so near yet so far

Back in Penang for holidays. Just reached not long ago and i have this urge to blog.

So who did i came back with ?

Answer : Lay Theng

God, i was so freaking nervous. but everything seemed to went well. The stupid thing is the bus system is whacked. Luckily we didn't have to wait long for the bus. Manged to leave at 12am while our bus was suppose to be at 11pm.

The journey back was all right. I couldn't sleep. Well, i wanted too but i didn't want to. LoL. The bus had water dripping on me. How nice to have real special effects in the bus.
I looked at her while she's sleeping, no i'm not stalking. It just makes me smile. I see a girl, i want to be with. I want to make her happy, share her joy and heal her sorrow. It's not about being dramatic. It's true.
So as i dream on.

Gonna hit the sack, snooze till noon. I have the bed to myself, woo hoo, sis went somewhere.

until then.

I Passed All My Subjects ! Even Pre-Calculus !

blog later, heading to low yatt, going back penang tomorrow .

stalking.

i wonder into your world, i see a part of you i don't see everyday,
you're full of joy, sometimes sorrow, sometimes clueless,
but i want to find out about you, and here are a few

you regret everytime you cut your hair, but it always turns out right, sometimes.
you make little things sound important, even if it's a rainy day or an injection.
you are always tricked into doing something you don't want to. LoL. I guess that's because of your blur-ness.
you dare to try something new, even if it's dangerous.
you have good chemistry with kids.
you are funny. though you don't realize.
you love chocolates.
you are in my mind, in my dreams, in my thoughts, in my words, in my head, in my life
..............

i won't be able to list them all, cause frankly, i don't really know much.

it's funny that i think too much. sometimes i feel i can't get to you.

maybe it's just me. again. i should get some sleep. haha.

3.41am

The Mixed Tape

This is morning

That's when I spend the most time

Thinking 'bout what I've given up

This is a warning

When you start the day just to close the curtains

You're thinking 'bout what I've given up

Where are you now?

As I'm swimming through the stereo

I'm writing you a symphony of sound

Where are you now?

As I rearrange the songs again

This mix could burn a hole in anyone

But it was you I was thinking of

I read your letter

The one you left when you broke into my house

Retracing every step you made

And you said you meant it

And there's a piece of me in every single

Second of every single day

But if it's true then tell me how it got this way

Where are you now?

As I'm swimming through the stereo

I'm writing you a symphony of sound

Where are you now?

As I rearrange the songs again

This mix could burn a hole in anyone

But it was you I was thinking of

And I can't get to you

I can't get to you

I can't get to you

Where are you now?

As I'm swimming through the stereo

I conduct a symphony of sound

Where are you now?

As I'm cutting through you track by track

I swear to God this mix could sink the sun

But it was you I was thinking of

And where are you now?

And where are you now?

And this is my mixed tape for her

It's like I wrote every note

With my own fingers

College Wars - Return Of Semester 2

Back in KL. Ready to stomp the world. And i missed lecture this morning. I must change this fucking habit. But it's the first week, so it won't be that bad.

So i had people ask me, how's the feeling, coming back here, living on your own, surviving on mamak food. Well i say, i'm getting used to it. But i'm sure i would eat less of mamak food or i'll die. Well, maybe not enjoying the broadband here. It would take ages for me to download stuffs.

I don't know why, but i seem to come back with more stuffs, even my clothes are doubled. My plastic cupboard is gonna fall anytime. It's almost full. I have tees, tees and more t-shirts. I'm a t-shirt freak. I only wear t-shirts. Maybe thats why i look like a kid in college, while others are all fashionably dressed up. Haha. Why call it t-shirt anyway ? *wonders*

Actually, i didn't mean to skip lecture this morning, but as i was messing with my hair, which couldn't stand, even with wax, i got fed up, and i was already late. So, i took the time to wash my bed sheets and my blanket. Which is a good thing, cause i wanted to do it first thing i come back. I got my friend getting notes if there is for me. I won't miss much. I hope so.

I'm not that vain actually, i was just trying to do something different. *lol* . Seriously, my hair never stands, it's too soft. I wonder if it's healthy or just whacked. Even after waxing it, it goes back to the shape it originally is. I've already gave up dressing up my hair since secondary. Couldn't be bothered.

I'm hungry again. Oh wait, i did not eat breakfast. Everybody is still sleeping behind me. Yawn, i'm feeling the sandman too. Afternoon is gonna be dull.

"cause you give me something, that makes me scared all right. this could be nothing, but i'm willing to give a try. please give me something, cause someday i might know my heart." - You Give Me Something - James Morrison

yea, she gives me something, which could be nothing, but i'm willing to take the risk. It's better to have something than nothing at all. =)

until then.

My days are numbered.

3 more days left in Penang, before the new semester starts.

I can't wait, but i'm gonna miss penang.

This semester break is my first and the best. Thanks to everyone for making that happen.

Tomorrow the Pass/Fail list would most probably be out. I'm praying that i wouldn't fail my pre-calculus. I have calculus this sem and i don't want to repeat any subjects. *prays*

One good news, it seems that we don't have to fear of our parents knowing our results anymore. we are to collect our results from the college starting from now. Still, it's better to let them know. or not. *evil*

But i definitely don't want to waste my parents money. I want to be somebody at the end of all this.

I lost touch in C++ ! god, how am i gonna resume programming designs and concepts 2 ? i should spend more time doing programs then play games. LoL

I had my eye checked the other day, i'm short sighted since i was 3 or 4. Sad eh. I watch too much ninja turtles when i was that age. That day i told my friends, they said i watched porn too much, i said i watched ninja turtles when i was small, one of them gasps , he said " You watch ninja turtles porn a ?!" *faints* . Sometimes they are just ridiculous. lol.

So, my left eye increased to 775, i don't know how they measure it. While my right eye stays at 650. I'm going to be blind ! I should maybe see other stuffs more than my computer. So, i decided to change my frames, since mine here is kinda whacked. My lenses cause RM180. That's why i advise you kids, don't watch cartoons too much, you'll be like me, wasting your parents money. haha.

What have i not achieved in the things i would want to do in penang that i listed before coming back, i've done everything. I've spent time with my family, met up with friends, went to the beach, went to gurney, i had penang food, i enjoyed playing ball, i broke my usual speed limit, driving my dad's car to a mere 150km/h. lol. He doesn't know that.

Oh, now i remember, i haven't meet Mon Ping, that will be for tomorrow AC session ! (AC = autocity) . =)

Download frenzy, i'm afraid i won't be able to enjoy a single line connection anymore back at KL, have to share it with 5 other pc's. So i'm now downloading like crazy, got myself about 10 albums already. Plus my weekly dose of supernatural, heroes and lost. I seriously need to get an external hard disk.

great, i'm hungry.

until then...

Hypnosis - I NEED attention

Lol..This is a hypnosis session.

Listen to ME !

I'm BORED

NOW!

I demand attention from all of you.

I want you, you and yes, you, to do something for me, no matter what it is.

I want to be surprised, shocked, sad, happy, whatever.

I want to be a King, no wait, A Prince for a day.

Someone get me my cloak, my juice and my food !

Someone do something special for me.

Someone please make my day !

I want to be surprise in the morning with a message in my handphone inbox.

I want to be hugged and cuddled. I want someone to hug and cuddle too. ( This Is A Wierd Demand, lol )

I want you to listen to every word i say.

From today onwards, you will be under my command. Now Wake UP ! *snap*.

I think i'm insane, i need.. someone give back my sanity !

If i was hypnotize, i'd be a duck.

Is it true that i'm missing you ? I think i am.

1.01 AM

I look out the window, wondering what's beyond the clouds,
is there a you and me out there, or i'm just on my own.
The sun shines upon me, telling me to put on a smile.
cause the reason when i smile, is all because of you.

Your absence makes me shiver, wakes me up from my sleep.
I wish i could be right beside you, i don't care how or where.
All i can think about, is the way you look at me.
It keeps me hanging on to you, wondering if i'll fall.

If i told you i miss you, would you say the same ?
Or would you just close the god damn door, leaving me alone.
Would you care about me, the way i care about you ?
Or i'm just invisible to you, after all this time.

I'll be there for you, catch you if you fall.
Be with you when you are down,
share your laughter and tears, your pain and your joy.
Cheer you up when you are moody,
Or sing even if i can't, just to make you smile.

With you, i'm never blue.
Wished you knew how i feel.
Wished i could read you mind.
Wished that you could be mine.

Cheesy..

2.57 AM

Feelin' Way Too Damn Good

I'm in such a good mood today. No wait, it started from the evening. LoL

I woke up at 10 to find out that my dog bit my flip flops. Spoilt. Arghh, it's the second pair she destroyed. Her timing also very funny, before i left for KL, she destroyed the first pair, after one semester, there goes another pair. Dad said she quit that habit already, well, i guess some habits you just can't quit.

Spent my afternoon watching High School Musical. Actually enjoy it. I enjoy watching disney movies. When i was young it was cartoon network, and slowly switched to disney, then nickelodeon.

Now ?

ESPN, StarSports, Star World, MTV, [V] Channel.

Lol, drastic changes. Though i still watch cartoons, dad actually complained i watch too much cartoons at this age. It's fun, laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes it's good to feel and be like a kid. =)

Evening, went football. Some people just don't change. I admit i'm not maradona or ronaldinho. They expect you to pass once you get the ball, i did not even have time to look where to pass and i got scolded. What the hell ? My brain also can't think that fast. I don't think they can do that also? Once you get the ball, you'll sure look for a suitable place to put the ball but they think they are so skilled. Thats the reason we get tired easily, cause the game is always fast paced. Lose already blame others, scold here and there.

But thats the fun of it, i love challenges. I want to be pushed, but sometimes they are just over their head.

Went out to dinner with dad. Sis and Mum went Penang, one go out with friends, another went dancing. Later, went G7 at Pacific yum cha. With Shoon, Wei Hun, Jason, Wallace and friends. 12 of us. Played chor dai di (poker), i don't even know what you call that in english. LoL. I won 4 times, twice in a row. Was in a good mood. Guess thats why i'm lucky.

Lay Theng is growing older. She's turning 18 in a month plus. 18 is the new old age. Haha. 44 days to her birthday. I didn't know 18 is Sexy, while 16 is sweet and 17 is ? sassy. lol. Whats with all the s'es.

Jason is going to skip one week of his class. I wonder how is he going to manage it. He says, he is going to the hospital tomorrow for check up, saying something about having constant headache and numbness. He just wanna skip class and be in Penang. Fake ! LoL.

I smile because of her. Never felt so happy before for so long.

*stupid smiley*. naive.

until then..

Rewind

Back home from gurney. Babysit my sis and her friends there, with Way Shoon accompanying me. Well, he went there to meet up with his friends. As usual, walked round and round, that's what we always do. Nearly got lost in Penang cause i forgot the routes. Manage to get home unhurt. LoL

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Friday, Yesterday, is a day,

A day which i spent at the beach, with Way Shoon, Kok Chyuan, Wei Hun, Cher Ru, Hui Ping and Lay Theng.

A day i made stuff out of sand, play ball, had fun and even went on the banana boat.

A day i made her name with sand, but destroyed by the guys, a horse, and a few ATVs (all terrain vehicles).

A day i collected sea shells into a bottle and one of it got stuck, i had to break it. =/

A day i saw Wei Hun charged RM40 for horse riding. He was satisfied though. LoL

A day Way Shoon and Cher Ru were flying up high in the sky on the parachute thingy. With Way Shoon screaming like a girl.

A day ......

A day that may considered as the happiest day of my life. Hope there's more to come. I'm not greedy, i'm just beeing hopeful. =p

*smiles*

And To Eugene

Happy Birthday ! God Bless !

very tired and sleepy, gonna hit the sack, until then..

nothing beats the feeling of being at home.

If your aren't happy, read this ; if you are happy, read it too..

25 ways to stay happy.Something to share. =)

1. Change Your Thinking. Live everday as if it is your last. People who survived a terminal illness or accident, witnessed a tragedy or lost a loved one are said to have a different perspective on life. Many will say that they no longer leave anything untill later. They travel, learn a new skill, contact a friend now. They know - & we should all remember - that there might not be a later.
2. Keep a journal(or blog). Write an ongoing list of good things that happen to you everyday. What was that lovely thing your daughter said to you the other day? You will not remember unless you write it down. Problems can be solved & bad things cleared from your thoughts by writing them down, too. Try it - it works.
3. Get some perspective on things. Think about how you would like to be remembered & what you might tell your grandchildren about your life. Is it really that important that the linen is changed weekly & the floors are kept spotlessly clean? That work meeting last year that meant you missed your child's school concert - does it matter now?
4. Don't let the small stuff bug you. Wasting your energy by getting upset about life's many minor irritations is not worth it. Smile & wave to the driver who won't let you merge into his lane. He's rude & aggresive, & it's his problem. You've missed the train? Fretting is pointless - the train is gone. Enjoy the coffee while you wait for the next one.
5. Do any unpleasant or difficult chores that need doing. Do them NOW! Procrastination drains your energy & burdens your mind. If you are thinking & worrying about something that needs to be done, you might as well be doing it.
6. Change your routine. Life can begin to seem like a bit of a chore if we do the same thing day after day, week after week. We need to create interest in our lives, & to do new things. If you normally sleep in on a Sunday, the "sleep in" is no longer a treat. Why not get up early & have breakfast in the park? You'll beat the crowds & be heading home as they arrive. The day will seem much longer. (Or, for those who never sleep in, arrange it somehow - what a luxury it is!)
7. Don't try to keep up with others. So, your neighbours have a larger home, the latest stereo system, a new car - WHO CARES? Look again. He works on the weekends, & they never seem to see friends. Who's better off, really?
8. Have a big clean out & divest yourself of useless "stuff". Clothes unworn for a year, the dinner service that you've always hated, kitchen utensils that are always in the way but never used, unused linen(you still have cot linen on the shelf & the "baby" is six!), toys, books, furniture - give it all to a charity & you will have helped the poor. The bonus is that your shelves & cupboards are clutter-free now. Housework is eaiser, your vision is clearer & the feng shui of your home is improved.
9. Learn to say no. You don't have to do it. Your life is already too busy & you are running from one thing to another. Give yourself some space to think & time to do something for yourself.
10. Remember to love your partner for who he or she is. Have they really changed so much? Or(think about it!) might he/she actually be the same person that you fell in love with? The relationship might need some work - eveything needs some repair work or maintenance after a few years of running - but the parts should be still in working order.
11. Don't let familiarity breed contempt. Your partner & family deserve at least the same consideration you give your friends. & you deserve the same from them.
12. Tell your partner, family & friends that you love them. Tell them what you love about them. Tell them when they do things well. A little praise never hurts & before you know it you might be told that you've done things will too. You never know.....
13. Are you always a shoulder to lean on for troubled friends? It may be hard, but if their problems are getting to affect you, then you need to try not to be quite so available all the time. They need to address their problems & get on with their lives.
14. Phone, e-mail(write them a testimonial or message them on friendster) even write to some old friends. You've lost touch, but it needn't be for ever. & how long is it since you spoke to your Great Auntie Jean? She'd love to hear from you.
15. Enchance your mood with greenery. Cut some fresh flowers from your garden - or get up early head to the markets & fill your home with loads of cheap flowers, fruit & vegetables. Everyone had pot plants in the 1970s - bring them back! These fill the house with life & vitality.
16. Go to the beach. The long views, the wind, the waves, barefeet in the sand, sun on the back - there is nothing so good for the soul. (My friend Kendra is renewed & invigorated in the same way by a walk on a hill. To each his own.)
17. Create something. Paint, sculpt, sew, bake, garden - ANYTHING!
18. Breathe fresh air. Go outside or open the windows,. Breathe deeply to the bottom of your lungs & feel the stale air leave you.
19. Go for a walk. This gentle exercise will renew & invigorate you physically & mentally on your first outing. Take it up regularly & you'll feel better everyday.
20. Rent a funny video & have a good laugh. Old comedies always do it for me.
21. Move your furniture & ornaments around, change rooms, paint walls. It's true, a change is as good as a holiday.
22. Give yourself something to look forward to. Book a holiday, a night out, a massage.
23. Invite friends over for dinner. Get everyone to dress up, & decorate the room & the table. Greet everyone with cocktails or Champagne, & have music playing. Spend time thinking about & planning the menu, enjoy the shopping & cooking. People can't help but respond positively when you've gone to a lot of effort for them. The night will be good fun. & don't get stressed over cleaning the house beforehand - no-one will even notice.
24. Smile. Smiling is contagious try it & see.
25. Make someone else's day happier. It may sound a bit corny, but why not? Start by suppressing the urge to blast your horn at the slow driver ahead. Or you could make a positive move by volunteering your time for a charity.

There u go, all 24+1 of them, thanks to jeremy. It's actually from readers digest. I think i read b4. It's really some good advice.

"You Miss 100% Of The Shots You Don't Take." - Wayne Gretsky,NHL player.

This quote is so freaking true. If you don't do it, you get nothing. I encounter this situation a lot of times in life, even now. I have a chance to do something but i don't cause i'm afraid and embarrased. Eugene told me that we have to take risks to achieve something. And if you don't, you'll have nothing. Don't go waiting on for money to fall, or love to come, or good grades to score. We have to start taking chances and risks to do that something we have been given an opportunity to do.

Until then..

wierd' ol noelic

I did this survey this morning. So It was based on my thoughts in the morning.lol

write a blog with six weird facts/things/habits about yourself.

1. I pick my nose then eat the mucus. lol
2. I always have a bad hair day. Better still, Bad Hair All Year Long.
3. I don't like going out to clubs and party with people i don't know. I rather sit a home and enjoy a good book or play games.
4. I'm too big that it's hard to find a shoe size or a shirt that will look good on me.
5. I'll pick up my guitar or an air guitar, and imagine i'm a rock star, with a huge crowd infront of me. Sing out loud.
6. I often talk to myself.Self expression.lol

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grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
Combination of those names that fitted the clue that Josephine had given her.

stretch your arm out as far as you can.
That feels good. I just woke up.

what is the last thing you watched on tv?
Some mandarin program.

without looking, guess what time is it
11.45am

now look at the clock. what is the actual time?
12.04Pm. I've lost track of time. Been waking up late.

with the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My fan, and the headache in my head that goes bamp bamp bamp.

when did you last step outside? what were you doing?
Yesterday, went out with my friends.

before you started this survey, what did you look at?
wordpress, jeremy's blog.

what are you wearing now?
a black pants and a shin chan t-shirt Which says bi shen or must win.

did you dream last night?
I don't think so.

when did you last laugh?
While watching Rob-B-Hood. Laughed all the way.

what is on the walls of the room you are in?
Nothing, mum won't let me stick anything.

seen anything weird lately?
Umm, i don't think so.

what is the last film you saw?
Rob-B-Hood.

if you become a multi-millionaire overnight, what will you buy?
Hmm, before i start buying anything, i'll divide my fortunes into section.
1.My education
2.My Future
3.Mom and Dad
4.Sis
5.Donation
6.My tech Gadgets

I'll probably go get myself a Mac Pro to start with.

tell me something about you i don't know
i sometimes think like a girl.

if you could change one thing in the world, regardless of guilt of politics, what would you do?
Racism. Definitely. I would eliminate all thoughts of racism in the world, maybe with a brain-frying machine.haha.

do you like to dance?
No. I never dance. I look stupid while dancing.

george bush:
i remember the flash game that i used to play about george bush and osama.It's like trying to hit each other or sumthing.

imagine your first child is a girl. what would you call her?
Elizabeth. I find it very nice,

imagine your first child is a boy. what would you call him?
Christopher. After me. *my generation*

would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes ! I have. Someday.

i tag....everyone !

zero-sum game

I've been tag again by Jeremy, i'll post it later. Haha

I'm an ass for the moment. I wonder how an ass does his thing, i mean, what are the characteristics of an ass. Being jerkishly sarcastic is an ass is it ? Or having ass is considered an ass. LoL

I decided to pursue on a part-time gaming career. Gonna train for Fifa 07 and enter the WCG 07 !It's gonna be a dream come true. Now i have to get used to the ass-kicking and getting pawned by other online players. My first online game, my first lost is to Alex or better known as acc / accelerator7. Bayern Munich 3-1 Manchester United. He's organizing the LYN League (LYN is Low yat.Net i think). Playing in the LYN league gets you ranked for the WCG Games !

Went to Gurney today with the gang. Dad hestitated when i told him i was driving there.

He said " Better Drive Carefully, Remember That Unser Last Year?" Once i hear of the unser, i totally understood. LoL. I had an encounter with this Toyota Unser last year. Apparently i was driving too fast into the corner and this Unser was too near beside me and i went past it and BOOM, my car hit the unser's side mirror. That guy was from Alor Star and he had a family. To make things worst, it was a new car. Rm300 fly away. Dad was real disappointed then. Since that day, i never really dared to drive that fast anymore. Still, i seriously enjoy driving, i still go fast but i definitely learnt my lesson.

So, back to gurney. All of us there are KL tarcians which includes me, Way Shoon, Wei Hun, Kok Chyuan, Wallace, Jimmy, Cher-Ru and Hui Ping. Hehe. Went watch Rob-B-Hood. This show is seriously funny. I just kept laughing and laughing. I did not expect it to be this funny cause when i look at the combination of actors which consist of jackie chan ?? and Louis Koo ? Uhh, Jackie Chan has never acted in a comedy for years! Those thought were erased just in the first 5 minutes. The baby is so cute, except when he cries, annoyingly, THX cinema ! The wails are everywhere, unbearable. There is also a cameo appearence by Nicholas Tse and Daniel Wu acting as gayish Van drivers. Lol. I recommend this movie to all comedy and action fans.

It's been like four months since i went Gurney, kinda miss that place also. Used to be our hangout. Went Daytona with Shoon, Hun, Wallace and Kok Chyuan. I lost, of course. Twice. *Malu*. I'm not a frequent arcade goer. If i do, i'll shoot hoops. The super shot machine i think. That's the only thing i enjoy. Wierd. I've noticed that the arcade is also a hangout for people who works in there. I see people in suits and uniform, playing King Of Fighters. A rare sight. Haha.

I met Lay Theng today. I was actually anxious about it. When i see her, god, a rush of blood to the head. I tried to be calm and act normal, like a friend, chit chat a lil. I'm no smooth operator, i'm no eugene the guru. I'm just a typical guy who loses his sanity upon seeing the girl he likes. My mind goes blank, my knees weaken. One thing, seeing her just sends that anxiety away. I see the funny side of her today. Maybe cause of her hair. Haha. When she walks away, i just wanna follow. LoL. My mind tells me "Stay Where You Are!". I admit i do like her a lot, a lot but this is just a complex situation. Or is not ? I don't know. It's hard. I don't know how i got into this also. Or maybe it's just me. *wonders again*

Went gurney drive makan. I enjoy hawker food to the max ! Penang foood rocks and i'm proud of it! *sings penang state anthem*. Wait, do i even remember ? No.

yawn, no fifa players online. Bored, i'm darn tired, gonna hit the sack. Until Then.

One more week before second sem starts.

I have no initiative. I do things naively. Maybe that's why i always fail.

Ways to start your Monday

Mondays, usually people call it moody monday, where work starts and school resumes. While i'm having sem break. LoL. This is how i start my day on a Monday.

• Wake up at 12
• Watch football highlights of last night's matches
• Get fucked up for nothing (i was seriously restless and i don't know why, my mind is blank !)
• Watch MTV and V channel.
• Start your day with The Killers - When You Were Young. This song just has that energy to kick away the blues.
• Camp in front of my laptop, to find our limewire is not working.
• Waiting for someone to call me and say "I'm coming to fetch you", where i don't care cause i have no car.
• Play games
• Go back to sleep later.

I woke up with this uptight uneasyness in me. I feel so fucking fustrated. Funny thing is, my mind is blank and i'm watching man utd - newcastle ?? I need to go football. or someone give me a electric guitar, i need to let it out. It's like just air in a seal up bottle. Practically nothing but needs to come out.

I think i'm turning into a psychopath, i'm reaching that part of me which have no conscience. I'm a wolf in a sheeps clothing ! Psychopaths often do an excellent job of convincing people they do feel empathy and remorse. It's only with time that the sheen rubs off, then i'll start hunting each and everyone of you down, shed your skin and grill you alive. *Evil Laugh*. Beware. Someone lock me up !

Yawn, why are all my entries so fucking emo.

Song of the day
Teddy Geiger - These Walls

up, up and away

geek

I consider myself a geek, tech geek, though i may not have the latest gadgets, i stick to the computer and the internet every moment, even my career path leads to it.

But i realize one thing, it's slowly eating up my life. I'm such a geek that i would go for online dates, i would communicate with people online, everything is online ! Please someone wake me up from this nightmare, pull me away from my computer !

There is seriously more than just the communication through the internet, what about human touch ? Lingual communication ? feelings ? I'm losing all of that since i got myself stuck with the World Wide Web ! I don't often go out with friends except through a genius creation called instant messaging. I've been relying on the internet so much that i'm so lazy right now. I think it really has a big impact on my life. Positively and negatively.

Someone seriously have to wake me up, or i'll die with the net too.

So much about being a geek..

Was browsing blogs yesterday, and i stumbled into Chris's Abnormally Abnormal Critiques . A blog worth checking it out. He is just so funny. lol

It's been a week of hanging out with friends. I wonder what next week has in store for me. Looking foward !

Eugene is a Guru. haha

until then..

Shuffle

1.) Put your music player on shuffle
2.) Press forward for each question.
3.) Use the song title as the answer to the question.
4.) Absolutely no cheating.

1.) How am I feeling today?
Piece Of Mind - Krezip

2.) Where will I get married?
Higher ground - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

3.) What is my best friend's theme song?
Slide Along Side - Shifty

4.) What is/was highschool like?
Blow - Parking Lot Pimp

5.) What is the best thing about me?
Over My Head - The Fray

6.) How is today going to be?
Unfaithful - Rihanna

7.) What is in store for this weekend?
Niki Fm - Hawthorne Heights

8.) What song describes my parents?
Angel - David Tao

9.) How is my life going?
Be My Escape - Relient K

10.) What song will they play at my funeral?
Rain Down - Planet Shakers

11.) How does the world see me?
Pimpin All Over The World - Ludacris ft Bobby Valentine (WHAT ?!!!)

12.) What do my friends really think of me?
Best Friend - 50 Cent (Wow..)

13) Do people secretly lust after me?
Starlight - Zed (makes no sense)

14.) How can I make myself happy?
Number 1 - Pharell ft kanye West

15.) What should I do with my life?
Heal Me, i'm Heart Sick - No Vacancy

16.) Will I ever have children?
Love Fool - The Cardigans (HuH !?)

17.) What is some good advice?
High Voltage - Linkin Park

18.) What do I think my current theme song is?
Old Newspaper - Jason Lo (Funny)

19.) What does everyone else think my current life?
Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends - Fall Out Boy

20.) What type of men/women do you like?
Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik

21.) Will you get married?
Only Once - Yellowcard

22.) What should I do with my love life?
El Manana - Gorillaz

23.) Where will you live?
Everything Is Not Broken - John Mayer

24.) What will your dying words be?
Take Your Time - Krezip

25.) When I'm having sex I say..
Praise You - Fat Boy Slim

26.) When I meet a guy/lady for the first time I say..
Differences - Ginuwine

27.) When my parents are angry I say..
Is It Any Wonder - Keane

This is just ridiculous , lol

This tag goes out to anyone, everyone, buzz me if you've done it.

Thanks to Jeremy.. Ass.. Lol

Love

Warning *I may be naive, and not making sense here*

This entry goes out to my friend, Lay Theng, and people who had lost hope in love.

"Love is like the sunshine; no matter how tightly you shut down your heart, the sunlight will find a way to shine into it. Love’s process is unstoppable." - Nurmuhemmet Yasin

Love, is a magical thing. There maybe no such thing as eternal love, but as close as it gets, there is such thing as true love. I believe that at this age, 18, the chapters of love starts to unfold (a lil dramatic, lol) . Love is like life, a process of learning. No, it's a part of life. Love comes in many different ways. A person can have many loves, but each experience will be different from the next. As we fall down, we pick up ourselves, move on, and learn from our mistakes. But usually, it takes time to get up again once hurt.

It all starts from the first step, the first love. People give a 100% in the first relationship, there you can see the hopes of eternal love, imature, after failing, the pain is unbearable, and people, once bitten twice shy, they will not allow themselves to open up anymore. But what I must say, that if you are afraid of getting hurt then you will never truly enjoy life. Love is serious, but also not at all. When you are too serious you limit yourself. Trusting your heart and simply having the courage to love, goes a long way.

" Have faith in who you love and love itself, chances are it'll last. " - someone

I've been there, done that. I've been hurt, i've hurt others, i've been cruel. i too developed a fear. It's hard to believe that love still comes around. And i met this girl, she made my heart skipped a beat, when i see her, i get butterflies in my stomach, and my mind just goes blank. She's such an angel. But with that fear i had, i think too much, i became paranoid, and maybe, i freaked her out. I wanted to reach out badly, and i took things seriously at times, i was naive, at the end, i was scared.

Surrender it to god, the lord's miracles work in many ways and i realize. I've been stupid but now, i saw through the fog that has been clouding my vision. I didn't have self confidence, there's no courage in me. So, back to basics, start all over again and this time, i learnt from my mistakes. That's what Ai Khim told me, people make mistakes, it's whether you dare to admit it and change, or just don't give a damn.

We are not perfect, so is love. Love isn't loving the perfect person, but loving the inperfect person perfectly ! People make mistakes. To have true love needs patience, trust, honesty and having faith in each other and love itself.

A piece of advice,

"Don’t waste your precious time trying to define the meaning of love. The best definition is already in your own heart and mind.” - Nurmuhemmet Yasin

How could a geek understand all this ? Not to say i'm in love. lol. Pardon me if i don't make sense, it's just my thoughts. Most probably what i just typed are all crap.

my little brain of stupid questions

As i lie down reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons, something struck me.

Eureka !

It has nothing to do with the book though.

I thought to myself, why am i sitting here moaning and complaining and yada yada. I don't see myself doing anything. I weep for my own faults, not because of what she has done. This is just so stupid. I should be doing something to show here that i care, let her know there's someone here for her. Instead of lying down thinking and making myself confuse. i'm suppose to be trying to impress her, to win her heart.

Naive i might be, but isn't this is what i should do ? If i continue to do nothing i'll end up nothing also right ?

Of course, i should take my time, take it slow, don't rush it, but anyhow, i should be doing something. And apply this concept on it.

Brilliant.

It struck me from this song , if you come to me. LoL.

What's sweet and simple ? *wonders*

thoughts

I've thought about god, where is god? is he real? Why do we believe in him ?

Surrender it to god, if nothing goes your way, he will lead the way, but has it ever occured to us that, god is merely a word, just like an excuse

"Aiya, god knows la"
"Let god decide"

Common, what we have now in life, is in our own hands, money doesn't come from above, we handle our own lifes, we have to work to get what we want.

And we say, god loves us, and will protect us from all evil.

But why is there still pain, hatred, evil? Evil is still lurking, we have all kinds of cases everyday, people that sin, deaths, war,terrible things happen in this world, starvation,sickness,if god was almighty, why didn't he stop all this from happening ?

whenever i face a problem, people always tell me, surrender to god and see how it goes, some times i believed more in the supernatural than god. It's surreal. When we surrender to god, doesn't it means that we give up ?

I know i'm not really a religious kinda person, i do believe in god, but for the past few years, i lose faith, i feel the real world is where we are living in. We have to fight to stay on top, no more the idealist world.

and then, i came upon this book,

to an individual:

If you had children, you would love him/her, you would do everything you can to protect them from danger, to prevent pain in his life. But would you let him ride a skateboard ? ride a bike? and when they grow up, would you let them drive a car, or maybe go to clubs ? Of course as a parent you would hestitate, but let them go and also advice them and telling them to be careful.

So as a parent, you would just give your child some basic, good advices and let them run along and make ther own mistakes ? You wouldn't expect to be around them all the time and catch them everyime they fall. And if this child made a mistake, maybe he fell from his skateboard, he would learned to be more careful right ?

So what we see, is god have the power to intefere and prevent mankind's pain, but choose to show his love by letting man learn our own lessons. Cause pain is part of growing up, and thats how we learn. Thats how we get through. We fall, and we pick ourselves up. God is always there to guide us. It's only whether we realize it or not.

I still believe god is looking, watching our every move.

fictions do make a point.

sometimes i miss you, but then i fall hard

i'm rushing things again..

*These kind of things don't need rush, it need time to nurture, time to grow, like a plant, needs sunlight, vitamins, i need to be a lil more patient, maybe i should to more garderning. I still have loads of time, unless someone took away my plant. LoL. But, seriously noel, let it flow, get a hold of yourself, be confident, take your time, it may just work out.*

mental note to self.. =)

blue

wonder of the day: If you and your dog could understand each other for one minute, what would you say to it? What might it tell you ?

blue is the color which runs through my mind, blur are the thoughts that i can't define, blue i am now, cause i'm missing you ; blue i will be, i just don't know why.

I might be consider the king of blues, not in the music industry though, lol.

Finally, i'm back home. Home sweet home. Missed the feeling of being in a cosy home. There's a couch to jump on, a spring bed to sleep on, air cond, big fridge, yay !

BUT !

Something happened. I reached here at 5am, slept. At 8am, Sis came shouting to me, saying that my dog ran out, and is currently getting humped. I ran out and i saw, that filthy disgusting with skin disorder dog's cock stuck in my dog and it can't escape. I was filled with anger and sadness. I could not do anything except look. Later when she got loose, she didn't want to come back. I got pissed and went back to sleep. Until sis came back, my dog only came back, sis bath her and took her to the vet. What a way to start my holidays.

Had brunch with my friends. Penang food rocks man. Spend the day at home, it rained. No football until tomorrow.

During dinner just now, i overheard a conversation between three men behind me. One man said " If you want to send your daughter to a girls school, don't send her to convent, cause it's filled with lesbians. " Sorry to all convent girls who is reading this. But ,he can be so wrong.

It is true that being in a co-ed school will be better for socializing between the male and the female gender but it's just wrong to say that lesbians are from girls school because they don't have guys in it. Some people turn into lesbians because it's just what they think is right, not to say that it's wrong. But there are also girls in convent being lesbians because PARENTS are giving her too much pressure. Havent you thought of sending your daughter to a girl school, thats fine, but then limit her from meeting other friends, you forbid her from meeting guys, and she can only express them with her friends. Sometimes it's also because of an individuals thinking. But i do have friends who's been in Convent for 12 years and still is straight. Same sex relationship aren't wrong. Maybe some people will get over it once they grow up. People make mistakes. It's just how they learn from it. And parents should guide them.

Funny.

I feel that something is missing. I'm missing her.

I don't know why i feel i stand a chance. It's no harm to try.

I don't know whats going through my mind.

Just talking to her sent my blueness away.

If only...

Storm - Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I’m so used to living underneath the surface

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

not myself..

Day Out

wonder of the day : why some people just take things for granted ?

Today's field trip day ! lol. Went to Ikea and The Curve. 6 of us in a MyVi, Me, Kok Chyuan, Hui Ping(Kok Chyuan's girlfriend), Way Shoon, Cher Ru and Wei Hun. Today just isn't my day. I had stomach ache again. From home to ikea, i think i went to the toilet like 5 times. Twice in Ikea. =/. I think i poo-ed blood. Gonna be sick d. LoL.

A bunch of penangnites and a KL girl on the highway, luckily we did not get lost. From Setapak to Damansara, i was the navigator and Kok Chyuan was the Rally Driver. lol. KL highways are just fun to drive on. But once you take the wrong turn, it'll be a long way back. Spotted a WHITE 350Z ! Damn Nice.

Funny thing is, while we were on the way to Ikea, we stopped at a traffic light, and someone beside us in a car asked us for directions. Luckily we have a local in the car. lol. Can't you notice that the number plate is PGT and has a P sticker on ? Maybe we just stopped right beside him and he had no other choice. haha.

Reached Ikea, first thing on my mind, TOILET !

So had brunch/tea-time in Ikea, fish and chips, mushroom soup and garlic bread. Yummy, cost me like RM17. Food is expensive but worth it. Lol. Some picts during makan session

From Left : Way Shoon,Kok Chyuan, Hui Ping, Cher Ru


From Left : Kok Chyuan, Wei Hun and Me.

Browsed Around In Ikea for stuffs, wanna buy back home, but manage to find nothing. If my mom was here, the car will be filled with plastic bags of Ikea. Lol. Bought a wall clock for our room. Cost only RM5.

The main objective is to get Radiance a gift for her birthday, but me and shoon can't find any. Went over to The Curve. It's like so freaking empty. It's like the same state like i've been there last year, not many shops opened yet. Walked around until leg pain.

Went to The Street, where all is food. That will be the best place at The Curve. Lol. Walked over to Cinemaleisure. It's still empty, went to the ciniplex and spent like 15 minutes watching trailers. There was this "hanging" platform for people to stand. Way Shoon said it's a little scary cause it vibrates when you stand on it. lol. I was even jumping on it to see if it's really tough. *wonder*, what if i fell ? lol

Top Of The World !

Decided to have supper at Starbucks. All of us are relieved to finally sit down. Endulge myself into the Caramel Frappuchino and a tuna danish. Yummy.

My Meal

Me And Wei Hun, and Way Shoon's Muffin

We just sat there and chatted, talked about our high school life. Reminiscences about the good old days when we were still young. Best of all, Penang is the place where the magic happens. Where we grew up, where we meet friends, where we found love. Hometown is always the best. Going back soon ! Sounds old eh, lol. Thinking back about the things that we used to do just wants to make me laugh.

Sat till 10 like that then chao, fetched Cher Ru home, and try to find our way back home, which we did. With no problems ! lol. It's like a big achivement to not get lost in KL.

Some random picts.

A White Savvy, Rare.

I Love This !


My Wierd Pict

Reached home, tempted Jason with pictures that we took of starbucks. Lol. He started complaining that why we did not bungkus for him. He only ate Bihun. Haha. But afternoon he already had steamboat at his friends house, so don't care d.

Talked to Lay Theng just now. Her friends coming down from KL. Asked her to bring them around Penang. She said Penang So SMALL ! Where want to bring them. LoL. But she got it all planned already which includes visits to Penang Hill, Musuems (!?), Beaches and of course FOOD !

Tomorrow maybe heading up to Genting. Depends on Kok Chyuan. Want go breathe fresh air. =p. Haven't been up there for like so long already.

I just don't feel safe sitting in the front sit, being a passenger of a car. I'll freak out, especially with people like Kok Chyuan driving. Even though he's a quite skilled driver, lol, but it's still scary. It'll be different when i drive. So long didn't drive don't know karat already not. The last time i drove, i can't park a car nicely also. =/

Time flies, when i was secondary, i was dreaming of how nice it would be being in college, still innocent and just want to have fun. And now, i finish my first semester already. Thinking has changed, being more matured. Making decisions wisely, but i still make stupid decisions. lol. Growing up into young adults. No more small kiddies. Anyhow, it's the process of growing up,we should enjoy life to the fullest !

Going yum cha later.. until then !

Before that, a riddle:
A Green Bean ran up 15 floors and jump down, *splat* . What did he turned into ?

honestly, i'm thinking of you..

Story Of A Girl

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears.
And I can be so insincere, Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!
How many days disappear?
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many lovers would stay?
Just to put of with this shit day after day!
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!
How do we get there today?
When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her-
When She Smiles...

Flavour Of The Day

wonder of the day : why do people do something even if the thing is not worth doing ?

It's over ! My battle with numbers and formulas has ended. I'm not really confident but i might pass pre-calculus. lol. Sem break here i come !

If only there are seasons here. Summer break in Malaysia would be fun! Beaches! Oh wait, there ARE seasons in Malaysia. Monsoon seasons. LoL.

Time passes real fast, i've finish semester one. Half of my housemates have already went back, gonna miss them.


People who have made B-15-7 such a chaotic place

Crystal - The one whom you should not make her laugh, cause when she starts, she won't stop.

Vivien - The big sister of the house. Looks like girl, but kicks your ass like a guy. LOL

Jeremy - Ho Laaaa ! If want to play CS ,do something destructive or just laugh, look for him.

Stephy - Looks are decieving. She can be a menace.

Wallace - The loud one. Very dangerous. Haha.

Kok Chyuan - Mr. Sexy. And also a big menace. Will annoy you to the max while make you laugh.

Way Shoon - Everyday do nothing. Last minute kaki like me.

Jason - The Cute One. Nothing More To Say

Well, these are the main people that made me had sleepless nights throughout the exam week. Thanks Guys.

Talked to Ai Khim today and i learnt something new !

z e r o p u l s e: hahaha
z e r o p u l s e: u memang thin wun la
-Ai Khim-: the more i eat... i'll be horizontally challenged
z e r o p u l s e: HAHA
z e r o p u l s e: nice way to say it
z e r o p u l s e: this will be the sentence of the day in my blog

Horizontally challenged ? thats like freaking physics man. lol.

-dinner break-

back. Went for dinner at our usual hang out place. The nasi kandar behind our place. The place do seem quieter. Seeing everybody going home already.

Cartel is actually a nice band. Their songs are just interesting. Eg. Matter of time, Say Something(Else) and of course, Honestly.

A little info about them :

Cartel is a five-piece American pop punk band from Atlanta, Georgia that formed in 2004. Although the band has not been together that long, they have already achieved a high status in the music scene. Their most recent album, Chroma, started the success that they have embraced since its release in 2005 on the indie label, The Militia Group. It also put them on Alternative Press's 2005 list of "Bands You Need to Know". In March 2006, they were also named Yahoo! Music's winner in the "Who's Next" competition and a Breaker artist by AOL music. Cartel has not only been heavily influenced by the punk and hardcore communities, but by more mainstream acts like Morrissey and The Smiths, Oasis, and even a slew of pop-punk bands such as Saves The Day.

I just remembered my Harry Potter book is still in EMSD (Extra Mural Studies Department). I was shorlisted for a book review contest but was forfieted cause i had to attend the PTPTN loan briefing. I hope they don't put it in the library. If they do, it'll totally be my fault for being so lazy to pick it up. Ketam (crap) !

I'm so into the oldies (our oldies, or called teenoldies. lol. starting from the year 2000). Downloaded Story Of A Girl by Nine Days, Be Like That by Three Doors Down, Flavour Of The Week by American Hi-Fi, Ride Wit Me by Nelly, Turn Of The Lights by Nelly Furtado and more. Those were the times.

I'm in a punk mood. Got my hands on a few demos by Fall Out Boy.Totally love them. Downloading all punk. But nowdays punk is no more punk anymore. It becomed pop-punk. Like Click Five cross Taking Back Sunday. I don't actually know how real punk sound like. Maybe a lil like good charlotte ? lol. Guess i'm not punk enough. Not even close.

Back to the days, where i wonder and wonder..

absence makes the heart grow fonder.. can you hear me ?

let go

It's been a few days (10 thousand years for my time) since i come online, i juz had my business paper just now. It was alright, ain't gonna fail, nor sufficient for an A. I should have prepared earlier, a little regret. Programming paper was a breeze, not counting if i'm careless or not. IT was the hardest paper until now.

I'm having pre-calculus two days from now. The subject i fear the most. I have 0% knowledge on it. I'll try to aim for a pass. I don't wanna resit, seriously.

Some of my housemates have already finish their exams, how nice. I'd be staying here till saturday and i'll follow Kok Chyuan back in his MyVi.

I had the feeling of eagerness to go back to Penang now. Starting to miss the place. The people. Can't wait !

First thing i'll do when i reach home, hug my dog, mum, dad and sis. Then i'll take my baby (dad's skoda fabia) for a ride. I miss driving ! Probably have dinner with family, and then hanging out with friends ! and play football at my place !!

Lay Theng had already went back today. Poor girl, she's home sick. Well now she's back home already.

Sometimes, when you let go, everything will turn out better. Thats what i think. Thinking about her just won't do any help. I'll just miss her more. and it makes no difference.

Go out, hang out with friends, have fun, chill, let go for a while.

Thats what Radiance would say to me. =)

After exams, heading out to get stuffs for people back home in penang !

First on my list
My Family

Second Would Be
Mon Ping (what should i get for her?)

Maybe get something for Radiance cause her birthday's coming. but she's in Subang. Better not look at her wishlist, i can't afford. Lol.

May Ching's birthday is also just around the corner. Nahh, i'll leave it to her boyfriend. haha.

Yawn, tonight's the night for calculus, get some rest before i go battle.

Until then..

fading away..

Cartel - Honestly

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say cause I'm, I'm being honest
When I tell you that you
You're part of the reason I'm so set on the rest of my life
Being a part of you
You tell me what you think about being open,About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same.

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Don't waste time getting to the point, cause I'm, I'm patiently waiting
For your next phone call, your next excuse for losing sleep again
Tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same.

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Cause I can't stop it now
It's so amazing how
I know I can't, I could never walk away

How can we resolve this now
We let it go, and wonder how
This can ever be the same(Can never be the)
Can never be the same

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you, I'm begging!

Cause I can't stop it now,
It's so amazing how,
I know I cant, I could never walk away.

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say, cause I'm, I'm being honest.

follow

Life is all about following ? routines ? scheduels ? same ol thing ? think again.

I read an entry of my friend, Jeremy's blog.

"Ever wondered why your life is so routine? Its cause you want it to be routine...you never wanna try anything new & exciting. You just rather stick to your own li'l schedule & be safe. I seriously pity fools like that.Everyday their just sitting their at their desk...typing...sending
e-mails...picking up so called "important" calls...talking to "important" people...their just oh so boring. Everyone should just stand up...lift their fat asses up & do something new. And if you don't like it...don't do it again...go try something else new. Heck, who cares what you wanna do...fuck a dog, fuck a cat, have an orgy, rob someone, eat scorpions & spiders, pray to satan...Whatever...I encourage you to get up & stop being so boring"

So, for people who think that life is boring, maybe you should just stand up and do something new. And thanks to Jeremy for that piece of advice. lol, if you happen to read this.

I used to think that life is seriously just a routined, i still think that way, sometimes we just gotta be a lil different. It's just the same in a relationship, things will get routined sooner than you think, after all the lovey dovey periods, you think it's just call, hug, kiss, hang out, whatever couples do. Relationships are like a bottle of water, when the water is almost empty, we gotta refill it. Maybe thats what happened to my past relationships, i did not bother to refill the bottle. I'm dead boring. My thinking is direct, follow the rules.

I guess it's the start of a new revolution . lol

First Paper tomorrow, IT.

I'm just being myself.

"Love is not what pulls you down, it's what lifts you up"

Exam Blues

I Can't Study !!

I'm so dead. Everything i read just won't go in. I don't wanna retake my exams but !! When i read my notes everything just goes blur. I gotta do something. I just realize my calculus is dead. I don't even know how to solve a simple question!! I need a miracle.

Here's Way Shoon, devastated. lol

While here's Wallace, study still sleep.


My first paper , Information Technology is on this Wednesday afternoon. Even though i studied, i think i almost forget everything. Tomorrow have to recharge again.

Maybe i'm just lazy.. =/

Vanessa called me today for no reason. Was kinda surprise. Guess what she called to ask about ? Song titles. She was listening to Fly Fm's moolah, i think thats what it's called. Trying to win some cash, in TUITION ! lol.

That day when i went KLCC bought Jay's album, i didn't empty my wallet after that, checked back yesterday, i found a coin, thought malaysian 20cents change design already, then i looked again and saw queen elizabeths face. It was an australian 10cent coin! Wonder how did it get into my wallet. It's now my lucky coin. lol.



Played CS with Jeremy just now at home, set all bots to knife mode only. We got ambushed badly. Once the bomb was planted, the bots came in like ants ! Well, only 16 of them, and to make things interesting, we only used knifes, but couldn't stand also, had to use hand gun. This is what u get when u mess with chucky (childs play).



I dreamt about her last night. It was something like a party i hosted, and she didn't come. Guess i'm still missing her. Though i don't talk much about her anymore. She still wanders around my mind. Hope things will get better soon.

Maple - Jay Chou

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
Dark clouds cast a shadow over our hearts
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
I listen intently to the feelings that have long been silenced
清晰透明
Distinct and clear
就像美丽的风景
Just like a beautiful landscape
总在回忆里才看得清
That can only be clearly seen in one's memories
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
Can a heart that's been thoroughly wounded continue to love me?
我用力牵起没温度的双手
I tried hard to hold (your) cold hands
过往温柔
The tenderness in the past
已经被时间上锁
Is locked in time
只剩挥散不去的难过
All that's left are sadness that cannot be dispersed


缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
Longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
I light a candle to warm this year-end's autumn
极光掠夺天边
The aurora steals across the horizon
北风掠过想你的容颜
The north wind flits across the face that's thinking of you
我把爱烧成了落叶
Ashes from my burning heart falls like leaves
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
But I can never regain (your) familiar face again

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
Longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
Why must I try to recover all before winter arrives?
爱你穿越时间
My love for you transcends all time
两行来自秋末的眼泪
Two streams of tears that were shed for the autumn's end
让爱渗透了地面
Let the love flood through
我要的只是你在我身边
I just want you by my side

addiction

At this moment i just have so many things flowing through my mind. I just can't stop thinking until now i'm just so confuse about everything. As they say, everything happens for a reason. Still, aren't we in control of what is going to happen to us ? And if we are in control, we know the reason, but still why it doesn't goes the way we want it to be ?? Sometimes i feel my life is seriously fucked up, or maybe i'm just thinking too much.

I'm missing something, the puzzle that puts it all together. Sometimes, things just come and go that we don't tend to realize it's importance. Life just past by too fast, i need to stop for a moment to figure out where i am at this moment. Or i'll fall to pieces in no time.

For some reason, i feel no matter where i am, back in penang or here in KL. It's still the same. Even with or without friends. It wouldn't change. My hearts turning into stone. I'm slowly turning into a zombie, or a robot, stuck in a cycle that never ends. There is no more emotions, though i'm kinda emo now.. Everything is just the same to me. I enjoy life, totally, but at some parts, it's just meaningless. Is this the potrait of a faithless person? i guess it is.

Maybe i will change, maybe something will change me. An impact in my life. For now i know, my family is my life, i'm glad i have some good friends. Hope things would get better soon.

-emo kid

Another day in life, Another chapter to be revealed

Phad Thai, Chicken and Cheese Pie, Maggi Noodles with Dumplings and Neslo

My stomach is seriously getting bigger after all the food i've eaten today..Ughh..i need to stop eating..

Slept early last night, at 2 ++.Couldn't study anymore. Programming is sucking away all my brain juice. Woke up at 11 this morning, continued studying. Manage to finish another past year paper, one more to go !

Does anyone know what day is today ??!!

Today is September 8 !! Which is the release of Jay's 7th album ! Went to KLCC with my friend to tower records to get the cd. Got it for RM49.90 with poster, 1cd and dvd. I wasn't the only guy buying his cd, lol. I saw another guy bought it. SO that proves his music is good! On the way, Mui Wan,my jie, msged me told me to go study.

"Study !!!"
"Actually Heading To KLCC..hee.."
"ish!! Bad Boy!"

I manage to finish a few questions before i came out !! lol.. After that went to Signatures Food Court with my friend. Had phad thai (thai noodles), the casheir was juz too friendly, freaked me out a little. lol. WHERE can you find such a polite person anymore !!?? After eating, felt i was still hungry, it was near 5, so i thought i have something else, chicken and cheese pie ! yummy !! Told myself that would be my dinner. haha.

Msged my godsis, jillian, she was playing futsal. I always get a little shocked when she says she's playing futsal. It's just a little out of order. haha. But if i can play, why can't she.

Went back at the wrong time, it's a friday, and the LRT was packed. Have to wait for another train. I realize i wasn't the only person with a jay chou poster sticking out of my bag, saw some other people too, even on the way back to my place!

Reached home. Placed the cd on the table. Slowly tear open the top plastic cover, retrieved the cd gently and Woo Hoo, Jay's 7th album.

The Outer Cover


The Inside

Tracklist (i'll write in pin ying la,lol):
1.Ye De Di Qi Zang (Second Single)
2.Ting Ma Ma De Hua (Love This Song)
3.Qian Li Zi Wai (First Single)
4.Ben Cao Gang Mu (Rap)
5.Tui Hou (Nice)
6.Hong Muo Fang (He Wrote It)
7.Xing Yu (Super Love This Song)
8.Bai Se Feng Che (This Song Too !!)
9.Mi Shi Xiang (New Style)
10.Ji Hua Tai (Somehow It Does't Sound Like Him)

A few of his songs are into the classic chinese style, and a few rap sounds, but i feel he has done great with this album. Most surprisingly would be his collobration with Fei Yu Qing in the song Qian Li Zi Wai. It's a little wierd but the result is just magical (a lil dramatic here.haha). My favourite would be tui hou, xing yu and bai se feng che. And if you guys notice, he does a lot of "woooos" in this album. lol. Something like micheal jackson but he sounds better. This is a great album and i'm loving it !

Mui Wan was on webcam juz now. She says she's fat, but she just look as thin as ever, maybe the webcam a little cacat. LoL

Well, i just couldn't stop myself from eating. Felt hungry and went cooked noodles, friend brought back dumplings, lagi worst, i still can feel them in my stomach, the little prawns just wanting to come out. lol.

Random picts

Someone Said I Looked Metrosexual..lol

Speaking bout metrosexual, my housemate, jason, has been a little funny these few days. LoL. He's developed the disease called " Self-Potrait". He's been taking lots of pictures of himself recently. But i guess it's normal, most people do that. HAHA.

Here's my friend trying out for a nescafe ad.

Just wondering if the nescafe directors would pass by here and maybe consider him as a nescafe ambassador.

Sunset at my place.

Since it's the exam season, this would be my table, forgot to take off the jay cd, lol, the papers all around.

Girls are complicated. Seriously. Lol. Can't stop repeating through Jay's songs now.

Theres something new in our house now, it's called the "bond". Well, our main target is usually Jason, when we say bond, we'll pin jason down and starts to tickle him, he says it feels like we are raping him. Imagine, four guys and one girl, 3 guys pin him down, the others juz tickle him badly and torture him. haha. starting to sound gay.

Lastly, something i found.

Unique. =)

Gotta study, until then..

Relationships are like water in a bottle, you need to refill it to keep it going.

TAG !

this is a tag post thanks to jeremy..lol..

Seven things that scare me
-computer breakdowns
-no internet
-crazy people dancing beside me
-life
-death
-girls
-losing loves one

Seven things I like
-my family
-my dog
-playing my guitar
-driving
-hanging out with friends
-singing
-laze around

Seven important things in my room
-my laptop (can't live without it)
-my bed
-my guitar
-my cupboard (all my clothes inside ma)
-my chair and table (for me to do my work)
-my handphone charger !

Seven random facts about me
-i'm lazy
-i freak out easily
-i'm childish
-i'm disgusting (burping,farting etc etc)
-i wanna be like teddy geiger + wayne rooney= superstar singer/footballer
-attention seeker
-lame joker

Seven things I plan to do before I die
-drive real fast on the autobahn
-be with my parents
-get married
-have kids
-travel round the world
-go to old trafford
-record my own song

Seven things I can do
-eat
-sleep
-simple programming
-playing guitar
-swim
-disturb people
-study and get distracted

Seven things I can't do
-study
-play the guitar like a pro
-tell a girl i like her
-drive a sports car
-run around naked
-stay in a haunted house
-stop eating

Seven things I say the most
-duh
-fuck
-ass
-hahaha
-maile
-err
-crap

Seven people who will have to do this
-1
-2
-3
-4
-5
-6
-7

true love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen..

unnecessory information you need to know about me before you kill me (does it sound like a Fall Out Boy song title ?)

1. i'm shy
2. i'm a nerd
3. i'm childish
4. i'm paranoid
5. i'm not addicted to alcohol
6. i wish i'm cool
7. i'm fat
8. i eat a lot
9. i'm trying to slim down
10. i suck in calculus
11. i think too much
12. i love jay chou's music
13. i'm an amatuer guitar player
14. i swim but i have a round tummy
15. i don't have lots of friends
16. i have a few close friends
17. i trust people easily
18. i'm a coward
19. i'm pretty neat
20. i have a dog
21. i try to be funny but usually i fail
22. i'm lame
23. i get negative comments all the time
24. i'm friendly though lots of people's first impression say that i'm stuck up.. lol
25. i care too much
26. i ask for too much
27. i seldom pray
28. i believe in god
29. i believe in the supernatural
30. i think i'm ugly
31. i sometimes think like a girl
32. i'm not a girl
33. i play football,basketball
34. i'm single
35. nobody wants me..lol
36. i'm a wannabe
37. i think negatively
38. i have 3 past relationships
39. i swear occationally but only in front of certain people
40. i don't like beer
41. i love sushi and pasta
42. i listen to all kinds of music
43. i love acoustic version of songs
44. i've been to only one concert in my life ( Linkin Park )
45. i sleep like a pig
46. i'm not from mars, i'm from penang
47. i envy my friends
48. i 'm a fan of manchester united
49. i'm crazy over a girl
50. it's hard for me to find my shoe size, i'm a size 11
51. i don't like having enemies
52. still i have people that do hate me ( i think )
53. i'm peace-loving
54. i hate people that are two faced
55. i'm not vain unless i'm meeting someone
56. i often have mood swings
57. i sometimes shout and talk to myself
58. i can get a little wierd sometime
59. i'm lazy
60. i'm emotional at times.

i think that's all for now..

Am studying programming..gawd..

A moment of peace for Steve Irwin aka Crocodile Hunter . Who passed away on the 5th Of september. Rest in peace . He died doing what he loved most.

Song Of The Moment - Daniel Bedingfield - I Can't Read You

I'm never shy but this is different
I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight
I'm losing control of my heart
Tell me what can I do to make you happy
Nothing I ever say seems to come out right
I'm losing control of my heart

And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can't hear what your thinking
Maybe if I just let go
you'd open up your heart

But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart defending I get left behind
I can't reach you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart protecting I get left behind

I like you so much I'm acting stupid
I can't play the game I'm all intense and alive
I'm losing control of my heart
I'm not supposed to be this nervous
I should play my hand all cool and calm
I can't breathe
I'm losing control of my heart

"i think i crashed your plane"

Being an official sleepy head, i woke up at 1 today, sunday morning. what to do, the bed was so comfortable for some reason. Still, it's not good to sleep beside the wall, cause i hit my head on the wall twice last night.I kena before a few days ago and again last night. I woke up with a headache, think i'm gonna lose my memory at some time.

Am i that BIG ? gosh, sleep also can hit the wall. Went jusco today,bought groceries, main thought was to get that Umbro shoe that cost only rm99. Got there, asked for size 11, and what i get, size 10 is the biggest. Gawd. I don't know where i'm gonna get my shoes anymore.

Yesterday...

Same thing happened in One Utama on saturday, went there to shop cause megasales gonna end. Went look for the Nike Joga Bonito Shoe, this lagi worst, I asked for size 11. GOT !! i was so happy until i wear the shoe. It feels like size 10, too tight. Had to leave it. Sigh. But i ended up getting 5 t-shirts. Spent rm180++. Guess i can shop too ! haha.

Had dinner at Bar-b-q Plaza. Korean style steamboat. I think, but the songs they play are thai and the ads are in thai too. It confuses me. LOL. My pal's girlfriends won't let me take picts. So i took the steamboat.

Haha. yes i went out with two couples. That makes me a big lamp post. Ughh. I want shop also kenot. I have to look at myself while they have girls to look at. haha. but i love shopping alone. Though i don't have good taste. It's fun. I can get anything i want. Still prefer to have friends around so they can judge. lol.

Here's my friend,wallace with the Bar-B-Q plaza mascot.lol. there was a honda road show where the Circuit Civic was on display. I LOVE the Civic man. Here are some picts.

Sexy Back ! How nice is that. Still prefer the EK-9 though, two door hatchback civic.

As i said i went Jusco today, i saw something funny. It was the cashier machine. This was what i saw on the screen.

"Have You Renew You J-Card?"
"Please Swipe The Card"
The Staff Swipes The Card
"Good Customer"

Good Customer ? Lol. I was laughing my ass off when i saw that. Only when you swipe your member card then you are considered a good customer.

Spend the afternoon studying before i went to jusco. Came back also study. This whole week is study week, 24/7 gonna study d.Here is my exam slip. I wasn't barred ! Din bother go check the barred list also.

"I think i crashed your plane" is a line from Lost. Desmond cause the crash of the plane because he did not input the number into the computer.At this part, most of you guys will go "Huh?". Lost is a tv series, go watch it. Lol.

I think i miss someone.

Here are some random picts.

Our friendly nasi kandar hero ! Viven took the pict....

Me and My Housmate, Vivien

Life is so completely messed up right now. Not mine, the world.

I Want To Go Back To Mars !

Earth sucks, seriously. I prefer what it's like down at Mars, where everything is sand and rocks, lots of space probes and more advance technology. Most importantly, people like you for who you are.

Well,Back to reality. Exams are in two weeks, started studying already but not really much information seems to be going in. My weakest subject is calculus, which i haven't really studied. If i were some nerd i'd be freaking out and soon i'll jump down from the 15th floor, err, i'm almost there.

I think god has given us a sign. Today, my friends computer broke down. My laptop keeps showing the Blue Screen Of Death Sign and the internet connection keeps breaking down. Scary.

Been really emo these few days. I think i need a brain washing therapy. I just can't stop thinking. It's actually healthy to think, but seriously, i think too much. Anybody have any tips for it ? My brains like a blender blending fruits, seafood, poultry, sugar, spice and everything ugly. Wonder if this recipe would make it to Fear Factor. LoL

As a martian, Malaysia is quite a nice place to be. It's politically stable, no dangerous natural disasters, no war. On this independence day, of the 18 years i've been on this soil, i'm still surviving. Although Malaysia isn't perfect, but i 'm loving it here. Well at least better than mars. Lol

Let's talk bout Penang,What I Love About Penang !

1. It's small, makes knowing people easier.
2. The food. How can we not love Penang food !
3. Penang Chicks are HOT !
4. Gurney Drive. Best Place Ever To Hang Out.
5. Penang Bridge.
6. Beach ! though it's not that clean. LoL
7. The Festivals Celebrations ( We Have Chinese, Indian, Malay, Japanese Celebrations !)
8. And Of course..Home Sweet Home

Penang is the best place to be..I shall contact the general to deploy more martians..LoL

I think i'm paranoid

I think i'm sick

I think i'm falling

" Cause I am barely breathing, I can't find the air,I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care "