geek from mars

Big changes are coming

2012-01-20T15:59:00.001+08:00

In the next few weeks. I'm gonna be facing very big changes. Something that I didn't plan for, I didn't expect. It's the biggest decision I have ever made, may god bless me. I get pass this obstacle and I will see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's crazy, but I'm staying hopeful.

Happy Chinese New Year people.

Long week

2012-01-16T14:37:00.001+08:00

It has been a long week. I was in Singapore for a day. I went to church, which really helped to lift up my spirits. I feel a lot better, I'm willing to take responsibility of what I have done, and the consequences I will receive.

Sometimes, we take risks, if it is worth taking, for we will never know if we don't take the first step.

Week 2

2012-01-11T14:53:00.001+08:00

Second week of January, trying to feel better. Days are like a rollercoaster ride, don't know when will I get out of it.

I remember a friend told me once,

"Sometimes we just got to do what we got to do, follow your heart"

If it is difficult, it's probably worth it, because good things never come easily. We have to sacrifice, work, put effort, give it all we can.

I'll survive this.

Immense

2012-01-09T10:35:00.002+08:00

Yup..

So far in the week

2012-01-05T10:31:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling a lot better, a lot more optimistic. Probably due to David Choi because his voice is just so soothing. There's this song call This is a way, just makes me want to do all the things for her without any consideration.

Life has been alright. I still have sleepless nights every day. Been trying to eat less and exercise more. I'm down with some back problems. Been to the physio, gotta correct my sitting position. Probably because of my ankle and my knee injuries.

I was feeling like crap for the past few weeks, I still do sometimes. I got wasted in my own home on Christmas day. Pretty fucked up as my parents were there and they have never seen me drunk. Basically I locked myself in the bathroom for half an hour I think. The pain was unbearable I just wanted to rip my heart out. The next day as usual, the "I'll never drink again, Oh god why" feeling comes as the hangover kicks in. I vomited again which I already did the night before.

I was in a bad state, I blamed myself, well I never stopped blaming myself, It is my decision, I have to bear with the consequences. To know that you have create so much hurt to someone who gave everything for you, that's cruel. I am, cruel. Never have I see myself being such a person. Yea, life isn't a bed of roses. Sometimes we make the right decisions, sometimes we don't.

I am in the hurt locker right now. I can't escape this. It's a long road to forgiveness, but I've made my decision to walk this road, bound with shackles, looking towards the light, if it ever exist.

I'm thankful for my friends, especially Mon Ping and Ai Khim. They were there to pull me through this. They made me realize that I need to be a better person if I were to embark on this journey. They gave me the harsh truth, and most of all, they still support me, even all the things that I have done, even when I didn't deserve it. I also am thankful for guys like Darren and Vinesh. One is the critic and the other is the lover. One always pulls the rational side of me back while the other shows me that love has so much more to offer. They encourage me and motivate me when I needed it. I'm grateful to all of you.

After all, I deserve to be judged. What have I become? This turning point in my life have make me realize a lot about myself. Sometimes, I make decision rashly, I don't consult my friends or even my family, I assume and most of all, I didn't understand the meaning of love. It's hard to swallow, but I have to.

Love is where you are willing to do anything for each other, love is even when you are far apart, you still try to make an impact in each others life, love is where the little things mean more than expensive gifts, love is when you enjoy being with each other, even though you are just sitting on the couch, watching a movie. I admit, I do not understand much about love, like life, it's a journey, not a destination. However, I do know, I'm willing to let everything go, just for another chance to make it right, and I want to make this journey, with her.

Action speaks louder than words, if you feel that you deserve it, just go for it, don't look back. I won't look back, because I know, she's my future.

First post of the year!

2012-01-01T11:32:00.001+08:00

Woke up to 2012 feeling the same. Worst of all, I felt like an idiot. I don't know what's happening on her side, and I assume so many things, making myself look like a fool. I'm a fool for her. Well, I have always been a fool for her.

The feeling of trying to talk to somebody but they aren't replying your text, answering your calls is unbearable. Maybe silence is golden. Makes you think and reflect on the situation itself. It's better being ignored then being cursed at. Is it?

All I know is I'm willing to do what it takes, but of course I will think for myself as well. Nobody wants a guy that has nothing. I need to concentrate on my career as well. I'll also work my way back to her.

So here comes 2012, a rollercoaster ride. Come what may, I'll work my way through it.

Thanks to David Choi for accompanying me throughout the night. I mean, his youtube video. :)

2012

2011-12-31T22:45:00.003+08:00

I got a stubborn heart for you.

Looks like it's gonna be that way for 2012.

Happy new year guys.

Advice

2011-12-29T16:50:00.001+08:00

well.. basically, if i was her, i can see u all weak n down..

rise up buddy

u gotta be a man

show to her, how man r u, in this case, how strong willed r u to get back to her

u got show ur passion

ur determintaion

not showing that u r weak without her...

if u just show u r weak without her, she may just give u sympathy but it aint love man

promise me man, inject some pride into u...

i wanna see u be some real strong man.. not physically only but mentally

with attitude man

i mean try not take things direct to emotions

but to ur attitude.. how u making urself stronger for her...

Thanks mate. Those really got me up.

How?

2011-12-28T21:31:00.001+08:00

How do you mend a broken heart? What must you do to make things right? What can you do to make her feel that way again? All this questions in my head. I know she needs time, but will she forget me after that? Will I be just a speck of dust to her? Will I just be a thing of the past?

How do you live when you know she's the one, but you messed it up and now she's just out there, waiting for someone else to pick up the pieces and make her happy again? Tell me how do you live, when you are trying to make things right, but it's just not the same anymore? How can I live when I know I can't be there for her when she needs someone, when she's happy, sad or what ever moments she goes true. I just don't know how.

I'm surviving, but I'm barely breathing.

What I want for christmas

2011-12-25T19:14:00.001+08:00

What I want for christmas is not much. I just to seek forgiveness from the people I have hurt throughout the year. I have done bad and I apologize from the bottom of my heart.

I believe I am a nice guy, seriously. I just lost my way and in result cause a lot of hurt. I blame myself every single day for that. There's nothing much I can do. I know god will judge me, but until then, all I can do is try to make things right, in time.

Christmas

2011-12-25T11:21:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone. Hope everyone had a great time.

My Christmas eve was pretty awesome. I cooked dinner for the family, went to Penang to attend mass and was stuck in a jam.

I also cried myself to sleep.

Best Christmas Ever.

Heart

2011-12-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

The heart is a complex matter. It keeps you alive, pumping blood throughout the blood vessels. When you are excited, your heart beats faster. When you are guilty or sad, your heart feels heavy. Your heart also identifies what you really want, that's why we say follow your heart.

All the while, my heart tells me what I really wanted. The brain on the other hand is what you are. For me, I was the idiot. My judgement was clouded, I was rash. The decision I made was not fated but it's a result of impatience and confusion.

The heart hurts every single day. Sleepless nights are a norm now. I wake up each day with a sigh knowing what went wrong and I single handedly destroyed everything.

I could have listened to my heart, but my brain over-thought, I made the wrong call. I did not consult anyone close to me, I shunned everyone away.

It was my dumb brain that created all this mess.

Untitled

2011-12-22T19:56:00.000+08:00

It's dark outside

I haven't seen light, for so many days

It's cold inside

searching for a way, out of this maze

The pain I'm immersed, but you have felt worst

Thinking to the days, when you were my first

I can't believe, I let it all go six feet under

You are my love, my worst, my darkest moments

I had you in my arms but I let it slipped away

You are my love, my worst, my darkest moment,

without you, I'll never be the same

I remember the scene

when I said we need to talk, I didn't think it through

You were there,

Trying to save it, but I said we were through

Bittersweet

2011-12-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

She said, it's no use for me to try. It hurts when I heard that, but I was smiling a little. For the first time after so long, she actually replied me. It was bittersweet.

I'll wait for another day, until you call my name, until I hold you in my arms, until I whisper in your ear the three words you want to hear and I will never betray you, I will never hurt you, I will never leave your side.

I'll continue to fight for you because I love you.

2011-12-21T14:58:00.001+08:00

Grateful

2011-12-21T11:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my friend told me that there are worst things that could have happened to me, so I should be grateful. It's true. I know I'm going through a difficult time. We all have our problems, but sometimes we must also appreciate what we have around us at the moment.

I was blog walking and I happened to see my friend was involved in an accident. Looking at the picture of the car, It hit me. Things can go horribly wrong any second. It's really scary that one minute you're alive and you might not be the next. I'm really glad that she's all right and so are her friends.

I know I've done bad. I know I might or might not get the chance to make it right. But I'll appreciate all the things around me, little or big. I'll keep on working my way back, I'll stay positive, I'll look at the bright side, because I am grateful that I'm alive today and I have so much to be thankful of.

I'll do whatever I can. :)

I'm going out of my mind..

2011-12-20T20:34:00.001+08:00

I want to scream out loud. I just want to go to the end of the world and scream my lungs out. Somewhere fucking far away from here and just let it all out. There's no one for me to talk to, no one I can really share how I feel.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Words

2011-12-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

I've got so much in my mind. So much to say to you.

I'm working things out, in the mean time, there's nothing I could do but wait. You don't even want to see me. But what else could I ask for, I created this mess.

My heart hurts knowing what I have done.

Thoughts

2011-12-19T01:49:00.003+08:00

Come to think of it. I never did anything much for her. She deserves more than this.

Life comes with no instructions

2011-12-16T15:12:00.002+08:00

It is all in our hands, we make our own decisions and we must be able to handle the consequences. I can make it right because I choose to make it right. Even though if it's not going to be easy.

Morning blues

2011-12-14T08:47:00.001+08:00

Give me the strength to be patient. Teach me that sometimes when you wait, you are waiting for the best. But my mind keeps spinning around, asking myself, how can someone love another person again, when they have hurt them so much? How is that possible?

I'm dying to speak to you, but all I hear is nothing.

2011-12-13T19:42:00.002+08:00

When reality hits you hard, it hits real hard.

2011-12-13T12:52:00.001+08:00

She made sushi for me.

I'll do anything to get you back.

2011-12-13T10:38:00.000+08:00

Nothing

2011-12-12T17:11:00.002+08:00

I can't undo what I have done.

I can't stop her from doing what she wants.

I deserve this.

The Only Exception

2011-12-12T16:29:00.001+08:00

Words can't describe.

True

2011-12-12T12:51:00.001+08:00

Love, like life, is about making choices and fate has nothing to do with it.

I'm fine

2011-12-12T11:07:00.001+08:00

No I'm not. But I'm trying to be. I try to keep myself busy, but again, the heart never listens. Probably because I did not listened, now it's making me.

If I had a chance, I promise I will not hurt you ever again.

2011-12-11T13:06:00.001+08:00

Wake up in the morning missing you. Life has never been this empty. Try to distract myself by playing rock band. The heart never listens does it?

Redang

2011-12-11T01:02:00.001+08:00

Went through our photos yesterday. Our trip to Redang. We took a walk on the beach when the sun came up, I held your hand when we swam in the seas. You put on a white dress for me just because you know I love it. Now everything is just a distant memory.

I kept every single picture of us together. Everywhere we've been, everything we've done.

Walls

2011-12-11T00:53:00.001+08:00

A close friend of mine told me today that when a person is hurt, they will start building a wall to protect themselves. They don't want to get hurt again so they block every single thing that is the source of hurt. Once the wall is up, it will be difficult to break through.

Trust is fragile. Always appreciate what you have.

Dreams

2011-12-10T09:24:00.001+08:00

I wake up everyday with a sigh. I had a dream last night that we were together. It really was just a dream.

2011-12-09T21:24:00.001+08:00

I can't ask for much. I just wish you will talk to me.

Mistakes

2011-12-09T17:03:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you make a mistake, then you end up hurting the people around you. This is the moment when I feel i definitely don't deserve anything at all. :)

Passion

2011-12-09T13:20:00.001+08:00

What's your passion?

2011-12-08T15:46:00.001+08:00

I am going to start over.

2011-12-08T09:43:00.001+08:00

I have never been this afraid. I have never been this vulnerable.

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2011-12-07T21:05:00.001+08:00

Days are so long now that you are gone. Every single second feels like hours. Thoughts spinning in my head, makes me want to run away. Wish I can see your face, hold you in my arms. But all that's left are just photographs, and a broken heart.

Surviving

2011-12-07T16:58:00.001+08:00

I am sad, but it won't stop me from living my life. I learn from my mistakes. I'll continue to live. I'll improve and experience. It will only make me a better person in the future, and maybe, just maybe, you'll be here in my arms.The heart has been yours, always have been.

The note

2011-12-06T21:45:00.002+08:00

I remember the night when I wanted to ask you to be my girl. We were in KLCC, I was expecting to fail. I wasn't really happy with how things are going. But I gathered my courage, and after dinner at the food court, I ask you out for a walk in the park. It was a beautiful night, we strolled, talked about stuffs, and ended up on that bridge, overlooking the twin towers. It was magical, the best thing that has happened to me. I held your hand, and you didn't let go. I knew this is something good.

Our first trip was Christmas. It was our first month anniversary. We went out with your friends. You dragged me up the roller coaster. It was my first time, I was scared. You were beside me. We had so much fun. At night, we went for Christmas countdown in first world hotel. I held you close, as the clock strike midnight. We didn't manage to get a room, so we slept outside in the lobby. You were lying on my lap, and I was snoozing off, and drooled on you, which was pretty hilarious.

First New Year together. I told you I didn't like crowds. We bought KFC over at KL Sentral and went back to my place for candlelight dinner. We held hands as we slept. Well, I wasn't sleeping, because I was happy.

We had our ups and downs, highs and lows. I remember our first time being apart for so long. You had 3 months break, and I was in KL for my semester. We managed to get through it.

I also remember the day you made me cry. It was an april fools prank. You said I always fool you, and you finally got me.

I had issues with you going to clubs, pursuing modelling. We argued, but I never stopped you. It was because I know at the end of the day, you will still be here in my arms.

Time pass so fast. 1 year became 2, 2 years became 3 and then came 4. I went to the UK to further my studies. It was tough being away from you. Before I left, you gave me a present. Something that I will make me remember you. It was pictures that you took, with a T-Shirt that says I love Noel. In my mind, I just wanted to hold you tight and never let go.

During my time in the UK, we skype a lot. I got a simcard that can call you cheap, and we talked on the phone. Due to time difference, I can only talk to you early in the morning or in the evening. I missed you a lot during that period.

Then you told me you got into SIA. I was happy for you, but deep down, I know it wasn't a good idea. Still, I didn't wanted to stop you from doing something that you love. So I supported you, because it was the right thing to do.

You left for Singapore while I was still in the UK. I was worried you would be alone there, but you made new friends. You learnt to be independent. You were ok without me. I was proud of you, but it made me afraid as well. I was afraid that you would just cast me aside.

During my days in Europe, I was always trying to find a way to get to you. I remember when I was in Italy, I panicked because I couldn't call you. I reloaded my prepaid card and when I finally got you, I felt relieved. Although it cost me 10 pounds for that few minutes, It was worth every penny.

I came back during October, and I still didn't get to see you, because you were in Singapore. You decided to come back to Penang. It has been 5 months since we last saw each other. When we finally saw each other in the airport, I hugged you, you were in my arms again. You said you felt funny at first because we did not see each other for so long.

You started your first flight as a trainee. Flight to India, as I remembered. You were nervous, but I calmed you down. I believed in you and you did do a great job. It was uphill from then. You enjoyed your job, getting to travel. You complained about the difficulties, but I didn't mind. I listened because I know you just want someone to be there.

I then got my first job. We were so excited when I got the call from Intel. You supported me all the way through everything I do. You tried to come back once a month to see me. We put in a lot of effort to make this work.

Convocation day, the day that I will never forget. A girl came out of the blue, dressed in white. Surprised the hell out of me. She's the one, I told myself. I was so happy that you came. I just kept smiling for the whole day.

and then, I fucked up. I fucked up the best thing I ever had. I don't know what got into me. I made the biggest mistake I can ever make. I let you go. I was so cruel towards you. I didn't gave us a chance. Maybe we were apart for too long, I was weak. We were going strong. But we had so many changes, I moved to a new house, started a new job, I just got caught in all the changes and I lost my head. Everything happened so fast, and I am starting to realize it only now. I am the biggest idiot. I hurt you bad. I just rip out your heart and threw all our effort down the drain.

And now, all I'm left with is a broken heart. Finally realizing what I have done, its slowly killing me. If only I was stronger. If only I listened to you. We would be happy but It's all gone.

You said you move on, I'm just starting to pick up the pieces. My friend's advised me to move on. Why should I care for someone that doesn't care for me anymore. Maybe you are thinking the same way, because I left you stranded in the dark.

But deep down I know, I will never let you go. Even if it takes 2, 3 or 4 years, I'll just have to be patient. Even I know all you have is hatred for me, even though the chances are slim, I will always be here. I'll be the man who can't be move.

I really hope you can give me a chance to start over. I pray to god. I pray for a miracle.

What would I do without you..

2011-12-05T23:02:00.002+08:00

Exactly. When a heart breaks it don't break even.

I'm a mess.

"The man who can't be move". I'm human after all.

Square

2011-11-25T09:02:00.002+08:00

I'm back to square one. Everything is just not going well for me. Sometimes, I just wish I can go away from all this. Take some time to clear my head. Things have not been the same this year. Everything is in a mess, my life is in a mess.

My heart feels heavy, I think I'm depressed. I put a smile on my face, but inside I'm scared.

These are the days of the dark. I hope the light will come soon.

Quote of the day

2011-11-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you have to try not to care, No matter how much you do, Because sometimes you can mean nothing to someone who means so much to you. It's not pride, It's self respect.

I was lazy

2010-12-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

Yea folks, I was lazy. For the past few months, I have been doing nothing, slacking away even if there was some important things to do that can benefit me. I did nothing because of laziness. Is this the so call phase in life where we just want everything to stop and live like a nomad? Being unaware of anything and everything that's happening around? Is this where we draw the line? Where we say enough? I think this blog is the only place where I could keep my sanity in check. Sometimes there are things I would like to voice out but I just can't. I tend to vent those feelings in a way that you might deem that I should go see a psychiatrist. I could end up being the Joker if I want to.

I'm actually a very dark person, IMO. I believe that I might have split personalities. Or that could be caused by watching inception. The only way I could save myself is for me to actually safe myself. Sometimes I'm a TONA (Talk only no action). That's a short form my friends came up with. I should start to be motivated and actually do something to wake me up from this slumber.

Starting from next week, I would probably start working. A new chapter in my life. Although It wasn't really what I hoped for, I believe that it happened for a reason. I have always see myself as an average person. However, seeing myself achieve during my college years have push my confidence up. Now when I step into the new world, I was beat down, denied. It's good to have all these so that it make me realize that I'm not perfect, and there is definitely room for improvement. That would be the thing that will keep me in check. For there is always something better out there for you. And there will always be competition so that will be the juice that keeps me moving on and on.

I'll stop rambling for now. Welcome to my world.

Redesign

2010-04-23T18:42:00.000+08:00

Gonna redesign this blog again. Due to the fact that i have not take interest in CSS, it's gonna be wee bit difficult.

UNITED

2009-05-28T02:17:00.003+08:00

Event : Manchested United - Barcelona
Time : 2.45AM 28 May 2009
Venue : Green Rose Genting Klang

It's the Champions League Final! Heading out soon for the game. Hope for the best! Glory Glory!

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A deserved win for Barcelona. Man Utd was not up to their standards. A lost, but we will push harder next time.

MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

2009-05-25T23:01:00.002+08:00

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Far fetched day dreaming..

2009-05-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

If anyone of you guys watched scrubs, you'd be familiar with J.D's imagination as he always does when someone says something interesting. I always have these moments when someone says something, a picture pops into my head. So the other day, I was sitting in front of my pc at work, thinking of the stuffs I could do at home. I had one of those moments, i was thinking about immortality.

What if, in the future, we could use the phrase "forever 21" and it actually means something. That age will not be a barrier, and no one would fear death for it will be non existent. What would the world become. Would it be a better outcome or would it destroy us all? If you have the chance to be like what you are now forever, would you? You'd keep your youth, which most tend to lose once we reach adulthood. You be young forever, you could do things in 50 years that you were not suppose to. You can have more time for more things, more goals to accomplish. Time will not be a limit, 24 hours a day will mean nothing, for you have eternity.

If mankind can live forever, it could change everything. If mankind can live forever, precious earth resources will continue to be used. When the last drop of petroleum has been mined, humans will think of a way to create new fuel sources, this will result in new advancement in technology. In a few years time, someone would have created a new type of transportation. We would have discover and built a machine for teleportation. Lightspeed can be achieved and we would be in touch with other races in the galaxy. Maybe at that time, there would be a international galaxy federation, earth would be invited to join because we have achieved the speed of light. Next thing you know, it's just like you're in a star wars movie, light sabers will be a reality, space travel if like travelling to the next town.

Poof! Back to reality, my boss just walked pass me. If only we could live in our imaginations.

Turn on your TV's ! (or torrents). The season has ended. For the summer, you would have nothing really interesting to watch. Though, i would be looking forward to Psych if it returns. The following shows have already had their season finale.

1. Grey's Anatomy
This was a great season for Grey's. Izzie suffers from cancer as Meredith and Sheperd takes the next step. We still see the other side of Callie Torres as she dates Arizona. Hunt and Christina were together but Hunt nearly killed her because he has post war trauma. It was an emotional roller coaster. I left the finale to the weekends because it's a two hour special. Can't wait!

2. Supernatural
Lucifer has risen. Where would the story go now? The angels were actually trying to raise Lucifer while Castiel didn't agree and wasn't on the rebels side. Lilith was the final seal and Ruby was actually playing Sam to make him kill Lilith. It was a great season for Dean and Sam Winchester. Looking forward to the next season!

3.Lost
I haven't caught up with Lost for a while now but the last episode i saw was Ben was judged by the island and her dead daughter appeared, asking him to not hurt John Locke or she will kill him. It's getting less draggy and i'd be finishing it soon.

4. Heroes
I have not watched Heroes for this season as it was getting kinda draggy and boring. Though i have the complete season and will watch when i have the time.

5. Fringe
My favourite show, alongside with Supernatural, The Mentalist, Lost and Grey's. If you love mysteries and the impossible in the world of science like teleportaion, mind reading, dark matter, human experiments, this is a must watch. You'd be a fan in an instant!

American Dad and Family Guy also wrap up their seasons last Sunday. The last episode of American Dad is funny as hell while Family Guy was so-so. Most of the series are going to end soon such as The Mentalist, How I Met Your Mother, Two And A Half Man and much more.

The show i'd be looking forward during the break would be TOP GEAR ! My favourite automotive program returning on June 21st!

I guess it's time for bed. I will end this post with a song. Some of you would have never heard of this band, but they are good. Feature on Grey's Anatomy Season 5 Epi 20.

The Rescues - Break Me Out

Until Then.

Action speaks louder than words.

2009-05-17T21:11:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, Manchester United failed to secure a win against Arsenal in a poor, sloppy game. The game ended 0-0 at 90mins. The thing is, after that, everyone started celebrating, even though they drawed at Old Trafford. Well, if you haven't been following the Barclays Premier League, then here's an update for you.

MANCHESTER UNITED

08/09 BARCLAYS PREMIER LEAGUE CHAMPIONS

For the third consecutive time Manchester United have battled away competition to secure the Premier League Trophy. Liverpool did gave us a good run but we battled our way till the end, although from the bigger picture, we had been on top of the table for quite a while with one game in hand. There is still one more game to play, which is against Hull City. That would decide whether Hull City get's relegated or not. Here is the current table standings.

As you can see, even if Liverpool (Out of respect for pool fans, i shall use their rightful name) win the next two games, we'd be one point ahead. So it's consider job done for the season. Next stop would be the Champions League final against Barcelona!!

This picture was grabbed from LYN. This was from way back when Liverpool were in their glory days. One of their fans had put up this banner. Well, look at the statistics below,

Currently, Manchester United has succesfully halted Liverpool's train to catch up with 18 Premier League titles. What has Liverpool been doing all those years? I can only say that Sir Alex Ferguson is the best manager out there and he has done his job brilliantly to guide the team to glory. We are back with 18 titles, and as Sir Alex says, we'd be gunning for the 19th. Now, Manchester United is No. 1 Domestic team in England! Take that Rafa Bunnytez!

Here's the official wallpaper from manutd.com. You can get it from manutd.com.

It has been a great season, a great effort. It has been ups and downs. Here's 11 moments that won United their hattrick. (Note, it's not by me)

1) Warning Shots

Following an average pre-season, which culminated in lifting the Community Shield by beating Portsmouth, and losing the UEFA Super Cup showdown with Zenit St. Petersburg, Manchester United started the season slowly. This was nothing new – they often take time to settle into a rhythm – but this season their rivals looked ready to challenge their dominance.

On September 13, Liverpool, whose Spanish contingent were fresh from Euro 2008 glory, beat them in the league for the first time since 2002. Making his debut, €33 million signing Dimitar Berbatov assisted Carlos Tevez's early opener, but a Wes Brown own goal and Ryan Babel's strike gave the Reds three points at Anfield. Chelsea followed, and Salomon Kalou cancelled out Park Ji-Sung's opener to steal a point.

2) Tame The Tigers

United continued to stutter and, come November 1, they welcomed Premier League newcomers Hull City to Old Trafford, shockingly trailing the Tigers by two points. A thrilling game ensued.

Cristiano Ronaldo combined with Dimitar Berbatov before opening the scoring after just three minutes, yet Hull managed to equalise. The Red Devils then raced into a three goal lead, but the visitors gave them a fright at the end, and the match finished 4-3 in favour of the giants. Sir Alex Ferguson's men had seen off the challenge of a group of plucky upstarts, but losing to Arsenal the next week left question marks all over United and their title defence.

3) Golden Boy

On December 2, Cristiano Ronaldo was awarded the Ballon d'Or for his performances in 2008. The Portuguese powerhouse was often struggling to reach the high standards he'd set during the previous season, so the Golden Ball came as a welcome boost.

With the January transfer window fast approaching, this recognition perhaps helped 'CR7' to put thoughts of Real Madrid out of his head. It had looked as though the winger would start the season at the Bernabeu, but now he was officially the best player in the world, and he'd done it as a Man Utd player.

4) Post-Christmas Blues

Hard-fought wins over Stoke City and Middesbrough followed an untimely, but successful, Club World Cup jaunt to Japan. The ability to gain these points despite a harsh schedule would stand United in good stead later in the season.

Ferguson had been predicting a massive post-Christmas improvement from his side, and they certainly started 2009 with a bang. Veteran Ryan Giggs started to come to the fore during a 3-0 pounding of Chelsea, although it was Nemanja Vidic, Wayne Rooney and Berbatov who bagged the goals.

This performance, as well as being full of creativity and authority, pulled United to within a point of Chelsea and five behind Liverpool, with two games in hand.

5) Back On Top

On January 17, after Berbatov's late winner at Bolton Wanderers, Man Utd went to the top of the Premier League pile for the first time during the campaign. It was the defence, and goalkeeper Edwin van der Sar, who were earning all the plaudits, however: the 1-0 win was their tenth clean-sheet in a row.

6) Nothing Lasts Forever

Newcastle United forward Peter Lovenkrands finally put the ball into Van der Sar's net on March 4, ending the Dutchman's stunning 1310 minute stretch without conceding. Centre-backs Vidic and Jonny Evans, who was usually covering for the injured Rio Ferdinand, took a massive amount of credit, but it was ultimately the strength of the entire team which made them unbreakable.

Nevertheless, United would respond instantly at St. James Park, with Rooney and Berbatov dragging their team back from the brink of defeat to win.

7) The Dip

The middle of March was a disastrous time for Manchester United. If there was to be no happy ending come May, then these two games against Liverpool and Fulham would have been considered the point at which it all went wrong.

Liverpool absolutely trounced them at Old Trafford, winning 4-1 after Vidic had been sent off amid an error-strewn display. The red mist descended again at Craven Cottage, where Paul Scholes and Rooney were dismissed en route to a shock 2-0 defeat at the hands of Fulham.

8) Introducing : Federico Macheda

Sir Alex Ferguson needed to find something special from somewhere if his troops were to fight their way to the title. Enter unknown 17-year-old Federico Macheda, who came off the bench to grab the winner against Aston Villa. The visitors had led with ten minutes remaining, but Ronaldo and Macheda secured a dramatic 3-2 victory.

They say lightning doesn't strike twice, but try telling that to Sunderland. Macheda took mere seconds to lift the Red Devils to a 2-1 win, when the three points had looked beyond them.

9) Showing Character

April 25 is a date that will likely stick in the memories of all who attended Old Trafford to watch United take on Tottenham Hotspur. Goals from Darren Bent and Luka Modric stunned the home crowd, but they responded to roar their side to a compelling second-half turnaround. Doubles from Ronaldo, Rooney and a final goal from Berbatov completed a stunning eventual 5-2 rout, although Spurs were aggrieved by some of the referee's decisions.

10) On The Brink

By May 13, Man Utd had shown that they were more than capable of winning ugly, winning spectacularly… winning by whatever means necessary. As they visited Wigan Athletic's JJB Stadium, they were four points from a third-successive title, and the nerves were evident. The hosts led at the break, and again United would have to do it the hard way to crush Liverpool's hopes of pipping them to first place.

Tevez – his future still hanging in the balance – became the latest inspired substitution as he skilfully flicked the leveller into the Wigan net, before Michael Carrick gracefully fired into the top corner with time running out. Another three points snatched from the jaws of failure, and now just one point away from getting their hands on the trophy…

11) Three-In-A-Row

Manchester United hosted Arsenal on May 16, kicking off the penultimate weekend of the season. With Rio Ferdinand injured, Ryan Giggs – previously awarded with the PFA Player of the Year gong – lead out the side, although it would be club captain Gary Neville who'd lift the famous trophy.

In truth it was a dour game, filled with broken-down attacks and scrappy play, but United fans couldn't care one jot as the 0-0 draw handed them their third successive title.

United thus equal Liverpool's record of 18 top-flight titles, and win an astonishing second Premier League hat-trick. For the legendary Sir Alex Ferguson, it's eleven wins as the legend continues to be written.

End of story. Until Then! Glory Glory!

I'd TP your house with all these toilet papers.

2009-05-17T11:32:00.001+08:00

Today at work, I had a tummy ache. I stop what I was doing and drifted to the toilet to answer nature’s call. As I close the door, I saw that there was no toilet paper. So I went next door to get the toilet paper there and came back to my cubicle. As I made myself comfortable, my mind drifted away as my butt makes the music. Halfway through it, I was looking at the toilet paper. It got me thinking, it was only 10 in the morning and the toilet paper has already been used up. Through my observations, I’ve noticed that the toilet paper will be refilled twice a day. So I made some calculations. There are 26 floors in Bangunan AmBank. Each floor has two toilets, one for female and one for male. Inside the toilet there are 4 cubicles where each will have a roll of toilet paper.

Bangunan AmBank

• 26 Floors
• 2 toilet each floor
• 4 cubicle each toilet
• 2 rolls of toilet paper each day.

So 26 floors X 2 toilets each floor is 52.
52 X 4 cubicles is 208.
208 X 2 rolls of toilet paper per day is 416 toilet paper used each day!

If we count the amount of toilet paper used in May itself, that would be
416 X 21 business days = 8736 toilet paper rolls for that month.
Not inclusive of non-working days.

That’s only for one month. How many trees have been cut down for humans to waste like this? I sat that and ponder. There are so many buildings that have toilets that use toilet papers everyday. With that amount of toilet paper, I could TP the Petronas twin towers with no problems. From far you would see the twin towers cover in white toilet paper and that would be real fun. I could TP every single mall in Malaysia with the amount of toilet paper used each day. Every mall would be cover in all sorts of toilet paper from all kinds of brand and with all sorts of material. It would be like snowing in Malaysia.

My hands kept pulling the toilet paper as I finish my business. I continued to think that one day if humans do not have toilet paper, what would happen? The next thing I know, I had already used and threw a handful of toilet paper in the toilet bowl. Then I realized

I’m just one of them. I’m a big hypocrite.

So I washed my hands, and went back to work. It was just another day in the toilet.

*TP means to throw/decorate a place/object with toilet paper

So what’s it like being a working adult. I must say it is quite fun. Why do I say its fun is because I love what I do. I love looking at codes and trying to solve them. I love programming. Although I’m not really a good one but I do work hard at what I do. Maybe this is just the beginning as I’m still a trainee. Some people say that it’s better to enjoy college life. I feel that they both have pros and cons. In college you could do what ever you want, be who you want to be. Nobody cares about what you do, you enjoy life to the max. It’s like a disorganize folder. Unlike being a working adult, you start to get reorganize. You have to be responsible for your actions. Anything you do can affect you in a way. Of course, for some of us who likes to wake up late. It’s also a habit that needs to be thrown out when you are working. Unless you are the boss.

Currently the only thing I feel not satisfied about is because I’m not working in a software house. In a software house, you are the vendor. You are providing the software therefore there is more programming to be done. As working in a bank, we do not develop our own software. We buy it from the vendors. The only programming we do is simple stuffs like writing scripts and if-else. In the future, I would love to gain more experience by working in a software house so that I can be exposed to different kinds of knowledge. Working in this bank also has its advantage. By learning how to use the software, I could get a job next time at a bank that uses this software because I have experience in using it. It would definitely benefit me this way.

You ask me what working life is? Currently I’m enjoying it. We will see whether my mind changes in the next few months.

What about you guys?

Until then

17th Day of Internship

2009-05-13T20:12:00.003+08:00

It has been two weeks plus since i first joined AmInvestment Bank as a trainee. Every morning, i wake up, wash up, dress up, drive to the LRT station, take a train to Terminal Putra to avoid the daily congestion, a 25min train to Dang Wangi, pick up a copy of the Sun, walk over and switch to Monorail to Raja Chulan, a 10 minute walk to reach Bangunan AmBank. When i reach there, i look like i just ran a marathon. Take the elevator to the 14th floor, enter the office, sit down, cool down, take out my breakfast, make a cup of milo, and read the Sun till it's 8.45AM.

I usually don't like routines. It's just so boring.

Other than that, i made a call to Singapore, waited 30min plus in a few calls for the Streamyx Customer Service, made a call to Tropicana and write a few formulas on XML. That's practically what i did today.

I haven't been online for the past few days because my modems broke down on me. All three of the modems broke down on the same effing day. Even my backup modem, the Streamyx Official Modem broke down. The existing one could not boot up and the Streamyx one could not establish a coonection with the DSL line. I had to fork out RM108 to get myself a new D-Link 4Port modem router just to come home and find that i forgotten my effing password which i had change a few months back. Has to make a million calls to Tm Nut before they answer the phone. They basically do not need any knowledge to work on the hotline because they have a guidebook or a flowchart i do not know. Here is how it goes

1. Have you made a direct connection?
Yes - Proceed
No - Ask customer to perform one.

3. Perform Direct Connection
Success - Router Problem
Fail - Proceed

2. Open up CMD and ping 127.0.0.1
Success - Proceed
Fail - Restart Modem

3. Type IPConfig /all and see the IP
Success - Proceed
Fail - Restart NIC

4. If still cannot
Reset port/report/wait for technician

Follow the guidebook and you can solve everybody's problem. I think the main thing is not to solve the problem but to just provide a service for the customers to listen to the annoying music while waiting for a human soul to pick up a phone that will try to solve your bloody problem for you so that you feel satisfied because the service is provided.

Enough of that rant.

On to another topic, Have anyone of you tarcian recieve an email about the Aunty that sells Wan Tan Noodles over at SPL in Genting Klang? I always like to eat her noodles because she makes a generous portion. But after recieving this mail, i felt sorry for her.

一个卖面安娣的故事（setapak)
不懂你们有没有遇过她。。。

她在prima setapak附近的一个小食中心买面。。。
在7-11和pasar中间的小食档（新朋霖）
很容易认的，她的背后有一个很大的驼峰。。。
她在那里卖甘香鸡面，鸡丝河粉，档口是在里面的。。。
70多岁了，我认识了她7年。。。
如果你去买面吃，他会笑容满面地问你要吃什么，坐下后不久，他就会捧一碟大大碟的面，有时还大到吃不完。。。她和一些学生的感情不错的，那些学生时常去“帮衬”她。

她和老太公在附近租了一间房间住，本来好好的。。。
去年，她老公心脏病进了医院，他们的问题就出现了。。。
虽然是政府医院，不过药也要钱，再加上需要吃一些中药，经济就出了问题。。

他告诉我，他一天卖到大约30碟面，百多块收入，扣除本钱，档口的租金，身下不到几十块，有时有赚到30块，算是不错了。。。
她的房租300，有时候没办法，需要欠房东钱，还好房东也没有太过逼她。。。
有时要钱买药，没办法，被逼想起他人借钱，不过，又有几个人肯借钱给这样老的人呢？没办法时，只有ahlong可以帮到她。
我劝他不可借阿隆，她讲没有办法，连买药的钱都没有了。。。

我希望借着佳礼，希望拉曼学生怀着恻隐之心，帮帮这个老人家。
每个人都要吃午餐晚餐的，如果你们到那里吃，何不想想，可以帮到一个需要帮助的人，又不用给多余的钱（一碗面RM4.00,小碗的RM3.50)。
叫没上佳礼的朋友们，一起去吃。。。

吃东西又可以帮到人，何乐而不为？？？

Apparently, her husband was admitted into hospital and she has a hard time making a living to support herself and pay the medical fees for her husband. It's really sad to see her like that. So i hope maybe tarcians living around setapak could go buy her stall and order a plate of noodles. She had to turn to the loan sharks for money. She's already in her 70's and she has to work so hard. Sometimes life is just unfair.

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Special Notice:

Event: Microsoft Malaysia Imagine Cup Finals
Date: 19th May 2009, Tuesday
Time: 10am - 1pm
Venue: Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre

It's happening guys! The Imagine Cup Finals. I wonder what impressive ideas i will see there. I really hope to attend but i think i won't be able to. I am really impressed but a lot of the ideas that my coursemates have came up with to reach the finals for the college level. But this is on a whole new level because it includes other students from whole Malaysia. It is gonna be very exciting!

Head to YouTube to see a lot of samples from the past winners and contestants. Fantastic ideas i tell you.

Well, i guess i'll stop here. I just got connected to the web like two hours ago. Am real happy to be back online. Haha

So cheers to you guys and girls ! Until then !

Windows 7 RC test drive..and other stuffs

2009-05-10T19:10:00.002+08:00

Windows 7 RC or release candidate was announce by Microsoft which became available to the public on the 5th of May. Release candidate means that the software could well be a version of the final product that will be launched in 2010. When the beta for Windows 7 first released, i managed to download but i never had the time to play with it due to exams and then i just got lazy. So when this came out, i went ahead and downloaded a copy and got my key to the product.

Although this is a release candidate, it is not really advised to run it as your primary operating system. So either you can install it in a different partition, creating to OS environment or you could just use a virtualization software. The current best software out there for home users would be the VMWare workstation.

What this software does is it allows you to boot up any OS with the expense of taking up a small amount of space in your hard disk and also you ram. So you can run two OS simultaneously. One thing to be noted is if you are running a 32-bit OS, you can not run a 64-bit version on the VMWare. You can only run it when your base OS is 64-bit.

And if you do not have enough memory to spare, you would be suffering as even i allocated 2GB of ram to the virtual machine, it still lags pretty badly. Maybe because i do not have a good cpu. A quad core processor would run it perfectly. Well, anyhow, it's no harm to try it out. Just to test and see the looks and feel of it.

Here we go. If the pictures are too small, you could always drop by to my flickr page.

Here's the VMWare configuration page. We need to power the virtual machine on !

When i first turn it on, it's quite fast when booting even as a virtual machine. I was quite impressed with it. Usually vista takes a minute or two.

Here's the main windows ! If you notice, there are no more tabs on the taskbar when you open programs or windows. Instead they are replaced by icons. Although sometimes i do prefer to read the name of the program or task that i am about to switch to. It practically has a explorer/library function when you open a folder. You can actually categorize your files in the different forms and it can be located no matter where the file is in the computer as long as it's in the library. Just like using a media player.

For paint lovers, there's your new interface. All sorts of new stuffs you can do!

The version that is currently out is the ultimate version. So you would have access to all the functions available. The new IE 8 as in display!

Logging off.

The Verdict.

I'm not too sure about what to say because i'm running it as a virtual machine and at times it's kinda slow. But it definitely looks promising. It looks and feels like Vista but it's different in terms of efficiency and also organizing data. There are loads of other features that i did not have the time to explore. But if all comes well, as in no software compatibility problems, it would definitely be the next big thing after Windows XP!

This is definitely something to look forward to.

On other stuffs, i've been cleaning and reorganizing my PC both physically and innerly, shall i say. I've move my PC from bottom to top. Mostly because i felt it need more fresh air and i need more space under my table.

It looks kinda messy. My PC takes up half of the space on my table. I may plan to reshift it again but don't know to where. I might just bring out one of the tables as study table outside in the living room and have one as my PC table in the room.

This is how my Vista looks now. Just for the heck of it. Although my CPU still burns at 50Celcius even on idle mode. But it looks nice. Lol.

After seeing a few of my friends taking time to blog about their internship experience daily. I too am considering doing it. I don't have internet connection at my work place and to have one i would have to apply for it because working in a place like a bank, you need Black and White. But it's a good practice to write about what happen so that the next time, i can ponder back and see all the bad and the good from this experience.

I guess i'll be heading to bed.

And oh yea. The results of the Manchester Derby. How could i forget.

Manchester United 2 - 0 Manchester City.

Goals from Ronaldo and Tevez saw Manchester United sink Manchester City in this exciting derby match. United was superb in the first half but started poorly in the second half, making Sir Alex Ferguson made some changes which saw Ronaldo substituted for Scholes. He did not understand the decision of the Gaffer and threw a tantrum. Overall it was a great game, superb performance by Nemanja Vidic. You could hear the stadium chanting his name and singing Nemanja, Ohh! With Ferdinand, Carrick by the sidelines, it was a solid performance by United that brought them back to the top of the table. And by next saturday against Arsenal, provided a win is achieved on the weekdays against Wigan. United may be looking at a 18th and second consecutive League Trophy.

Off to bed now.

Until Then!

11th day of Internship

2009-05-06T00:48:00.003+08:00

Which is today but now is just 12.48. I just came back from futsal and i'm tired as hell but i'm not sure i'll be able to sleep well. I need to wake up by 6.35 and i hope i am able to make it. Furthermore, Man Utd game against Arsenal later. Hope for the best. Glory Glory ! Off to bed now, good nite guys. and something worth mentioning.

Happy Birthday to my Twin! haha..Well, i mean Happy Birthday to Mon Ping ! May you have a blessed birthday!

Alright, i'm hiting the sack.

Until Then!

Quickie

2009-05-03T22:31:00.004+08:00

I'm about to go to bed. Tomorrow's Monday. Yea, dreadful Monday. I hate Mondays, no wonder people feel suicidal on Mondays.

Internship has been quite alright, got hands-on on Unix and XML. Been to the new system's reporting training. Learning how to use the reporting functions. Fyi, the IT Department i'm currently in is in charge of the treasury. So, most of the terms used are like technical jargon to me. No idea. It's been two weeks, ended April quite satisfied with myself. Here comes May.

And is anyone feeling lazy to bother about college work? Although i miss the times that i could just skip lecture, and wake up late, i don't have the "oomph" to do my Final Year Project stuffs. That's why my supervisor said, most of the students that went to training usually come back having more stuffs to do. Because working life and studying life is different.

For some reason i am fascinated by how when i type on the keyboard and the words "magically" appear on the screen. Makes me wanna keep on typing. Lol.

I missed a few things to blog about, especially my 21st birthday post, and lots of stuffs. Hmm, and some issues, and, emo stuffs and, yea, the swine flu.

Swine flu alert, hope most of you read the newspaper as it has reached Phase 5, which means a pandemenic is imminent. So please all of my friends and families please do take care. Stay away from pork for a while and if possible, try not to travel.

I'm off to bed, until the next post.

Short Update - Internship

2009-04-21T20:07:00.002+08:00

I was late for work today. Stupid jam at Jalan Genting Klang. It took me an hour plus just to get out of that stupid stretch of road. Don't know what the hell is causing all that. I had to be at work at 8.45am. Ended up reaching at 9.05am. Luckily no one said anything.

I'm currently having my internship at AmInvestment Bank. Sounds like an interesting job eh. Unfortunately, i have zero experience in Unix and XML. So i need to study them to grasp the language. For the first day at work, i attended a briefing on a new system for problem reporting. It was quite interesting. I and my friends were then introduced to the team, and we were given our own table and computer to sit and work. We were given some Unix scripts to work on. But other than that, i practically did nothing much. First week i guess, have to see how are we like and let us adapt to the environment.

Went for the hands on training today. After that, just sat down and waited for lunch. Browse the ambank web page. We do not have web access there. How sad. After lunch, again sat down in front of the computer. Was given a Unix book to study and practice. Waited for 6PM to come. Actually work ended at 5.45pm, but since i was late, so i decided to stay a bit longer.

As for tomorrow i probably be taking the LRT to work. Don't wanna waste time stuck in a endless and pointless jam.

Hope everything goes well during my internship, can't wait for the weekend!!

until then.

Epiphany (Not Really)

2009-04-15T17:52:00.004+08:00

There are a few things that i planned to blog about but i keep forgetting. It was never a habit of me to write down the things that i wanna blog about because, well, i like to be spontaneous. But i realize that we cannot be that all the time. Somethings need planning, need time to work on it, need time to practice. Spontaneously will only bring a fair outcome, well, to me, i don't know about you guys. I used to think that i do not need to go through my points during a presentation when i was in diploma, i felt that since i can speak, why can't i do it during a presentation? I ended up looking for words to say, pausing, ummm-ing all the time.

This does not only apply to speaking, but also decisions, actions, work, all sorts, but i think girls like guys to be spontaneous. It surprises them when guys do something out of the box, something they would not usually do.

I watched Yes Man yesterday. It was a good movie, i would say. After finishing the movie, i sort of think to myself. Am i shutting myself from the real world? Everybody has a group of friends they really trust and would do anything for them, do i have that group of friends? When opportunity comes, i don't have the confident to say yes.

I remember there was once i was asked by a fellow course mate to help out in a event for our school. Become the Emcee for the event to be exact. I thought to myself, i would not have the confident to stand up on a stage facing a crowd and speak. So i decided not to. When i come to rethink that decision, it was a stupid decision to say no. It's a opportunity for me to step up, no harm done. I think i'm not really a risk taker. I am scared of what will happen if i fail. I only do things that i'm confident i can achieve them.

And there were a few times where my classmates asked me out, i refused because i felt akward. Honestly guys, no offence, i thought that i was the "wierd" one in class. I could not get into the circle. So i decided to box myself up and stay in my comfort zone.

Sometimes i think that people think that i have everything, great life, good friends, good results, but i do not. It's not a bed of roses for me. I'm just like every single soul out there.

All these things that i have done, was because i did not have the courage to actually try something new. I did not say YES because i'm afraid of the outcome. There was once i thought that i actually overcomed the phase. But i realize that, psychologicaly, we who are afraid tend to shove ourselves back in to our comfort zone, telling ourselves everything is alright. A naturalist, doing nothing about whatever that happens.

Looking at myself, i would say that i do not have really good friends. Just good friends, not the ones that would stand by you no matter what happens. It's rare to have friends that will be by your side because i feel in this era, people are all egoistic, fighting for themselves, fighting for survival. My life ain't that sweet either, but there are people that are worst than me out there, i shall not compliant. There are times when i had good friends, really good friends, but i let them slipped away, didn't bother to make contact, catch up, all just talk no action. Slowly they just forget, forget that you ever existed. Because you did not bother to keep in touch. Yes i believed that happened. It is also that all of us has just walked our own path, meet new people, new life, new environment, the old one just got replaced.

One thing i really hate is that people have this thought that since i have a girlfriend, i don't really need my friends anymore. I would ask, " Why didn't you ask me out??", " You got girlfriend what...". I hate that. Doesn't mean that i have a girlfriend i don't wanna hang out with my friends. I have time for both my girlfriend and my friends. I hate that when people have that idea about me.

I think i need to start to live the life, grab the opportunities, take risks. Say Yes to more things. You never know what you would get when you say Yes.

Lessons from playing poker. There are always up's and down's in life. But if you dare to take the risk, it might just pay off.

*P/s, picking up advice from movies is never a good idea. Please do not try anything silly*

Until then.

*O Ya. I'm back in Penang. Going back to KL on Saturday. Industrial Training starts next week. Anxious but excited.*

muahahaha

2009-04-11T12:48:00.002+08:00

As a self professed geek, i love technology. I love gadgets.

Ooo yes i love gadgets. If you do know me, you know how much i love the iphone.

But since i do not have the budget to get one yet. Muahahahahaha

I also love things with bling..for example the Crucial Ballistix Tracer Rams with LED. Had to sold them cause they died on me.

But today, we have a new addition to the family.

Presenting the Microsoft Sidewinder X6

Isn't it a beauty?

It has up to 90 if i'm not mistaken, programmable macros which i don't really use, two tone backlight, did i mention backlight? oh yes. detachable numpad(yup), which you can switch it to the left or the right. and backlight. lol

Macro shot.

Macro shot with Sidewinder Logo

Macro Keys

Light up!

It's just awesome..hahaha..

Anyway, i wanna thank everyone for the birthday wishes. 21 already. lol. Will blog more about my 21st birthday later.

Until then.

Dear Marcus..

2009-04-08T00:57:00.001+08:00

Hahaha..I'm gonna have a post dedicated to you..

I hate you..LOL

Wait, i'm serious..I hate YOU!!!!!

ahhahahha..

You know what i mean!!!!!!!!!

Just watch it..

2009-04-06T13:35:00.001+08:00

He is effing awesome. I can't help but to shed tears of joy as he scored that goal. Just so amazing.

Wishlist

2009-04-02T01:01:00.003+08:00

I finally finished my System Requirement Specs for my final year project so now i have time to cakap a bit here. Have been very busy for the past few days, having insomnia almost every night due to sleeping in the wee hours. Plus the weather was hot.

So, this is a wishlist. Haha. Things that i wish i can get for this year. I am doing this out of boredom and since my ******** is just around the corner. I get to make a list ! Haha

If you guys know me, you'd already know the list is gonna be filled with gadgets.

So here goes my *selfish* wishlist

10. PS3

I wanna play guitar hero! haha. But this wish is kinda far fetched. But what the hell.

9. Speakers

My speakers spoilt already. Everytime play movies or songs, the audio only comes out from one side. Should get new one. Pc Fair is around the corner!

8. 1 Year Subscription to Top Gear Malaysia

This i'm lazy to do. No money to do also. Buy alternate months only. Which reminds me, i haven't even finish reading February's issue.

7. 1TB External HDD

Too many movies, series, games. Too little space.

6. Manchester United Home Kit 07/09

I have already bought myself the third kit. Planning to get the home kit soon. But then it seems that the home kit is gonna change already. But then i like the current home kit. Haha

5. i7 Set

The magical words. Open doors to a new future. The ultimate killer rig must have.

4. Geforce 285 GTX

I'm not greedy. Am i???? No I'm not.

3. A decent dslr capable digital camera

Something like those that look like dslr's but not dslr.

2. Laptop

For future purpose, so this means that this wish will be for the future then.Lol

1. iPhone

Still need to explain?

So that's my top 10 for the year. I guess. So if i'm not that selfish and self-centered, here's my wish list

1 - 10 : World Peace

That settles it.

But still there are somethings that i would like to wish for.

To my family, i wish that we will always be in good health and be protected from harm. That we would live happily and healthy no matter what.

To my friends, i wish all of you succeed in what ever you do. Especially in you studies and also for those who have already started their career. I also wish that we always stay in touch because some friends are hard to replace.

Hmm..any more wishes?

Ohhh riteeeeee!

Manchester United win the Quadruple this season. *Wish Wish Wish Wish*

I'll stop here.

Until then!

Out Of Time

2009-03-26T03:34:00.002+08:00

I'm back again, not sleeping yet again. Poker is all the rage these few days, so is j-rock and anime songs. Awesome. I play facebook poker. It's kinda addictive. Me and my friends can just sit and play poker for few hours straight. As i say i'm into j-rock these few days, these are my recommendation

Donten - Does (Gintama OP)
Aqua Timez - Velonica (Bleach OP)
Tommy Heavenly7 - Papermoon (Soul Eater OP)

Best nyer. Thanks to AlecKor for the songs! He big J-Pop fan. Can ask him into japanese songs.

Am busy with Final Year Project stuffs. Gotta complete the system specs by this week asap. Still slacking behind, playing fifa and poker. While exams are coming up soon, soon as in like 3 weeks or so. Only one paper for this semester, moral then i'm off to industrial training for 6 months. I'm stepping into the battlefield! Woot.

About my internship, i got accepted into AmFinance. Their building is located at Jalan Raja Chulan, the AmBank building. Kinda lucky to be accepted and am happy because i do not need to be interviewed again. But then i will be attending another interview next week to help the college as the MQA or Malaysian Qualification Agency would like to interview the students.

I should be sleeping man, but i'm still awake.

Just now i went to Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa, Kampung Baru and had nasi lemak. It's just so so and the teh ice taste a little way off the ordinary teh ice i have. It's kinda pricey as a normal nasi lemak cost RM2.95, while toppings like chicken or sotong are priced from RM3.95 - RM4.95. A teh ice cost RM2.95. Not really worth it. Anyway, the place i went is just behind my place at Taman Melati Utama.

What should i do for my seminar, i'm still confused. Not sure what to pick. Suddenly i feel very hungry right now.

Random post. Sleep now. Blog later.

until then!

Being on top.

2009-03-23T04:09:00.002+08:00

I'm having insomnia, that's the reason i'm blogging at this time in the morning. I will be having a Skill Based Assessment at 9AM later, i'm so gonna be in trouble.

The reason for this entry is about me and my studies. I was not a smart kid, never was. I would say i'm average. My grades were quite good during primary, but when i got to Standard 3, i just started to be not that good, i dropped to the second class, constantly playing a fool. I scored 4As 2B in my UPSR. As i moved on to secondary, i was even worst. I flunk papers, score some, got 4As 3Bs in my PMR. I'm still consider as average, always in the top 200 in school out of 400 students. For my SPM, i only manage to score 2As with a bunch of B,C and D.

Come to think of it, i am just an average student, i'm not a genius like some of the fellas in my school, scoring As for every single paper they get on their hands. I never thought that i would be that good. Never even crossed my mind. I'm just average. But i believe in hardwork. If you put effort, you will definitely gain results. The results you get will be the same as the amount of effort you put in.

Moving on to College. I did pretty well for my diploma. Scoring 3.704 for my CGPA. I would say that i am surprise that i'd do that well. Maybe it's because that i actually am interested in what i was studying. People start to think that i'm one of the smart ones, the one on top. Honestly, i never really regard myself as that. When people tell me that "You sure straight As la" or "You scared what? Always score so high" and the best "You won't know whats the failing grade cause you have never been near there at all". Well, i really did not know about the failing grade. I actually gain something from that, i became more confident. I even earned myself a scholarship for my Advance Diploma course which i would never expected myself to get. But i believe some regarded me as a selfish fella that would not share my work. I am actually surprise that people that are better than me will think that i'm actually really good. It just feels not right. I remember a classmate once said that he thinks that i'm smart and wished he has good grades like me. To think about it that the fact is he was as good as i am and he did better actually in the previous finals. I just find it funny that people think that i'm actually smart!

I'm not that smart seriously, i'm only average. Maybe i get good grades because i put in extra effort. But thoughout all this times, i tend to surprise myself. Last semester results, i got 2As,2Bs and a C+. I was shocked that i got a C+ because it's been a while i scored a C. This actually pulls me back to reality. The fact that sometimes i think that i'm already good enough, is not true. My lucky streak ends here. It shows that, i am slacking and i'm not putting enough effort. Other students are scoring straight A's. I find it embarassing to get a C. But then i shouldn't, because this is what i get for the effort i put in.

I always thought i was lucky, scoring good grades was luck. I don't know why i think like that but maybe it's because i'm not confident. Now i'm not on top, i'm just average. Always have been. What i need to do is to put more effort to turn average into good.

This is reality, this is what i need, this shows that i'm not perfect, there are going to be ups and downs. I'm not like those people that score every single paper. I know i'm not, i know my ability. I have not the brains of smart people. But maybe, a little effort can change average to good. Reality sucks, but i would have to pull through. I tell myself, a C+ was not what you expected, so work hard the next time.

It's wierd, looking back at the past, and looking at the present. What have i become, the things that i've done. The difference between me 10 years ago and now. Still,i wanna be on top, and that's for sure.

Looks like i just completed paragraphs of gliberish.

I got 2 hours of sleep before i get up at 7am for revision.

Until then.

OMG

2009-03-19T02:23:00.001+08:00

Apple are Invading KL! A huge iPhone 3G Billboard was spotted in Genting Klang! Can't wait for the launch! Woot!

Melaka Trip Part 1

2009-03-14T01:43:00.004+08:00

So, last Monday was a public holiday. Me and my friends decided to take a road trip down to Melaka for food and sightseeing. We took off in the morning and there was me, Way Shoon, Crystal and Sze Ling. It's a two hour trip down to Melaka, i've never drive on the North-South Expressway after KL. We reached Melaka at ard 11 and head straight to town. There wasn't anything to see around Ayer Keroh on the way to town. There are a few farms such as butterfly farm, crocodile farm and so on. So in we went into Melaka Town. There are a lot of one way streets in Melaka, makes it kinda confusing. We parked at Jonker Street and headed down for lunch.

Our first stop was this small cendol stall where there are so many coke collectibles that could actually make him a millionaire.

Coke Fanatic

The Nyonya Cendol here is very tasty. It's different compared to the cendols i have back in Penang, mostly due to the Gula Melaka. One spoon makes me want it more. It's really one of the must try when you're in Melaka.

Cendol!

From Right To Left: Way Shoon, Crystal, Sze Ling, Cendol Seller.

The stall is just right in front of the Chicken Rice Ball Shop, Hoe Kee Hainan Chicken Rice Shop. That's where we headed after having our cendol!

Not many pictures were taken in the shop cause we were very hungry. Although the girls did have time to camwhore.

Chicken Rice Balls!

Me Hungry!

It was kinda delicious. The rice balls look like fish balls and they won't break as though they are glued together but once you bite it, it does not feel all goey or sticky, it tastes and feels like rice. Awesome eh.

After our lunch, we walked around Jonker Street looking around.

Jonker Walk.

Goofing Around.

We walk around and enter a few shops, nothing really catches my eye. It's actually kinda expensive to buy stuff there. A lot of gifts and souviniers. As we explored Jonker Street, it started raining. We could not go anywhere as it continued raining for the whole day. We then walked to a WanTan Mee stall over at Jalan Tun Tan Cheong Lok which was recommended by The Star Newspaper's Street Food guide. It wasn't that good actually. We then headed to the Baba & Nyonya Heritage Museum. We could not get pictures in there cause it wasn't allow. It was kinda interesting to learn about it.

It rained....

The rain then got heavier and we had to walk to the car and proceed to someplace else. We wanted to go to the Red Church and AFamosa but the rain wouldn't let us. We drove around and we spotted this tower that looks like the space shot in Genting but it was for sightseeing.

Not take by me, But it's damn nice. By a flickr uploader name p o l i n i.

So up we went cause it was raining and this looked kinda fun when it's raining. It went high up and started spining round. We can see the straits of Melaka and also Melaka town. I had a headache when i came down from it. Guessed the spinning made me nauseous.

Us in Menara Taming Sari.

I will talk about the second part later. It's getting late and i'm sleepy.

P/S: Manchester United Won 2 - 0 against Inter Milan on Wednesday night. Looking foward to the big game this weekend. Liverpool - Manchester United. Will be there cheering for my team. Glory Glory!

Until then!

News Flash !

2009-03-11T21:02:00.002+08:00

Does this look familiar? Yes it is the iPhone 3G. Look at it, so shiny and attractive. Well, guess what?

You can now get it from Maxis! There will be a 6,12 and 24 months plan. Head over to www.maxis.com.my/iphone for my details!

The official launch for the phone is on 20th - 22nd of March at the KL Convention Centre. Book now to be invited to the launch event !

I will be waiting for WWDC instead. Hope an upgraded version will be launched!

Melaka post coming right up! until then!

Melaka Trip Update!

2009-03-11T02:29:00.002+08:00

Instead of Friday, i went to Melaka on Monday instead..Catch the update soon!

Ultimate Chicken Rice Ballz!

Stay tuned!

Update update Update update!

2009-03-05T10:16:00.002+08:00

So, Manchester United won the Carling Cup over the weekend! I could not bear watching the moments in extra time when Tottenham's attack all drifted away from the goal. Then it came to penalties, reminds me Moscow where Ronaldo missed.

But this guy,

Man of The Moment

Ben Foster is certainly proving a point in the game. I can see him in the first eleven real soon after Van Der Sar retires. He made really good saves during the match and is determined enough to save one of the penalties. I hope to see more of him soon.

And definitely more of this.

Anyone up for a Quadruple this season?

Been watching Friends for the past few days. Love it. Am at season 3 now. Who doesn't love Friends?

Been kinda busy with Final Year Project, not busy doing it but thinking about ideas and technology to implement. With my moral assignments due soon, this week is kinda pack with work to do, but anyhow, tomorrow is a friday and friday is a no class day. So me and friends have decided we should take a break to....

MELAKA!!

A one day trip to the historical city and of course the delicious delicacies! Still considering though and the fact that we are heading there clueless because we do not have any idea how to get there by car. But i will update if i am going there tomorrow !

I still have not get any interviews for industrial training. Still waiting for updates from supervisors.

Saturday will be the release of Advance Diploma Semester 2 exam results. Not particularly looking forward to it but no choice. I hope i will do well cause last semester was really kinda difficult. Anything can happen so wish me luck!

I'ma update later.

until then!

Phailed

2009-02-20T19:00:00.001+08:00

I did not get the job. Haha. Well, i guess it's not meant to be. Not sure what's coming next either.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-18T00:24:00.003+08:00

I'm kinda amused that people celebrate Valentine's Day with no clue about the origins of the day. All they know is that's the day that they should spend a lot of money to impress a girl or get laid. Can't blame the people, this day has been modernized throughout the years.

Quoted from Wikipedia

Thanks to a concentrated marketing effort, Valentine's Day is celebrated in some Asian countries with Singaporeans, Chinese and South Koreans spending the most money on Valentine's gifts.

Well, i spent Valentine's Day with Lay Theng from Midvalley to The Curve and back to Midvalley.

We went Midvalley for shopping and collected our movie tickets for the night. We were going to watch Pink Panther 2!

We then moved on to The Curve. The reason i chose to have dinner at the curve is because i could get roses for her. I have made reservations for half dozen of roses for only RM25 from mySimplifieds.com. If you don't know what is mySimplifieds.com, head down to their web site. It's where you can post classifieds like you do on newspaper. very useful i say. They had the valentine day promotion. With all the prices of roses and gifts going up, it's kinda crazy to spend RM100+ on a bouquet of roses.

We reached the curve, we walked around doing window shopping. I asked to be excuse, saying that i wanted to check out our reservation for dinner. So i quickly walked to Cineleisure Damansara where the mySimplifieds.com's booth is located to collect my roses. I went back into the shopping mall and look for her and then TaDa!

We then moved on to Italliani's! It's my first time there and i was kinda excited. We already made reservations so we got in as soon as we reached. The atmosphere was great where the tables where all seperated into single tables and every table has a candle. A very romantic night i would say.

In the menu, we were to share our appertizers and desert while the main course is for two of us. She had the spaghetti with seafood and i had steak. For appertizers, we had deep fried mushroom with cheese and tiramisu for desert.

This is one of the most tastiest food i ever consumed. It's just so good.

Our drink for the night, i don't remember what's the name but it has wine and strawberry and some juice.

Here's baby at the table!

What i had for the night. It was delicious.

Baby and her spaghetti.

The best. Nothing more. You taste a hint of wine as you eat the tiramisu.

We sat there and enjoyed our dinner and chat the night away. As it was time to go, i asked for the bill. It came with a staggering amount of RM230. I actually thought the set was RM85 for two. But it is actually RM85 per person for the main course. That practically spoil the mood for the night. Luckily we had enough cash or we would be spending the night cleaning in the kitchen.

On the bright side, we won free latin dance classes from mYoga worth RM300!

This was what i got her. Reddish Twin by doodolls!

Classes have already started and we are suppose to hand up our final year project proposal by 28th of February! For this semester i have two subjects, Advance Networking and Moral. Not really fond of my Advance Networking tutor. My Moral tutor on the other hand is kinda interesting. Today we talked about homosexuality and abnormal sex. Wait, maybe the topic was interesting.

Still waiting for the results from my interview. I did not blog on how the interview went. Maybe next time. It was my first actual interview and it was real scary.

I'm gonna finish my proposal now.

Until then!

Technews roundup

2009-02-05T00:54:00.003+08:00

G-Shock Gulfman

Over the weekend, i've got myself a new watch. I've always wanted to get a watch because my previous one went in for surgery and never came back. That was like 5 years ago. So, i went watch shopping and decided i get this.

G-Shock Gulfman

I like the watch because of the rugged styling and it's the perfect guy watch for outdoor and stuffs.It features a tide graph which keep tracks of the tide level and a moon graph which keep tracks of the phase of the moon. You have to set the coordinates to be accurate. Furthermore, it also has world time, 3 alarms, a stopwatch and a timer. It also has auto EL where with a flick of the wrist, the light on the watch will turn on.

Built wise, it has rust resist where part of the watch body is made of titanium, G-Shock shock proof and 20 bar water resistance which means 200M. Not suitable for diving though.

Closeup

Overall i find the watch very useful and durable. I still haven't managed to set the tide and the moon graph though.

Microsoft Windows 7 _______. What!?

Microsoft has announce the versions of the upcoming Windows 7. There will be 6 of them which are (source from engadget):

Windows 7 Starter

* Available worldwide to OEMs on new PCs
* Missing Aero UI tweaks
* Limited to 3 simultaneous applications

Windows 7 Home Basic (Vista equivalent: $200)

* Only available in emerging markets
* Missing Aero UI tweaks

Windows 7 Home Premium (Vista equivalent: $260)

* Available worldwide, to OEMs and in retail
* Includes Aero UI tweaks
* Features multi-touch capabilities
* Adds "premium" games
* Adds media capabilities (Media Center, DVD playback, DVD creation, etc.)
* Can create home network groups

Windows 7 Professional (Vista equivalent: $300)

* Available worldwide, to OEMs and in retail
* Includes all features of Premium
* Adds enhanced networking capabilities (Remote Desktop host, domain support, offline folders, etc.)
* Adds Mobility Center
* Adds Presentation Mode

Windows 7 Enterprise

* Available only in volume licenses
* Includes all features of Professional
* Adds Branch Cache
* Adds Direct Access
* Adds BitLocker

Windows 7 Ultimate (Vista equivalent: $320)

* Limited OEM and retail availability
* Includes all features of Enterprise

IMO, why can't they have only two versions? The home and the professional. Wouldn't it make life much more easier? Furthermore, to actually encourage users to switch to Windows 7, although there are positive reviews from the beta, it must be backward compatible and will not have problems supporting the softwares that previous windows supported. Because of the incompatibility, a lot of users refused to switch to Vista. It's a different story now, although some games still refuse to corporate with Vista. Windows 7 must make it easy for user to convert, that will be the critical point of success as it already performs well in the beta tester.

New iPhone rumored, due June 2009.

True or false?

There is no exact proof over how true this can be but it is rumored that there will be a new iPhone from the fellas at Cupertino. Probably during June because summer is the time when Apple will usually introduce new products. It is said that the iPhone will have new features over the old features, which i hope this would be some it:

MMS capability
Copy and Paste
Bluetooth sharing
Video capture
Video call
Better megapixel camera

There is even rumors about an iPhone nano. I wonder.

I'm still waiting to get my hands on one. There's a thing about technology where it is limitless, new stuffs keep emerging everyday and it's difficult to catch up with all. I've been waiting for the iPhone since 2G and now with this new rumor, i am reluctant to get the iPhone. Should i wait? By the time i get enough cash, i bet the new one would be out. Or not.

Current Wanted List

Here are a few items i would want to get my hands on.

Rams (4GB Kits)

Since my Crucial Ballistix Tracer died on me again. Second time. I am considering 2X2GB sticks. I now have 2X1GB patriot and 2X1GB Ballistix Tracer but am running only on 2GB patriot rams. Am considering 2X2GB Kingston HyperX which cost around RM230.

Graphic Card

I keep telling myself i gotta upgrade this, gotta start saving money. Am waiting for the price of 260GTX to go down. Or maybe settle for a ATI HD4870. By upgrading the card, i would have to upgrade my power supply to support the additional power needed. The estimated cost would be around RM1K? If you really want to play games with good graphics, never settle for a mid-range card, it's just not satisfying enough, just like my 8600GTs.

HDD

The endless number of series, movies and ISOs are killing me. i need an additional portable HDD. 1TB should be sufficient. In other news, Seagate has introduced it's first 2TB HDD. Woot!

On the dreamer's list, an i7 system. That would definitely be awesome.

My interview is approaching soon and i'm nervous/excited. I really hope i can get the job. Wish me luck !

I guess that's all for now. Still trying to find a solution to my boredomness. Watched house and played Fifa Online today. I also bought Fifa 09 today. I think i shall just read Steve Berry's The Venetian Betrayal.

Until then.

What?

2009-02-03T12:24:00.002+08:00

You know what? We need more of this. Listening too much of emo and rock songs makes me a sadist. LoL. What we need is a dose of happiness. Carefree and nothing to worry about, living in our own world. Yes, we need an escape. So ladies and gentlemen, i present you your escape.

It's too unreal. But it's so happy ! haha.

Next, i present to you, the PCD of Korea. Less power though.

*The girl in pink is kinda hot.*

In case anyone wonder where i got this from, blame MTV.

Something for the girls. Please don't try this on an unstable object.

I'm so freaking bored. Anything to do? Save me from the endless boredom!

I have a problem..

2009-02-01T03:38:00.012+08:00

lolcat From icanhascheezburger.com

Yes i do..a funny weird problem, but i will talk about it the next time..gonna upload some pictures nao..

This is me and my family during the first day of Chinese New Year.

Spending the day at my uncle house. Everyone gathers here.

Relatives having steamboat.

Me on the other hand busy at the table.

Cousins are also busy playing cards.

Cookies and more cookies.

Did not take many pictures. But here's one to wish you guys to a great year ahead! Huatahhhhh!

Square One

2009-01-30T02:26:00.002+08:00

Yay! Update! *Laugh Out Loud*

As everyone should know it is the Chinese New Year, i'm currently at home, catching up with series i've left untouched over the past few months, eating and sleeping, lurking around kopitiam in LY.net, Facebook-ing and gaming. It's good to finally take a break after the long somester. Actually, exams just ended last week.

So anyway, i spent my Chinese New Year on family gatherings, visiting and of course collecting ang pows! These are what i usually do during Chinese New Year. But this year, it was a little different, because i spent time with my girlfriend's family for the first time !!! Usually, it's just dad and mom. But noooooo, two of her sisters have family, so that makes it twice the people you would usually meet. I wasn't really prepared for it, but i told myself, this is a test, for it would be the same situation for my internship interview.

Yes, about that. I've been shortlisted for an interview for my internship with HSBC's IT department. The interview is on the 11th of February. Wish me good luck!

Back to where we left off, how hard could it be? I would just put a smile on my face and respond appropriately to every question. Just like a robot programmed to do the right thing. But it was kinda fun. Instead of what i'd imagined, questions thundering down, eyes staring at me, whispers all around but no, i was treated normally, well normally people treat other people normally, my normally means, well, good? Maybe i was thinking too much. *LOL*.

Moving on, my dad commented on me being able to look at the computer for hours without fail. i'd say aren't all people like that? I was just catching up with Prison Break, 2 more episodes to episode 16 of season 4. I still have season 3 and 4 of house and heroes. To add to the list, Lost just started. Guess i'll be very very busy just trying to finish them, even downloading them takes time with 512MB screamyx in my home.The speed is annoyingly slow.

Since it's the Chinese New Year and we have the opportunity to get ang pows.*A few more years and we'd be giving them, enjoy while you can*. We would all have a plan, something to spend on with the money that we were given. So, on my list, are a few items that i would want to spend my money on.

Number 1
Bank Account - Save the money in to the bank and keep it.

Number 2
Graphic Card - 285GTX anyone? My 8600gts can't play GTA IV.

Number 3
Keyboard - Sidewinder X6 looks tempting...

I think that these are the only things i would think of doing with my ang pow money. Kind of a gadget freak i am.

Serious *kinda* Post

I've been thinking a lot lately. I always wonder on how to decipher the mind of the other gender. For example, when a person cares a lot of someone, he tends to control, which tends to make the other gender uneasy. The girls will usually think that " He wants to control me, he doesn't let me do anything, i want more freedom ". On the other hand, the guys will think "I don't want her to get hurt, i must take care of her". The mind of a male and a female have different ways of decipher a message.

I came up with a few theories to "Certain things guys don't like their girlfriends to do".

1. Insecurity
They do it because they feel insecure. Touching on the issue of being close to another guy friend. Most guys don't like it, they even go to the lengths of forbidding the girl to mix less with guys. That will be classified as a control freak. Jealousy is not wrong, guys should be jealous. Jealous means care, jealous means she is important to you.

2. They know better.
I don't know if there's any truth to this theory. But i do know that, how do i put this. Let's say, guy sees girl talking a lot to a guy this few days, girl is asked to a party, guy says no. Why? because, the guy will think this way : IF i was the guy, what would i do? I'd definitely hit on her, that's what i will do. So in a way, they think they know better, or we call this assuming because what the guys do is think as a guy, what would a guy do.

3. Afraid of change
Some guys are afraid of this. Afraid that one day, girl comes back, starts an argument, say that she wants out. Or girl starts acting wierdly, start dressing wierdly. That is why sometimes we forbid some of the things that may lead to this.

Of all the theories i came up with, some are just bullshit. Hell, i could never even know what am i actually thinking. But i believe some of it are true.

When a girl hurts, it is very easy to spot out. But when a guy hurts, it takes someone who really understands the person to actually notice.

Note: all the above are my own opinion, it comes from my twisted mine, source or concept or truthfullness is irrelevent.

Well, i feel better typing it out. It's difficult to understand.

I'd be talking about something more happier in the next post.

P.S. - Manchester United is on top. Nothing more.

I'm still not over you.

2008-10-28T21:22:00.003+08:00

I never denied nor hide it. Inside of me, i'm a mac. But i hunger for raw power, i need more that just a mac to conquer the world. So i had to include PC in my evil legion.

I have always love all things mac, such as the Ipods, the macbooks, and of course, the one and only, iPhone.

Some call it the jesus phone, some say it's part of steve job's plan to rule the world by creating this magnificent device.

I know that some of you may not agree with me, you might say that there are better phones out there that at least supported Copy and Paste !? Come on, it's touch screen, has bluetooth and it wasn't meant for Bluetooth PAN ? What were you thinking over at Cupertino!? The Omnia,HTC Touch or the Blackberry Storm would be better?

However, the iPhone has manage to out shined the other phones with it's slick UI and all sorts of little candies in it's OS. The feeling of touching an iPhone is just uncomparable. By just fiddling around with the Ipod Touch shows the response when you scroll it with your fingers, it's the awesome interface, the animation of the windows fading in and out. It's the applications, the things you are able to do on that phone.

I just could not take my eyes of it when i first saw the iPhone online. I just caught the bug and it's still in me today. I have never looked at any other phones when the iPhone arrived. No more visits to mobile88 to check on reviews on new SE or Nokia phones. I have my Samsung X700 with me until the day i get this phone. You might call me crazy, but i just had to let this out. Even the T-Mobile G1 will not replace your majestic crown even though i was tempted by Android.

Screw you apple, for letting this out of it's cage. I'm trapped in it's core and i'm unable to escape. I don't care about anything other than you iPhone, when would you come to me, you know that my love for you is real. I never loved anything so much until you came. I need to touch you, i need to slide my fingers on that smooth screen of yours and unlock you. I can't take it anymore !!!!! You had me at iPod + phone.

This is a confession of an iPhonenut. Might as well admit me into a psychoward.

Well, that was pleasant. Assignments are pilling up like the moutains. Is it me or are college students trained to do last minute work. I think it's just me.

- _ -

The switch

2008-10-23T00:42:00.006+08:00

I've done it, at the same time being a mean jerk to Microsoft, i've switched from XP to Vista. I was actually working on triple booting with XP, Vista and Ubuntu. Ubuntu and XP was a success but Vista and XP had problems due to partitioning i think, it keeps giving me ridiculous error. After deep thoughts, well, only for a minute or two, i decided to wipe of dear XP who had served me for the past 6 years. You have been a great companion, from crashing when i'm playing games, treating me with the occational blue screen of death, and also freeze up when i'm on an adult site.

GoodBye XP

I salute Windows XP.

In the mean time, i'm enjoying Vista very much. Firstly, security is beefed up. And for all the times i've been saying Vista sucks, initially it does, you gotta use it for yourself to comment whether it's good or bad. I find it awesome, it looks great, works great, functionable, easily configured, maybe not for all people, definitely worth the upgrade.

Not forgetting Ubuntu, awesome effects, i just love the effects, from the desktop cube to the animation. Very good for torrenting, as i'm using it to now. On deluge, as deluge is developed based on Linux. It boots fast and it's best for surfin web and doing online work. Thus, my PC has two identities now, day it's vista and by midnight, it's ubuntu. For torrenting. Haha.

Before all that, i've upgraded my PC by adding a additional 320GB Hard Drive, which enables me to dual boot. And i also fixed in my Tracer Ballistix which just came back from RMA not long ago. I had to clean up the fans and rearrange the cable. It's been a while since i've clean it up.

Inner Workings Of My Desktop

Taking it out.

Lights Up!

Just Love The Way it Lights Up!

My PC.

And now, my PC has bling bling in it ! It's rep restored. Lol.
It's not a beast but it serves me well.

Processor : Core 2 Duo E6750 2.66ghz @ 3.2ghz
Ram : Crucial Tracer Ballistix 2GB, Patriot 2GB
GPU : XFX Geforce 8600GTS
HDD : 2 X Seagate Barracuda 320GB
Mobo : Gigabyte P35c - DS3R
Cooler : CoolViva for GPU, Artic Cooling Freezer Pro 7 for CPU.
PSU : Enermax FMA 460W
Casing : Raidmax Smilodon
Monitor : Samsung 19inch LCD

Whole unit cost me around RM3500, 1 year ago, now, sadly, price gone down so fast. I could have get a quad core and running a 9800GTX right now.

So recently, results came out. Was quite satisfied actually. But i only took advance paper, others had to take Advance and Bachelor which is a total of 12 papers. I only took 6.

AACS4024	DIGITAL MULTIMEDIA	A
AACS4134	INTERNET PROGRAMMING	B+
AACS4254	NETWORK COMMUNICATIONS	A-
AACS4264	OBJECT-ORIENTED ANALYSIS AND DESIGN	A-
AELE3783	ENGLISH FOR MANAGEMENT (SCIENCE)	A-
AHLA4313	MUSIC APPRECIATION	B+

I left Jazz blank for 25marks. I am so lucky to get a B+ in music. Lol.

Talking about music, there's a band i would like to introduce to the world, if not know already. It's our own local group Hujan. I've grown to love their songs, first single heard from them was Aku Scandal, very unique and fresh. They have been here for quite a while. Just like the likes of Meet Uncle Hussien and Estranged.

From their MySpace
Formed in early 2006, this wave-worthy band consists of Noh on vocals and 2nd guitar, Dimas on bass, A.G on 1st guitar and Acer on drums. Influenced by a diverse range of bands which include the likes of The Strokes, Butterfingers, and even Pot Amir Radiostaq, Hujan prefers to classify their music as alternative rock and has no qualms about delivering their material in Malay. Living and breathing the element they take their name after, their music alternates between the light, heavy and the torrential storm a reflection of the many stories, moods and agendas embedded in their songs. They sing about everything from love, God, family and to the happenings of the world.

I love the single pagi yang gelap. They are coming out with a new album soon. For more info, please visit their myspace site. http://www.myspace.com/kugiranhujan. They are definitely buzzworthy, one of my favourite local bands!

It's late now, been kinda busy, having replacement classes as Lecturer took leave for two weeks, makes us far far behind, and taking up all our time. Sadness.

Well, a picture to end this entry.

Taken With Canon A580, outside my place.

The sky's a magical place.

until then.

Delayed File Write

2008-10-01T00:49:00.003+08:00

Currently am experiencing Delayed File Write on my PC as i transfer files into my HDD. It's so annoying everytime i try to copy something, it just won't work.

And there seems to be no solution for it. - __ -

1 1/2 hour more to Manchester United Champion League game against Aalborg BK.

All prepared for the game !

Glory Glory！

Syok nyer

2008-09-26T12:02:00.002+08:00

Sekarang, aku kat rumah ku di penang due to Semester break tetapi hanya untuk dua minggu sahaja. Sudah lepas satu minggu dah, saya telah membuat banyak activity yang syok dan syok.

That's why i got a C in BM for SPM. Never been good with bahasa.

Firstly, i'm back home in Penang. Took me quite a while to update this blog. I'm always having bloggers blocks, i sit in front of the computer, but nothing goes into my head.

Secondly, my semester break ends next week, which kinda sucks. Oh i hate advance diploma. It's so hectic and stressful. Consider myself lucky to not take the external paper, or maybe not, cause Advance Diploma paper so effing hard. Much more harder that the external one. My grades for the semester won't be satisfying.

Thirdly, i've went on a apartment stay with theng and her friends. We went makan makan around penang, went kek lok si, queensbay, and then we went to the beach, dinner at gurney drive, kena patuk by pasembur seller, two plates of pasembur rm32. Played blackjack, won rm2, next day went mamak. had roti bakar, bought tambun biscuits, went home. That practically sums up everything huh. Pictures later!

Currently into a book called Seven Deadly Wonders. It's quite a good book, by Matthew Reilly. Recommended for those who like indiana jones or the da vinci code. It's a mixture of both. The story is about the golden capstone which once sat ontop of the Great Pyramid. It's was said in history that after the Great Pyramid was build, non was ever build later, why did it stop there? What happened to the seven wonders of the ancient world? where they destroyed, or preserved in underground liars build by Imhotep V and IV, the most brilliant engineers and also booby trap inventors. Halfway through the book only. Worth reading.

So, to all you couch potatoes, or me, they are back !! Here are the list of my favourite shows.

Recurring Series
1. Heroes S3
2. Greys Anatomy S5
3. Prison Break S3
4. How I Met Your Mother S4
5. Two And A Half Men S6
6. Supernatural S4
7. Gossip Girl S2

New
1. The Mentalist
2. Fringe *Nice
3. Worst Week
4. Gary Unmarried

These are the few i noted. So much to watch, so little time.

Guess i'll update later, will be back with more stuffs. Suddenly a lot to cakap. Lol

My world this month.

2008-07-20T23:22:00.005+08:00

Excuses, that's what the human race are best at.

I've been busy, rushing assignment datelines. After it comes another bunch of datelines. This time, something's different. I feel that, i'm really lacking behind, as i used to be able to solve a programming practical question in like 10 minutes or so. But now, i'm just well, blanked. I haven't been practicing, that's because again, i've been hit by the laziness bug.

Other than that, last week was my convocation. Had lots of fun there. Mum and dad were here to see me receive my empty scroll holder. Took a lot of pictures, which i look terribly ugly in all of them. Stupid mortar board and my stupid expression. I'm so not photogenic. -_-

Dad, Me and Mum

From the right: Me, Marcus, Ju Jing and Ryan

Chia Hau and I
Foursome doing my trademark expression.

From right: Wen Jie, Me and David

Me and Baby

Hats Away ! For Now..

This week has been a terrible week for me. My aunt passed away due to food poisoning, which is due to irresponsible doctors. I can't believe these people dare to call themselves doctors. They have no fucking idea on how precious a life is. Go knock some sense to yourselves. My aunt went in with a normal diarrhea and she just left unexpectedly. I just can't believe it.

Another thing was my football tournament. Well, i suck in field football and i'm ok ok in futsal but honestly, i still suck. Well anyway, we were in the final, which we drew, i did nothing, just ran around and around. Was out of my breathe even we just play for 30 minutes. So, we went into penalties. My team missed 3 penalties and it was up to me as the other team were level with us. Guess what? I missed the fucking penalty. I fucking missed the penalty. Tomato tomato, just the same. I just wasn't thinking, wasn't analyzing, wasn't planning which side, i was too nervous and i just took it. Sigh. Well, we got silver. I wasn't very happy with myself. Dissapointing.

P/s:
Today, i've come to think about it.

Am i a good boyfriend? What does it take to be a good boyfriend? Does he have to be romantic all the time? Does he have to shower here with words of love and gifts and all the sweet sweet stuffs? What does it take? I'm not sure myself.

P/S p/s
Yes marcus, i would definitely prefer if you were here in F4, AIA 1, ISE. LOL.
But all the best in US man.

P/S p/S p/s
It seems that maxis ARE in talks with apple to bring in te IPHONE. I would be the first in line, definitely. Check it out here ! http://iphone3gformalaysia.com/
Please sign the petition if you want the iPhone here in Malaysia !

My world this week/ few weeks

2008-06-19T00:28:00.002+08:00

Have been taking long breaks from blogging. It's either i have to many things to do or i just couldn't be bothered. It's been a busy week, i can see all the work piling up. My days are like classes, discussions and assignments. Though i still have time to play games. It's already week 4 of the first semester of my advance diploma year. As i'm in advance diploma, there are so many new faces. Since two of my friends which i usually hang out with are furthering their studies overseas, it's like i have to start over again, getting to know new people. I have realize that i'm kind of a "like-to-isolate-myself" kinda person. I did not even notice that until my girlfriend said she was told that i always sit alone in class. Well, not really sitting alone, but i just like to sit by myself. Maybe that's giving people the impression that i'm stuck up and quiet. Bullshit, i can be as noisy and as annoying as a clown. Other than campus life, everything is as usual, i'm not exercising means my tummy is growing. Petrol price has gone up, cost me RM80 for one full tank, i'm driving at 5KM/H just to go the extra mile.

All this petrol hike issue is causing unsatisfaction among the country. There are protest all around, asking the government to give back their subsidies, which i do not really agree. Idiots i might say. From my opinion, these people are stopping the country from improving or shall i say, upgrading. I would say both the people and the government have their wrong. Firstly, while there are thousands of family out there earning not more than RM1000 a month, it's a burden for them to have the subsidies taken away now. While those who barely survived now have to work even harder to cope with it. With this standard of living, where is the government? Mp's are living in big houses, driving Porches and Ferarri's, while the people ride on their EX-5, bracing the sun and the rain, trying to earn money to survive daily. Ridiculous i might say. Where does all the money go? A question that still remains unsolved.

I myself am trying my best to control my spending. I have been tempted so many times, oh yes i have. Here is the list of the various temptations.

1. Extra Hard Disk
2. Mp3 Player
3. Clothes/Shopping
4. Adidas Shower Gel and Cologne
5. Wireless Keyboard, mouse and game pad.
6. Quad Core
7. iPhone
8. iPod
9. Digital Camera
10. Sneakers

Out of the ten items, i don't think there is one i really need. Except for clothes and the Adidas stuff. Laugh out loud.

Well, guess i shall shove all the money i have left from my daily expenses into the bank.

Having role play presentation tomorrow. Gonna sleep.

xoxo
gossip geek.

*watching gossip girl d. lol*

DOUBLE DOUBLE DOUBLE !!!!

2008-05-22T13:44:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a historical night for Manchester United as we lift the

UEFA CHAMPIONS LEAGUE CUP

after nine years. Thanks to a missed penalty by John Terry and a save by Van Der Sar, we successfully lifted up the trophy.

Glory Glory Manchester United !

What's new this week

2008-05-20T20:35:00.004+08:00

I've been trying to finish up a book i bought. Have two books and only am halfway through one. It's called The Alexandria Link by Steve Berry.

An extract from the book

The Library of Alexandria was the most important collection of ancient knowledge ever assembled. The building stood for six hundred years and contained more than half a million manuscripts. Then suddenly it vanished. No trace of this literary treasure has ever been unearthed.

Fifteen hundred years after the library's disappearance, Cotton Malone finds himself at the heart of the mystery. His son is kidnapped, and his bookshop is attacked-all because he's the only man alive who knows the whereabouts of the Alexandria Link, the key to locating the missing library. Purposely hidden away for more than a millennium, a forgotten truth lies within that lost cache of knowledge - one that, if revealed, will have grave consequences not only for Malone but for the balance of world power.

I just love reading books that has mystery, adventure, treasure hunting, the hidden secrets and myths. I thought after Harry Potter, no book can ever give me the thrill and joy *Yes, i'm a potter maniac*. I was just exaggerating. I kinda like how Steve Berry writes the story, the way he puts the action in words that makes your imagination run wild.

I have another book, which is called the Seven Deadly Wonders. I always have been fascinated by the ancient seven wonders which is

* Great Pyramid of Giza
* Hanging Gardens of Babylon
* Statue of Zeus at Olympia
* Temple of Artemis at Ephesus
* Mausoleum of Maussollos at Halicarnassus
* Colossus of Rhodes
* Lighthouse of Alexandria

I was always curious on how they were built, the history behind it, it's all so interesting. Especially the Hanging Gardens of Babylon. I don't really understand why they call it the Handing Gardens, it always has been a mystery to me, even after countless illustrations by artist. The Statue of Zeus on the other hand is a magnificent wonder. I have always been interested in greek mythology. Zeus, Poseidon, Apollo are all great gods. Plus watching Hercules since young and believing almost every bit of it just makes me want to know more.

But now, the world has came out with the New Seven Wonders which are

Great Wall of China
Petra
Christ the Redeemer (statue)
Machu Picchu
Chichen Itza
Taj Mahal
Great Pyramid

These are the wonders where you can still see with you eyes unlike the ancient wonders. They are all really fascinating and i hope one day, i will be able to visit all of them. I wanna be like Indiana Jones!

Until then, i shall stick to reading my book.

Last but not least, i will share with you guys the song that has been playing in my mind for the past few days.

Will-i-am - Heartbreaker

Cheers.

Awkwardness

2008-05-18T01:49:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, i wonder how people with big social ties manage their social life. Especially friends. I find myself at times getting very attached to friends, no i don't mean clingy, i tend to care to much. How they think about me, how they treat me, how i treat them, when they are in need of help, i would lend a hand.

For me, it always comes to a point where i start to be afraid to care, because, i care to much at times that it inserts a gap between the friendship. I used to be very sensitive, like even normal friends i would treat them like family, and them i would try to insert my evil thoughts in to them, controlling them to become mindless zombies that would be only MY friend.

Yes, i was like that, well, not the insert evil thoughts part but i would tend to get jealous at times, especially people close to me get closer with other people, especially people i know, i felt betrayed, somehow like, you took away my friend, while you are my friend, you friend snatcher !

I felt that way before, and i could not control myself, it was like i had too much of soya milk. Makes me feel all girly. But it hurts so much, when you know you gone too far, and from that moment onwards, the friendship we shared will never be the same again.

If i said i've changed now, i believe i have. I've become not so involved in other people's life, i tend to not ask too much, because you lead your own life though at times i'm still a little nosy. Thus, i have a lot of hi-bye friends too.

My friend, i have always wanted to be included in your circle but now, i'm outside your circle, observing you and your friends in the circle, only to be invited in when asked. It's awkward, to feel this way, when we used to be close before, sharing everything with each other.

We live a different life now, our own to manage, though i'm glad we still talk and have a lil time to spare for each other.

If i would have a chance to turn back time, i would. It was better in the past.

or is this just because we've outgrown each other.

Cheers, my friend.

The Final Showdown

2008-05-10T23:43:00.007+08:00

May 11 2008, it all ends.

The Barclays Premier League is closing to the final stages and the competition is as fierce as ever with Manchester United and Chelsea tied in first place but Manchester United leading with a big goal difference.

Chelsea fades away~

Tomorrow Manchester United will be up against Wigan and Chelsea against Bolton. They will be played at the same time which is 11pm Malaysian time. Tomorrow, all players will be on top of their game for the final battle, all fans will be the 12th player for their respective teams to cheer them on.

I'm so excited.

Not this year Chelsea, Not this year!

Wigan's boss, Steve Bruce vows that his team will give 100% against United tomorrow but he also asked Chelsea to forget about the title.

I'm so so excited.

Revenge.

Two weeks later, Manchester United will again face Chelsea for the ultimate final showdown for the UEFA Champions League cup in Moscow! Speculations say that since Russia is home to Roman Abromovich which is Chelsea's owner, they will certainly win the cup.

I doubt that.

On that day, i will be in my red jersey, cheering hard for my team, watch out Chelsea.

Glory glory Manchester United !

Up And Posting..Again

2008-05-05T00:30:00.013+08:00

It's been a long time since i last blogged. As some may experience this wierd after effect of blogging call boredome-ness. Well, for me, i seem to be not the only one suffering from that virus as you can easily see, there are thousands of blogs out there left unattended to after a while ! So i guess you can say that it's normal.

It was actually a friend of mine who "beg" me to update my blog again *just kidding*. I shall be kind to reveal her identity - She's joe-lene from joe-lene.blogspot.com. Well, technically we've known each other for years now since our parents know each other and etc etc. She's in Aussie now and she's been complaining about the lack of nutrition (as in Char Kuay Teow, Asam Laksa, Hokkien Mee etc etc) to her daily diet. So i'm here to show her how much she is missing back here in Penang although it seems like she's really enjoying there without needing any nutrition at all.

But today i only have this.

Porridge with tuna and mushrooms and crabsticks.

How did i ended up in that is because i've been sick for the past few days. I had FluVerSoreThroatPhlegmHeadache. You get the point. So no Char Kuay Teow or Hokkien Mee or Curry Mee for this week, just plain non solid food and lots of water. It's only been one and a half week since i came back to Penang for semester break and i'm already down with all kinds of sickness due to food consumed in the first week back here and the following week i had to suffered. It wasn't worth it clearly as i only have two more weeks before Advance Diploma starts.

And yea, i've graduated from Diploma. The last semester was quite a hectic one in terms of workload though we do not have final exams *buahahahaha* because we were busy creating a system for our final mini project. I only had two subjects which is the mini project and English for Science. Sounds easy eh? Sounds but not quite.

Moving on, my mom has returned from Europe. She has been travelling around Europe since April and has been to 8 countries including Rome, Switzerland, Austria, Czech Republic, Holland, Germany, Belgium and France. It wasn't like staying in 5 star hotels and eating meals in restaurant. She went backpacking for short. It was kinda tough having to travel on your own, well she went with 6 others, and having one meals per day or cook as it was expensive to eat out. It cost RM60 for a meal of mcdonalds.

Don't sue me, but i just can't afford to have a RM60 meal !

Well, it's like that because when the almighty Ringgit Malaysia is convert to Euros, it turns to small atoms.

Mom even went to Amsterdam. Most of you should know what's in Amsterdam when drugs and prostitution are legal in Holland *smiles wickedly*. It's the well known Red Light District !

Image from travelblog

If you've watched Euro Trip, then you'd be familiar with it. Mom was there actually, looking around, she said the town was dirty and she didn't like it because of the activities there. I could not agree more *drools*.

Mom brought back some souvenirs though. In my heart i was shouting and screaming "IPhone ! IPhone !" . I wasn't expecting one but surprises are known to come right? She didn't get me an IPhone *sobs* but she got me this -

Swiss Knife with my name on it.

A Victorinox swiss knife! It's a portable killing machine and the best part is, it has my name on it so when i perform my work, they will know my name !! I sound like a serial killer. Every man has his secrets, hmm. I've been wanting a swiss knife for ages now because it's so cool and it's very useful during travelling and hiking etc.

My Cool List
Stuffs from Sony, Apple, Intel, NVidia, Microsoft, Creative, Nikon, Canon.

I'm a gadget freak.

Anyway, that's not the only thing she came back with. She brought stuffs from disneyland, the peeing boy from Brussels.

This peeing boy.

It's real name is called mannekan pis and it's the most famous fountain in Brussels. It actually has a history behind it. For more info check out wikipedia. Mom brought back miniatures mannekan pis. She even brought back pasta.

An ordinary pack of pasta from Rome,i think.

Nothing special eh? Well, take another look at it.

Find the hidden mickey!

It's hilarious when i first saw it. It was unique. Now guys and girls can have it and not be shy about it !

La grande pasta.

Still unsure about it? Yes ! It is the male reproductive organ. *-____-*

1.58PM

2007-11-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

Can't sleep, i have dreams, of becoming a well known person, able to support my family, able to drive nice cars, able to migrate out of here, long term dreams. Short term dreams? Usually realistic ones, as reality keeps hitting me on my back. Well. Dreams..

One Fine Day

2007-11-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

Geek From Mars has been off for quite a while. The geek got lazy and decided to put off this blog for a while but now, he just can not cope with reality so he's back here.

Reality sucks. I've been alright for the past few weeks. It's now the end of 5th week into the 6th semester of my diploma year. How faster can time flow. I've been as lazy as ever. Out of touch as always. I am having this really I'm-Lazy-And-I-Don't-Want-To-Study feeling. College is as suffering as days pass. It's no more like a college, it's freaking back to secondary school where you have like so much work to do, attendance to lecture is compulsory, classes at 8 in the morning, i know i'm whining about necessary stuffs that i'm suppose to do. Imagine how worse would it be when i'm working.

I'm getting distracted easily, feeling pressure by the environment, i think my mentality is playing tricks on me, at home, in college, i just feel i can not fit in, there's like so much flaw in everyone, i'm judging i know. I'm flawed, very, i've been very sensitive to people's judgment and views lately. Sometimes i just get left behind. I'm already out here, living without my family, of course i need friends, but sometimes it hurts so much when friends you know and trust abandon you.

I've learnt to cope with that, just put aside the anger and frustration and smile. Get emo a little, but, just be patient.

The future, it's so near, in just a few more months, i would be graduating from diploma, continue my studies somewhere, or no where ? I've got fairly good grades for last semester, all A's, but accumulate only 3.66 for my CGPA. That's actually out of my expectation, i did not expect myself to perform that well, and here comes the part, where i have to continue striving this semester for good grades so that i can have scholarship for my next level of studies. The pressure is piling up and at times i just want to give up, i'm tired, i don't know why, there's no more a goal, to motivate me. I know there is, but i don't see it, i just don't.

What is the purpose of my life, i don't want to go in to this, but people do ask themselves this question, when they are lost, and don't know what to do.

Other than that, everythings cool. As i said a few months ago i'm assembling a new PC, here it is! No picts because connection sucky..Damn it.

With this baby, i'm just hooked to it all day and night. I just finish playing bioshock. Next would be Hellgate:London. And i have a new addiction, i used to swear that i would never play that game ever, but since WTF modes, ap modes and now ar modes, i'm officially into DOTA. Damn it, it's just so fun. Nothing more to say.

And i sold of my Ipod, getting myself a PSP Slim & Lite. Ice Silver. Will post picts when i get it. No body seems to like silver, don't know why, maybe it's because silver is dull kut.

AS i'm typing, the connection for some reason is so freaking slow. Geram nyer.

Guess i'll continue tomorrow, this would be my first post since last semester break.

signing out.

N*****KuKu

2007-09-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

WHOA..One month plus i didn't blog...Currently having finals..not free to blog..or i'm just lazy..LoL...no updates until then..Boo Hoo

Am building a new PC ! YeePee..

Lucky Number 8

2007-07-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

It's been 8 months since that day, and things just went off like fireworks.

One blink of an eye, another month passed.

Am i old or what?

Well, it's a roller coaster ride. I sometimes do think if i'm on the right train.

But i guess every train is the right one with you.

=)

Love You Dear.

No time la..I know i seldom update.. lol

2007-07-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

Been busy with assignments, tutorials and Student Welfare Committee stuffs. Even though i had time for FIFA07 but i've just got myself updated with the blog-o-sphere today. And i found people(s) bombarded my chatterbox saying that they do read. Anyway, i would present you guys the medal of honour bla bla bla....

But i really appreciate the people that do read my blog. It's just so nice of you guys.

To Chris - I find your blog really interesting. I like the things you talk about and of course, i happened to find out you are a Manchester United Fan, right ? That's why i linked you. LoL.

Things wasn't going really well, assignments are starting to pile up, i've been in a strings of bad lucks. Maths is as sucky as ever, and I've seen people in a way i've never see before.

I've been a busybody, which everybody at times are. But it's not to do that on the road because it's dangerous. Like me. I was driving out of my college into the main road. As i was waiting for the car in front to exit the junction, there was an accident on the other lane, so i looked, as the girl was sobbing while talking on the phone, and a man was shouting something, and then i heard *bam*. I looked in front, it was me. Oh damn not again. My front bumper hit the rear bumper of an accord. To make things worst, she's a lecturer from my college. Luckily it was nothing, i fixed it back for her, and she say she'll call me if anything happens. End of story. NOT.

I didn't notice the damage on my car. Cost me RM80..

I've grown, as in the belly part. I've also become darker. Because of swimming. I've been "assisting" my sir, teach year one students how to swim. LoL. I'm still not fully fit as a result of the injury i had three months ago. I'm still recovering, eating lots of pills. I miss playing football, where i can use my knees without worrying.

I've watch transformers and harry potter !!

Transformers - F&!@##^&* AWESOME !! It was so cool that i nearly choked on my popcorn.

Transformers is so damn cool is freaking awesome is the best movie i watched this year compared to all the sucky movies that i've watch omg i just love the show full stop

Harry Potter - When the movie reached the two hour marked. The story is only half of the book.

I find harry potter's visual effects kinda good, but the story is all short cutted, which makes it kinda boring for people who read the book. I'm just not impressed. Still, i've pre-ordered the 7th book which is due out this 21st and i really can't wait for it. The books are even boxed up to prevent stolen copies or something according to the papers today.

And According to the papers today, and yesterday, well, yesterday, a porsche 911 Targa 4 was stolen from a showroom in autocity juru, penang, and too bad for the guy, the car ran out of fuel, so he had to ditch it. The police recovered it and stupidly had to refuel it to drive it back to the station for evidence. Today's news paper, the porsche was stolen again, this time from the station. I just laughed and laughed. There's really nothing i can say actually.

It's been a different generation since then, i'm not being racist or what, look at the state of out National football team, what can we say, we had high hopes, but we fell. There was an incident at my place, where this guy kicked a car of a friend of mine, a bunch of them where there, and when ask to settle, he took out a knife and threated my friend, which almost resulted into a fight, and a bunch of other people on motorbikes who happened to pass by straight stopped and threw their helmet at my friends. For no f***ing reason. Pathetic. What has our nation become, as we marched towards our vision, devastation and reformation ? Maybe that's what we really need.

Today's is the 19th of July, 6 more days, It would be 8 months. =). Times really passes fast.

I'll just stop here. Until then..

I'm still surviving..

2007-06-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

After one year of studying in TAR college, i'm still surviving.

One year ago, it wasn't planned for me to enter TAR College. I was suppose to do Graphic Design in MMU Cyberjaya. I applied and i waited. It didn't came. Dad ask me to look for a backup. With my pathetic SPM results (only 2as). Where could i go?

Luckily i had enough credits. So i decided to look up TAR College. I read about the courses and this course attracted me. I use to hear TAR College is well know for their business courses, not the IT courses. I decided to give a shot at Information Systems Engineering. I downloaded the application form online and submitted it.

And now, here i am. MMU gave me IT in Melaka campus. So i decided to come here instead. Since it offer the course i opt for in TARC.

One year ago.

First semester, i was trying to fit it. I was trying to not be the odd one out, i used to sit alone in lectures, put on my ear phones, and just look at the lecturer lecturing. And then, i had problems. I don't know how badly it effects me emotionally but i know it did. First semester was a bitter pill to swallow. But i carried on, pulling myself together. The subjects where interesting, at least i'm interested to learn. I did think about, what if i'm not interested, what if i study halfway then i give up ? Then came exam, First Semester, GPA 3.3333.

And then came second semester. There seem to be a light shone at me. I know i was not lost anymore. I've made friends, i've done well, i'm adapting. And something happened, that turned my world upside down, from wrong to right, from pain to happiness. It's a great feeling. Semester 2 was a great one. A few blinks and then came exam again. This time i felt i worked quite hard, but not hard enough. Result ? GPA 3.68

Semester 3. I thought it was gonna be easy. With subjects like Web Page Design, which is my favourite, and Tamadun Islam, still not loving it. I don't know if i've done enough, but two subjects would be easy to achieve. It's a 50/50 way, either you win or you lose, because there's only two subs.

And on today, i collected my exam result slip, open it up, and i saw the letters A and a GPA 4.0.

I know it's nothing to some of you smart people out there. But this is the first time i got a 4 Flat. I'm very happy about it. I was lucky too i guess. Even it's a small achievement, but it will be an inspiration to work harder. It definitely boost my confidence a little higher.

I can sense further obstacles are waiting for me.

It's gonna be a busy week. I've a meeting to attend. Swimming lessons to attend. I'm a student assistant, which means i earn money as i teach swimming. Yay extra income ! Booths to attend to, also another extra income, take care of the paper booth where they distribute papers to students who subscribed. At times i get really exhausted because of the long sessions in college. It's really tiring, but i can't complain. Although i love to rot at home.

but i think i'm getting lazy soon. LoL

I'm curious to know who drops by here. Please leave a message in my tag box so that i'd know. Just curious. =). I know usually i blog to myself. I know a few people that sometimes drop by. but i don't update really that often. I know one persons who always comes here. ;)

I've been thinking of changing the design of my blog.

How is this for a start ?

Until then..

The Shark..

2007-06-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

Yes, I'm known to my lil cousins as the Shark. because of my head. Other than that, i'm also known as egg head.

Anyhow, i was back in Penang for my uncle's wedding, and it was great. Well, the food was great, make me gain a few pounds more. I've been not exercising because of my leg and i'm here eating my heart out. LoL

My trusty Samsung Phone with 1.3Mp Cam, Uncle's wedding car.

Funny thing is, i brought my camera and it's charger back, but on the wedding day, i turned on the camera to find, i didn't bring back the memory card. How delightful, i got scolded by my dad for being so careless.

That would be my uncle and his wife, me, my sis (in black) and my cousin sis.

Well weddings are weddings, but this would be the first time i attended a mass for a wedding in church. Never done that before. The traditional chinese ceremony was followed too. My uncle would be my grandma last child to get married. She has 6 children, including my mum.

Beauty and the Shark.

As i've cut my hair, Theng was actually scared, to see this change in me, she was scared i turn into a "lala". She prefer me with my hair long and shaped like a coconut head. Most importantly, she's afraid i'll look "lala". LoL.

The Lala (top) and the not so Lala (bottom)

Back to college on monday morning, this would be the first time, i'm attending all lectures, and i'm doing all my tutorial. I'm just very happy at myself. I am hoping to continue doing this till the end of semester. Even though i hate the long hours of classes. and the long breaks in between. Plus SWC( Student Welfare Committee ) meetings till late evenings. I've never been so busy before. I hate going to lectures actually, but since now they are taking attendance. *sigh*

Lazying around. SWC commitees.

Of course i still have time for leisure. I'm actually not a very good planner, i do make bad time management once in a while. Like when i always wake up just in time for class, and i'm always at least 5 minutes late. I just love to sleep.

Just updates on life these days.

Up down left and right, but my leg hasn't heal yet.

Until then...

This is so uncool.....

2007-06-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

One thing i hate about my appearance is my hair. It's because i don't have a clue on how to cut my hair. When it's long, i just tell the hair stylist to trim and cut short. There are a few times which i had bad hair cuts.

Last year in Genting. Click 5 style, according to Kok Chyan

I always complain that i don't know how to style my hair. I don't really like to use wax or gel, because when my hair itches, i hate it.

You can see i don't usually style my hair

All these years i look the same, even theng always say my hair is always like this. When i cut my hair, mum will ask, you got cut your hair meh ?

It's hard to do anything when my hair is long..and my nose is crooked !!

Anyway, i'm back in Penang now for my Uncle's wedding. In the meantime, i decided to get a hair cut. I was planning to just trim it, but i end up looking like this.

Ohh wait, wrong picture. I wished i look like him.

I decided to try something different, like, take a risk, try it, something that will make me look fresh. Through the hair cut, i couldn't really see myself because i had my glasses off. That's what i hate about getting a hair cut, not able to see yourself is just plain wrong. You won't know when something goes wrong. Well, i told the hair stylist to cut like this anyway, and well, it turned out quite like what i expected, but seriously, i don't know whether it's nice or not.

And i will reveal it here...

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Web Cam

This will be the first time i cut it this way. I even had three stipes on the side, just for fun.

My grandmother ask me in hokkien "Lu ka ha mi tao mo??"

Another bad hair style. When will i get it right ??????

*sigh*

How To Save A Life..

2007-05-31T01:38:00.000+08:00

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

I wished The Fray would come to Malaysia....*prays hard*

shattered...

2007-05-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

Not really shattered but yea, almost.

I tried playing football today, but i can't run, i tried, i only could hop around and walk and maybe a light jog. It's just so fucked up to see myself like that, when others could move their leg swiftly. It's been a month since i hurt my leg, to be precise, my left knee. It hasn't heal yet. I could walk without problems, but when i start running, my knee just could not take it.

Cisse Breaking A Leg

It's sad and frustrating to not be able to do what you like, now i know how it feels like to be semi-disabled. Though it already feels like i'm disabled. I'm lucky not to have the condition worsen, come to think of it, the doctor said it was just a pull at the ligament, i haven't see any specialist though.

Anyhow, attended a few lectures. Umm, all lectures actually, because attendance are now taken which is actually the result of last semester's poor attendance. That wasn't as bad as our classes are some how reshuffle which resulted in me moving up from group 5 to 4. But poor poor Jeremy went up to group 2. What totally pissed me off is i'm unable to change it. According to the head of school, it's the administration orders. I say shit.

I'm taking 5 subjects this semester which includes

Data Communication,
Probability and Statistics,
Database,
Analysis and Design of Information System
and Introduction to Object Oriented Programming.

I'm learning Java this semester. *Yay!* Which reminds me, i haven't touched C++ since semester 2. Another thing, i have 3 program supervisor and a senior lecturer teaching me. It's definitely a good thing, but they are strict like hell, they are like the jackals or the elite squad or S.W.A.T, May i live through this semester.

According to theng, i'm girly flower flower, or emo these few days. Proof ? I've been repeating Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie and 4 In The Morning by Gwen Stefani over and over again, check my msn and you will see.

That's not me ! I listen to Fall Out Boy, Bullet For My Valentine, My Chemical Romance, Sugarcult, The Fray, Incubus! Not girly girly songs! At this moment, Theng is gonna say i patronize female singers. I have nothing against them, hell, i have nothing against Mika either. I just don't really enjoy the PoP genre anymore. Or maybe i do but i'm just in denial. *hums to grace kelly*

And yea, i'm fat.

Someone Poke Me!

I've been eating and eating and sleeping because my of my injured leg. That makes me fat like a tortoise shell or Hurley from lost. =/

Speaking bout series.

NO MORE HEROES !!! HOW COULD THEY !?? I mean, do it quick, don't make us wait, we wanna see what happens after the explosion and i don't want Nathan to die nor DL or Parkman. Sad. SUPERNATURAL ALSO FINISH ! LOST HAVE TO WAIT DON'T KNOW HOW MANY FREAKING MONTHS BEFORE SEASON 4 COMES OUT. Damn you producers, as you make money and make us suffer.

Moody, but alright.

I'm stopping here.

Until then.

Makes Me Wonder..

2007-05-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

I've been back to KL since last week, 14 of May. Been going to College almost everyday for setting up and rehearsal of Mass Call. It's been a tiring week and tomorrow would be the real day. Time actually pass quite fast, on the other hand i was complaining that time is passing too slow because i miss theng a lot. Come to think of it, it's quite fast also.

So, Manchester United failed to secure the FA cup after a 1-0 lost to Chelsea in extra time. I don't have anything to say. After putting high hopes on Manchester United, they bound to lose. While when you don't concentrate on them, they will win with a brace of goals. People say it's because of the game itself is already polluted by bookies and bets.

Paused.

And Here i am, after two weeks, continuing this post.

I've been busy. Mass Call was a great experience. It's fun and i really enjoy it except for the part where we had to stand for a very long time.

Tomorrow would be the first day of my second year or fourth semester. Kinda fast actually.

Me and Theng had been together for 6 months already. and she made me this..

A Card with mind blowing words *=P* and cookies shaped like Noel. Well, plus load more of cookies which left me craving for more. Yum Yummy. Love ya baby. =)

Time flies, when i look at the freshies that attended mass call, they remind me of myself when i first step into college one year ago. Everything was new and different. Can't believe it's been a year. Sometimes i still wonder if i took the right course, how would my future be.

I still haven't watch Pirates Of The Caribbean. Heard it's good, much better than Spidey3. Headed to Times Square with Theng on sat to watch but it was SOLD OUT, THE WHOLE DAY. Because of Wu Chun, a chinese actor or something which i have no interest in. Times Square was flooded.

My leg isn't healed yet, i wonder when i can play football again.

Anyway, guess i'll stop here.

Until then..

Another Day..

2007-05-08T12:48:00.000+08:00

First things first.

All Hail The Newly Crowned Premiership Champions !!

Manchester United!!

Yes, Manchester United takes the crown with an 7 point lead over Chelsea with two games left, which makes it impossible to catch up anymore.

Back to reality, i'm bored to hell, i can't play football because my knee still hurt which is because--

Once upon a time, i was playing futsal, as i was imagining myself being Zidane, i turned and my knee did not follow, and it went crack.

It haven't recover fully yet till now. Sigh.

The remake of the omen is boring. I nearly slept through it. Well, i slept and continue the next morning. Which also does not surprise me.

Discovered Secondhand Serenade on TRL, all acoustic songs. Damn nice. The single is called vulnerable. They sound a little like Dashboard Confessional. Emo kind. And most of their songs have a phrase - "I was born to tell you that i love you". That's kinda cheesy. LoL

Talking bout Dashboard Confessional, i love their new single, stolen. It's playing in my head. Well, Grace Kelly by Mika is also running around in my head, for some reason. -_-

Is there anything that will make you not feel like listening to music at all ? because music is like life, but there are times that you won't feel like listening to music at all. I wonder

I'm just gonna think about what to do. =)

until then..

Long Long One.

2007-05-04T14:17:00.000+08:00

It’s been quite a while since I had a proper entry in this blog. But since when do I blog properly. I find this place as messy as my table, well, at least they have labels on them. I don’t find a lot of footprints in here, nor do I blog for an audience. Honestly, I did thought of being like Kenny Sia and all. Guess that’s just not me. As when I blog, they are just words. It will definitely hurt your eyes.

Anyhow, I just came back from KL for the semester break, back home to Penang, after a refreshing third semester of my Two Year, 6 Semester Diploma Course. It’s great to be back, of course home is the best place in the world. The down side? Only for one week. I have to be back by May the 14^th, because of my involvement in the orientation week for the 2007 Tar College May Intake or Freshies. That’s what they called us when we were here a year ago.

Come to think of it, one week isn’t that bad. It seems that when I come back to Penang, I am usually stuck at home. For some reasons, I don’t seem to have friends to hang out with. Well, the people I usually hang out with here sleep next door back in KL. So, I practically need to see some fresh but familiar faces. It’s either me, wait, I shall rephrase that. It’s me that’s being the lazy ass for not catching up with my friends. Maybe it’s because we’ve moved away to a new environment, meeting new people, that we don’t really have the time to catch up, or the friendship isn’t there, and we lose contact. Sigh. But still, thanks for the memories.

Though I guess catching up won’t be a problem now because I’d be heading to a reunion dinner for the class of 2005 in Penang.

Everytime I come back here, my dog has to give me a headache. The first two semester, she ran away and got herself another dog stuck to her. And she also bit my slippers. Twice. This semester, I wasn’t expecting anything because I thought she would be good for once. And then it happen, she chew on my sneaks. My adidas white sneaks which I seldom wear because it was too precious. I want to shout and scream and but sadly, she chewed already. What can I say, as much as I want to scream my head off.

I was studying my ass off, well, that would be just a metaphor, but I did tried to study my ass off for this two papers, Web Page design and Tamadun Islam dan Asia. As much as I love Hiro Nakamura, I do like history, just the interesting ones. Well, most of them are because of it’s in BM. It seriously does bores the hell out of me. So MTV had to be so kind, because it’s my birthday month, they decided to award me with four tickets to watch Good Charlotte Live. I love you for that.

It was on a Saturday and I went to Bukit Jalil Stadium straight away after my Exam with Theng, Wallace and Shoon. The concert was great, it was good, no, it was fantastic! Although we did have some complications that includes moving around in a crowd that have no interest in listening to the music. That just might have spoilt the mood.

Moving on, here are some personal reflection moments. Coming back here just makes me feel, how to you put it, responsible. As I had been living on my own, where every decision I make is my own damn problem and I will have to deal with it if it goes wrong. I feel that, I am going to be taking care of my family when I am able to support myself, get a job and all. Because my parents are getting older, still working to support the family, to support my education. And business just isn’t looking good. I have a cute and adorable sister, who is somehow a rebel, whom keep things to herself. She’s a good girl, but I’m afraid she’s mixing with the wrong group of friends, too much exposure. I just feel more responsible as I’m the eldest in the family. That it is part of what I should do. I hope that’s a good thing. Just the process of growing up. I guess I’ve really changed a lot from who I am last time. Though I may still be an idiot.

Feelings, feelings and more feelings. Sad, happy, angry, emotional, it’s part of life. This is the part where I should be thankful of what I have but I’ll just skip that.

Been watching Grey’s Anatomy, It’s really a great show. Top on my list, together with Scrubs, Heroes, Lost and Of course, Supernatural. That’s what I do now, lie down and watch series, like a pig. Sadly, no wonder Theng calls me a donkey, and also a pig.

I’ve been up and I’ve been down, I’ve even lost control of myself for the past two months, for a minute i find myself like a total failure. Someone said that you make your own decision, you shape your future, you decide your life. I guess that person is partly right and also wrong, because we won’t know what will happen in the future. I think god is testing us, so that we can make the right decision, and if we fall, we pick ourselves up and take it as an experience.

I think that will be the effect of watching too much Grey’s Anatomy, I am narrating my own life. Like Meredith or in Scrubs, like J.D.

Ok, enough crapping. I’m late, gotta fetch my sis from School.

Try to update soon.

Until then.

Happy Birthday to me !

2007-04-09T12:59:00.000+08:00

Yea, thats about it. Thanks to those who remembered.

Sad though. Not many remember.

Well, as long as this few people remember,

1. Sis *will tell dad and mum*
2. Baby
3. Housemates

or i'd be miserable.

I'm 19 ! Yay ! or should i go, yay......

I'd be looking forward to the year. =)

Support Local Events !!!

2007-04-02T02:18:00.000+08:00

Dates

April 4-Chester Bennington From Linkin Park @KLCC Tower Records
April 7- Hitz.FM 10th Birthday Bash
April 8-Kanye West "Touch The Sky" Tour
April 9-Day i get my exam result
April 21-Good Charlotte Live in KL !!!

I'll be attending the birthday bash to support my favourite radio station! I've been listening to Hitz.fm for a very long time now i'm turning 19 and they are turning 10 ! WooTs

I'm gonna skip Kanye West, sadly.. Cause i'm going for Good Charlotte !!! Love their new album, Good Morning Revival.

Well i'm only into two songs from the album right now, Misery and The River.

I'm hoping Relient K would drop by, but it would be impossible. I don't see a Relient K fan base in Malaysia. Sadly.

Relient K is one hell of a band, though music critics consider them poppy instead of punk. They are actually a christian band. *I couldn't believe either*. Well anyway, they just released Five Score And Seven Years Ago. Different people have different taste.

Another Album to be expect would be Linkin Park's Minutes To Midnight. I've already heard what i've done , the first single on YouTube. I think it's only the demo. I don't want to be disappointed. I'm heading over to KLCC to catch Chester though. Wonder what is he doing here anyway.

Life's great. Well, there are a lot of happenings, which somehow i couldn't avoid, or maybe caused by me myself. But everything just slowly patch into one piece at the end, and i just am so grateful.

Until then..

down

2007-03-29T17:39:00.000+08:00

i'm at the lowest point, emotionally.