I was lazy

Yea folks, I was lazy. For the past few months, I have been doing nothing, slacking away even if there was some important things to do that can benefit me. I did nothing because of laziness. Is this the so call phase in life where we just want everything to stop and live like a nomad? Being unaware of anything and everything that's happening around? Is this where we draw the line? Where we say enough? I think this blog is the only place where I could keep my sanity in check. Sometimes there are things I would like to voice out but I just can't. I tend to vent those feelings in a way that you might deem that I should go see a psychiatrist. I could end up being the Joker if I want to.

I'm actually a very dark person, IMO. I believe that I might have split personalities. Or that could be caused by watching inception. The only way I could save myself is for me to actually safe myself. Sometimes I'm a TONA (Talk only no action). That's a short form my friends came up with. I should start to be motivated and actually do something to wake me up from this slumber.

Starting from next week, I would probably start working. A new chapter in my life. Although It wasn't really what I hoped for, I believe that it happened for a reason. I have always see myself as an average person. However, seeing myself achieve during my college years have push my confidence up. Now when I step into the new world, I was beat down, denied. It's good to have all these so that it make me realize that I'm not perfect, and there is definitely room for improvement. That would be the thing that will keep me in check. For there is always something better out there for you. And there will always be competition so that will be the juice that keeps me moving on and on.

I'll stop rambling for now. Welcome to my world.