Long Long One.

It’s been quite a while since I had a proper entry in this blog. But since when do I blog properly. I find this place as messy as my table, well, at least they have labels on them. I don’t find a lot of footprints in here, nor do I blog for an audience. Honestly, I did thought of being like Kenny Sia and all. Guess that’s just not me. As when I blog, they are just words. It will definitely hurt your eyes.

Anyhow, I just came back from KL for the semester break, back home to Penang, after a refreshing third semester of my Two Year, 6 Semester Diploma Course. It’s great to be back, of course home is the best place in the world. The down side? Only for one week. I have to be back by May the 14^th, because of my involvement in the orientation week for the 2007 Tar College May Intake or Freshies. That’s what they called us when we were here a year ago.

Come to think of it, one week isn’t that bad. It seems that when I come back to Penang, I am usually stuck at home. For some reasons, I don’t seem to have friends to hang out with. Well, the people I usually hang out with here sleep next door back in KL. So, I practically need to see some fresh but familiar faces. It’s either me, wait, I shall rephrase that. It’s me that’s being the lazy ass for not catching up with my friends. Maybe it’s because we’ve moved away to a new environment, meeting new people, that we don’t really have the time to catch up, or the friendship isn’t there, and we lose contact. Sigh. But still, thanks for the memories.

Though I guess catching up won’t be a problem now because I’d be heading to a reunion dinner for the class of 2005 in Penang.

Everytime I come back here, my dog has to give me a headache. The first two semester, she ran away and got herself another dog stuck to her. And she also bit my slippers. Twice. This semester, I wasn’t expecting anything because I thought she would be good for once. And then it happen, she chew on my sneaks. My adidas white sneaks which I seldom wear because it was too precious. I want to shout and scream and but sadly, she chewed already. What can I say, as much as I want to scream my head off.

I was studying my ass off, well, that would be just a metaphor, but I did tried to study my ass off for this two papers, Web Page design and Tamadun Islam dan Asia. As much as I love Hiro Nakamura, I do like history, just the interesting ones. Well, most of them are because of it’s in BM. It seriously does bores the hell out of me. So MTV had to be so kind, because it’s my birthday month, they decided to award me with four tickets to watch Good Charlotte Live. I love you for that.

It was on a Saturday and I went to Bukit Jalil Stadium straight away after my Exam with Theng, Wallace and Shoon. The concert was great, it was good, no, it was fantastic! Although we did have some complications that includes moving around in a crowd that have no interest in listening to the music. That just might have spoilt the mood.

Moving on, here are some personal reflection moments. Coming back here just makes me feel, how to you put it, responsible. As I had been living on my own, where every decision I make is my own damn problem and I will have to deal with it if it goes wrong. I feel that, I am going to be taking care of my family when I am able to support myself, get a job and all. Because my parents are getting older, still working to support the family, to support my education. And business just isn’t looking good. I have a cute and adorable sister, who is somehow a rebel, whom keep things to herself. She’s a good girl, but I’m afraid she’s mixing with the wrong group of friends, too much exposure. I just feel more responsible as I’m the eldest in the family. That it is part of what I should do. I hope that’s a good thing. Just the process of growing up. I guess I’ve really changed a lot from who I am last time. Though I may still be an idiot.

Feelings, feelings and more feelings. Sad, happy, angry, emotional, it’s part of life. This is the part where I should be thankful of what I have but I’ll just skip that.

Been watching Grey’s Anatomy, It’s really a great show. Top on my list, together with Scrubs, Heroes, Lost and Of course, Supernatural. That’s what I do now, lie down and watch series, like a pig. Sadly, no wonder Theng calls me a donkey, and also a pig.

I’ve been up and I’ve been down, I’ve even lost control of myself for the past two months, for a minute i find myself like a total failure. Someone said that you make your own decision, you shape your future, you decide your life. I guess that person is partly right and also wrong, because we won’t know what will happen in the future. I think god is testing us, so that we can make the right decision, and if we fall, we pick ourselves up and take it as an experience.

I think that will be the effect of watching too much Grey’s Anatomy, I am narrating my own life. Like Meredith or in Scrubs, like J.D.

Ok, enough crapping. I’m late, gotta fetch my sis from School.

Try to update soon.

Until then.