Makes Me Wonder..

I've been back to KL since last week, 14 of May. Been going to College almost everyday for setting up and rehearsal of Mass Call. It's been a tiring week and tomorrow would be the real day. Time actually pass quite fast, on the other hand i was complaining that time is passing too slow because i miss theng a lot. Come to think of it, it's quite fast also.

So, Manchester United failed to secure the FA cup after a 1-0 lost to Chelsea in extra time. I don't have anything to say. After putting high hopes on Manchester United, they bound to lose. While when you don't concentrate on them, they will win with a brace of goals. People say it's because of the game itself is already polluted by bookies and bets.

Paused.

And Here i am, after two weeks, continuing this post.

I've been busy. Mass Call was a great experience. It's fun and i really enjoy it except for the part where we had to stand for a very long time.

Tomorrow would be the first day of my second year or fourth semester. Kinda fast actually.

Me and Theng had been together for 6 months already. and she made me this..



A Card with mind blowing words *=P* and cookies shaped like Noel. Well, plus load more of cookies which left me craving for more. Yum Yummy. Love ya baby. =)

Time flies, when i look at the freshies that attended mass call, they remind me of myself when i first step into college one year ago. Everything was new and different. Can't believe it's been a year. Sometimes i still wonder if i took the right course, how would my future be.

I still haven't watch Pirates Of The Caribbean. Heard it's good, much better than Spidey3. Headed to Times Square with Theng on sat to watch but it was SOLD OUT, THE WHOLE DAY. Because of Wu Chun, a chinese actor or something which i have no interest in. Times Square was flooded.

My leg isn't healed yet, i wonder when i can play football again.

Anyway, guess i'll stop here.

Until then..

Another Day..

First things first.

All Hail The Newly Crowned Premiership Champions !!

Manchester United!!

Yes, Manchester United takes the crown with an 7 point lead over Chelsea with two games left, which makes it impossible to catch up anymore.

Back to reality, i'm bored to hell, i can't play football because my knee still hurt which is because--

Once upon a time, i was playing futsal, as i was imagining myself being Zidane, i turned and my knee did not follow, and it went crack.

It haven't recover fully yet till now. Sigh.

The remake of the omen is boring. I nearly slept through it. Well, i slept and continue the next morning. Which also does not surprise me.

Discovered Secondhand Serenade on TRL, all acoustic songs. Damn nice. The single is called vulnerable. They sound a little like Dashboard Confessional. Emo kind. And most of their songs have a phrase - "I was born to tell you that i love you". That's kinda cheesy. LoL

Talking bout Dashboard Confessional, i love their new single, stolen. It's playing in my head. Well, Grace Kelly by Mika is also running around in my head, for some reason. -_-

Is there anything that will make you not feel like listening to music at all ? because music is like life, but there are times that you won't feel like listening to music at all. I wonder

I'm just gonna think about what to do. =)

until then..

Long Long One.

It’s been quite a while since I had a proper entry in this blog. But since when do I blog properly. I find this place as messy as my table, well, at least they have labels on them. I don’t find a lot of footprints in here, nor do I blog for an audience. Honestly, I did thought of being like Kenny Sia and all. Guess that’s just not me. As when I blog, they are just words. It will definitely hurt your eyes.

Anyhow, I just came back from KL for the semester break, back home to Penang, after a refreshing third semester of my Two Year, 6 Semester Diploma Course. It’s great to be back, of course home is the best place in the world. The down side? Only for one week. I have to be back by May the 14^th, because of my involvement in the orientation week for the 2007 Tar College May Intake or Freshies. That’s what they called us when we were here a year ago.

Come to think of it, one week isn’t that bad. It seems that when I come back to Penang, I am usually stuck at home. For some reasons, I don’t seem to have friends to hang out with. Well, the people I usually hang out with here sleep next door back in KL. So, I practically need to see some fresh but familiar faces. It’s either me, wait, I shall rephrase that. It’s me that’s being the lazy ass for not catching up with my friends. Maybe it’s because we’ve moved away to a new environment, meeting new people, that we don’t really have the time to catch up, or the friendship isn’t there, and we lose contact. Sigh. But still, thanks for the memories.

Though I guess catching up won’t be a problem now because I’d be heading to a reunion dinner for the class of 2005 in Penang.

Everytime I come back here, my dog has to give me a headache. The first two semester, she ran away and got herself another dog stuck to her. And she also bit my slippers. Twice. This semester, I wasn’t expecting anything because I thought she would be good for once. And then it happen, she chew on my sneaks. My adidas white sneaks which I seldom wear because it was too precious. I want to shout and scream and but sadly, she chewed already. What can I say, as much as I want to scream my head off.

I was studying my ass off, well, that would be just a metaphor, but I did tried to study my ass off for this two papers, Web Page design and Tamadun Islam dan Asia. As much as I love Hiro Nakamura, I do like history, just the interesting ones. Well, most of them are because of it’s in BM. It seriously does bores the hell out of me. So MTV had to be so kind, because it’s my birthday month, they decided to award me with four tickets to watch Good Charlotte Live. I love you for that.

It was on a Saturday and I went to Bukit Jalil Stadium straight away after my Exam with Theng, Wallace and Shoon. The concert was great, it was good, no, it was fantastic! Although we did have some complications that includes moving around in a crowd that have no interest in listening to the music. That just might have spoilt the mood.

Moving on, here are some personal reflection moments. Coming back here just makes me feel, how to you put it, responsible. As I had been living on my own, where every decision I make is my own damn problem and I will have to deal with it if it goes wrong. I feel that, I am going to be taking care of my family when I am able to support myself, get a job and all. Because my parents are getting older, still working to support the family, to support my education. And business just isn’t looking good. I have a cute and adorable sister, who is somehow a rebel, whom keep things to herself. She’s a good girl, but I’m afraid she’s mixing with the wrong group of friends, too much exposure. I just feel more responsible as I’m the eldest in the family. That it is part of what I should do. I hope that’s a good thing. Just the process of growing up. I guess I’ve really changed a lot from who I am last time. Though I may still be an idiot.

Feelings, feelings and more feelings. Sad, happy, angry, emotional, it’s part of life. This is the part where I should be thankful of what I have but I’ll just skip that.

Been watching Grey’s Anatomy, It’s really a great show. Top on my list, together with Scrubs, Heroes, Lost and Of course, Supernatural. That’s what I do now, lie down and watch series, like a pig. Sadly, no wonder Theng calls me a donkey, and also a pig.

I’ve been up and I’ve been down, I’ve even lost control of myself for the past two months, for a minute i find myself like a total failure. Someone said that you make your own decision, you shape your future, you decide your life. I guess that person is partly right and also wrong, because we won’t know what will happen in the future. I think god is testing us, so that we can make the right decision, and if we fall, we pick ourselves up and take it as an experience.

I think that will be the effect of watching too much Grey’s Anatomy, I am narrating my own life. Like Meredith or in Scrubs, like J.D.

Ok, enough crapping. I’m late, gotta fetch my sis from School.

Try to update soon.

Until then.

Happy Birthday to me !

Yea, thats about it. Thanks to those who remembered.

Sad though. Not many remember.

Well, as long as this few people remember,

1. Sis *will tell dad and mum*
2. Baby
3. Housemates

or i'd be miserable.

I'm 19 ! Yay ! or should i go, yay......

I'd be looking forward to the year. =)

Support Local Events !!!

Dates

April 4-Chester Bennington From Linkin Park @KLCC Tower Records
April 7- Hitz.FM 10th Birthday Bash
April 8-Kanye West "Touch The Sky" Tour
April 9-Day i get my exam result
April 21-Good Charlotte Live in KL !!!

I'll be attending the birthday bash to support my favourite radio station! I've been listening to Hitz.fm for a very long time now i'm turning 19 and they are turning 10 ! WooTs

I'm gonna skip Kanye West, sadly.. Cause i'm going for Good Charlotte !!! Love their new album, Good Morning Revival.

Well i'm only into two songs from the album right now, Misery and The River.

I'm hoping Relient K would drop by, but it would be impossible. I don't see a Relient K fan base in Malaysia. Sadly.

Relient K is one hell of a band, though music critics consider them poppy instead of punk. They are actually a christian band. *I couldn't believe either*. Well anyway, they just released Five Score And Seven Years Ago. Different people have different taste.

Another Album to be expect would be Linkin Park's Minutes To Midnight. I've already heard what i've done , the first single on YouTube. I think it's only the demo. I don't want to be disappointed. I'm heading over to KLCC to catch Chester though. Wonder what is he doing here anyway.

Life's great. Well, there are a lot of happenings, which somehow i couldn't avoid, or maybe caused by me myself. But everything just slowly patch into one piece at the end, and i just am so grateful.

Until then..

down

i'm at the lowest point, emotionally.

My New Pet - Mikhail Blaxon

Real Name: Mikhail Blaxon

Age: Unknown

Occupation: Voice in the Night

Personality: Mikhail was an aspiring singer whose dream was to become the idol of millions through a popular reality show. However, the judges deemed him unworthy, saying that he was "untalented", "horrible" and "utter crap". In a fit of rage he attacked them with a microphone, getting himself electrocuted in the process. Although his body died, his voice lived on to torment his detractors with awful renditions of that Titanic song and a veritable "Best Of" list of teenage boy band hits.

Likes: Singing (badly), haunting showers, elevators and audition halls

Dislikes: Reality TV show judges, reality TV show winners, SMS

Tagline: “You’re here, there’s nothing I fear…”


That's the Diablo Spectrum SE Skin i got for My Nano. =)

Things been really busy and will get busier. I'm indecisive. Should i or shouldn't. It's a big sacrifice. Can i ? My time, my semester break. Is this my moment ? Maybe not so serious. Well elaborate later.

Until Then

Life is a highway

I love driving, fast. I love long stretches of highway. But i hate traffic jams, especially the ones on Federal Highway. It totally sucks. When i'm not in the mood, i just feel like driving around, alone, in silence, while during normal times, i like to drive fast, alone too. When fetching my friends or family, i drive safely. I tend to sometimes drive dangerously, but, i love speed. Still, i dare not push the limit.

I think it applies in my style of managing my life. I love to go fast, but i dare not go too fast. I'm dare not take the risk. I'm like to take a safe route, i need an assurance to go fast. Sometimes, this tends to stop me from doing the things that i want. Come to think of it, sometimes it's a good thing also. At least i think twice about the cause and effects and the people i will affect.

I'm almost 19 and the world just open wide. To a different perspective on everything.

Will things work out the way you want it to ? Will something you put your heart in it be a disappointment ? This is all part of what we have to go through in life, ups and downs, thick and thins.

Anyhow, i still love to drive fast.

A Post To My Dear Friend

You know what, i had enough. I had been patience with you, took every word you said, swallowed them and not complaining, i've given in to you, your fucking attitude, even though i did complain but i've never not treat you as a friend. I've done my best to make everyone happy, but i know i can't. For all those shit you have given me, for all these years, priceless.

Thanks For Everything.

Tired

Few more days, i'd be leaving home, few more days, i'd be getting my result, few more days, i'd be bored to death.

Haven't been anywhere out. Tomorrow heading to penang to meet Jennifer from Ipoh, then head to Auto City at night to meet Eugene and Wern Chien. It's been a while since i've contacted them.

A part of me is eager to head back but another wants to stay back. Maybe i need to be a little more independent. I've always been a mama's boy, i'd obey everything my parents say, well except for the fact that study comes first and girlfriend later. But i do take my studies seriously, i know how to manage my time. Maybe sometimes i will get carried away but i still know how to get back on track.

I'm gonna be 19 this year. By next year, i can be considered as an adult already, 20 years on earth. I don't have a list of what i must do before i reach 30. I need to make one. LoL.

Life's been great, sometimes, i'm still stuck in my teenage years, still being a kid, attitude also like a kid. Do things make decision also like a kid. I need to leave that behind, and start being an adult, i'm not small anymore. I know that. It's just being a kid is much more easier than having to know that you have a lot of responsibilities.

I think i watch too much of Ah Wong. But he also know how to think what.

Well, i hope that, this year, i may be more mature.

Oh yea, i wanna lose weight, any diet plan suggestion ?

Until then

It's hard...

Baby it's hard, but we gotta stay strong.
Baby it's tough, but we gotta keep going on.

I know how it feels, but think of the bright side.

Theng's feeling homesick, she's leaving for KL tomorrow.

I just got back from Auto City not long ago, was in Bed with Radiance, Shoon , Hun and a bunch of friends, mostly seniors.

Bed is a place, not a bed.

Update later, sleepy.

i know baby, three's the number for the month. =)

OMFG!
I take back everything i said !

Umm, i shall not take back what i said. Day's just fine. It is fine, it's utter mostly great, it's fantastic, but it seems like i have PMS.

LOOK, i'm a guy.

What the fuck is PMS messing around with me ? KennySia states that PMS also means Poor Man Suffering.

I hate mood swings, at first you are in good mood, and then Poof, you just get so emo that you want everyone beside you to disappear.

Worst is when you are with your love ones, and they have to eat it up to just be patient with you.

Lagi worst if it ends up in an argument.

Fish Fingers.

Deja Vu

Sometimes, i just hate myself, for ruining the moment, for being a overly sensitive jerk, for being a moron, for being a not considerate person, for being everything single fucking thing that i'm not.

and i can't stop it.

Bored

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Supermassive Steamboats

It's the first day of chinese new year.

Woke up at 9, mass was at 10.30am. As usual, i didn't prepare what to wear on the first day. Ended up unpacking everything i have. Finally settled myself in a white tee, jeans and white sneaks. The usual me. Went to church and then followed on to my grandfather's place, which is my dad's side of the family.

The best part is still about getting ang pows. It was a merry sight. Except for my aunt, she doesn't look that cheerful. It's the first time we are celebrating New Year without my uncle. He passed last year. Life goes on.

Had steamboat for lunch, again. Chatted a while and i was called to the table by my relatives. We started gambling. It's actually my first time gambling during new year. Dad used to object me gambling. Shooed me away when i got near the table. *lol*.

Went home after a while and took a rest. Went to my grandma's place at night for dinner, which is my mom's side of the family. Steamboat again. Couldn't take more. It's a more quiet atmosphere at my grandma's place. We usually just eat and talk and watch TV cause it's quite a small family.

New Year = Ang Pow + Steamboat x Weight Gain + family get together.

Now that's fun.

The almost all of my new year. Nothing much to do after the first day. Having steamboat *AGAIN* at home tomorrow. Visiting on Wednesday. Tuesday a free day. It's quite a quiet new year this year.

Darn tired, going to sleep soon. Dear's at her grandma's place. Busy cannot message her.

Until then.

The Adventures Of Luke Mcflurrywalker - Part 1

Long time ago, in a far far away mcgalaxy,

there was a person named Darth-O-Fish,ruler of all Universe,

He build McStar as his planet and base to defend against the people against him.
The prophecy says, a young padawan, by the name of Luke Mcflurrywalker,

Will rise into a full fledge desert and stop Darth-O-Fish once and for all!

As the people waited for the prophecy, things got worse,

Darth-O-Fish wasn't too happy about it and he vowed that if Luke Mcflurrywalker

ever stopped him, he will be dead before the oreos can are melted in his vanilla body......

Chapter 1

The Born Of A Jedonald

He wanders around aimlessly in the woods, filthy and hungry, he didn't know where he came from, he didn't know who he was. As he walked, he saw somthing flew pass him. " What Was That !? ", he said. Slowly, he was surrounded in the fog, he couldn't see anything anywhere, and here it comes, a small creature, walked towards him. "Yofries, i am. Luke Mcflurrywalker, you are. You would come to me, prophecy says. Been waiting, i am.",the creature said. "Luke Mcflurrywalker ?? What ?? Does that sound like the name of a person ??",Luke said. "Person, you are not. Young Jedonald, you are. Your Master, I am. To my place, Follow me. "Yofries said. Luke wonders about the new identity he just found out about himself. He decided to listen to the creature because he could feel the force around him. Furthermore, Luke thought Yofries was cute.

Back at Yofries place, Luke can't help but to gasp in awe. Yofries live in a big mansion just right beside the woods. " How could i not see this place ?", Luke said after wandering so long in the woods. " Camouflauge, it is, from strangers, only for Jedonald's like you. Come, teach you i must, train you i will.",Yofries replied. So Luke followed Yofries and trained under him on how to use his Jedonald's power. After endless days and nights of training. Luke and Yofries were having tea in his study room. " Improved, you have. Something for you, I give.",Yofries said. He pulled out a stick, which looks like a lolipop. "What's That ???.",Luke asked. "Lightoreosaber it is, specially for you.". Luke was amazed. He hit a button and out came a ray of light, with oreos surrounding it. "Thanks Master !",Luke said. But Yofries just laid there, motionless. "Master?? Master??MASTER !!, ARE YOU ALRIGHT ?".Yofries had been struck by Luke's lightoreosaber, but he didn't know. He vowed to revenge against the person who killed his master. Anyway, he inherited his master's mansion, and found out he had a room full of playmates.

Still, he couldn't endure the pain. Luke decided to take off from the place, he wanted to find who killed his master, and set off in a journey to Planet McChickeooe.

At a place far far away. Darth-O-Fish is aware, that a young jedonald is heading his way, to destroy him. He has been thinking about the prophecy. Wonder who is this young jedonald, and what he possess. Darth-O-Fish wasn't worried, he decided to go for a spa before thinking again.

End of chapter One

Some Definitions...

Ah Beng And Ah Lian
from wikipedia

Ah Beng is a term commonly given to a member of a group of young Chinese men in Southeast Asia, particularly Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese men, whose age ranging from their early teens to late 20s, usually centralise in the busier and more developed cities in the region, but are usually seen as originating from smaller or more rural towns. Ah bengs typically speak local slang, which is Hokkien or Cantonese mixed with English and Malay, such as Manglish or Singlish. They are often stereotypically portrayed to be anti-intellectual, superficial and materialistic and shallow. These values often lead to a lack of culture or indulgence in criminal activity or being involved in brawling or affray out of disagreement with other people. Ah bengs are also sometimes associated with extensively-modified or zhng-ed cars, and are stereotypically seen as being excessively flashy and show-offs.
The term 'Ah Beng' is also sometimes used to describe young Chinese men in Southeast Asia who cannot speak fluent English and/or have graduated from the secular Chinese education system of the region.


Ah Lian is a pejorative term commonly given to a certain group of young Chinese girls in Southeast Asia, especially Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese girls, whose age ranging from their adolescent years to late 20s, usually centralised in the busier and more developed cities in the region. They are regarded as bimbos, and are stereotyped as anti-intellectual, superficial, materialistic, and shallow. Ah Lians are commonly stereotyped as having hair dyed in gaudy and bright colours, and attired in fashion mimicking hip-hop culture, although how much of this is true is debatable. Since their male counterpart is the Ah Beng, Ah Lians are also thought of as being excessively flashy and show-offs.
The Ah Lian "culture" is especially prevalent in the secular Chinese educational system schools, typified by their frequent use of vulgarities and appearance in cliques (joined by their male counter parts Ah Bengs).
Ah Lians commonly speak in a kind of hybrid mix of Singlish or Manglish and Chinese, or Chinese-related dialects. It is also common for the grammar from these dialects to cross over English usage, creating English phrases with Chinese grammar.

That same ol' question..

Love, is a mystery, it can't be explained, though scientifically the feeling is caused by a chemical release by the brain.

If you were to ask a person why do you love your girlfriend/boyfriend, there will always be this line - love is blind, love cannot be explain, it's unpredictable.

True.

If you were to love that person so much that you miss them day and night, everything is just not right when they are not around, something seems amiss when you're alone. Is it true that you really love that person ? Or just the presence of someone beside you.

Love is a two way communication. If one breaks down, the other will follow. But how is it that you think you really understand your partner? Do they open up to you ? Or do they just say nothing.

Isn't understanding about knowing that person deep inside, how they feel about something. We are not super humans, it's hard to know everything about a person. It takes time.

I want a simple love, but i have been making it complicated.

Today, i know, what i really want, after so much thought.

I'm glad, i have faith, i trust, i'm positive.

Anyway, being completely sane after being insane, i'm back on track.

It took me a while to find myself. I was stuck with this crap for quite a while, a case of "the haunting" from the past, instead, i turned into the past.

Today's a Thursday ! And that means ? Nothing.

I'm so bloody bored. I think i can just choke myself and not die.

I shall continue playing Pokemon Emerald, until then...

Happy Valentine's Day

I'm back home for the semester break. Left KL at about 2 in the morning, reached home at about 6 plus. My dog ran away again, just lke last semester break, but this time managed to catch her before some sick dog got close to her.

It's Good to be home, finally i could just take a break from everything. No more assignments, exams, nothing, for three bloody weeks. Sounds short, but when you tell working people, they will go " Wow, students very lucky eh, break for so long." I agree though, i'm starting to get bored already. Nest week is Chinese New Year, where i'll be waiting for my ang pows. I shall show up at everybody's door step, beware.

Yesterday was me and theng's valentines day. We went out for a movie, watched Epic Movie, as stupid as it is, it's entertaining. Epic, as the movie says. Not quite a movie to watch on Valentine's huh. We went to the beach at night, watched the clouds, there were no freaking stars! I expected to see more stars here than in KL, instead i was greeted with clouds. Still, we just walked by the beach, enjoy the breeze. She made me a photo frame, a picture of us together from our trip to Genting during Xmas last year. Time flies when i'm with my baby. I just wished time could slow down a little bit. Good things comes too slow, goes too fast. Bad things comes in a blink of an eye, but goes away too slow.

Does anyone think i should see a doctor ? cause i have a sickness call thinking-too-much.

Well, until then, Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

soundaholic

Just a quick post, i'm part lazy to blog and i'm having exams now. Two more papers to go, programming and calculus, both my worst nightmare. One more week to penang. I'm going back home ! Back home to my family, to my baby, to my dear !

Oh ? who's my baby ? She's my new car !

Dear don't be jealous, i still do love you. *grins*

It's the time of the semester again and i can't study so i'm doing this post cause Jeremy tag me and i don't know how to do my calculus so i'm here...

Part 1: On the Outside

Name : Noel Tan
Date of Birth : 9 April 1988
Current Status : Taken
Eye Colour : Black, i think.
Hair Colour : Black Brown, after effects of chlorine.
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : Aries

Part 2: On the Inside

Your Heritage : Chinese = Hokkien + Teo Chew.
Your Fear : Losing someone i love.
Your Weakness : Thinking too much which causes major confidence breakdown .
Your Perfect Pizza : Chicken chunks, seafood, chicken pepperoni with bbq sauce and loads of cheeeeeeeeeeese

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up : What time is it ? Why am i having a headache.
Your bedtime : These few days i'm sleeping after 3 a.m.
Your most missed memory : The time when i have nothing to worry about.

Part 4: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke : Coke
McDees or Burger King : Mcd.
Single or Group Dates : Depends.
Adidas or Nike : Nike.
Lipton Tea or Nestea : I seldom drink tea, but usually if i do it would be Lipton.
Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla.
Cappucino or Coffee : Cappucino. Frapucchino would be better. lol

Part 5: Do You...

Smoke : A minute. Never liked it.
Curse : Umm, every single time, in hokkien and english. LoL

Part 6: In the Past Month

Drank alcohol : Yeap, at the condo balcony, playing poker and playing truth or dare.
Gone to the mall : Yup, christmas shopping.
Been on stage : Nahh, not presenting on stage, working on stage maybe.
Eaten sushi : I love sushi! but i haven't eaten it in a long time.
Dyed your hair : No, i want to but i just don't feel like.

Part 7: Have You Ever?

Played a stripping game : Nope. I'm too afraid to strip. Fats all over.
Changed who you were to fit in : Sometimes, but i prefer being myself.

Part 8 : Marrriage

Age you're hoping to be married : 25. If i'm able to support my family.

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl Best

Eye colour : As long as it's a human eye.
Hair colour : Black. Jet black.
Short or long hair : Long hair. Girls look hot with long hair.

Part 10: What Were You Doing?

1 minute ago : Thinking of buying Inside United cause Wallace going to KLCC
1 hour ago : Playing a IQ quiz.
4 1/2 hours ago : Trying to work on calculus.
1 month ago : Celebrated Christmas and New Year in KL.
1 year ago : Where would i be heading for college.

Part 11: Finish The Sentence

I love : Manchester United! And My dear Lay Theng.
I feel : Tired
I hate : backstabbers, show offs, people with big ego.
I hide : everything.
I miss : my family.
I need : my dear. I miss her dearly.

Part 12: Tag 5 People

1) 1
2) 2
3) 3
4) 4
5) 5

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cheers

Thoughts : Wise Or Dangerous ?

Exam is around the corner *runs around*

I'm so lazy to study even though i'm studying, it's just so depressing to study business and programming together.

This semester my goal is to achieve a 3.5 in GPA. I doubt.

My subjects : Economics, Principles in Information System, Programming, Calculus and Algebra, English and Bahasa Malaysia.

Two more weeks to go and i'm banking on lots of vitamins to keep me awake so i can finish like 30 chapters of economics, PIS, calculus and algebra and programming.

I've been thinking too much lately. At times my confidence is so low that anything would just happen. I hate it when i start to wonder and wonder.
I know it's because i'm afraid of making the same mistakes and losing someone again. I'm feeling insecure, because i don't wanna lose her..it's all inside my head.
I'm afraid that the little wierd things i do, or maybe a something i done wrong accidentally, will spoil everything. I try very hard not to disappoint her, cause i don't want to.
By feeling this way, i'm just turning into what i was last time, i'm making the same mistake, of thinking too much.
By trying not to do wrong, i tried too hard.
We are not perfect, but i'm trying to be, i want everything to be right for her. It made me paranoid.
The mind is a weapon, dangerously wise. It can help you, or it can destroy you.

But her words held me, stopped my mind from wondering, telling me everything is alright. A vortex brought all my wandering thoughts back into one piece. I love her, she loves me. I felt her warmth, the comfort. That's all that matters.

My mind is a super massive black hole. She tames it with one stroke. Amazing eh ?

As radiance demanded a new dedication.

Here goes, err, jie, hi, in this new year, i hope that everything will go well for you, and we will have much more to talk about. And..it's not depressing. *LoL*

I'm gonna study hard.. but action speaks louder than words. I will not procrastinate anymore. It's one of my new year resolutions.

Alright i'm gone..to bed.

Together Well Ring In The New Year

So it's Day 1, January 2007. This year there has been ups and downs, highs and lows. 2006 was a year with a lot of first's.

The start of college life, first time living outside of home, first time travelling in a bus *yes, long distance i mean* , first time eating so much mamak food in my life, first time not getting to drive often, first time going to One Utama Damasara *Don't laugh at me.*, first time sitting a friends car travelling from Penang To KL and Back. First time celebrating Christmas and New Year without my family *That's Kinda Sad*, first Adidas Sneakers *Muhammad Ali's*, first laptop, first DOTA game *i never liked DOTA until now*, first Inside United Magazine*Manchester United's Official Mag*, first time shopping on my own *used to shop with mom*

The special first times would be

First time someone tells me i'm predictable, first time someone tells me i'm manja *urkk?*, first time celebrating New Year's Eve at home*KL* , first time celebrating christmas in genting, first mini candlelight KFC dinner, first time on the cockscrew, space shot and the carousel thingy in genting, first time she held my hand, first time i ever dared to say what do i really feel, first fireworks display in KL.

2006 has given me memories, good and bad. If i ever did anything wrong, i apologize to everyone. Maybe it was my fault, maybe it wasn't, but if it is, i'm sorry, let's all be friends, and leave the past behind.

The year ended with a blast, and a start of a something new. Although i didn't went to any street parties, which most of my friends said i missed out the fun *i'm sorry theng*,i still had a great new years eve and i'm looking foward to 2007.

To My Family:
Mom, Dad, Sis, I love you all, even though i'm not at home to celebrate christmas and new year together. I'll be back soon. =)

To My Housemates:
Crystal,Vivien,Stephy. Thanks for being such great housemates and great friends. All the best to you guys!

To My Buddies:
Wallace: I've known him for 6 years now, even though he may not be all good at times, but he's alright. God Bless.

Kok Chyuan: Sometimes i just can't tolerate the annoying-ness of him, but he brings laughter to the house, and always being a "hunk" to his girlfriend, Hui Ping. He's been a great friend at all times. I appreciate it.

Way Shoon: It's been 4 years now, since i know this guy. I still don't know what to say about him. Still, it's been great to have him as a friend. *He's sleeping behind me, =/*

Wei Hun: *Laugh Out Loud*, thanks for pawning me in Fifa, i just like to irritate him so much.

To Ai Khim:
Happy new year mummy ! May this year be a good one for you ! and of course, time to find me a dad. =p

To Mon Ping:
Don't say i forget you again. We have been twins since form 4 and you should know well that twins know each others thoughts. LoL. Happy New Year !

To Jillian:
Mui, i'm sorry if i've been ngelecting you but as you said, we've both been busy. So keep in touch all right !

To Radiance:
Jie, what to say ? Life is full of surprises, things can be good but bitter in the end, but anyhow, you are still my jie, and i wish you all the best in everything.

Finally

To My Dear:
Although it's only been a while, but i've shown you too much of my "belang" already. I know sometimes i maybe a little childish, i know sometimes my actions are different from my image *as in i'm big, but inside i'm like a kid, or i'm afraid to go up the cockscrew*, and sometimes i may not understand you, but i want you to know, that i'm glad we are together, cause from what seems imposssible, and like magic, look where we are at now. I want to be the person you love, the person that makes you smile, the person that will be there for you always. Even though sometimes we may be both different from each other *as in, you like to go out, and i like to avoid crowds, you listen to pop/hip hop and i listen to all rock/slow rock,* i know i'm crazy over you, even though you are not as crazy as i am but as you said, opposite attracts. It's like positive and negative, one is needed to neutralize the other in order to achieve harmony. *all smile*. Loving you has been and still is the happiest thing in my life and it has been the best gift for 2006/2007, and i'm thankful for that.

Conclusion to 2006

It's been great. Time to welcome the new year ! Happy New Year Everyone !

Dear Santa, Again...

Again it's Christmas. Oh how i love this day.

This year i'm celebrating it high up in the mountains//wish i was home though.

As to get my blog in the mood, geek from mars is now on a sleigh.

Every year i prepare a list, write down all the things i want, and burn them to Santa//someone told me he's dead.//But this year, even though i have many things that i want, i just want to have a beautiful christmas. Because nothing, not even an alienware notebook, can compare to a wonderful christmas day. Though i wish to have an electric guitar, a PDA phone, An ALIENWARE notebook and finally an n-gage *i miss my n-gage*.

Three More Days.

Oh Kay, 8 Points Clear Before Christmas !

what i obtained this week : my sweetie bluree bear !

The best pre-christmas present for Sir Alex Ferguson, 8 points up on the table and 8 points clear of Chelsea. Seems like the English took a liking of the number 8 as it means Prosperity in Cantonese.

Yes, Arsenal drawed Chelsea just now. Arsenal should have just won the game but frankly speaking, Chelsea could have grab the winner BUT luck was on Arsenal's side for Chelsea struck the post TWICE in 90th minute. As Chelsea seems to the more lively side, Arsenal was just praying for time to end. Without the presence of Thierry Henry, Arsenal's game are in a way, not like what they use to do anymore. With passes out to the wings, likes of Adebayor and Hleb were unable to produce the attacking formula that Arsenal once possesed. A shot wide from Van Persie is all he got as he was substituted later.

Mourinho decided it was time for a gameplan change as he substituted Robben and Wright-Phillips. Robben prove to be the vicious one as he nearly scored twice. Both wings of Chelsea definitely put more pressure on Arsenal. The most funny part of the game would be the clash between Drogba and Lehmann. As Drogba was clearly fouled in the Arsenal's penalty box, the Refferey didn't see it Drogba's way. As Drogba walked away, saying something, Lehmann just had to push him in the back. Of course Drogba wasn't feeling quite happy about it and he had to hit Lehmann back, which the incident see both players getting yellow carded. How childish of both.

Arsenal had to get comfortable in the zone of Chelsea's half to produce a goal from Flamini, which was short lived as Essien's stunning goal which may just be the goal of the week. The game from the 85th minute was definitely enjoyable as Arsenal had some close calls because of a blunder by Lehmann. He definitely did something to the post as strikes from Essien and Lampard struck it.

Perhaps the most unsporting, or maybe too sporting player would be Ashley Cole, who is facing his Ex-Club. He definitely showed no respect towards his ex-players nor his fans. Sadly.

Still, we Manchester United fans are happy being on top of the table.

And YES, we've won Benfica 3 - 1, Topped Group F and proceed to the Last 16 in the Champions League.

"We've been playing some good football but have also grinded out some excellent results. We've got the balance just about right, we just need to carry that form forward now."- Ryan Giggs

You're the Man, Giggs.

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The week has been alright. Mid Term's up. Having one more paper this week, or two. Time flies seriously. For a while it was Monday, and now it's another Monday. I've been procrastinating, assignment not done, have a presentation coming up. And i'm sitting here blogging. *evil*

Maybe i'm a little too carefree. I should be pushing myself more. I definitely don't want to fail any of my subjects this semester. Considering Economics, Calculus and Algebra and Information Systems, which aren't my favourite subjects.

Christmas is near, and i would be celebrating it without my family. Well, i still have my friends but this would be the first time i'm celebrating Christmas out of home. Everything has it's first. *Wonders*. As i love christmas, i just wished that it would snow here. I've never seen snow before, only artificial ones. Made out of soap bubbles. =/

All right, It's already 3am and my class is at 10am in the morning. 6 hours to sleep.

signin off.

and i know it's a wonderful world.

Excited like O.O

*warning *- just a out-of-boredom post. contains no useful information, not to say that everything i say here is useful or meaningful.

Tonight's Game

Manchester United - Benfica showdown in Old Trafford.

Do-or-die game, determines whether the Reds move to last 16.

OR be knockout and humiliated like last year, where Benfica knocked them out too.

The Reds seems to be high in spirit. I haven't heard anything from Benfica, maybe they want to be known as underdogs. Hmm.

I'm so into No Promises by Shayne Ward the Daniel Bedingfield + James Blunt singer from X-Factor 2005.

I think that would be the only song i like from him. For now, That's My Goal is just cheesy, and i don't know the other song.

I'm thinking about..

My Dad And My Mom..

My bubbly sis.

My dog, JoJo. With her embarrasing posse down here.


She's Enjoying it.


Me, Radiance *my jie* and Way Shoon. Mid September, Sunway Pyramid


My mummy-Ai Khim, and me. Nov 25 KLCC.


Buddies, 28 October, Midvalley


Some wobbly world cup figures, Ronaldinho, Rooney and Cafu i think. World Cup 2006

My Love.

Dear Santa, I've been a good boy all year, and here is my christmas list.

1. Tickets to watch One Man United Match, preferbly Man United - Arsenal Match.
2. Electric Guitar, a black and white one, maybe signed by santana ?
3.An Alienware Desktop or Notebook, It's up to you, But minimum requirements, Pentium Core 2 Duo : Desktop - Extreme Editon 2GHZ, Notebook, 2.2GHZ, 2GB ram, 1TB HDD, Quad Crossfire ATI 1950XTX.

I should wake up from my dreams, those are unattainable goals for the moment. I have already reached the maximum output, which lies on the production possibilities frontier or PPF line. *searching the economics text book*

Christmas, Christmas, Christmas is near !

sunshine, sunshine.

*runs around*

sings with croaky voice

*stay with me*

loves you.

*laugh out loud*

cheese

TEN random things about me:

My mood changes like the direction of the wind
I'm learning to cook delicious fusion dishes with maggi mee
I prefer talking to myself than with someone i don't know
I love walking in the park
I'm fat
I get irritated quickly
I love getting attention
i love the way she is when she's with me
I love Christmas
I'm in love too ! *lol jeremy*

NINE ways to win my heart

Listen to me, even if i'm telling lame jokes. lol
Being honest with me
Give me random hugs and kisses
Surprise me
Love me
Hold my hand when i'm with you
Cheer me up when i'm down, even if i'm faking it. lol
being yourself
anything sweet you do would melt me easily

EIGHT things I must do when I'm dying:

Visit Old Trafford
Go around the world
Eat around the world
Cook my final meal
Play my final football game
Have a concert in honour of me
Spending time with my love ones
Buy the most high tech gadgets and donate them to charity after i passed

SEVEN ways to annoy me:

Being ridiculously annoying
Backstabbing me
Being arrogant
Cheating me
Being Ignorant
Talking bad about my love ones
Mess up my stuffs

SIX things I believe in:

Football
God
Karma
Bullshit
Supernatural
Love

FIVE things I'm afraid of:

Supernatural
Laptop breaking down
My dear ignoring me
alone
the dark

FOUR of my favourite items in my room:

My laptop
My notice board with "Theng" on it
My Guitar
My Bed

THREE things I do every day:

Eat
Love
Think

TWO things I want to do right now:

Hug someone
Go watch football

ONE person I want to see right now:

bluree

I tag:

Ai Khim
Izrin
*these people habis exam d*
Whoever is too too free

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I'm getting irritated quickly these few days. Don't know why.

Today i'm gonna compile a list of the phrases from songs that i like.

This is going to bring me clarity//This'll take the heart right out of me//She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted//She is everything I want that I never knew I needed//This is going to bring me to my knees//I just want to hold you close to me

I know now, just quite how//My life and love might still go on//In your heart, in your mind I'll stay with you for all of time

I guess you're the only one//that nobody changes//I guess you're the only one//left standing when everything else goes down

That I'm learning to breathe//I'm learning to crawl//I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall//I'm living again, awake and alive//I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

My Fav-

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for//You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for//You know it's true//Everything I do - I do it for you

Dear. You have given me more than anything i could ask for. And I love you for everything you are and everything you do. *hugs*

Match Highlights - Man Utd 3 - Everton 0

Manchester United Most Classiest Performance Of The Season, With Players Like Vidic, Giggs, Scholes on the bench, Manchester United Still Proof That The Spirit Is There To Win The Premiership Title. Three Cheers For Man United !

Game Report: United 1 - Chelsea 1

For me, Man Utd Should Have Won..

Report from www.manutd.com

United fans didn't know whether to laugh or cry after seeing their team maintain a three-point lead over Chelsea but miss a golden opportunity to double it.

The Reds led at half-time through Louis Saha's exquisite strike but were then pegged back with Ricardo Carvalho's equalising header with 20 minutes remaining. At the final whistle, it seemed a better result for the Blues as they celebrated in front of their travelling fans.

Sir Alex Ferguson kept faith with the eleven who dictated but lost the game in Glasgow – his strongest eleven in many people’s eyes. Chelsea’s team, however, showed two changes from Wednesday’s defeat to Werder Bremen - Frank Lampard and Ricardo Carvalho returning at the expense of Joe Cole and Khalid Boulahrouz.

Chelsea kicked off attacking the Stretford End, to a cacophony of boos as they negatively worked the ball back from Didier Drogba and Andriy Shevchenko in the centre circle to skipper John Terry at the heart of their defence.

The visitors’strong-arm tactics surfaced inside the first sixty seconds when Michael Ballack’s shoulder caught Cristiano Ronaldo in the face. From the resulting free-kick, Wayne Rooney was first to Ronaldo’s cross but his header was unfortunately as wayward as Chelsea’s marking. Germany captain Ballack was caught up in controversy again moments later when Nemanja Vidic was left on the deck clutching his visage – however, referee Howard Webb decided the injured party had committed the offence and awarded the free-kick to Chelsea.

Webb was far busier than either of the goalkeepers in the opening 15 minutes as the two sides tested each other’s mettle in midfield with some full-blooded challenges – Cole on Ronaldo, and Rooney on Makelele to name just two. But the South Yorkshire ref sensibly resisted the use of his cards until Makelele used his upper arm to thwart United’s attempts at a quick counter-attack in the 20th minute. Before that, Ballack’s handball was only punished by a free-kick. Ronaldo struck it with power, but straight down the middle, enabling Carlo Cudicini to push the ball over the bar without too much strain.

Cudicini was well beaten, however, by Louis Saha’s wonderful finish in the 29th minute. Chelsea’s midfield seemed to open up as Rooney played a pass from the centre circle into his strike partner’s path and although both Terry and Carvalho were back behind the ball, Saha kept his head and picked his spot, curling a low shot inside the base of Cudicini’s left-hand post.
This moment of beauty was followed by an ugly episode, Drogba planting his elbow into Vidic’s face as the two players jumped for a header. Not having the benefit of TV replays, Webb waved only a yellow when really a red was warranted.

Unfortunately for Chelsea, their first decent chance fell not to Drogba but to Geremi – to his credit, the right-back got his shot on target and van der Sar was forced to fist it away. The Dutchman’s next save saw him dive the other way, to clutch Lampard’s low drive to the right.
Geremi made way for Mourinho’s first substitute at half-time, Arjen Robben. It was an attacking change by the Blues boss but it was United who took the bull by the horns. The Reds came agonisingly close to doubling their lead when Rooney picked up Carrick’s reverse pass on the left flank, shrugged off Drogba to burst into the box and pulled the ball back for Saha or Ronaldo. Both men snatched at it, the Portuguese in particular could have buried it at the far post.

The battle for midfield supremacy claimed another name for the referee’s book in the 54th minute as the excellent Carrick for once mistimed his movement and tripped his England team-mate Frank Lampard.

Chelsea were enjoying a larger share of possession but two attempts to beat van der Sar in the space of a minute failed to find their target, Lampard firing a shot across goal and Drogba heading wide under pressure from Ferdinand. At the other end, Carvalho cleared a loose ball after Ronaldo chested down Heinze’s left-wing cross and Cudicini parried a fierce shot from Giggs on the right.

Carvalho the goal-saver turned goalscorer in the 69th minute when he leapt to meet Lampard’s corner from the right and powered in a header which hit Saha on the line and came down off the crossbar. TV replays later showed Saha had himself headed the ball – he could yet be credited with an unwanted owngoal by the dubious goals committee.

United immediately tried to bite back, but Terry blocked Saha’s shot and when Scholes hit a trademark thunderbolt on the rebound, it spun off the grounded Saha and out for a goal-kick.
With fifteen minutes to go, Mourinho again demonstrated his strength in depth by replacing Shevchenko with attacking midfielder Joe Cole.

Joe’s namesake Ashley had his name taken for a cynical foul on Ronaldo – and then chanted in derogatory terms by the angered home crowd. Cristiano played no further part – Giggs whipped the free-kick into the box, punched away by Cudicini, following a double substitution of Fletcher for Ronaldo and O’Shea for Saha.

So Mourinho’s men remain three points behind United and with two tough games to come in the Premiership. On Wednesday night, they travel to Bolton where both Liverpool and Arsenal have lost this season. Then, after a weekend without a game, they face the Gunners at Stamford Bridge on 10 December – by then United’s lead could be in double figures.

I don't know what to put for today's title.

I don't, seriously.

Went to KLCC yesterday with Way Shoon, Wei Hun, Me Mummmy Khimmy*extra mmS*! and Lay Theng.

4 November babies celebrating their day out, i'm an april baby. Lol

So.

What do you not want to see during a walk in the park at KLCC ?

1. Someone standing on the bridge that connects both towers.
2. Lots and lots of people, especially teenagers, smoking, creating a thick layer of smoke at the surrounding.
3. The guard telling you the park is closing.

So i was strolling around the park with the girl.

Blame Doink The Samsung's 1.3mp Camera. Still, it just makes you so proud to be a Malaysian.

And So

During that time, words are said, questions are answered and one stops wondering.

As we share a moment looking at the view, i remembered i once asked the girl what is she going to do with me. She said she would put me on the bridge high up there.

i don't remember what i said, which was something like being alone up there or something. But i remember what she said

"Bring me up there with you then."

It touched me.

And for a sudden, the crowd was gone, a gentle breeze, and it was just me and her.

I wished for time to stop. I wished the night would never end.

Too bad i don't have Hiro's power from Heroes to bend time and space.

Still, i could not have ask for more.

I've stopped wondering.

me mummmy, me and theng.

And so it begins.

Woke up at 12 today, manage to finish my assignments now. All that's left is validating for my programming assignment. Presentation's on tuesday and i'm totally not prepared.

Economics test this week, IS assignments. *bang heads*

Big game tonight ! Chelsea - Manchester United. Odds says that Chelsea is going to win tonights match cause it's their home ground and both teams lost during mid-week champions league fixtures. Still, Manchester United are going to come through. Bring it on Chelsea ! It's going to be one hell fo a game and for a manchester united fan, i would not miss it. Luckily my class is on 10 tomorrow.

until then..

She Is Everything I Need..

Why Are There So Many November Babies..

November is like the time to have babies.

November Babies .. like this two .

Way Shoon and Wei Hun.

Happy Birthday To Way Shoon ! November 25th.

Happy Belated Birthday

to Wei Hun, which was on the 22nd.

And i forgot, my cute devil, Lay Theng, on the 21st !

And Law Yi Hao on the 15th.

And the list goes on.

We made Way Shoon a cake. A Pan Cake. It's not a beautiful sight, we could have made it better. But we did try our best. Although it's not that delicious.

It's A Lil Miserable. This is already half eaten.

Ingredients:

2 Cups of Pan Cake Flour Mix, One Egg, Oreo biscuits, Honey and Tiger Biscuits.

Don't try this at home.

Still, Happy Birthday Shoon, God Bless and May All Your Dreams Come True.

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I'm not gonna talk about my hair.

I Cut it. It sucks.

.....

So I Was Bored...

I had nothing to do, so i decided to take the which singaporean blogger are you quiz from kennysia.com.

Congratulations noel, you are...

Scarlett Ting of joewei.blogspot.com

You are independent, smart and beautiful. Its too bad you don't see that yourself because life's little difficulties brought down a lot of your self confidence. As a result, you talk cryptic and you don't trust people easily. You care a lot for your friends and your loved ones, sometimes even more than you care for yourself, although they don't always seem to appreciate it. Don't let that affect you. As the saying goes, you don't miss the water till the well runs dry. So hang in there, you're a star in the making.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

listen..

i love listening to her. she can be so blur at times and she can be real cheeky too.

look at her cari pasal face.



and yes,

she makes me smile, run, go crazy, happy, sad, frustrated, everything..

i love my sneaks.

What's Real and What's Not..

I've been reading.

Today's dating scene are all about short-term relationships. Nothing seems to last anymore.

It's funny how people fall in love so fast. I've been through that before too. It never lasted.

Are we ready for commitment ? I just read on the papers that a 16 year old boy who's in love with a 17 year old girl. and he wants to MARRY her already. He even promised to love her forever.

That's just bullshit.

Time is something elastic, for one moment everything may seem so perfect, she maybe THE ONE for you, and the next moment, everything falls apart. How do you explain that ?

You are not ready for commitment.

All you want is fun and the feeling of having someones attention and when you get what you want, after all the lies you thought you said were true, you had enough and you back out.

How do you miss someone that you haven't even met ? How do you know you love the someone you don't even really understand ? If love is just about holding hands and all the physical stuff, then why love ?

One day you say you are in love, next day you say you are bored, and then after that you said you aren't gonna date anymore, few weeks later, you're in love again. It just doesn't make sense.

The media is portraying love in a wrong way, or we are just not mature enough to understand it. All the "And Everyone Lived Happily Ever After" stories are all just fantasies. It makes a person go "How nice if i'm in love, if anyone would do all this to me, i want a someone that is perfectly perfect"

i say stop dreaming.

It's funny that i say that i'm in love, but i'm blogging about this.

I think only we know how we really feel. And i stand by my feelings.

Ever heard of James Morrison's You Gave Me Something ?

"You Gave Me Something, That Makes Me Scared All Right, This Could Be Nothing, But I'm Willing To Give It A Try"

It means " I like to be with you, but i don't know if i love you, i don't know if i want to be commited yet"

But anyhow, this is complicated.

We all have our own opinions.

Our perspective is different, we are individuals.

Maybe it'll work for some of us.

Maybe it won't.

But to those who are in love, really, appericiate them.

Miracles do happen.

feels like rain..

another emo post ?

i don't think so. i've been too emo for the past few weeks.

if only you know how it hurts inside.

don't ask me why, i don't know either.

but my hearts breaking.

I'm Not Nerd Enough..Nor Cool Enough..

I'm suppose to blog about this few days ago but i had a presentation to prepare.

My presentation was alright. Heard from my friends teacher said i was the best in class. But yea, my class not many speak fluent english. So, it's consider cheating for me.

So anyway, YES, i'm not nerd enough nor cool enough. It is obviously that the class is splitted in to two sections, in fact, it's automatically split in to two sections. First, the N.E.R.D.s and the average kids. As you can see, questions are all answered by the N.E.R.D.s. While the other people just sit and look. If a question is asked, most of us would be asking the N.E.R.D.s help.

AS for me, i'm in the middle, i'm sitting in the middle as well. I'm half of both. People do come to me if they have a question, usually i'll give them the correct answer OR i'll give them a screwed one. Still, i can't look like both sides, or i can ?

I still don't know which side am i in. Or i'm not even in both sides. I'm considered the wierd one. I can't look good, i can't be smart.

=/

I got my result slips.

GPA 3.3333, 2 A's, 1B and C.

It's not that bad i guess. But this semester i'm whacked. Gotta catch up or i'll be dead meat.

Motion City Soundtrack - What about them.

When i first got the album *download* Commit This To Memory, The first track wasn't that bad, the second was my favourite, and on and on, It's Good ! I love punk and alternative. Bands that are not mainstream and doing what they do best. Thats what i call music.

Noel's done it again.

Sometimes i think that i'm mental.

Today i dropped by at Lay Theng's place to pass her some stuffs. It was peak hour, traffic was heavy. If i took a taxi i would be stuck. So , Brilliant NOEL came up with a Brilliant IDEA.

WALK.

So i walked back to the LRT station. At first there were pathways. Well, that shows i'm not that insane. Until i reached the freaking highway. Now u can call me insane. I practically walked on the motorist lane. Risked myself getting killed or rob. And it's like night time ?

It took me about half and hour. I think. The distance would be like, from my place now to Wangsa Maju Jusco, from HSBM to Desa Damai, from inderawasih to somewhere pass Pacific. Not that far right ?

I'm insane.

The last time i did that was worst, i walked from my high school back home, which is one town to another. Triple the distance.

I've downloaded NFS: Carbon.

Verdict: Sucky

I'm not gonna waste my time talking about it here.

Shoon, Wallace and Jason has been chosen to represent Hitz.FM for the AXN Penang Beach Challenge ! Thanks to Shoon who submitted their name.

They left the whole room to me.

BORED !

I must not skip lectures anymore. I have programming assignment, IS assignment and Econs assignment + Swimming assignment.

dead

I was told by Jeremy to not be so negative. Yes, i agree. I shouldn't.

It's slowly making sense, everything is patching up, and i'm going for the final shot.

=)

Off to write a testimonial for Chealene ! *i was forced too*

Signin Off

I look sad in photos, always.

A stupid person is someone who doesn't know what she/he wants or who she/he is.

gravity

about my last post..was just hell emo..like what jerayn say..=p

1 What bothers you right now ?
that i haven't have enough info for my presentation next week

2 Do you find guys with long chins sexy?
long chins ? donkeys ?

3 What was your dream last night ?
i don't remember

4 What is your greatest fear?
everything around me turns black

5 What was the best thing that happened to you this week?
when she said she sayang me. lol

6 What are you planning to do this weekend?
finish my presentation

7 What can you promise to the one you love the most?
that i will love her with all my heart, no matter what, even if she doesn't loves me as much as i love her.

8 What will you wish for if you had a genie ?
a vios ? lol ! i wish to have guitar playing skills of jimi hendrix.

9 Who is the one you're thinking of right now ?
the girl.

10 Who do you run to when you're down ?
Ai Khim, Jerayn, Jillian, Way Shoon, Lol.

11.You want ?
To sing

12 who was the last person you went out with?
Wallace and Kok Chyuan, watched Man Utd against Blackburn. Man Utd won 1-0.

13 who will you call/text later ?
my dreams. gonna drop dead.

14 what completes your day ?
she, a good meal, a good day, a good mood.

15 who do you want to talk to right now ?
scotty, cause he doesn't know *listening to scotty doesn't know* . Lol. probably my dog, and the girl.

-WHEN-

16 when will you take a bath?
when i wake up, which would be noon.

17 when will you watch a movie?
step up. waiting for the girl to go watch with me.

18. When was the last time you fell in love?
when she came to me. and when i had my guitar. lol

19 when was the last time you went out with your friends?
an hour ago.

20 When was the last time you said "i love you" ?
umm..a month ago. to the girl. lol.

21 When was the last time you read a book ?
yesterday. autocar mag.

22 When was the last time you asked for help ?
when i was emo. and when i can't find any info for my presentation.

23 When was the last time you kissed your bf/gf?
not eligible.lol

24 When did you last receive a gift?
years ago.

25 Do you easily get attracted to the opposite sex ?
not really, unless she's something out of ordinary.

26 Do you get jealous easily ?
sometimes. but i tend to control.

-MISC-

27 Anybody in love with you right now ?
i'm not sure about that..

28 Want to get married ?
yea, but even if i don't, i'll have all my money to myself. lol

29 Are you serious when it comes to relationships ?
sometimes being too serious just adds the pain but i've always been serious if i'm in a relationship.

30 Are you afraid of commitments ?
not really. but theres no forever.

31 Do actions speak louder than words ?
off course. You tell a girl you love her, but you can't even proof it, you don't even dare to stand up for her. what's the use ?

32 How can you tell if a person loves you?
it's hard. girls are complicated, they have their own way of expressing their feelings. but i guess you can feel it if love is present.

33 Are you good in handling relationships?
umm, i'm alright. i guess. but sometimes i can get a lil lazy.

34 Are you willing to give everything ?
when the time comes, i would know.

35 Do you demand your loved one to change into something that pleases you ?
something that pleases me ? lol. i love a person because of her. thats what attracts me to her. but if i don't like something about her, i'll definitely say it.

36 Would you let go of someone you love ?
if you let go means you're giving up.

37 Is sex important in a relationship?
if sex is important in a relationship, it's usually lust.

38 What is the major reason of a break up ?
jealousy, communication breakdown. definitely.

39 Most important ingredients in a relationship ?
trust, honesty, tolerance, being able to give and take, understanding each other and love itself.

40 One thing you like about love ?
being with the person who loves me for who i am, laughs at me because i'm silly, tries to make me laugh even if she's not good at it. most of all, it makes me the happiest person alive.

42 is your heart broken , beating , or taken?
it's beating, definitely taken.

43 you tag :

Ai Khim ! (because u very free)
whoever who has time to waste. lol

sigh

i'm so emo today.

currently in the computer lab in campus.

sigh.

i feel like bursting anytime.

i should cut down on the emo-ness.

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45 more minutes before co-curiculum

i'm rotting in the CIT centre

this would be the second time in a day i'm hanging out here

my second time since i came to this college

the connection here isn't that fast, it took ages to load blogger.

i can't even listen to online streaming. i think they banned YouTube too. cause it'll eat up all the bandwidth.

not really in the mood today.

no it's not PMS. I'm a guy

fuck

it's been a while since i'm so emo

maybe i just think too much

i do always

it's a part of me

i'll sit here and think while there is a possibility i can do something about it.

i choose to wait and die

no one cares anyway, nobody gives a shit

it's my life, everybody has their own.

we are all too busy taking care of ourselves that we don't have time for others

hey, that's suppose to be right !

i'm getting no where out of this.

so i better stop bitching before you get bored by my emoness

oh wait, you don't care anyway ! LOL !

hilarious.

Amusing

I've been very entertained lately.

Firstly - Tagboard Wars

I've been reading blogs, stumbled into one of a friend.

Seems like she has someone technically verbally assaulted her on her tagboard by calling her names and stuffs.

It's really entertaining actually. This technic is usually used when the abuser is desperate to hit back or he/she is just a nut.

What's the used in saying all those aggresive words about how bitchy someone is or how they look ? Maybe the abuser is just being jealous. He/she can't have what the person haves so they decided to take it out on ?

Poor Mr.Tagboard

I won't be surprise if the TagBoard attacks back one day. =)

Second On The List - Games And Movies

I know i'm a bit far away. Carbon is even out already. But it seems that my eyes are so tired because of this game. I'm at blacklist 3 now *after so long*. Been playing it all day all night. That's entertainment.

Other than that, another game i often play is Fifa 07. Though i'm the one who always get pawned.

As for movies, i watch series actually. My top3 series would be Heroes, Lost and Supernatural.

Thirdly - Tutorials and Assignments

Killing me slowly. But you don't see me working on them. *Yawn*. I have a presentation in two weeks, loads of tutorials. More assignments coming in. Week 4 already.

Fourth - Sleep

I've been having irregular sleeping times all month, maybe that's why i feel sleepy all the time. Night becomes day, day becomes night. Sooner or later i'll die.

Fifth - Music

OooOo ! My favourite songs right now would be

Sugarcult - Majoring in Minors, Shaking
Lin Jun Jie - Down
Relient K - Which to bury ? Us Or The Hatchet ?

Walking around campus with my neeon just doesn't help. It's too noisy to hear anything on my music player. Sigh.

Sixth - Devil Worshipping

I'm worshipping the devil. Wait, i'm in love with the devil. A cute devil, according to the girl.

Lay Theng - cute devil that bites.

Maybe i should edit one of her photos and post it here. =p

Seventh - Demands

Kok Chyuan Demands I Say He Is Great Here.

So,

KOK CHYUAN IS GRAPE !

Gonna sleep.

Thanks for Tuning in..

I miss you..

Birthday Post

To Jillian, My Dear Mui:

~Happy 16th Birthday !!~

God Bless Ya ! =)

Majoring In Minors

First Up,
To Khimmy!!
Happy Belated Birthday !
Though i already wished you. =)
It's been a wierd-funny-angry-irritating-happy week.
Class ain't that Bad.
My least favourite tutors would be of Econs and Principle of Information System.
A total of 6 subjects.
I hve class as early as 8, as late as 10, ends as early as 1,as late as 4.
My assignments and presentations are starting to pile up.
Been spending a lot of money last month, this month and also for the next few months.
I'm attending swimming for co-curiculum.
I've to learn the basics.
Like how to float.
Which i know how.
LoL.
Sometime's college is so lonely.
I'm missing her loads.
Looking forward to meeting her.
She's busy with test and assignments due.
I'm glad i have her.
Huggies.
Wonders.
I'm into Sugarcult's Majoring in Minors
It's so nice.
Their album Lights Out is available now through torrents and Original CDs.
Need For Speed: Carbon is out already.
Currently downloading it now.
Life is as usual.
Routined, but i won't let it be.
So Sleepy Right Now.
Suddenly No Wind To Blog.
Pictures from outing @ Midvalley with housemates.

See No Evil, Hear No Evil, Speak No Evil


All Smiles. =)

This Is Jeremy The Psycho


Vivien And Crystal

Vivien And Shoon ft Hun behind.

Shoon and Wei Hun , Again.


Guys.


Star


I Have Big Nose

That's All For Now, Thank's For Tuning In..

From Fantasy To Reality..

What am i blogging about ?

I'm gonna train my writing skills.

What Am I Blogging About

By Noel

Welcome to the dark side of my world. This blog shows the other side of me, the emo, negative, all things wierd noel. As why i decided to let this side of me loose, is because of the fear of turning into a person like that. Or something. Bear with me for my english isn't that good.

I blog about anything, about what i do, what i feel, what i like, what i want. I can write from a simple statement like, why do people smell like fart when they walk pass you. Usually, when i start a topic like this, it means i'm bored.

So if you read this, and you start to realize i'm not who i am in real life, it would be better if you step away from me.

Back to the point, half of what i blog about is all emo stuff, i easily get emo. I don't know why. I think it's because i think too much. I don't care what do you think about my blog, i don't care if it's popular or not. I don't want to decorate it with fancy fancy css style sheets. As long as the people that cares about me knows whats happening in my life through my blog, it's fine.

At this point you are going to think that i'm in denial, i want attention more than anything, i shall say, it's true. I'm an attention seeker. I want to be notice.

In the end you would realize that you are reading a piece of crap. So thanks for tuning in.

=)

Kindy level, definitely.

Class at 9 tomorrow. Signing out..

If there's somebody, calling me out, she's the one.