Quickie

I'm about to go to bed. Tomorrow's Monday. Yea, dreadful Monday. I hate Mondays, no wonder people feel suicidal on Mondays.

Internship has been quite alright, got hands-on on Unix and XML. Been to the new system's reporting training. Learning how to use the reporting functions. Fyi, the IT Department i'm currently in is in charge of the treasury. So, most of the terms used are like technical jargon to me. No idea. It's been two weeks, ended April quite satisfied with myself. Here comes May.

And is anyone feeling lazy to bother about college work? Although i miss the times that i could just skip lecture, and wake up late, i don't have the "oomph" to do my Final Year Project stuffs. That's why my supervisor said, most of the students that went to training usually come back having more stuffs to do. Because working life and studying life is different.

For some reason i am fascinated by how when i type on the keyboard and the words "magically" appear on the screen. Makes me wanna keep on typing. Lol.

I missed a few things to blog about, especially my 21st birthday post, and lots of stuffs. Hmm, and some issues, and, emo stuffs and, yea, the swine flu.

Swine flu alert, hope most of you read the newspaper as it has reached Phase 5, which means a pandemenic is imminent. So please all of my friends and families please do take care. Stay away from pork for a while and if possible, try not to travel.

I'm off to bed, until the next post.

Epiphany (Not Really)

There are a few things that i planned to blog about but i keep forgetting. It was never a habit of me to write down the things that i wanna blog about because, well, i like to be spontaneous. But i realize that we cannot be that all the time. Somethings need planning, need time to work on it, need time to practice. Spontaneously will only bring a fair outcome, well, to me, i don't know about you guys. I used to think that i do not need to go through my points during a presentation when i was in diploma, i felt that since i can speak, why can't i do it during a presentation? I ended up looking for words to say, pausing, ummm-ing all the time.

This does not only apply to speaking, but also decisions, actions, work, all sorts, but i think girls like guys to be spontaneous. It surprises them when guys do something out of the box, something they would not usually do.

I watched Yes Man yesterday. It was a good movie, i would say. After finishing the movie, i sort of think to myself. Am i shutting myself from the real world? Everybody has a group of friends they really trust and would do anything for them, do i have that group of friends? When opportunity comes, i don't have the confident to say yes.

I remember there was once i was asked by a fellow course mate to help out in a event for our school. Become the Emcee for the event to be exact. I thought to myself, i would not have the confident to stand up on a stage facing a crowd and speak. So i decided not to. When i come to rethink that decision, it was a stupid decision to say no. It's a opportunity for me to step up, no harm done. I think i'm not really a risk taker. I am scared of what will happen if i fail. I only do things that i'm confident i can achieve them.

And there were a few times where my classmates asked me out, i refused because i felt akward. Honestly guys, no offence, i thought that i was the "wierd" one in class. I could not get into the circle. So i decided to box myself up and stay in my comfort zone.

Sometimes i think that people think that i have everything, great life, good friends, good results, but i do not. It's not a bed of roses for me. I'm just like every single soul out there.

All these things that i have done, was because i did not have the courage to actually try something new. I did not say YES because i'm afraid of the outcome. There was once i thought that i actually overcomed the phase. But i realize that, psychologicaly, we who are afraid tend to shove ourselves back in to our comfort zone, telling ourselves everything is alright. A naturalist, doing nothing about whatever that happens.

Looking at myself, i would say that i do not have really good friends. Just good friends, not the ones that would stand by you no matter what happens. It's rare to have friends that will be by your side because i feel in this era, people are all egoistic, fighting for themselves, fighting for survival. My life ain't that sweet either, but there are people that are worst than me out there, i shall not compliant. There are times when i had good friends, really good friends, but i let them slipped away, didn't bother to make contact, catch up, all just talk no action. Slowly they just forget, forget that you ever existed. Because you did not bother to keep in touch. Yes i believed that happened. It is also that all of us has just walked our own path, meet new people, new life, new environment, the old one just got replaced.

One thing i really hate is that people have this thought that since i have a girlfriend, i don't really need my friends anymore. I would ask, " Why didn't you ask me out??", " You got girlfriend what...". I hate that. Doesn't mean that i have a girlfriend i don't wanna hang out with my friends. I have time for both my girlfriend and my friends. I hate that when people have that idea about me.

I think i need to start to live the life, grab the opportunities, take risks. Say Yes to more things. You never know what you would get when you say Yes.

Lessons from playing poker. There are always up's and down's in life. But if you dare to take the risk, it might just pay off.

*P/s, picking up advice from movies is never a good idea. Please do not try anything silly*

Until then.

*O Ya. I'm back in Penang. Going back to KL on Saturday. Industrial Training starts next week. Anxious but excited.*

Technews roundup

G-Shock Gulfman

Over the weekend, i've got myself a new watch. I've always wanted to get a watch because my previous one went in for surgery and never came back. That was like 5 years ago. So, i went watch shopping and decided i get this.


G-Shock Gulfman

I like the watch because of the rugged styling and it's the perfect guy watch for outdoor and stuffs.It features a tide graph which keep tracks of the tide level and a moon graph which keep tracks of the phase of the moon. You have to set the coordinates to be accurate. Furthermore, it also has world time, 3 alarms, a stopwatch and a timer. It also has auto EL where with a flick of the wrist, the light on the watch will turn on.

Built wise, it has rust resist where part of the watch body is made of titanium, G-Shock shock proof and 20 bar water resistance which means 200M. Not suitable for diving though.


Closeup

Overall i find the watch very useful and durable. I still haven't managed to set the tide and the moon graph though.


Microsoft Windows 7 _______. What!?


Microsoft has announce the versions of the upcoming Windows 7. There will be 6 of them which are (source from engadget):

Windows 7 Starter

* Available worldwide to OEMs on new PCs
* Missing Aero UI tweaks
* Limited to 3 simultaneous applications

Windows 7 Home Basic (Vista equivalent: $200)

* Only available in emerging markets
* Missing Aero UI tweaks

Windows 7 Home Premium (Vista equivalent: $260)

* Available worldwide, to OEMs and in retail
* Includes Aero UI tweaks
* Features multi-touch capabilities
* Adds "premium" games
* Adds media capabilities (Media Center, DVD playback, DVD creation, etc.)
* Can create home network groups

Windows 7 Professional (Vista equivalent: $300)

* Available worldwide, to OEMs and in retail
* Includes all features of Premium
* Adds enhanced networking capabilities (Remote Desktop host, domain support, offline folders, etc.)
* Adds Mobility Center
* Adds Presentation Mode

Windows 7 Enterprise

* Available only in volume licenses
* Includes all features of Professional
* Adds Branch Cache
* Adds Direct Access
* Adds BitLocker

Windows 7 Ultimate (Vista equivalent: $320)

* Limited OEM and retail availability
* Includes all features of Enterprise

IMO, why can't they have only two versions? The home and the professional. Wouldn't it make life much more easier? Furthermore, to actually encourage users to switch to Windows 7, although there are positive reviews from the beta, it must be backward compatible and will not have problems supporting the softwares that previous windows supported. Because of the incompatibility, a lot of users refused to switch to Vista. It's a different story now, although some games still refuse to corporate with Vista. Windows 7 must make it easy for user to convert, that will be the critical point of success as it already performs well in the beta tester.


New iPhone rumored, due June 2009.


True or false?

There is no exact proof over how true this can be but it is rumored that there will be a new iPhone from the fellas at Cupertino. Probably during June because summer is the time when Apple will usually introduce new products. It is said that the iPhone will have new features over the old features, which i hope this would be some it:

MMS capability
Copy and Paste
Bluetooth sharing
Video capture
Video call
Better megapixel camera

There is even rumors about an iPhone nano. I wonder.

I'm still waiting to get my hands on one. There's a thing about technology where it is limitless, new stuffs keep emerging everyday and it's difficult to catch up with all. I've been waiting for the iPhone since 2G and now with this new rumor, i am reluctant to get the iPhone. Should i wait? By the time i get enough cash, i bet the new one would be out. Or not.


Current Wanted List

Here are a few items i would want to get my hands on.

1. Rams (4GB Kits)
   
   Since my Crucial Ballistix Tracer died on me again. Second time. I am considering 2X2GB sticks. I now have 2X1GB patriot and 2X1GB Ballistix Tracer but am running only on 2GB patriot rams. Am considering 2X2GB Kingston HyperX which cost around RM230.


2. Graphic Card
   
   I keep telling myself i gotta upgrade this, gotta start saving money. Am waiting for the price of 260GTX to go down. Or maybe settle for a ATI HD4870. By upgrading the card, i would have to upgrade my power supply to support the additional power needed. The estimated cost would be around RM1K? If you really want to play games with good graphics, never settle for a mid-range card, it's just not satisfying enough, just like my 8600GTs.
   


3. HDD
   
   The endless number of series, movies and ISOs are killing me. i need an additional portable HDD. 1TB should be sufficient. In other news, Seagate has introduced it's first 2TB HDD. Woot!

On the dreamer's list, an i7 system. That would definitely be awesome.

My interview is approaching soon and i'm nervous/excited. I really hope i can get the job. Wish me luck !

I guess that's all for now. Still trying to find a solution to my boredomness. Watched house and played Fifa Online today. I also bought Fifa 09 today. I think i shall just read Steve Berry's The Venetian Betrayal.

Until then.

Awkwardness

Sometimes, i wonder how people with big social ties manage their social life. Especially friends. I find myself at times getting very attached to friends, no i don't mean clingy, i tend to care to much. How they think about me, how they treat me, how i treat them, when they are in need of help, i would lend a hand.


For me, it always comes to a point where i start to be afraid to care, because, i care to much at times that it inserts a gap between the friendship. I used to be very sensitive, like even normal friends i would treat them like family, and them i would try to insert my evil thoughts in to them, controlling them to become mindless zombies that would be only MY friend.

Yes, i was like that, well, not the insert evil thoughts part but i would tend to get jealous at times, especially people close to me get closer with other people, especially people i know, i felt betrayed, somehow like, you took away my friend, while you are my friend, you friend snatcher !

I felt that way before, and i could not control myself, it was like i had too much of soya milk. Makes me feel all girly. But it hurts so much, when you know you gone too far, and from that moment onwards, the friendship we shared will never be the same again.

If i said i've changed now, i believe i have. I've become not so involved in other people's life, i tend to not ask too much, because you lead your own life though at times i'm still a little nosy. Thus, i have a lot of hi-bye friends too.

My friend, i have always wanted to be included in your circle but now, i'm outside your circle, observing you and your friends in the circle, only to be invited in when asked. It's awkward, to feel this way, when we used to be close before, sharing everything with each other.

We live a different life now, our own to manage, though i'm glad we still talk and have a lil time to spare for each other.

If i would have a chance to turn back time, i would. It was better in the past.

or is this just because we've outgrown each other.

Cheers, my friend.

Life is a highway

I love driving, fast. I love long stretches of highway. But i hate traffic jams, especially the ones on Federal Highway. It totally sucks. When i'm not in the mood, i just feel like driving around, alone, in silence, while during normal times, i like to drive fast, alone too. When fetching my friends or family, i drive safely. I tend to sometimes drive dangerously, but, i love speed. Still, i dare not push the limit.

I think it applies in my style of managing my life. I love to go fast, but i dare not go too fast. I'm dare not take the risk. I'm like to take a safe route, i need an assurance to go fast. Sometimes, this tends to stop me from doing the things that i want. Come to think of it, sometimes it's a good thing also. At least i think twice about the cause and effects and the people i will affect.

I'm almost 19 and the world just open wide. To a different perspective on everything.

Will things work out the way you want it to ? Will something you put your heart in it be a disappointment ? This is all part of what we have to go through in life, ups and downs, thick and thins.

Anyhow, i still love to drive fast.

Tired

Few more days, i'd be leaving home, few more days, i'd be getting my result, few more days, i'd be bored to death.

Haven't been anywhere out. Tomorrow heading to penang to meet Jennifer from Ipoh, then head to Auto City at night to meet Eugene and Wern Chien. It's been a while since i've contacted them.

A part of me is eager to head back but another wants to stay back. Maybe i need to be a little more independent. I've always been a mama's boy, i'd obey everything my parents say, well except for the fact that study comes first and girlfriend later. But i do take my studies seriously, i know how to manage my time. Maybe sometimes i will get carried away but i still know how to get back on track.

I'm gonna be 19 this year. By next year, i can be considered as an adult already, 20 years on earth. I don't have a list of what i must do before i reach 30. I need to make one. LoL.

Life's been great, sometimes, i'm still stuck in my teenage years, still being a kid, attitude also like a kid. Do things make decision also like a kid. I need to leave that behind, and start being an adult, i'm not small anymore. I know that. It's just being a kid is much more easier than having to know that you have a lot of responsibilities.

I think i watch too much of Ah Wong. But he also know how to think what.

Well, i hope that, this year, i may be more mature.

Oh yea, i wanna lose weight, any diet plan suggestion ?

Until then

It's hard...

Baby it's hard, but we gotta stay strong.
Baby it's tough, but we gotta keep going on.

I know how it feels, but think of the bright side.

Theng's feeling homesick, she's leaving for KL tomorrow.

I just got back from Auto City not long ago, was in Bed with Radiance, Shoon , Hun and a bunch of friends, mostly seniors.

Bed is a place, not a bed.

Update later, sleepy.

i know baby, three's the number for the month. =)

That same ol' question..

Love, is a mystery, it can't be explained, though scientifically the feeling is caused by a chemical release by the brain.

If you were to ask a person why do you love your girlfriend/boyfriend, there will always be this line - love is blind, love cannot be explain, it's unpredictable.

True.

If you were to love that person so much that you miss them day and night, everything is just not right when they are not around, something seems amiss when you're alone. Is it true that you really love that person ? Or just the presence of someone beside you.

Love is a two way communication. If one breaks down, the other will follow. But how is it that you think you really understand your partner? Do they open up to you ? Or do they just say nothing.

Isn't understanding about knowing that person deep inside, how they feel about something. We are not super humans, it's hard to know everything about a person. It takes time.

I want a simple love, but i have been making it complicated.

Today, i know, what i really want, after so much thought.

I'm glad, i have faith, i trust, i'm positive.

Anyway, being completely sane after being insane, i'm back on track.

It took me a while to find myself. I was stuck with this crap for quite a while, a case of "the haunting" from the past, instead, i turned into the past.

Today's a Thursday ! And that means ? Nothing.

I'm so bloody bored. I think i can just choke myself and not die.

I shall continue playing Pokemon Emerald, until then...

Happy Valentine's Day

I'm back home for the semester break. Left KL at about 2 in the morning, reached home at about 6 plus. My dog ran away again, just lke last semester break, but this time managed to catch her before some sick dog got close to her.

It's Good to be home, finally i could just take a break from everything. No more assignments, exams, nothing, for three bloody weeks. Sounds short, but when you tell working people, they will go " Wow, students very lucky eh, break for so long." I agree though, i'm starting to get bored already. Nest week is Chinese New Year, where i'll be waiting for my ang pows. I shall show up at everybody's door step, beware.

Yesterday was me and theng's valentines day. We went out for a movie, watched Epic Movie, as stupid as it is, it's entertaining. Epic, as the movie says. Not quite a movie to watch on Valentine's huh. We went to the beach at night, watched the clouds, there were no freaking stars! I expected to see more stars here than in KL, instead i was greeted with clouds. Still, we just walked by the beach, enjoy the breeze. She made me a photo frame, a picture of us together from our trip to Genting during Xmas last year. Time flies when i'm with my baby. I just wished time could slow down a little bit. Good things comes too slow, goes too fast. Bad things comes in a blink of an eye, but goes away too slow.

Does anyone think i should see a doctor ? cause i have a sickness call thinking-too-much.

Well, until then, Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

Thoughts : Wise Or Dangerous ?

Exam is around the corner *runs around*

I'm so lazy to study even though i'm studying, it's just so depressing to study business and programming together.

This semester my goal is to achieve a 3.5 in GPA. I doubt.

My subjects : Economics, Principles in Information System, Programming, Calculus and Algebra, English and Bahasa Malaysia.

Two more weeks to go and i'm banking on lots of vitamins to keep me awake so i can finish like 30 chapters of economics, PIS, calculus and algebra and programming.

I've been thinking too much lately. At times my confidence is so low that anything would just happen. I hate it when i start to wonder and wonder.
I know it's because i'm afraid of making the same mistakes and losing someone again. I'm feeling insecure, because i don't wanna lose her..it's all inside my head.
I'm afraid that the little wierd things i do, or maybe a something i done wrong accidentally, will spoil everything. I try very hard not to disappoint her, cause i don't want to.
By feeling this way, i'm just turning into what i was last time, i'm making the same mistake, of thinking too much.
By trying not to do wrong, i tried too hard.
We are not perfect, but i'm trying to be, i want everything to be right for her. It made me paranoid.
The mind is a weapon, dangerously wise. It can help you, or it can destroy you.

But her words held me, stopped my mind from wondering, telling me everything is alright. A vortex brought all my wandering thoughts back into one piece. I love her, she loves me. I felt her warmth, the comfort. That's all that matters.

My mind is a super massive black hole. She tames it with one stroke. Amazing eh ?

As radiance demanded a new dedication.

Here goes, err, jie, hi, in this new year, i hope that everything will go well for you, and we will have much more to talk about. And..it's not depressing. *LoL*

I'm gonna study hard.. but action speaks louder than words. I will not procrastinate anymore. It's one of my new year resolutions.

Alright i'm gone..to bed.

Together Well Ring In The New Year

So it's Day 1, January 2007. This year there has been ups and downs, highs and lows. 2006 was a year with a lot of first's.

The start of college life, first time living outside of home, first time travelling in a bus *yes, long distance i mean* , first time eating so much mamak food in my life, first time not getting to drive often, first time going to One Utama Damasara *Don't laugh at me.*, first time sitting a friends car travelling from Penang To KL and Back. First time celebrating Christmas and New Year without my family *That's Kinda Sad*, first Adidas Sneakers *Muhammad Ali's*, first laptop, first DOTA game *i never liked DOTA until now*, first Inside United Magazine*Manchester United's Official Mag*, first time shopping on my own *used to shop with mom*

The special first times would be

First time someone tells me i'm predictable, first time someone tells me i'm manja *urkk?*, first time celebrating New Year's Eve at home*KL* , first time celebrating christmas in genting, first mini candlelight KFC dinner, first time on the cockscrew, space shot and the carousel thingy in genting, first time she held my hand, first time i ever dared to say what do i really feel, first fireworks display in KL.

2006 has given me memories, good and bad. If i ever did anything wrong, i apologize to everyone. Maybe it was my fault, maybe it wasn't, but if it is, i'm sorry, let's all be friends, and leave the past behind.

The year ended with a blast, and a start of a something new. Although i didn't went to any street parties, which most of my friends said i missed out the fun *i'm sorry theng*,i still had a great new years eve and i'm looking foward to 2007.

To My Family:
Mom, Dad, Sis, I love you all, even though i'm not at home to celebrate christmas and new year together. I'll be back soon. =)

To My Housemates:
Crystal,Vivien,Stephy. Thanks for being such great housemates and great friends. All the best to you guys!

To My Buddies:
Wallace: I've known him for 6 years now, even though he may not be all good at times, but he's alright. God Bless.

Kok Chyuan: Sometimes i just can't tolerate the annoying-ness of him, but he brings laughter to the house, and always being a "hunk" to his girlfriend, Hui Ping. He's been a great friend at all times. I appreciate it.

Way Shoon: It's been 4 years now, since i know this guy. I still don't know what to say about him. Still, it's been great to have him as a friend. *He's sleeping behind me, =/*

Wei Hun: *Laugh Out Loud*, thanks for pawning me in Fifa, i just like to irritate him so much.

To Ai Khim:
Happy new year mummy ! May this year be a good one for you ! and of course, time to find me a dad. =p

To Mon Ping:
Don't say i forget you again. We have been twins since form 4 and you should know well that twins know each others thoughts. LoL. Happy New Year !

To Jillian:
Mui, i'm sorry if i've been ngelecting you but as you said, we've both been busy. So keep in touch all right !

To Radiance:
Jie, what to say ? Life is full of surprises, things can be good but bitter in the end, but anyhow, you are still my jie, and i wish you all the best in everything.

Finally

To My Dear:
Although it's only been a while, but i've shown you too much of my "belang" already. I know sometimes i maybe a little childish, i know sometimes my actions are different from my image *as in i'm big, but inside i'm like a kid, or i'm afraid to go up the cockscrew*, and sometimes i may not understand you, but i want you to know, that i'm glad we are together, cause from what seems imposssible, and like magic, look where we are at now. I want to be the person you love, the person that makes you smile, the person that will be there for you always. Even though sometimes we may be both different from each other *as in, you like to go out, and i like to avoid crowds, you listen to pop/hip hop and i listen to all rock/slow rock,* i know i'm crazy over you, even though you are not as crazy as i am but as you said, opposite attracts. It's like positive and negative, one is needed to neutralize the other in order to achieve harmony. *all smile*. Loving you has been and still is the happiest thing in my life and it has been the best gift for 2006/2007, and i'm thankful for that.

Conclusion to 2006

It's been great. Time to welcome the new year ! Happy New Year Everyone !

Oh Kay, 8 Points Clear Before Christmas !

what i obtained this week : my sweetie bluree bear !

The best pre-christmas present for Sir Alex Ferguson, 8 points up on the table and 8 points clear of Chelsea. Seems like the English took a liking of the number 8 as it means Prosperity in Cantonese.

Yes, Arsenal drawed Chelsea just now. Arsenal should have just won the game but frankly speaking, Chelsea could have grab the winner BUT luck was on Arsenal's side for Chelsea struck the post TWICE in 90th minute. As Chelsea seems to the more lively side, Arsenal was just praying for time to end. Without the presence of Thierry Henry, Arsenal's game are in a way, not like what they use to do anymore. With passes out to the wings, likes of Adebayor and Hleb were unable to produce the attacking formula that Arsenal once possesed. A shot wide from Van Persie is all he got as he was substituted later.

Mourinho decided it was time for a gameplan change as he substituted Robben and Wright-Phillips. Robben prove to be the vicious one as he nearly scored twice. Both wings of Chelsea definitely put more pressure on Arsenal. The most funny part of the game would be the clash between Drogba and Lehmann. As Drogba was clearly fouled in the Arsenal's penalty box, the Refferey didn't see it Drogba's way. As Drogba walked away, saying something, Lehmann just had to push him in the back. Of course Drogba wasn't feeling quite happy about it and he had to hit Lehmann back, which the incident see both players getting yellow carded. How childish of both.

Arsenal had to get comfortable in the zone of Chelsea's half to produce a goal from Flamini, which was short lived as Essien's stunning goal which may just be the goal of the week. The game from the 85th minute was definitely enjoyable as Arsenal had some close calls because of a blunder by Lehmann. He definitely did something to the post as strikes from Essien and Lampard struck it.

Perhaps the most unsporting, or maybe too sporting player would be Ashley Cole, who is facing his Ex-Club. He definitely showed no respect towards his ex-players nor his fans. Sadly.

Still, we Manchester United fans are happy being on top of the table.

And YES, we've won Benfica 3 - 1, Topped Group F and proceed to the Last 16 in the Champions League.

"We've been playing some good football but have also grinded out some excellent results. We've got the balance just about right, we just need to carry that form forward now."- Ryan Giggs

You're the Man, Giggs.

=========== Football Talk Stops Here ===========

The week has been alright. Mid Term's up. Having one more paper this week, or two. Time flies seriously. For a while it was Monday, and now it's another Monday. I've been procrastinating, assignment not done, have a presentation coming up. And i'm sitting here blogging. *evil*

Maybe i'm a little too carefree. I should be pushing myself more. I definitely don't want to fail any of my subjects this semester. Considering Economics, Calculus and Algebra and Information Systems, which aren't my favourite subjects.

Christmas is near, and i would be celebrating it without my family. Well, i still have my friends but this would be the first time i'm celebrating Christmas out of home. Everything has it's first. *Wonders*. As i love christmas, i just wished that it would snow here. I've never seen snow before, only artificial ones. Made out of soap bubbles. =/

All right, It's already 3am and my class is at 10am in the morning. 6 hours to sleep.

signin off.

and i know it's a wonderful world.

I'm thinking about..

My Dad And My Mom..

My bubbly sis.

My dog, JoJo. With her embarrasing posse down here.


She's Enjoying it.


Me, Radiance *my jie* and Way Shoon. Mid September, Sunway Pyramid


My mummy-Ai Khim, and me. Nov 25 KLCC.


Buddies, 28 October, Midvalley


Some wobbly world cup figures, Ronaldinho, Rooney and Cafu i think. World Cup 2006

My Love.

Dear Santa, I've been a good boy all year, and here is my christmas list.

1. Tickets to watch One Man United Match, preferbly Man United - Arsenal Match.
2. Electric Guitar, a black and white one, maybe signed by santana ?
3.An Alienware Desktop or Notebook, It's up to you, But minimum requirements, Pentium Core 2 Duo : Desktop - Extreme Editon 2GHZ, Notebook, 2.2GHZ, 2GB ram, 1TB HDD, Quad Crossfire ATI 1950XTX.

I should wake up from my dreams, those are unattainable goals for the moment. I have already reached the maximum output, which lies on the production possibilities frontier or PPF line. *searching the economics text book*

Christmas, Christmas, Christmas is near !

cheese

TEN random things about me:

My mood changes like the direction of the wind
I'm learning to cook delicious fusion dishes with maggi mee
I prefer talking to myself than with someone i don't know
I love walking in the park
I'm fat
I get irritated quickly
I love getting attention
i love the way she is when she's with me
I love Christmas
I'm in love too ! *lol jeremy*

NINE ways to win my heart

Listen to me, even if i'm telling lame jokes. lol
Being honest with me
Give me random hugs and kisses
Surprise me
Love me
Hold my hand when i'm with you
Cheer me up when i'm down, even if i'm faking it. lol
being yourself
anything sweet you do would melt me easily

EIGHT things I must do when I'm dying:

Visit Old Trafford
Go around the world
Eat around the world
Cook my final meal
Play my final football game
Have a concert in honour of me
Spending time with my love ones
Buy the most high tech gadgets and donate them to charity after i passed

SEVEN ways to annoy me:

Being ridiculously annoying
Backstabbing me
Being arrogant
Cheating me
Being Ignorant
Talking bad about my love ones
Mess up my stuffs

SIX things I believe in:

Football
God
Karma
Bullshit
Supernatural
Love

FIVE things I'm afraid of:

Supernatural
Laptop breaking down
My dear ignoring me
alone
the dark

FOUR of my favourite items in my room:

My laptop
My notice board with "Theng" on it
My Guitar
My Bed

THREE things I do every day:

Eat
Love
Think

TWO things I want to do right now:

Hug someone
Go watch football

ONE person I want to see right now:

bluree

I tag:

Ai Khim
Izrin
*these people habis exam d*
Whoever is too too free

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I'm getting irritated quickly these few days. Don't know why.

Today i'm gonna compile a list of the phrases from songs that i like.

This is going to bring me clarity//This'll take the heart right out of me//She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted//She is everything I want that I never knew I needed//This is going to bring me to my knees//I just want to hold you close to me

I know now, just quite how//My life and love might still go on//In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time

I guess you're the only one//that nobody changes//I guess you're the only one//left standing when everything else goes down

That I'm learning to breathe//I'm learning to crawl//I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall//I'm living again, awake and alive//I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

My Fav-

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for//You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for//You know it's true//Everything I do - I do it for you

Dear. You have given me more than anything i could ask for. And I love you for everything you are and everything you do. *hugs*

I'm Not Nerd Enough..Nor Cool Enough..

I'm suppose to blog about this few days ago but i had a presentation to prepare.

My presentation was alright. Heard from my friends teacher said i was the best in class. But yea, my class not many speak fluent english. So, it's consider cheating for me.

So anyway, YES, i'm not nerd enough nor cool enough. It is obviously that the class is splitted in to two sections, in fact, it's automatically split in to two sections. First, the N.E.R.D.s and the average kids. As you can see, questions are all answered by the N.E.R.D.s. While the other people just sit and look. If a question is asked, most of us would be asking the N.E.R.D.s help.

AS for me, i'm in the middle, i'm sitting in the middle as well. I'm half of both. People do come to me if they have a question, usually i'll give them the correct answer OR i'll give them a screwed one. Still, i can't look like both sides, or i can ?

I still don't know which side am i in. Or i'm not even in both sides. I'm considered the wierd one. I can't look good, i can't be smart.

=/

I got my result slips.

GPA 3.3333, 2 A's, 1B and C.

It's not that bad i guess. But this semester i'm whacked. Gotta catch up or i'll be dead meat.

Motion City Soundtrack - What about them.

When i first got the album *download* Commit This To Memory, The first track wasn't that bad, the second was my favourite, and on and on, It's Good ! I love punk and alternative. Bands that are not mainstream and doing what they do best. Thats what i call music.

Noel's done it again.

Sometimes i think that i'm mental.

Today i dropped by at Lay Theng's place to pass her some stuffs. It was peak hour, traffic was heavy. If i took a taxi i would be stuck. So , Brilliant NOEL came up with a Brilliant IDEA.

WALK.

So i walked back to the LRT station. At first there were pathways. Well, that shows i'm not that insane. Until i reached the freaking highway. Now u can call me insane. I practically walked on the motorist lane. Risked myself getting killed or rob. And it's like night time ?

It took me about half and hour. I think. The distance would be like, from my place now to Wangsa Maju Jusco, from HSBM to Desa Damai, from inderawasih to somewhere pass Pacific. Not that far right ?

I'm insane.

The last time i did that was worst, i walked from my high school back home, which is one town to another. Triple the distance.

I've downloaded NFS: Carbon.

Verdict: Sucky

I'm not gonna waste my time talking about it here.

Shoon, Wallace and Jason has been chosen to represent Hitz.FM for the AXN Penang Beach Challenge ! Thanks to Shoon who submitted their name.

They left the whole room to me.

BORED !

I must not skip lectures anymore. I have programming assignment, IS assignment and Econs assignment + Swimming assignment.

dead

I was told by Jeremy to not be so negative. Yes, i agree. I shouldn't.

It's slowly making sense, everything is patching up, and i'm going for the final shot.

=)

Off to write a testimonial for Chealene ! *i was forced too*

Signin Off

I look sad in photos, always.

A stupid person is someone who doesn't know what she/he wants or who she/he is.

so near yet so far

Back in Penang for holidays. Just reached not long ago and i have this urge to blog.

So who did i came back with ?

Answer : Lay Theng

God, i was so freaking nervous. but everything seemed to went well. The stupid thing is the bus system is whacked. Luckily we didn't have to wait long for the bus. Manged to leave at 12am while our bus was suppose to be at 11pm.

The journey back was all right. I couldn't sleep. Well, i wanted too but i didn't want to. LoL. The bus had water dripping on me. How nice to have real special effects in the bus.
I looked at her while she's sleeping, no i'm not stalking. It just makes me smile. I see a girl, i want to be with. I want to make her happy, share her joy and heal her sorrow. It's not about being dramatic. It's true.
So as i dream on.

Gonna hit the sack, snooze till noon. I have the bed to myself, woo hoo, sis went somewhere.

until then.

I Passed All My Subjects ! Even Pre-Calculus !

blog later, heading to low yatt, going back penang tomorrow .

College Wars - Return Of Semester 2

Back in KL. Ready to stomp the world. And i missed lecture this morning. I must change this fucking habit. But it's the first week, so it won't be that bad.

So i had people ask me, how's the feeling, coming back here, living on your own, surviving on mamak food. Well i say, i'm getting used to it. But i'm sure i would eat less of mamak food or i'll die. Well, maybe not enjoying the broadband here. It would take ages for me to download stuffs.

I don't know why, but i seem to come back with more stuffs, even my clothes are doubled. My plastic cupboard is gonna fall anytime. It's almost full. I have tees, tees and more t-shirts. I'm a t-shirt freak. I only wear t-shirts. Maybe thats why i look like a kid in college, while others are all fashionably dressed up. Haha. Why call it t-shirt anyway ? *wonders*

Actually, i didn't mean to skip lecture this morning, but as i was messing with my hair, which couldn't stand, even with wax, i got fed up, and i was already late. So, i took the time to wash my bed sheets and my blanket. Which is a good thing, cause i wanted to do it first thing i come back. I got my friend getting notes if there is for me. I won't miss much. I hope so.

I'm not that vain actually, i was just trying to do something different. *lol* . Seriously, my hair never stands, it's too soft. I wonder if it's healthy or just whacked. Even after waxing it, it goes back to the shape it originally is. I've already gave up dressing up my hair since secondary. Couldn't be bothered.

I'm hungry again. Oh wait, i did not eat breakfast. Everybody is still sleeping behind me. Yawn, i'm feeling the sandman too. Afternoon is gonna be dull.

"cause you give me something, that makes me scared all right. this could be nothing, but i'm willing to give a try. please give me something, cause someday i might know my heart." - You Give Me Something - James Morrison

yea, she gives me something, which could be nothing, but i'm willing to take the risk. It's better to have something than nothing at all. =)

until then.

My days are numbered.

3 more days left in Penang, before the new semester starts.

I can't wait, but i'm gonna miss penang.

This semester break is my first and the best. Thanks to everyone for making that happen.

Tomorrow the Pass/Fail list would most probably be out. I'm praying that i wouldn't fail my pre-calculus. I have calculus this sem and i don't want to repeat any subjects. *prays*

One good news, it seems that we don't have to fear of our parents knowing our results anymore. we are to collect our results from the college starting from now. Still, it's better to let them know. or not. *evil*

But i definitely don't want to waste my parents money. I want to be somebody at the end of all this.

I lost touch in C++ ! god, how am i gonna resume programming designs and concepts 2 ? i should spend more time doing programs then play games. LoL

I had my eye checked the other day, i'm short sighted since i was 3 or 4. Sad eh. I watch too much ninja turtles when i was that age. That day i told my friends, they said i watched porn too much, i said i watched ninja turtles when i was small, one of them gasps , he said " You watch ninja turtles porn a ?!" *faints* . Sometimes they are just ridiculous. lol.

So, my left eye increased to 775, i don't know how they measure it. While my right eye stays at 650. I'm going to be blind ! I should maybe see other stuffs more than my computer. So, i decided to change my frames, since mine here is kinda whacked. My lenses cause RM180. That's why i advise you kids, don't watch cartoons too much, you'll be like me, wasting your parents money. haha.

What have i not achieved in the things i would want to do in penang that i listed before coming back, i've done everything. I've spent time with my family, met up with friends, went to the beach, went to gurney, i had penang food, i enjoyed playing ball, i broke my usual speed limit, driving my dad's car to a mere 150km/h. lol. He doesn't know that.

Oh, now i remember, i haven't meet Mon Ping, that will be for tomorrow AC session ! (AC = autocity) . =)

Download frenzy, i'm afraid i won't be able to enjoy a single line connection anymore back at KL, have to share it with 5 other pc's. So i'm now downloading like crazy, got myself about 10 albums already. Plus my weekly dose of supernatural, heroes and lost. I seriously need to get an external hard disk.

great, i'm hungry.

until then...

Feelin' Way Too Damn Good

I'm in such a good mood today. No wait, it started from the evening. LoL

I woke up at 10 to find out that my dog bit my flip flops. Spoilt. Arghh, it's the second pair she destroyed. Her timing also very funny, before i left for KL, she destroyed the first pair, after one semester, there goes another pair. Dad said she quit that habit already, well, i guess some habits you just can't quit.

Spent my afternoon watching High School Musical. Actually enjoy it. I enjoy watching disney movies. When i was young it was cartoon network, and slowly switched to disney, then nickelodeon.

Now ?

ESPN, StarSports, Star World, MTV, [V] Channel.

Lol, drastic changes. Though i still watch cartoons, dad actually complained i watch too much cartoons at this age. It's fun, laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes it's good to feel and be like a kid. =)

Evening, went football. Some people just don't change. I admit i'm not maradona or ronaldinho. They expect you to pass once you get the ball, i did not even have time to look where to pass and i got scolded. What the hell ? My brain also can't think that fast. I don't think they can do that also? Once you get the ball, you'll sure look for a suitable place to put the ball but they think they are so skilled. Thats the reason we get tired easily, cause the game is always fast paced. Lose already blame others, scold here and there.

But thats the fun of it, i love challenges. I want to be pushed, but sometimes they are just over their head.

Went out to dinner with dad. Sis and Mum went Penang, one go out with friends, another went dancing. Later, went G7 at Pacific yum cha. With Shoon, Wei Hun, Jason, Wallace and friends. 12 of us. Played chor dai di (poker), i don't even know what you call that in english. LoL. I won 4 times, twice in a row. Was in a good mood. Guess thats why i'm lucky.

Lay Theng is growing older. She's turning 18 in a month plus. 18 is the new old age. Haha. 44 days to her birthday. I didn't know 18 is Sexy, while 16 is sweet and 17 is ? sassy. lol. Whats with all the s'es.

Jason is going to skip one week of his class. I wonder how is he going to manage it. He says, he is going to the hospital tomorrow for check up, saying something about having constant headache and numbness. He just wanna skip class and be in Penang. Fake ! LoL.

I smile because of her. Never felt so happy before for so long.

*stupid smiley*. naive.

until then..