How To Save A Life..

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

I wished The Fray would come to Malaysia....*prays hard*

shattered...

Not really shattered but yea, almost.

I tried playing football today, but i can't run, i tried, i only could hop around and walk and maybe a light jog. It's just so fucked up to see myself like that, when others could move their leg swiftly. It's been a month since i hurt my leg, to be precise, my left knee. It hasn't heal yet. I could walk without problems, but when i start running, my knee just could not take it.


Cisse Breaking A Leg

It's sad and frustrating to not be able to do what you like, now i know how it feels like to be semi-disabled. Though it already feels like i'm disabled. I'm lucky not to have the condition worsen, come to think of it, the doctor said it was just a pull at the ligament, i haven't see any specialist though.

Anyhow, attended a few lectures. Umm, all lectures actually, because attendance are now taken which is actually the result of last semester's poor attendance. That wasn't as bad as our classes are some how reshuffle which resulted in me moving up from group 5 to 4. But poor poor Jeremy went up to group 2. What totally pissed me off is i'm unable to change it. According to the head of school, it's the administration orders. I say shit.

I'm taking 5 subjects this semester which includes

Data Communication,
Probability and Statistics,
Database,
Analysis and Design of Information System
and Introduction to Object Oriented Programming.

I'm learning Java this semester. *Yay!* Which reminds me, i haven't touched C++ since semester 2. Another thing, i have 3 program supervisor and a senior lecturer teaching me. It's definitely a good thing, but they are strict like hell, they are like the jackals or the elite squad or S.W.A.T, May i live through this semester.

According to theng, i'm girly flower flower, or emo these few days. Proof ? I've been repeating Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie and 4 In The Morning by Gwen Stefani over and over again, check my msn and you will see.

That's not me ! I listen to Fall Out Boy, Bullet For My Valentine, My Chemical Romance, Sugarcult, The Fray, Incubus! Not girly girly songs! At this moment, Theng is gonna say i patronize female singers. I have nothing against them, hell, i have nothing against Mika either. I just don't really enjoy the PoP genre anymore. Or maybe i do but i'm just in denial. *hums to grace kelly*

And yea, i'm fat.

Someone Poke Me!

I've been eating and eating and sleeping because my of my injured leg. That makes me fat like a tortoise shell or Hurley from lost. =/

Speaking bout series.

NO MORE HEROES !!! HOW COULD THEY !?? I mean, do it quick, don't make us wait, we wanna see what happens after the explosion and i don't want Nathan to die nor DL or Parkman. Sad. SUPERNATURAL ALSO FINISH ! LOST HAVE TO WAIT DON'T KNOW HOW MANY FREAKING MONTHS BEFORE SEASON 4 COMES OUT. Damn you producers, as you make money and make us suffer.

Moody, but alright.

I'm stopping here.

Until then.

Makes Me Wonder..

I've been back to KL since last week, 14 of May. Been going to College almost everyday for setting up and rehearsal of Mass Call. It's been a tiring week and tomorrow would be the real day. Time actually pass quite fast, on the other hand i was complaining that time is passing too slow because i miss theng a lot. Come to think of it, it's quite fast also.

So, Manchester United failed to secure the FA cup after a 1-0 lost to Chelsea in extra time. I don't have anything to say. After putting high hopes on Manchester United, they bound to lose. While when you don't concentrate on them, they will win with a brace of goals. People say it's because of the game itself is already polluted by bookies and bets.

Paused.

And Here i am, after two weeks, continuing this post.

I've been busy. Mass Call was a great experience. It's fun and i really enjoy it except for the part where we had to stand for a very long time.

Tomorrow would be the first day of my second year or fourth semester. Kinda fast actually.

Me and Theng had been together for 6 months already. and she made me this..



A Card with mind blowing words *=P* and cookies shaped like Noel. Well, plus load more of cookies which left me craving for more. Yum Yummy. Love ya baby. =)

Time flies, when i look at the freshies that attended mass call, they remind me of myself when i first step into college one year ago. Everything was new and different. Can't believe it's been a year. Sometimes i still wonder if i took the right course, how would my future be.

I still haven't watch Pirates Of The Caribbean. Heard it's good, much better than Spidey3. Headed to Times Square with Theng on sat to watch but it was SOLD OUT, THE WHOLE DAY. Because of Wu Chun, a chinese actor or something which i have no interest in. Times Square was flooded.

My leg isn't healed yet, i wonder when i can play football again.

Anyway, guess i'll stop here.

Until then..

Another Day..

First things first.

All Hail The Newly Crowned Premiership Champions !!

Manchester United!!

Yes, Manchester United takes the crown with an 7 point lead over Chelsea with two games left, which makes it impossible to catch up anymore.

Back to reality, i'm bored to hell, i can't play football because my knee still hurt which is because--

Once upon a time, i was playing futsal, as i was imagining myself being Zidane, i turned and my knee did not follow, and it went crack.

It haven't recover fully yet till now. Sigh.

The remake of the omen is boring. I nearly slept through it. Well, i slept and continue the next morning. Which also does not surprise me.

Discovered Secondhand Serenade on TRL, all acoustic songs. Damn nice. The single is called vulnerable. They sound a little like Dashboard Confessional. Emo kind. And most of their songs have a phrase - "I was born to tell you that i love you". That's kinda cheesy. LoL

Talking bout Dashboard Confessional, i love their new single, stolen. It's playing in my head. Well, Grace Kelly by Mika is also running around in my head, for some reason. -_-

Is there anything that will make you not feel like listening to music at all ? because music is like life, but there are times that you won't feel like listening to music at all. I wonder

I'm just gonna think about what to do. =)

until then..

Long Long One.

It’s been quite a while since I had a proper entry in this blog. But since when do I blog properly. I find this place as messy as my table, well, at least they have labels on them. I don’t find a lot of footprints in here, nor do I blog for an audience. Honestly, I did thought of being like Kenny Sia and all. Guess that’s just not me. As when I blog, they are just words. It will definitely hurt your eyes.

Anyhow, I just came back from KL for the semester break, back home to Penang, after a refreshing third semester of my Two Year, 6 Semester Diploma Course. It’s great to be back, of course home is the best place in the world. The down side? Only for one week. I have to be back by May the 14^th, because of my involvement in the orientation week for the 2007 Tar College May Intake or Freshies. That’s what they called us when we were here a year ago.

Come to think of it, one week isn’t that bad. It seems that when I come back to Penang, I am usually stuck at home. For some reasons, I don’t seem to have friends to hang out with. Well, the people I usually hang out with here sleep next door back in KL. So, I practically need to see some fresh but familiar faces. It’s either me, wait, I shall rephrase that. It’s me that’s being the lazy ass for not catching up with my friends. Maybe it’s because we’ve moved away to a new environment, meeting new people, that we don’t really have the time to catch up, or the friendship isn’t there, and we lose contact. Sigh. But still, thanks for the memories.

Though I guess catching up won’t be a problem now because I’d be heading to a reunion dinner for the class of 2005 in Penang.

Everytime I come back here, my dog has to give me a headache. The first two semester, she ran away and got herself another dog stuck to her. And she also bit my slippers. Twice. This semester, I wasn’t expecting anything because I thought she would be good for once. And then it happen, she chew on my sneaks. My adidas white sneaks which I seldom wear because it was too precious. I want to shout and scream and but sadly, she chewed already. What can I say, as much as I want to scream my head off.

I was studying my ass off, well, that would be just a metaphor, but I did tried to study my ass off for this two papers, Web Page design and Tamadun Islam dan Asia. As much as I love Hiro Nakamura, I do like history, just the interesting ones. Well, most of them are because of it’s in BM. It seriously does bores the hell out of me. So MTV had to be so kind, because it’s my birthday month, they decided to award me with four tickets to watch Good Charlotte Live. I love you for that.

It was on a Saturday and I went to Bukit Jalil Stadium straight away after my Exam with Theng, Wallace and Shoon. The concert was great, it was good, no, it was fantastic! Although we did have some complications that includes moving around in a crowd that have no interest in listening to the music. That just might have spoilt the mood.

Moving on, here are some personal reflection moments. Coming back here just makes me feel, how to you put it, responsible. As I had been living on my own, where every decision I make is my own damn problem and I will have to deal with it if it goes wrong. I feel that, I am going to be taking care of my family when I am able to support myself, get a job and all. Because my parents are getting older, still working to support the family, to support my education. And business just isn’t looking good. I have a cute and adorable sister, who is somehow a rebel, whom keep things to herself. She’s a good girl, but I’m afraid she’s mixing with the wrong group of friends, too much exposure. I just feel more responsible as I’m the eldest in the family. That it is part of what I should do. I hope that’s a good thing. Just the process of growing up. I guess I’ve really changed a lot from who I am last time. Though I may still be an idiot.

Feelings, feelings and more feelings. Sad, happy, angry, emotional, it’s part of life. This is the part where I should be thankful of what I have but I’ll just skip that.

Been watching Grey’s Anatomy, It’s really a great show. Top on my list, together with Scrubs, Heroes, Lost and Of course, Supernatural. That’s what I do now, lie down and watch series, like a pig. Sadly, no wonder Theng calls me a donkey, and also a pig.

I’ve been up and I’ve been down, I’ve even lost control of myself for the past two months, for a minute i find myself like a total failure. Someone said that you make your own decision, you shape your future, you decide your life. I guess that person is partly right and also wrong, because we won’t know what will happen in the future. I think god is testing us, so that we can make the right decision, and if we fall, we pick ourselves up and take it as an experience.

I think that will be the effect of watching too much Grey’s Anatomy, I am narrating my own life. Like Meredith or in Scrubs, like J.D.

Ok, enough crapping. I’m late, gotta fetch my sis from School.

Try to update soon.

Until then.