times Square was flooded.
My leg isn't healed yet, i wonder when i can play football again.
Anyway, guess i'll stop here.
Until then..
First things first.
It’s been quite a while since I had a proper entry in this blog. But since when do I blog properly. I find this place as messy as my table, well, at least they have labels on them. I don’t find a lot of footprints in here, nor do I blog for an audience. Honestly, I did thought of being like Kenny Sia and all. Guess that’s just not me. As when I blog, they are just words. It will definitely hurt your eyes.
Anyhow, I just came back from KL for the semester break, back home to Penang, after a refreshing third semester of my Two Year, 6 Semester Diploma Course. It’s great to be back, of course home is the best place in the world. The down side? Only for one week. I have to be back by May the 14th, because of my involvement in the orientation week for the 2007 Tar College May Intake or Freshies. That’s what they called us when we were here a year ago.
Come to think of it, one week isn’t that bad. It seems that when I come back to
Though I guess catching up won’t be a problem now because I’d be heading to a reunion dinner for the class of 2005 in
Everytime I come back here, my dog has to give me a headache. The first two semester, she ran away and got herself another dog stuck to her. And she also bit my slippers. Twice. This semester, I wasn’t expecting anything because I thought she would be good for once. And then it happen, she chew on my sneaks. My adidas white sneaks which I seldom wear because it was too precious. I want to shout and scream and but sadly, she chewed already. What can I say, as much as I want to scream my head off.
I was studying my ass off, well, that would be just a metaphor, but I did tried to study my ass off for this two papers, Web Page design and Tamadun Islam dan Asia. As much as I love Hiro Nakamura, I do like history, just the interesting ones. Well, most of them are because of it’s in BM. It seriously does bores the hell out of me. So MTV had to be so kind, because it’s my birthday month, they decided to award me with four tickets to watch Good Charlotte Live. I love you for that.
It was on a Saturday and I went to Bukit Jalil Stadium straight away after my Exam with Theng, Wallace and Shoon. The concert was great, it was good, no, it was fantastic! Although we did have some complications that includes moving around in a crowd that have no interest in listening to the music. That just might have spoilt the mood.
Moving on, here are some personal reflection moments. Coming back here just makes me feel, how to you put it, responsible. As I had been living on my own, where every decision I make is my own damn problem and I will have to deal with it if it goes wrong. I feel that, I am going to be taking care of my family when I am able to support myself, get a job and all. Because my parents are getting older, still working to support the family, to support my education. And business just isn’t looking good. I have a cute and adorable sister, who is somehow a rebel, whom keep things to herself. She’s a good girl, but I’m afraid she’s mixing with the wrong group of friends, too much exposure. I just feel more responsible as I’m the eldest in the family. That it is part of what I should do. I hope that’s a good thing. Just the process of growing up. I guess I’ve really changed a lot from who I am last time. Though I may still be an idiot.
Feelings, feelings and more feelings. Sad, happy, angry, emotional, it’s part of life. This is the part where I should be thankful of what I have but I’ll just skip that.
Been watching Grey’s Anatomy, It’s really a great show. Top on my list, together with Scrubs, Heroes, Lost and Of course, Supernatural. That’s what I do now, lie down and watch series, like a pig. Sadly, no wonder Theng calls me a donkey, and also a pig.
I’ve been up and I’ve been down, I’ve even lost control of myself for the past two months, for a minute i find myself like a total failure. Someone said that you make your own decision, you shape your future, you decide your life. I guess that person is partly right and also wrong, because we won’t know what will happen in the future. I think god is testing us, so that we can make the right decision, and if we fall, we pick ourselves up and take it as an experience.
I think that will be the effect of watching too much Grey’s Anatomy, I am narrating my own life. Like Meredith or in Scrubs, like J.D.
Ok, enough crapping. I’m late, gotta fetch my sis from School.
Try to update soon.
Until then.
Yea, thats about it. Thanks to those who remembered.
Sad though. Not many remember.
Well, as long as this few people remember,
1. Sis *will tell dad and mum*
2. Baby
3. Housemates
or i'd be miserable.
I'm 19 ! Yay ! or should i go, yay......
I'd be looking forward to the year. =)
Dates
April 4-Chester Bennington From Linkin Park @KLCC Tower Records
April 7- Hitz.FM 10th Birthday Bash
April 8-Kanye West "Touch The Sky" Tour
April 9-Day i get my exam result
April 21-Good Charlotte Live in KL !!!
I'll be attending the birthday bash to support my favourite radio station! I've been listening to Hitz.fm for a very long time now i'm turning 19 and they are turning 10 ! WooTs
I'm gonna skip Kanye West, sadly.. Cause i'm going for Good Charlotte !!! Love their new album, Good Morning Revival.
Well i'm only into two songs from the album right now, Misery and The River.
I'm hoping Relient K would drop by, but it would be impossible. I don't see a Relient K fan base in Malaysia. Sadly.
Relient K is one hell of a band, though music critics consider them poppy instead of punk. They are actually a christian band. *I couldn't believe either*. Well anyway, they just released Five Score And Seven Years Ago. Different people have different taste.
Another Album to be expect would be Linkin Park's Minutes To Midnight. I've already heard what i've done , the first single on YouTube. I think it's only the demo. I don't want to be disappointed. I'm heading over to KLCC to catch Chester though. Wonder what is he doing here anyway.
Life's great. Well, there are a lot of happenings, which somehow i couldn't avoid, or maybe caused by me myself. But everything just slowly patch into one piece at the end, and i just am so grateful.
Until then..
Real Name: Mikhail Blaxon
Age: Unknown
Occupation: Voice in the Night
Personality: Mikhail was an aspiring singer whose dream was to become the idol of millions through a popular reality show. However, the judges deemed him unworthy, saying that he was "untalented", "horrible" and "utter crap". In a fit of rage he attacked them with a microphone, getting himself electrocuted in the process. Although his body died, his voice lived on to torment his detractors with awful renditions of that Titanic song and a veritable "Best Of" list of teenage boy band hits.
Likes: Singing (badly), haunting showers, elevators and audition halls
Dislikes: Reality TV show judges, reality TV show winners, SMS
Tagline: “You’re here, there’s nothing I fear…”
That's the Diablo Spectrum SE Skin i got for My Nano. =)
Things been really busy and will get busier. I'm indecisive. Should i or shouldn't. It's a big sacrifice. Can i ? My time, my semester break. Is this my moment ? Maybe not so serious. Well elaborate later.
Until Then
I love driving, fast. I love long stretches of highway. But i hate traffic jams, especially the ones on Federal Highway. It totally sucks. When i'm not in the mood, i just feel like driving around, alone, in silence, while during normal times, i like to drive fast, alone too. When fetching my friends or family, i drive safely. I tend to sometimes drive dangerously, but, i love speed. Still, i dare not push the limit.
I think it applies in my style of managing my life. I love to go fast, but i dare not go too fast. I'm dare not take the risk. I'm like to take a safe route, i need an assurance to go fast. Sometimes, this tends to stop me from doing the things that i want. Come to think of it, sometimes it's a good thing also. At least i think twice about the cause and effects and the people i will affect.
I'm almost 19 and the world just open wide. To a different perspective on everything.
Will things work out the way you want it to ? Will something you put your heart in it be a disappointment ? This is all part of what we have to go through in life, ups and downs, thick and thins.
Anyhow, i still love to drive fast.
You know what, i had enough. I had been patience with you, took every word you said, swallowed them and not complaining, i've given in to you, your fucking attitude, even though i did complain but i've never not treat you as a friend. I've done my best to make everyone happy, but i know i can't. For all those shit you have given me, for all these years, priceless.
Thanks For Everything.
Few more days, i'd be leaving home, few more days, i'd be getting my result, few more days, i'd be bored to death.
Haven't been anywhere out. Tomorrow heading to penang to meet Jennifer from Ipoh, then head to Auto City at night to meet Eugene and Wern Chien. It's been a while since i've contacted them.
A part of me is eager to head back but another wants to stay back. Maybe i need to be a little more independent. I've always been a mama's boy, i'd obey everything my parents say, well except for the fact that study comes first and girlfriend later. But i do take my studies seriously, i know how to manage my time. Maybe sometimes i will get carried away but i still know how to get back on track.
I'm gonna be 19 this year. By next year, i can be considered as an adult already, 20 years on earth. I don't have a list of what i must do before i reach 30. I need to make one. LoL.
Life's been great, sometimes, i'm still stuck in my teenage years, still being a kid, attitude also like a kid. Do things make decision also like a kid. I need to leave that behind, and start being an adult, i'm not small anymore. I know that. It's just being a kid is much more easier than having to know that you have a lot of responsibilities.
I think i watch too much of Ah Wong. But he also know how to think what.
Well, i hope that, this year, i may be more mature.
Oh yea, i wanna lose weight, any diet plan suggestion ?
Until then
Baby it's hard, but we gotta stay strong.
Baby it's tough, but we gotta keep going on.
I know how it feels, but think of the bright side.
Theng's feeling homesick, she's leaving for KL tomorrow.
I just got back from Auto City not long ago, was in Bed with Radiance, Shoon , Hun and a bunch of friends, mostly seniors.
Bed is a place, not a bed.
Update later, sleepy.
i know baby, three's the number for the month. =)
Umm, i shall not take back what i said. Day's just fine. It is fine, it's utter mostly great, it's fantastic, but it seems like i have PMS.
LOOK, i'm a guy.
What the fuck is PMS messing around with me ? KennySia states that PMS also means Poor Man Suffering.
I hate mood swings, at first you are in good mood, and then Poof, you just get so emo that you want everyone beside you to disappear.
Worst is when you are with your love ones, and they have to eat it up to just be patient with you.
Lagi worst if it ends up in an argument.
Fish Fingers.
Sometimes, i just hate myself, for ruining the moment, for being a overly sensitive jerk, for being a moron, for being a not considerate person, for being everything single fucking thing that i'm not.
and i can't stop it.
It's the first day of chinese new year.
Woke up at 9, mass was at 10.30am. As usual, i didn't prepare what to wear on the first day. Ended up unpacking everything i have. Finally settled myself in a white tee, jeans and white sneaks. The usual me. Went to church and then followed on to my grandfather's place, which is my dad's side of the family.
The best part is still about getting ang pows. It was a merry sight. Except for my aunt, she doesn't look that cheerful. It's the first time we are celebrating New Year without my uncle. He passed last year. Life goes on.
Had steamboat for lunch, again. Chatted a while and i was called to the table by my relatives. We started gambling. It's actually my first time gambling during new year. Dad used to object me gambling. Shooed me away when i got near the table. *lol*.
Went home after a while and took a rest. Went to my grandma's place at night for dinner, which is my mom's side of the family. Steamboat again. Couldn't take more. It's a more quiet atmosphere at my grandma's place. We usually just eat and talk and watch TV cause it's quite a small family.
New Year = Ang Pow + Steamboat x Weight Gain + family get together.
Now that's fun.
The almost all of my new year. Nothing much to do after the first day. Having steamboat *AGAIN* at home tomorrow. Visiting on Wednesday. Tuesday a free day. It's quite a quiet new year this year.
Darn tired, going to sleep soon. Dear's at her grandma's place. Busy cannot message her.
Until then.
Ah Beng And Ah Lian
from wikipedia
Ah Beng is a term commonly given to a member of a group of young Chinese men in Southeast Asia, particularly Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese men, whose age ranging from their early teens to late 20s, usually centralise in the busier and more developed cities in the region, but are usually seen as originating from smaller or more rural towns. Ah bengs typically speak local slang, which is Hokkien or Cantonese mixed with English and Malay, such as Manglish or Singlish. They are often stereotypically portrayed to be anti-intellectual, superficial and materialistic and shallow. These values often lead to a lack of culture or indulgence in criminal activity or being involved in brawling or affray out of disagreement with other people. Ah bengs are also sometimes associated with extensively-modified or zhng-ed cars, and are stereotypically seen as being excessively flashy and show-offs.
The term 'Ah Beng' is also sometimes used to describe young Chinese men in Southeast Asia who cannot speak fluent English and/or have graduated from the secular Chinese education system of the region.
Ah Lian is a pejorative term commonly given to a certain group of young Chinese girls in Southeast Asia, especially Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese girls, whose age ranging from their adolescent years to late 20s, usually centralised in the busier and more developed cities in the region. They are regarded as bimbos, and are stereotyped as anti-intellectual, superficial, materialistic, and shallow. Ah Lians are commonly stereotyped as having hair dyed in gaudy and bright colours, and attired in fashion mimicking hip-hop culture, although how much of this is true is debatable. Since their male counterpart is the Ah Beng, Ah Lians are also thought of as being excessively flashy and show-offs.
The Ah Lian "culture" is especially prevalent in the secular Chinese educational system schools, typified by their frequent use of vulgarities and appearance in cliques (joined by their male counter parts Ah Bengs).
Ah Lians commonly speak in a kind of hybrid mix of Singlish or Manglish and Chinese, or Chinese-related dialects. It is also common for the grammar from these dialects to cross over English usage, creating English phrases with Chinese grammar.
Love, is a mystery, it can't be explained, though scientifically the feeling is caused by a chemical release by the brain.
If you were to ask a person why do you love your girlfriend/boyfriend, there will always be this line - love is blind, love cannot be explain, it's unpredictable.
True.
If you were to love that person so much that you miss them day and night, everything is just not right when they are not around, something seems amiss when you're alone. Is it true that you really love that person ? Or just the presence of someone beside you.
Love is a two way communication. If one breaks down, the other will follow. But how is it that you think you really understand your partner? Do they open up to you ? Or do they just say nothing.
Isn't understanding about knowing that person deep inside, how they feel about something. We are not super humans, it's hard to know everything about a person. It takes time.
I want a simple love, but i have been making it complicated.
Today, i know, what i really want, after so much thought.
I'm glad, i have faith, i trust, i'm positive.
Anyway, being completely sane after being insane, i'm back on track.
It took me a while to find myself. I was stuck with this crap for quite a while, a case of "the haunting" from the past, instead, i turned into the past.
Today's a Thursday ! And that means ? Nothing.
I'm so bloody bored. I think i can just choke myself and not die.
I shall continue playing Pokemon Emerald, until then...
I'm back home for the semester break. Left KL at about 2 in the morning, reached home at about 6 plus. My dog ran away again, just lke last semester break, but this time managed to catch her before some sick dog got close to her.
It's Good to be home, finally i could just take a break from everything. No more assignments, exams, nothing, for three bloody weeks. Sounds short, but when you tell working people, they will go " Wow, students very lucky eh, break for so long." I agree though, i'm starting to get bored already. Nest week is Chinese New Year, where i'll be waiting for my ang pows. I shall show up at everybody's door step, beware.
Yesterday was me and theng's valentines day. We went out for a movie, watched Epic Movie, as stupid as it is, it's entertaining. Epic, as the movie says. Not quite a movie to watch on Valentine's huh. We went to the beach at night, watched the clouds, there were no freaking stars! I expected to see more stars here than in KL, instead i was greeted with clouds. Still, we just walked by the beach, enjoy the breeze. She made me a photo frame, a picture of us together from our trip to Genting during Xmas last year. Time flies when i'm with my baby. I just wished time could slow down a little bit. Good things comes too slow, goes too fast. Bad things comes in a blink of an eye, but goes away too slow.
Does anyone think i should see a doctor ? cause i have a sickness call thinking-too-much.
Well, until then, Happy Valentine's Day everyone.
Just a quick post, i'm part lazy to blog and i'm having exams now. Two more papers to go, programming and calculus, both my worst nightmare. One more week to penang. I'm going back home ! Back home to my family, to my baby, to my dear !
Oh ? who's my baby ? She's my new car !
Dear don't be jealous, i still do love you. *grins*
Exam is around the corner *runs around*
I'm so lazy to study even though i'm studying, it's just so depressing to study business and programming together.
This semester my goal is to achieve a 3.5 in GPA. I doubt.
My subjects : Economics, Principles in Information System, Programming, Calculus and Algebra, English and Bahasa Malaysia.
Two more weeks to go and i'm banking on lots of vitamins to keep me awake so i can finish like 30 chapters of economics, PIS, calculus and algebra and programming.
I've been thinking too much lately. At times my confidence is so low that anything would just happen. I hate it when i start to wonder and wonder.
I know it's because i'm afraid of making the same mistakes and losing someone again. I'm feeling insecure, because i don't wanna lose her..it's all inside my head.
I'm afraid that the little wierd things i do, or maybe a something i done wrong accidentally, will spoil everything. I try very hard not to disappoint her, cause i don't want to.
By feeling this way, i'm just turning into what i was last time, i'm making the same mistake, of thinking too much.
By trying not to do wrong, i tried too hard.
We are not perfect, but i'm trying to be, i want everything to be right for her. It made me paranoid.
The mind is a weapon, dangerously wise. It can help you, or it can destroy you.
But her words held me, stopped my mind from wondering, telling me everything is alright. A vortex brought all my wandering thoughts back into one piece. I love her, she loves me. I felt her warmth, the comfort. That's all that matters.
My mind is a super massive black hole. She tames it with one stroke. Amazing eh ?
As radiance demanded a new dedication.
Here goes, err, jie, hi, in this new year, i hope that everything will go well for you, and we will have much more to talk about. And..it's not depressing. *LoL*
I'm gonna study hard.. but action speaks louder than words. I will not procrastinate anymore. It's one of my new year resolutions.
Alright i'm gone..to bed.
