Real Name: Mikhail Blaxon
Age: Unknown
Occupation: Voice in the Night
Personality: Mikhail was an aspiring singer whose dream was to become the idol of millions through a popular reality show. However, the judges deemed him unworthy, saying that he was "untalented", "horrible" and "utter crap". In a fit of rage he attacked them with a microphone, getting himself electrocuted in the process. Although his body died, his voice lived on to torment his detractors with awful renditions of that Titanic song and a veritable "Best Of" list of teenage boy band hits.
Likes: Singing (badly), haunting showers, elevators and audition halls
Dislikes: Reality TV show judges, reality TV show winners, SMS
Tagline: “You’re here, there’s nothing I fear…”
That's the Diablo Spectrum SE Skin i got for My Nano. =)
Things been really busy and will get busier. I'm indecisive. Should i or shouldn't. It's a big sacrifice. Can i ? My time, my semester break. Is this my moment ? Maybe not so serious. Well elaborate later.
Until Then
I love driving, fast. I love long stretches of highway. But i hate traffic jams, especially the ones on Federal Highway. It totally sucks. When i'm not in the mood, i just feel like driving around, alone, in silence, while during normal times, i like to drive fast, alone too. When fetching my friends or family, i drive safely. I tend to sometimes drive dangerously, but, i love speed. Still, i dare not push the limit.
I think it applies in my style of managing my life. I love to go fast, but i dare not go too fast. I'm dare not take the risk. I'm like to take a safe route, i need an assurance to go fast. Sometimes, this tends to stop me from doing the things that i want. Come to think of it, sometimes it's a good thing also. At least i think twice about the cause and effects and the people i will affect.
I'm almost 19 and the world just open wide. To a different perspective on everything.
Will things work out the way you want it to ? Will something you put your heart in it be a disappointment ? This is all part of what we have to go through in life, ups and downs, thick and thins.
Anyhow, i still love to drive fast.
You know what, i had enough. I had been patience with you, took every word you said, swallowed them and not complaining, i've given in to you, your fucking attitude, even though i did complain but i've never not treat you as a friend. I've done my best to make everyone happy, but i know i can't. For all those shit you have given me, for all these years, priceless.
Thanks For Everything.
Few more days, i'd be leaving home, few more days, i'd be getting my result, few more days, i'd be bored to death.
Haven't been anywhere out. Tomorrow heading to penang to meet Jennifer from Ipoh, then head to Auto City at night to meet Eugene and Wern Chien. It's been a while since i've contacted them.
A part of me is eager to head back but another wants to stay back. Maybe i need to be a little more independent. I've always been a mama's boy, i'd obey everything my parents say, well except for the fact that study comes first and girlfriend later. But i do take my studies seriously, i know how to manage my time. Maybe sometimes i will get carried away but i still know how to get back on track.
I'm gonna be 19 this year. By next year, i can be considered as an adult already, 20 years on earth. I don't have a list of what i must do before i reach 30. I need to make one. LoL.
Life's been great, sometimes, i'm still stuck in my teenage years, still being a kid, attitude also like a kid. Do things make decision also like a kid. I need to leave that behind, and start being an adult, i'm not small anymore. I know that. It's just being a kid is much more easier than having to know that you have a lot of responsibilities.
I think i watch too much of Ah Wong. But he also know how to think what.
Well, i hope that, this year, i may be more mature.
Oh yea, i wanna lose weight, any diet plan suggestion ?
Until then
Baby it's hard, but we gotta stay strong.
Baby it's tough, but we gotta keep going on.
I know how it feels, but think of the bright side.
Theng's feeling homesick, she's leaving for KL tomorrow.
I just got back from Auto City not long ago, was in Bed with Radiance, Shoon , Hun and a bunch of friends, mostly seniors.
Bed is a place, not a bed.
Update later, sleepy.
i know baby, three's the number for the month. =)
Umm, i shall not take back what i said. Day's just fine. It is fine, it's utter mostly great, it's fantastic, but it seems like i have PMS.
LOOK, i'm a guy.
What the fuck is PMS messing around with me ? KennySia states that PMS also means Poor Man Suffering.
I hate mood swings, at first you are in good mood, and then Poof, you just get so emo that you want everyone beside you to disappear.
Worst is when you are with your love ones, and they have to eat it up to just be patient with you.
Lagi worst if it ends up in an argument.
Fish Fingers.
Sometimes, i just hate myself, for ruining the moment, for being a overly sensitive jerk, for being a moron, for being a not considerate person, for being everything single fucking thing that i'm not.
and i can't stop it.
It's the first day of chinese new year.
Woke up at 9, mass was at 10.30am. As usual, i didn't prepare what to wear on the first day. Ended up unpacking everything i have. Finally settled myself in a white tee, jeans and white sneaks. The usual me. Went to church and then followed on to my grandfather's place, which is my dad's side of the family.
The best part is still about getting ang pows. It was a merry sight. Except for my aunt, she doesn't look that cheerful. It's the first time we are celebrating New Year without my uncle. He passed last year. Life goes on.
Had steamboat for lunch, again. Chatted a while and i was called to the table by my relatives. We started gambling. It's actually my first time gambling during new year. Dad used to object me gambling. Shooed me away when i got near the table. *lol*.
Went home after a while and took a rest. Went to my grandma's place at night for dinner, which is my mom's side of the family. Steamboat again. Couldn't take more. It's a more quiet atmosphere at my grandma's place. We usually just eat and talk and watch TV cause it's quite a small family.
New Year = Ang Pow + Steamboat x Weight Gain + family get together.
Now that's fun.
The almost all of my new year. Nothing much to do after the first day. Having steamboat *AGAIN* at home tomorrow. Visiting on Wednesday. Tuesday a free day. It's quite a quiet new year this year.
Darn tired, going to sleep soon. Dear's at her grandma's place. Busy cannot message her.
Until then.
Ah Beng And Ah Lian
from wikipedia
Ah Beng is a term commonly given to a member of a group of young Chinese men in Southeast Asia, particularly Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese men, whose age ranging from their early teens to late 20s, usually centralise in the busier and more developed cities in the region, but are usually seen as originating from smaller or more rural towns. Ah bengs typically speak local slang, which is Hokkien or Cantonese mixed with English and Malay, such as Manglish or Singlish. They are often stereotypically portrayed to be anti-intellectual, superficial and materialistic and shallow. These values often lead to a lack of culture or indulgence in criminal activity or being involved in brawling or affray out of disagreement with other people. Ah bengs are also sometimes associated with extensively-modified or zhng-ed cars, and are stereotypically seen as being excessively flashy and show-offs.
The term 'Ah Beng' is also sometimes used to describe young Chinese men in Southeast Asia who cannot speak fluent English and/or have graduated from the secular Chinese education system of the region.
Ah Lian is a pejorative term commonly given to a certain group of young Chinese girls in Southeast Asia, especially Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese girls, whose age ranging from their adolescent years to late 20s, usually centralised in the busier and more developed cities in the region. They are regarded as bimbos, and are stereotyped as anti-intellectual, superficial, materialistic, and shallow. Ah Lians are commonly stereotyped as having hair dyed in gaudy and bright colours, and attired in fashion mimicking hip-hop culture, although how much of this is true is debatable. Since their male counterpart is the Ah Beng, Ah Lians are also thought of as being excessively flashy and show-offs.
The Ah Lian "culture" is especially prevalent in the secular Chinese educational system schools, typified by their frequent use of vulgarities and appearance in cliques (joined by their male counter parts Ah Bengs).
Ah Lians commonly speak in a kind of hybrid mix of Singlish or Manglish and Chinese, or Chinese-related dialects. It is also common for the grammar from these dialects to cross over English usage, creating English phrases with Chinese grammar.
Love, is a mystery, it can't be explained, though scientifically the feeling is caused by a chemical release by the brain.
If you were to ask a person why do you love your girlfriend/boyfriend, there will always be this line - love is blind, love cannot be explain, it's unpredictable.
True.
If you were to love that person so much that you miss them day and night, everything is just not right when they are not around, something seems amiss when you're alone. Is it true that you really love that person ? Or just the presence of someone beside you.
Love is a two way communication. If one breaks down, the other will follow. But how is it that you think you really understand your partner? Do they open up to you ? Or do they just say nothing.
Isn't understanding about knowing that person deep inside, how they feel about something. We are not super humans, it's hard to know everything about a person. It takes time.
I want a simple love, but i have been making it complicated.
Today, i know, what i really want, after so much thought.
I'm glad, i have faith, i trust, i'm positive.
Anyway, being completely sane after being insane, i'm back on track.
It took me a while to find myself. I was stuck with this crap for quite a while, a case of "the haunting" from the past, instead, i turned into the past.
Today's a Thursday ! And that means ? Nothing.
I'm so bloody bored. I think i can just choke myself and not die.
I shall continue playing Pokemon Emerald, until then...
I'm back home for the semester break. Left KL at about 2 in the morning, reached home at about 6 plus. My dog ran away again, just lke last semester break, but this time managed to catch her before some sick dog got close to her.
It's Good to be home, finally i could just take a break from everything. No more assignments, exams, nothing, for three bloody weeks. Sounds short, but when you tell working people, they will go " Wow, students very lucky eh, break for so long." I agree though, i'm starting to get bored already. Nest week is Chinese New Year, where i'll be waiting for my ang pows. I shall show up at everybody's door step, beware.
Yesterday was me and theng's valentines day. We went out for a movie, watched Epic Movie, as stupid as it is, it's entertaining. Epic, as the movie says. Not quite a movie to watch on Valentine's huh. We went to the beach at night, watched the clouds, there were no freaking stars! I expected to see more stars here than in KL, instead i was greeted with clouds. Still, we just walked by the beach, enjoy the breeze. She made me a photo frame, a picture of us together from our trip to Genting during Xmas last year. Time flies when i'm with my baby. I just wished time could slow down a little bit. Good things comes too slow, goes too fast. Bad things comes in a blink of an eye, but goes away too slow.
Does anyone think i should see a doctor ? cause i have a sickness call thinking-too-much.
Well, until then, Happy Valentine's Day everyone.
Just a quick post, i'm part lazy to blog and i'm having exams now. Two more papers to go, programming and calculus, both my worst nightmare. One more week to penang. I'm going back home ! Back home to my family, to my baby, to my dear !
Oh ? who's my baby ? She's my new car !
Dear don't be jealous, i still do love you. *grins*
Exam is around the corner *runs around*
I'm so lazy to study even though i'm studying, it's just so depressing to study business and programming together.
This semester my goal is to achieve a 3.5 in GPA. I doubt.
My subjects : Economics, Principles in Information System, Programming, Calculus and Algebra, English and Bahasa Malaysia.
Two more weeks to go and i'm banking on lots of vitamins to keep me awake so i can finish like 30 chapters of economics, PIS, calculus and algebra and programming.
I've been thinking too much lately. At times my confidence is so low that anything would just happen. I hate it when i start to wonder and wonder.
I know it's because i'm afraid of making the same mistakes and losing someone again. I'm feeling insecure, because i don't wanna lose her..it's all inside my head.
I'm afraid that the little wierd things i do, or maybe a something i done wrong accidentally, will spoil everything. I try very hard not to disappoint her, cause i don't want to.
By feeling this way, i'm just turning into what i was last time, i'm making the same mistake, of thinking too much.
By trying not to do wrong, i tried too hard.
We are not perfect, but i'm trying to be, i want everything to be right for her. It made me paranoid.
The mind is a weapon, dangerously wise. It can help you, or it can destroy you.
But her words held me, stopped my mind from wondering, telling me everything is alright. A vortex brought all my wandering thoughts back into one piece. I love her, she loves me. I felt her warmth, the comfort. That's all that matters.
My mind is a super massive black hole. She tames it with one stroke. Amazing eh ?
As radiance demanded a new dedication.
Here goes, err, jie, hi, in this new year, i hope that everything will go well for you, and we will have much more to talk about. And..it's not depressing. *LoL*
I'm gonna study hard.. but action speaks louder than words. I will not procrastinate anymore. It's one of my new year resolutions.
Alright i'm gone..to bed.
So it's Day 1, January 2007. This year there has been ups and downs, highs and lows. 2006 was a year with a lot of first's.
The start of college life, first time living outside of home, first time travelling in a bus *yes, long distance i mean* , first time eating so much mamak food in my life, first time not getting to drive often, first time going to One Utama Damasara *Don't laugh at me.*, first time sitting a friends car travelling from Penang To KL and Back. First time celebrating Christmas and New Year without my family *That's Kinda Sad*, first Adidas Sneakers *Muhammad Ali's*, first laptop, first DOTA game *i never liked DOTA until now*, first Inside United Magazine*Manchester United's Official Mag*, first time shopping on my own *used to shop with mom*
The special first times would be
First time someone tells me i'm predictable, first time someone tells me i'm manja *urkk?*, first time celebrating New Year's Eve at home*KL* , first time celebrating christmas in genting, first mini candlelight KFC dinner, first time on the cockscrew, space shot and the carousel thingy in genting, first time she held my hand, first time i ever dared to say what do i really feel, first fireworks display in KL.
2006 has given me memories, good and bad. If i ever did anything wrong, i apologize to everyone. Maybe it was my fault, maybe it wasn't, but if it is, i'm sorry, let's all be friends, and leave the past behind.
The year ended with a blast, and a start of a something new. Although i didn't went to any street parties, which most of my friends said i missed out the fun *i'm sorry theng*,i still had a great new years eve and i'm looking foward to 2007.
To My Family:
Mom, Dad, Sis, I love you all, even though i'm not at home to celebrate christmas and new year together. I'll be back soon. =)
To My Housemates:
Crystal,Vivien,Stephy. Thanks for being such great housemates and great friends. All the best to you guys!
To My Buddies:
Wallace: I've known him for 6 years now, even though he may not be all good at times, but he's alright. God Bless.
Kok Chyuan: Sometimes i just can't tolerate the annoying-ness of him, but he brings laughter to the house, and always being a "hunk" to his girlfriend, Hui Ping. He's been a great friend at all times. I appreciate it.
Way Shoon: It's been 4 years now, since i know this guy. I still don't know what to say about him. Still, it's been great to have him as a friend. *He's sleeping behind me, =/*
Wei Hun: *Laugh Out Loud*, thanks for pawning me in Fifa, i just like to irritate him so much.
To Ai Khim:
Happy new year mummy ! May this year be a good one for you ! and of course, time to find me a dad. =p
To Mon Ping:
Don't say i forget you again. We have been twins since form 4 and you should know well that twins know each others thoughts. LoL. Happy New Year !
To Jillian:
Mui, i'm sorry if i've been ngelecting you but as you said, we've both been busy. So keep in touch all right !
To Radiance:
Jie, what to say ? Life is full of surprises, things can be good but bitter in the end, but anyhow, you are still my jie, and i wish you all the best in everything.
Finally
To My Dear:
Although it's only been a while, but i've shown you too much of my "belang" already. I know sometimes i maybe a little childish, i know sometimes my actions are different from my image *as in i'm big, but inside i'm like a kid, or i'm afraid to go up the cockscrew*, and sometimes i may not understand you, but i want you to know, that i'm glad we are together, cause from what seems imposssible, and like magic, look where we are at now. I want to be the person you love, the person that makes you smile, the person that will be there for you always. Even though sometimes we may be both different from each other *as in, you like to go out, and i like to avoid crowds, you listen to pop/hip hop and i listen to all rock/slow rock,* i know i'm crazy over you, even though you are not as crazy as i am but as you said, opposite attracts. It's like positive and negative, one is needed to neutralize the other in order to achieve harmony. *all smile*. Loving you has been and still is the happiest thing in my life and it has been the best gift for 2006/2007, and i'm thankful for that.
Conclusion to 2006
It's been great. Time to welcome the new year ! Happy New Year Everyone !
Again it's Christmas. Oh how i love this day.
This year i'm celebrating it high up in the mountains//wish i was home though.
As to get my blog in the mood, geek from mars is now on a sleigh.
Every year i prepare a list, write down all the things i want, and burn them to Santa//someone told me he's dead.//But this year, even though i have many things that i want, i just want to have a beautiful christmas. Because nothing, not even an alienware notebook, can compare to a wonderful christmas day. Though i wish to have an electric guitar, a PDA phone, An ALIENWARE notebook and finally an n-gage *i miss my n-gage*.
Three More Days.
