Happy Valentine's Day

I'm back home for the semester break. Left KL at about 2 in the morning, reached home at about 6 plus. My dog ran away again, just lke last semester break, but this time managed to catch her before some sick dog got close to her.

It's Good to be home, finally i could just take a break from everything. No more assignments, exams, nothing, for three bloody weeks. Sounds short, but when you tell working people, they will go " Wow, students very lucky eh, break for so long." I agree though, i'm starting to get bored already. Nest week is Chinese New Year, where i'll be waiting for my ang pows. I shall show up at everybody's door step, beware.

Yesterday was me and theng's valentines day. We went out for a movie, watched Epic Movie, as stupid as it is, it's entertaining. Epic, as the movie says. Not quite a movie to watch on Valentine's huh. We went to the beach at night, watched the clouds, there were no freaking stars! I expected to see more stars here than in KL, instead i was greeted with clouds. Still, we just walked by the beach, enjoy the breeze. She made me a photo frame, a picture of us together from our trip to Genting during Xmas last year. Time flies when i'm with my baby. I just wished time could slow down a little bit. Good things comes too slow, goes too fast. Bad things comes in a blink of an eye, but goes away too slow.

Does anyone think i should see a doctor ? cause i have a sickness call thinking-too-much.

Well, until then, Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

feels like rain..

another emo post ?

i don't think so. i've been too emo for the past few weeks.

if only you know how it hurts inside.

don't ask me why, i don't know either.

but my hearts breaking.

sigh

i'm so emo today.

currently in the computer lab in campus.

sigh.

i feel like bursting anytime.

i should cut down on the emo-ness.

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45 more minutes before co-curiculum

i'm rotting in the CIT centre

this would be the second time in a day i'm hanging out here

my second time since i came to this college

the connection here isn't that fast, it took ages to load blogger.

i can't even listen to online streaming. i think they banned YouTube too. cause it'll eat up all the bandwidth.

not really in the mood today.

no it's not PMS. I'm a guy

fuck

it's been a while since i'm so emo

maybe i just think too much

i do always

it's a part of me

i'll sit here and think while there is a possibility i can do something about it.

i choose to wait and die

no one cares anyway, nobody gives a shit

it's my life, everybody has their own.

we are all too busy taking care of ourselves that we don't have time for others

hey, that's suppose to be right !

i'm getting no where out of this.

so i better stop bitching before you get bored by my emoness

oh wait, you don't care anyway ! LOL !

hilarious.

Too much emo music kills noel

Eugene says i've been listening to a lot of emo music.

So, i've decided to show off my playlist, open for comments.

1. My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say, About a life-long wait for a hospital stay, well if you think that i'm wrong, This never meant nothing to you.

2. Jack's Mannequin - The Mixed Tape

Where are you now ? As I'm swimming through the stereo, I'm writing you a symphony of sound. Where are you now? As I rearrange the songs again, This mix could burn a hole in anyone, But it was you I was thinking of.

3. Lostprophets - Always, all ways

Always, all ways I wanted us to be, Always, all ways you and me, And I wait here on my own, And I wait for you to see, All the time I spend alone now won't comfort me.

4. Dashboard Confessional - As Lovers Go

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating. This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade, What's the sense in waiting?

5. AFI - Love Like Winter

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood, I met my love before I was born. He wanted love. I taste of blood, He bit my lip, and drank my war, From years before, from years before.


Emo ? I don't think so .

random

To jeremy, i apologize for calling you a psycho.

You are not the psycho, i am.

1.01 AM

I look out the window, wondering what's beyond the clouds,
is there a you and me out there, or i'm just on my own.
The sun shines upon me, telling me to put on a smile.
cause the reason when i smile, is all because of you.

Your absence makes me shiver, wakes me up from my sleep.
I wish i could be right beside you, i don't care how or where.
All i can think about, is the way you look at me.
It keeps me hanging on to you, wondering if i'll fall.

If i told you i miss you, would you say the same ?
Or would you just close the god damn door, leaving me alone.
Would you care about me, the way i care about you ?
Or i'm just invisible to you, after all this time.

I'll be there for you, catch you if you fall.
Be with you when you are down,
share your laughter and tears, your pain and your joy.
Cheer you up when you are moody,
Or sing even if i can't, just to make you smile.

With you, i'm never blue.
Wished you knew how i feel.
Wished i could read you mind.
Wished that you could be mine.

Cheesy..

2.57 AM

Ways to start your Monday

Mondays, usually people call it moody monday, where work starts and school resumes. While i'm having sem break. LoL. This is how i start my day on a Monday.

• Wake up at 12
• Watch football highlights of last night's matches
• Get fucked up for nothing (i was seriously restless and i don't know why, my mind is blank !)
• Watch MTV and V channel.
• Start your day with The Killers - When You Were Young. This song just has that energy to kick away the blues.
• Camp in front of my laptop, to find our limewire is not working.
• Waiting for someone to call me and say "I'm coming to fetch you", where i don't care cause i have no car.
• Play games
• Go back to sleep later.

I woke up with this uptight uneasyness in me. I feel so fucking fustrated. Funny thing is, my mind is blank and i'm watching man utd - newcastle ?? I need to go football. or someone give me a electric guitar, i need to let it out. It's like just air in a seal up bottle. Practically nothing but needs to come out.

I think i'm turning into a psychopath, i'm reaching that part of me which have no conscience. I'm a wolf in a sheeps clothing ! Psychopaths often do an excellent job of convincing people they do feel empathy and remorse. It's only with time that the sheen rubs off, then i'll start hunting each and everyone of you down, shed your skin and grill you alive. *Evil Laugh*. Beware. Someone lock me up !

Yawn, why are all my entries so fucking emo.

Song of the day
Teddy Geiger - These Walls

up, up and away

i'm rushing things again..

*These kind of things don't need rush, it need time to nurture, time to grow, like a plant, needs sunlight, vitamins, i need to be a lil more patient, maybe i should to more garderning. I still have loads of time, unless someone took away my plant. LoL. But, seriously noel, let it flow, get a hold of yourself, be confident, take your time, it may just work out.*

mental note to self.. =)

blue

wonder of the day: If you and your dog could understand each other for one minute, what would you say to it? What might it tell you ?

blue is the color which runs through my mind, blur are the thoughts that i can't define, blue i am now, cause i'm missing you ; blue i will be, i just don't know why.

I might be consider the king of blues, not in the music industry though, lol.

Finally, i'm back home. Home sweet home. Missed the feeling of being in a cosy home. There's a couch to jump on, a spring bed to sleep on, air cond, big fridge, yay !

BUT !

Something happened. I reached here at 5am, slept. At 8am, Sis came shouting to me, saying that my dog ran out, and is currently getting humped. I ran out and i saw, that filthy disgusting with skin disorder dog's cock stuck in my dog and it can't escape. I was filled with anger and sadness. I could not do anything except look. Later when she got loose, she didn't want to come back. I got pissed and went back to sleep. Until sis came back, my dog only came back, sis bath her and took her to the vet. What a way to start my holidays.

Had brunch with my friends. Penang food rocks man. Spend the day at home, it rained. No football until tomorrow.

During dinner just now, i overheard a conversation between three men behind me. One man said " If you want to send your daughter to a girls school, don't send her to convent, cause it's filled with lesbians. " Sorry to all convent girls who is reading this. But ,he can be so wrong.

It is true that being in a co-ed school will be better for socializing between the male and the female gender but it's just wrong to say that lesbians are from girls school because they don't have guys in it. Some people turn into lesbians because it's just what they think is right, not to say that it's wrong. But there are also girls in convent being lesbians because PARENTS are giving her too much pressure. Havent you thought of sending your daughter to a girl school, thats fine, but then limit her from meeting other friends, you forbid her from meeting guys, and she can only express them with her friends. Sometimes it's also because of an individuals thinking. But i do have friends who's been in Convent for 12 years and still is straight. Same sex relationship aren't wrong. Maybe some people will get over it once they grow up. People make mistakes. It's just how they learn from it. And parents should guide them.

Funny.

I feel that something is missing. I'm missing her.

I don't know why i feel i stand a chance. It's no harm to try.

I don't know whats going through my mind.

Just talking to her sent my blueness away.

If only...

Storm - Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I’m so used to living underneath the surface

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

not myself..

addiction

At this moment i just have so many things flowing through my mind. I just can't stop thinking until now i'm just so confuse about everything. As they say, everything happens for a reason. Still, aren't we in control of what is going to happen to us ? And if we are in control, we know the reason, but still why it doesn't goes the way we want it to be ?? Sometimes i feel my life is seriously fucked up, or maybe i'm just thinking too much.

I'm missing something, the puzzle that puts it all together. Sometimes, things just come and go that we don't tend to realize it's importance. Life just past by too fast, i need to stop for a moment to figure out where i am at this moment. Or i'll fall to pieces in no time.

For some reason, i feel no matter where i am, back in penang or here in KL. It's still the same. Even with or without friends. It wouldn't change. My hearts turning into stone. I'm slowly turning into a zombie, or a robot, stuck in a cycle that never ends. There is no more emotions, though i'm kinda emo now.. Everything is just the same to me. I enjoy life, totally, but at some parts, it's just meaningless. Is this the potrait of a faithless person? i guess it is.

Maybe i will change, maybe something will change me. An impact in my life. For now i know, my family is my life, i'm glad i have some good friends. Hope things would get better soon.

-emo kid

Another day in life, Another chapter to be revealed

I Want To Go Back To Mars !

Earth sucks, seriously. I prefer what it's like down at Mars, where everything is sand and rocks, lots of space probes and more advance technology. Most importantly, people like you for who you are.

Well,Back to reality. Exams are in two weeks, started studying already but not really much information seems to be going in. My weakest subject is calculus, which i haven't really studied. If i were some nerd i'd be freaking out and soon i'll jump down from the 15th floor, err, i'm almost there.

I think god has given us a sign. Today, my friends computer broke down. My laptop keeps showing the Blue Screen Of Death Sign and the internet connection keeps breaking down. Scary.

Been really emo these few days. I think i need a brain washing therapy. I just can't stop thinking. It's actually healthy to think, but seriously, i think too much. Anybody have any tips for it ? My brains like a blender blending fruits, seafood, poultry, sugar, spice and everything ugly. Wonder if this recipe would make it to Fear Factor. LoL

As a martian, Malaysia is quite a nice place to be. It's politically stable, no dangerous natural disasters, no war. On this independence day, of the 18 years i've been on this soil, i'm still surviving. Although Malaysia isn't perfect, but i 'm loving it here. Well at least better than mars. Lol

Let's talk bout Penang,What I Love About Penang !

1. It's small, makes knowing people easier.
2. The food. How can we not love Penang food !
3. Penang Chicks are HOT !
4. Gurney Drive. Best Place Ever To Hang Out.
5. Penang Bridge.
6. Beach ! though it's not that clean. LoL
7. The Festivals Celebrations ( We Have Chinese, Indian, Malay, Japanese Celebrations !)
8. And Of course..Home Sweet Home

Penang is the best place to be..I shall contact the general to deploy more martians..LoL

I think i'm paranoid

I think i'm sick

I think i'm falling

" Cause I am barely breathing, I can't find the air,I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care "

i'm not wasted..lol

It's merdeka !! and i'm glad i'm sitting here blogging and not drunk yet.. Had whisky( It says 40% alcohol ) with coke, my 4th cup. RIght now, sitting here.
I wanna forget bout everything for once !! all those things that've been running through my mind.

Saw the fireworks from our place, cause we are facing KLCC. WHoa ..it's like so cool man.We were singing negaraku and all... I guess this are Where malaysians are the most Patriotic Moment...

I just don't wanna throw up on my bed. LOL!

Been to Kenny Sia's blog today, oh my god, he blogs bout anything and everything !! HE is so darn funny. I took his How Un-Malaysian Are You Test and i got this result.

Congratulations Noel, you are 33% not Malaysian.

That means you're as Malaysian as...

Michelle Yeoh!

How Un-Malaysian Are You?

LoL.. I'm So Malaysian..I Just Realize. I Read his post about the slimming ads. Thats Ridiculous man.SO Darn Funny. I Think U Guys should check it out.

Kenny Sia - Weight loss Ads.
http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2006/01/weight_loss_ads.php

I'm feeling kinda dizzy right now..And i hear my housemates are laughing out loud!!! Guess I'll blog later.. CHAO !

Sleepyheads..

I feel that every college student is a sleepy head. When we have nothing to do, we sleep. And not just for a while, sometimes a whole DAY ! It's just like that day, i left for college at 9, my friends were sleeping. I came back at 12, same position, still sleeping. hmm..

Last saturday went to times square, funny thing, i thought my dad had already bank in some money for me, so i thought i could accompany my friend go Times Square ( before that i only had RM9 in my bank, sad.). Went to the bank , just to realize that i still have RM9. Went anyway cause my friend was driving.

KL bus drivers are CRAZY ! They drive like professionals man, i almost thought they didn't have skills and were just reckless drivers (well some of them are really reckless). We were caught in a jam around chow kit road on the way to dang wangi, my friend is also one hell of a driver, so there was a bus beside us, my friend over took him ( FYI i'm sitting in front), not too bad i thought, until i saw the bus came speeding by, he missed our car only like a few INCHES ! My god.. i was like, he is skilled.

I feel like everybody in town have to drive like that, or you'll get stuck in a jam for hours.I'll grow into it. If i were the driver, i ain't that brave. But once you get into the driver's seat, you become a different person ! seriously, you'll drive like mad. lol.

Went times square did nothing, miserable me had to loan money from "loan sharks" again. A mini Jay Chou event was held in Sungai Wang, the premiere of his new MV and sales of his new CD, well it isn't out yet. I'm a big fan of Jay, at this point some people will look at me and sigh. LOL. Well, he isn't that bad, i feel his songs are great! Not to say he can rap well you know.

So i was suppose to study on sunday, ended up, Knight Online the whole afternoon. I do feel guilty, so i took out my IT notes and read them. Same goes to monday, woke up at 12. Finished up my presentation on wednesday and went knight online again. Knight online is a MMORPG , fyi.

Attended SWC ( Student Welfare Committee ) meeting at 5.15. Meeting was actually at 5 but me and way shoon hestitated before we decided to pick our lazy asses up. So went there, talked about bla bla bla. I just sat there and listen to nothing and i realize i've been changed from the program team to handling the decoration of the event stage. WHAT ! decorate the stage ? i thought that's like mostly girls are more creative. Had no objections anyway, tomorrow after my lecture somemore got meeting, die la.

I havent eaten breakfast nor lunch for two days. Only had dinner. My housemate, vivien said i've already meditated and reach my holy level d. LOL. Actually, part of it cause i woke up late, thats why i miss breakfast, and i wasn't hungry then. I'm actually very very hungry now.

Am currently so addicted to Space by Something Corporate,

Hey! Give me space so I can breathe
Give me space so I can sleep
Give me space so you can drown in this with me.

I like the song cause it reminds me to think about it. Everybody needs their own space.

Another favourite song of mine from Something Corporate is I Won't Make You,

I'm under attack again my dear,I'm in the way
Got no resolutions, no clever anecdotes to say
And still if I yell at the top of my lungs will it be the same?
I'd fly you a flag, I'd bury this pen into my veins
I wanna feel through you tonight
But I won't make you
I won't make you
The telephone number I got for you says nobody's home
The best thing I can think to do right now is leave it alone
And you had an apology in your mailbox since last July
It's funny when you find the words to say you find no reply

It's just so meaningful.