April 9

I was browsing wikipedia, and i searched for April 9, which is my birth date.

Let's start with people whom i share the same birth date with.

Singers

• 1977, Gerrard Way, Lead Vocals - My Chemical Romance
  
• 1978, Racheal Stevens, S-Club 7
• 1987, Jesse McCartney

I share the Same Birth Date with GERRARD WAY FROM MCR !? WOO HOO !! lol.. I love MCR.

Sportsman

• 1971 - Jacques Villeneuve, Canadian F1 driver
  
• 1975 - Robbie Fowler, English footballer, Liverpool
• 1978 - Jorge Andrade, Portuguese footballer
• 1982 - Carlos Hernández, Costa Rican footballer
• 1981 - Ireneusz Jeleń, Polish footballer

I know only Robbie Fowler and Jacques Villeneuve.

Well, here's something special,

• 1974 - Jenna Jameson, American porn star
  
• 1965 - Jay Wesley Neill, American convicted murderer
• 1932 - Cheeta, animal actor, the longest living known chimpanzee in history
• 1865 - Erich Ludendorff, German general in World War I
• 1336 - Tamerlane (Timur), Central Asian, Turkic conqueror

I read of Ludendorff in The Return of The Dancing Master by Henning Mankell. About Nazi and World War.

so much for April 9. =)

Too much emo music kills noel

Eugene says i've been listening to a lot of emo music.

So, i've decided to show off my playlist, open for comments.

1. My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say, About a life-long wait for a hospital stay, well if you think that i'm wrong, This never meant nothing to you.

2. Jack's Mannequin - The Mixed Tape

Where are you now ? As I'm swimming through the stereo, I'm writing you a symphony of sound. Where are you now? As I rearrange the songs again, This mix could burn a hole in anyone, But it was you I was thinking of.

3. Lostprophets - Always, all ways

Always, all ways I wanted us to be, Always, all ways you and me, And I wait here on my own, And I wait for you to see, All the time I spend alone now won't comfort me.

4. Dashboard Confessional - As Lovers Go

This is easy as lovers go. So don't complicate it by hesitating. This is wonderful as loving goes.
This is tailormade, What's the sense in waiting?

5. AFI - Love Like Winter

It’s in the blood, it’s in the blood, I met my love before I was born. He wanted love. I taste of blood, He bit my lip, and drank my war, From years before, from years before.


Emo ? I don't think so .

random

To jeremy, i apologize for calling you a psycho.

You are not the psycho, i am.

so near yet so far

Back in Penang for holidays. Just reached not long ago and i have this urge to blog.

So who did i came back with ?

Answer : Lay Theng

God, i was so freaking nervous. but everything seemed to went well. The stupid thing is the bus system is whacked. Luckily we didn't have to wait long for the bus. Manged to leave at 12am while our bus was suppose to be at 11pm.

The journey back was all right. I couldn't sleep. Well, i wanted too but i didn't want to. LoL. The bus had water dripping on me. How nice to have real special effects in the bus.
I looked at her while she's sleeping, no i'm not stalking. It just makes me smile. I see a girl, i want to be with. I want to make her happy, share her joy and heal her sorrow. It's not about being dramatic. It's true.
So as i dream on.

Gonna hit the sack, snooze till noon. I have the bed to myself, woo hoo, sis went somewhere.

until then.

I Passed All My Subjects ! Even Pre-Calculus !

blog later, heading to low yatt, going back penang tomorrow .

stalking.

i wonder into your world, i see a part of you i don't see everyday,
you're full of joy, sometimes sorrow, sometimes clueless,
but i want to find out about you, and here are a few

you regret everytime you cut your hair, but it always turns out right, sometimes.
you make little things sound important, even if it's a rainy day or an injection.
you are always tricked into doing something you don't want to. LoL. I guess that's because of your blur-ness.
you dare to try something new, even if it's dangerous.
you have good chemistry with kids.
you are funny. though you don't realize.
you love chocolates.
you are in my mind, in my dreams, in my thoughts, in my words, in my head, in my life
..............

i won't be able to list them all, cause frankly, i don't really know much.

it's funny that i think too much. sometimes i feel i can't get to you.

maybe it's just me. again. i should get some sleep. haha.

3.41am

The Mixed Tape

This is morning

That's when I spend the most time

Thinking 'bout what I've given up

This is a warning

When you start the day just to close the curtains

You're thinking 'bout what I've given up

Where are you now?

As I'm swimming through the stereo

I'm writing you a symphony of sound

Where are you now?

As I rearrange the songs again

This mix could burn a hole in anyone

But it was you I was thinking of

I read your letter

The one you left when you broke into my house

Retracing every step you made

And you said you meant it

And there's a piece of me in every single

Second of every single day

But if it's true then tell me how it got this way

Where are you now?

As I'm swimming through the stereo

I'm writing you a symphony of sound

Where are you now?

As I rearrange the songs again

This mix could burn a hole in anyone

But it was you I was thinking of

And I can't get to you

I can't get to you

I can't get to you

Where are you now?

As I'm swimming through the stereo

I conduct a symphony of sound

Where are you now?

As I'm cutting through you track by track

I swear to God this mix could sink the sun

But it was you I was thinking of

And where are you now?

And where are you now?

And this is my mixed tape for her

It's like I wrote every note

With my own fingers

College Wars - Return Of Semester 2

Back in KL. Ready to stomp the world. And i missed lecture this morning. I must change this fucking habit. But it's the first week, so it won't be that bad.

So i had people ask me, how's the feeling, coming back here, living on your own, surviving on mamak food. Well i say, i'm getting used to it. But i'm sure i would eat less of mamak food or i'll die. Well, maybe not enjoying the broadband here. It would take ages for me to download stuffs.

I don't know why, but i seem to come back with more stuffs, even my clothes are doubled. My plastic cupboard is gonna fall anytime. It's almost full. I have tees, tees and more t-shirts. I'm a t-shirt freak. I only wear t-shirts. Maybe thats why i look like a kid in college, while others are all fashionably dressed up. Haha. Why call it t-shirt anyway ? *wonders*

Actually, i didn't mean to skip lecture this morning, but as i was messing with my hair, which couldn't stand, even with wax, i got fed up, and i was already late. So, i took the time to wash my bed sheets and my blanket. Which is a good thing, cause i wanted to do it first thing i come back. I got my friend getting notes if there is for me. I won't miss much. I hope so.

I'm not that vain actually, i was just trying to do something different. *lol* . Seriously, my hair never stands, it's too soft. I wonder if it's healthy or just whacked. Even after waxing it, it goes back to the shape it originally is. I've already gave up dressing up my hair since secondary. Couldn't be bothered.

I'm hungry again. Oh wait, i did not eat breakfast. Everybody is still sleeping behind me. Yawn, i'm feeling the sandman too. Afternoon is gonna be dull.

"cause you give me something, that makes me scared all right. this could be nothing, but i'm willing to give a try. please give me something, cause someday i might know my heart." - You Give Me Something - James Morrison

yea, she gives me something, which could be nothing, but i'm willing to take the risk. It's better to have something than nothing at all. =)

until then.

My days are numbered.

3 more days left in Penang, before the new semester starts.

I can't wait, but i'm gonna miss penang.

This semester break is my first and the best. Thanks to everyone for making that happen.

Tomorrow the Pass/Fail list would most probably be out. I'm praying that i wouldn't fail my pre-calculus. I have calculus this sem and i don't want to repeat any subjects. *prays*

One good news, it seems that we don't have to fear of our parents knowing our results anymore. we are to collect our results from the college starting from now. Still, it's better to let them know. or not. *evil*

But i definitely don't want to waste my parents money. I want to be somebody at the end of all this.

I lost touch in C++ ! god, how am i gonna resume programming designs and concepts 2 ? i should spend more time doing programs then play games. LoL

I had my eye checked the other day, i'm short sighted since i was 3 or 4. Sad eh. I watch too much ninja turtles when i was that age. That day i told my friends, they said i watched porn too much, i said i watched ninja turtles when i was small, one of them gasps , he said " You watch ninja turtles porn a ?!" *faints* . Sometimes they are just ridiculous. lol.

So, my left eye increased to 775, i don't know how they measure it. While my right eye stays at 650. I'm going to be blind ! I should maybe see other stuffs more than my computer. So, i decided to change my frames, since mine here is kinda whacked. My lenses cause RM180. That's why i advise you kids, don't watch cartoons too much, you'll be like me, wasting your parents money. haha.

What have i not achieved in the things i would want to do in penang that i listed before coming back, i've done everything. I've spent time with my family, met up with friends, went to the beach, went to gurney, i had penang food, i enjoyed playing ball, i broke my usual speed limit, driving my dad's car to a mere 150km/h. lol. He doesn't know that.

Oh, now i remember, i haven't meet Mon Ping, that will be for tomorrow AC session ! (AC = autocity) . =)

Download frenzy, i'm afraid i won't be able to enjoy a single line connection anymore back at KL, have to share it with 5 other pc's. So i'm now downloading like crazy, got myself about 10 albums already. Plus my weekly dose of supernatural, heroes and lost. I seriously need to get an external hard disk.

great, i'm hungry.

until then...

Hypnosis - I NEED attention

Lol..This is a hypnosis session.

Listen to ME !

I'm BORED

NOW!

I demand attention from all of you.

I want you, you and yes, you, to do something for me, no matter what it is.

I want to be surprised, shocked, sad, happy, whatever.

I want to be a King, no wait, A Prince for a day.

Someone get me my cloak, my juice and my food !

Someone do something special for me.

Someone please make my day !

I want to be surprise in the morning with a message in my handphone inbox.

I want to be hugged and cuddled. I want someone to hug and cuddle too. ( This Is A Wierd Demand, lol )

I want you to listen to every word i say.

From today onwards, you will be under my command. Now Wake UP ! *snap*.

I think i'm insane, i need.. someone give back my sanity !

If i was hypnotize, i'd be a duck.

Is it true that i'm missing you ? I think i am.

1.01 AM

I look out the window, wondering what's beyond the clouds,
is there a you and me out there, or i'm just on my own.
The sun shines upon me, telling me to put on a smile.
cause the reason when i smile, is all because of you.

Your absence makes me shiver, wakes me up from my sleep.
I wish i could be right beside you, i don't care how or where.
All i can think about, is the way you look at me.
It keeps me hanging on to you, wondering if i'll fall.

If i told you i miss you, would you say the same ?
Or would you just close the god damn door, leaving me alone.
Would you care about me, the way i care about you ?
Or i'm just invisible to you, after all this time.

I'll be there for you, catch you if you fall.
Be with you when you are down,
share your laughter and tears, your pain and your joy.
Cheer you up when you are moody,
Or sing even if i can't, just to make you smile.

With you, i'm never blue.
Wished you knew how i feel.
Wished i could read you mind.
Wished that you could be mine.

Cheesy..

2.57 AM

Feelin' Way Too Damn Good

I'm in such a good mood today. No wait, it started from the evening. LoL

I woke up at 10 to find out that my dog bit my flip flops. Spoilt. Arghh, it's the second pair she destroyed. Her timing also very funny, before i left for KL, she destroyed the first pair, after one semester, there goes another pair. Dad said she quit that habit already, well, i guess some habits you just can't quit.

Spent my afternoon watching High School Musical. Actually enjoy it. I enjoy watching disney movies. When i was young it was cartoon network, and slowly switched to disney, then nickelodeon.

Now ?

ESPN, StarSports, Star World, MTV, [V] Channel.

Lol, drastic changes. Though i still watch cartoons, dad actually complained i watch too much cartoons at this age. It's fun, laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes it's good to feel and be like a kid. =)

Evening, went football. Some people just don't change. I admit i'm not maradona or ronaldinho. They expect you to pass once you get the ball, i did not even have time to look where to pass and i got scolded. What the hell ? My brain also can't think that fast. I don't think they can do that also? Once you get the ball, you'll sure look for a suitable place to put the ball but they think they are so skilled. Thats the reason we get tired easily, cause the game is always fast paced. Lose already blame others, scold here and there.

But thats the fun of it, i love challenges. I want to be pushed, but sometimes they are just over their head.

Went out to dinner with dad. Sis and Mum went Penang, one go out with friends, another went dancing. Later, went G7 at Pacific yum cha. With Shoon, Wei Hun, Jason, Wallace and friends. 12 of us. Played chor dai di (poker), i don't even know what you call that in english. LoL. I won 4 times, twice in a row. Was in a good mood. Guess thats why i'm lucky.

Lay Theng is growing older. She's turning 18 in a month plus. 18 is the new old age. Haha. 44 days to her birthday. I didn't know 18 is Sexy, while 16 is sweet and 17 is ? sassy. lol. Whats with all the s'es.

Jason is going to skip one week of his class. I wonder how is he going to manage it. He says, he is going to the hospital tomorrow for check up, saying something about having constant headache and numbness. He just wanna skip class and be in Penang. Fake ! LoL.

I smile because of her. Never felt so happy before for so long.

*stupid smiley*. naive.

until then..

Rewind

Back home from gurney. Babysit my sis and her friends there, with Way Shoon accompanying me. Well, he went there to meet up with his friends. As usual, walked round and round, that's what we always do. Nearly got lost in Penang cause i forgot the routes. Manage to get home unhurt. LoL

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Friday, Yesterday, is a day,

A day which i spent at the beach, with Way Shoon, Kok Chyuan, Wei Hun, Cher Ru, Hui Ping and Lay Theng.

A day i made stuff out of sand, play ball, had fun and even went on the banana boat.

A day i made her name with sand, but destroyed by the guys, a horse, and a few ATVs (all terrain vehicles).

A day i collected sea shells into a bottle and one of it got stuck, i had to break it. =/

A day i saw Wei Hun charged RM40 for horse riding. He was satisfied though. LoL

A day Way Shoon and Cher Ru were flying up high in the sky on the parachute thingy. With Way Shoon screaming like a girl.

A day ......

A day that may considered as the happiest day of my life. Hope there's more to come. I'm not greedy, i'm just beeing hopeful. =p

*smiles*

And To Eugene

Happy Birthday ! God Bless !

very tired and sleepy, gonna hit the sack, until then..

nothing beats the feeling of being at home.

If your aren't happy, read this ; if you are happy, read it too..

25 ways to stay happy.Something to share. =)

1. Change Your Thinking. Live everday as if it is your last. People who survived a terminal illness or accident, witnessed a tragedy or lost a loved one are said to have a different perspective on life. Many will say that they no longer leave anything untill later. They travel, learn a new skill, contact a friend now. They know - & we should all remember - that there might not be a later.
2. Keep a journal(or blog). Write an ongoing list of good things that happen to you everyday. What was that lovely thing your daughter said to you the other day? You will not remember unless you write it down. Problems can be solved & bad things cleared from your thoughts by writing them down, too. Try it - it works.
3. Get some perspective on things. Think about how you would like to be remembered & what you might tell your grandchildren about your life. Is it really that important that the linen is changed weekly & the floors are kept spotlessly clean? That work meeting last year that meant you missed your child's school concert - does it matter now?
4. Don't let the small stuff bug you. Wasting your energy by getting upset about life's many minor irritations is not worth it. Smile & wave to the driver who won't let you merge into his lane. He's rude & aggresive, & it's his problem. You've missed the train? Fretting is pointless - the train is gone. Enjoy the coffee while you wait for the next one.
5. Do any unpleasant or difficult chores that need doing. Do them NOW! Procrastination drains your energy & burdens your mind. If you are thinking & worrying about something that needs to be done, you might as well be doing it.
6. Change your routine. Life can begin to seem like a bit of a chore if we do the same thing day after day, week after week. We need to create interest in our lives, & to do new things. If you normally sleep in on a Sunday, the "sleep in" is no longer a treat. Why not get up early & have breakfast in the park? You'll beat the crowds & be heading home as they arrive. The day will seem much longer. (Or, for those who never sleep in, arrange it somehow - what a luxury it is!)
7. Don't try to keep up with others. So, your neighbours have a larger home, the latest stereo system, a new car - WHO CARES? Look again. He works on the weekends, & they never seem to see friends. Who's better off, really?
8. Have a big clean out & divest yourself of useless "stuff". Clothes unworn for a year, the dinner service that you've always hated, kitchen utensils that are always in the way but never used, unused linen(you still have cot linen on the shelf & the "baby" is six!), toys, books, furniture - give it all to a charity & you will have helped the poor. The bonus is that your shelves & cupboards are clutter-free now. Housework is eaiser, your vision is clearer & the feng shui of your home is improved.
9. Learn to say no. You don't have to do it. Your life is already too busy & you are running from one thing to another. Give yourself some space to think & time to do something for yourself.
10. Remember to love your partner for who he or she is. Have they really changed so much? Or(think about it!) might he/she actually be the same person that you fell in love with? The relationship might need some work - eveything needs some repair work or maintenance after a few years of running - but the parts should be still in working order.
11. Don't let familiarity breed contempt. Your partner & family deserve at least the same consideration you give your friends. & you deserve the same from them.
12. Tell your partner, family & friends that you love them. Tell them what you love about them. Tell them when they do things well. A little praise never hurts & before you know it you might be told that you've done things will too. You never know.....
13. Are you always a shoulder to lean on for troubled friends? It may be hard, but if their problems are getting to affect you, then you need to try not to be quite so available all the time. They need to address their problems & get on with their lives.
14. Phone, e-mail(write them a testimonial or message them on friendster) even write to some old friends. You've lost touch, but it needn't be for ever. & how long is it since you spoke to your Great Auntie Jean? She'd love to hear from you.
15. Enchance your mood with greenery. Cut some fresh flowers from your garden - or get up early head to the markets & fill your home with loads of cheap flowers, fruit & vegetables. Everyone had pot plants in the 1970s - bring them back! These fill the house with life & vitality.
16. Go to the beach. The long views, the wind, the waves, barefeet in the sand, sun on the back - there is nothing so good for the soul. (My friend Kendra is renewed & invigorated in the same way by a walk on a hill. To each his own.)
17. Create something. Paint, sculpt, sew, bake, garden - ANYTHING!
18. Breathe fresh air. Go outside or open the windows,. Breathe deeply to the bottom of your lungs & feel the stale air leave you.
19. Go for a walk. This gentle exercise will renew & invigorate you physically & mentally on your first outing. Take it up regularly & you'll feel better everyday.
20. Rent a funny video & have a good laugh. Old comedies always do it for me.
21. Move your furniture & ornaments around, change rooms, paint walls. It's true, a change is as good as a holiday.
22. Give yourself something to look forward to. Book a holiday, a night out, a massage.
23. Invite friends over for dinner. Get everyone to dress up, & decorate the room & the table. Greet everyone with cocktails or Champagne, & have music playing. Spend time thinking about & planning the menu, enjoy the shopping & cooking. People can't help but respond positively when you've gone to a lot of effort for them. The night will be good fun. & don't get stressed over cleaning the house beforehand - no-one will even notice.
24. Smile. Smiling is contagious try it & see.
25. Make someone else's day happier. It may sound a bit corny, but why not? Start by suppressing the urge to blast your horn at the slow driver ahead. Or you could make a positive move by volunteering your time for a charity.

There u go, all 24+1 of them, thanks to jeremy. It's actually from readers digest. I think i read b4. It's really some good advice.

"You Miss 100% Of The Shots You Don't Take." - Wayne Gretsky,NHL player.

This quote is so freaking true. If you don't do it, you get nothing. I encounter this situation a lot of times in life, even now. I have a chance to do something but i don't cause i'm afraid and embarrased. Eugene told me that we have to take risks to achieve something. And if you don't, you'll have nothing. Don't go waiting on for money to fall, or love to come, or good grades to score. We have to start taking chances and risks to do that something we have been given an opportunity to do.

Until then..

wierd' ol noelic

I did this survey this morning. So It was based on my thoughts in the morning.lol

write a blog with six weird facts/things/habits about yourself.

1. I pick my nose then eat the mucus. lol
2. I always have a bad hair day. Better still, Bad Hair All Year Long.
3. I don't like going out to clubs and party with people i don't know. I rather sit a home and enjoy a good book or play games.
4. I'm too big that it's hard to find a shoe size or a shirt that will look good on me.
5. I'll pick up my guitar or an air guitar, and imagine i'm a rock star, with a huge crowd infront of me. Sing out loud.
6. I often talk to myself.Self expression.lol

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grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
Combination of those names that fitted the clue that Josephine had given her.

stretch your arm out as far as you can.
That feels good. I just woke up.

what is the last thing you watched on tv?
Some mandarin program.

without looking, guess what time is it
11.45am

now look at the clock. what is the actual time?
12.04Pm. I've lost track of time. Been waking up late.

with the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My fan, and the headache in my head that goes bamp bamp bamp.

when did you last step outside? what were you doing?
Yesterday, went out with my friends.

before you started this survey, what did you look at?
wordpress, jeremy's blog.

what are you wearing now?
a black pants and a shin chan t-shirt Which says bi shen or must win.

did you dream last night?
I don't think so.

when did you last laugh?
While watching Rob-B-Hood. Laughed all the way.

what is on the walls of the room you are in?
Nothing, mum won't let me stick anything.

seen anything weird lately?
Umm, i don't think so.

what is the last film you saw?
Rob-B-Hood.

if you become a multi-millionaire overnight, what will you buy?
Hmm, before i start buying anything, i'll divide my fortunes into section.
1.My education
2.My Future
3.Mom and Dad
4.Sis
5.Donation
6.My tech Gadgets

I'll probably go get myself a Mac Pro to start with.

tell me something about you i don't know
i sometimes think like a girl.

if you could change one thing in the world, regardless of guilt of politics, what would you do?
Racism. Definitely. I would eliminate all thoughts of racism in the world, maybe with a brain-frying machine.haha.

do you like to dance?
No. I never dance. I look stupid while dancing.

george bush:
i remember the flash game that i used to play about george bush and osama.It's like trying to hit each other or sumthing.

imagine your first child is a girl. what would you call her?
Elizabeth. I find it very nice,

imagine your first child is a boy. what would you call him?
Christopher. After me. *my generation*

would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes ! I have. Someday.

i tag....everyone !

zero-sum game

I've been tag again by Jeremy, i'll post it later. Haha

I'm an ass for the moment. I wonder how an ass does his thing, i mean, what are the characteristics of an ass. Being jerkishly sarcastic is an ass is it ? Or having ass is considered an ass. LoL

I decided to pursue on a part-time gaming career. Gonna train for Fifa 07 and enter the WCG 07 !It's gonna be a dream come true. Now i have to get used to the ass-kicking and getting pawned by other online players. My first online game, my first lost is to Alex or better known as acc / accelerator7. Bayern Munich 3-1 Manchester United. He's organizing the LYN League (LYN is Low yat.Net i think). Playing in the LYN league gets you ranked for the WCG Games !

Went to Gurney today with the gang. Dad hestitated when i told him i was driving there.

He said " Better Drive Carefully, Remember That Unser Last Year?" Once i hear of the unser, i totally understood. LoL. I had an encounter with this Toyota Unser last year. Apparently i was driving too fast into the corner and this Unser was too near beside me and i went past it and BOOM, my car hit the unser's side mirror. That guy was from Alor Star and he had a family. To make things worst, it was a new car. Rm300 fly away. Dad was real disappointed then. Since that day, i never really dared to drive that fast anymore. Still, i seriously enjoy driving, i still go fast but i definitely learnt my lesson.

So, back to gurney. All of us there are KL tarcians which includes me, Way Shoon, Wei Hun, Kok Chyuan, Wallace, Jimmy, Cher-Ru and Hui Ping. Hehe. Went watch Rob-B-Hood. This show is seriously funny. I just kept laughing and laughing. I did not expect it to be this funny cause when i look at the combination of actors which consist of jackie chan ?? and Louis Koo ? Uhh, Jackie Chan has never acted in a comedy for years! Those thought were erased just in the first 5 minutes. The baby is so cute, except when he cries, annoyingly, THX cinema ! The wails are everywhere, unbearable. There is also a cameo appearence by Nicholas Tse and Daniel Wu acting as gayish Van drivers. Lol. I recommend this movie to all comedy and action fans.

It's been like four months since i went Gurney, kinda miss that place also. Used to be our hangout. Went Daytona with Shoon, Hun, Wallace and Kok Chyuan. I lost, of course. Twice. *Malu*. I'm not a frequent arcade goer. If i do, i'll shoot hoops. The super shot machine i think. That's the only thing i enjoy. Wierd. I've noticed that the arcade is also a hangout for people who works in there. I see people in suits and uniform, playing King Of Fighters. A rare sight. Haha.

I met Lay Theng today. I was actually anxious about it. When i see her, god, a rush of blood to the head. I tried to be calm and act normal, like a friend, chit chat a lil. I'm no smooth operator, i'm no eugene the guru. I'm just a typical guy who loses his sanity upon seeing the girl he likes. My mind goes blank, my knees weaken. One thing, seeing her just sends that anxiety away. I see the funny side of her today. Maybe cause of her hair. Haha. When she walks away, i just wanna follow. LoL. My mind tells me "Stay Where You Are!". I admit i do like her a lot, a lot but this is just a complex situation. Or is not ? I don't know. It's hard. I don't know how i got into this also. Or maybe it's just me. *wonders again*

Went gurney drive makan. I enjoy hawker food to the max ! Penang foood rocks and i'm proud of it! *sings penang state anthem*. Wait, do i even remember ? No.

yawn, no fifa players online. Bored, i'm darn tired, gonna hit the sack. Until Then.

One more week before second sem starts.

I have no initiative. I do things naively. Maybe that's why i always fail.

Ways to start your Monday

Mondays, usually people call it moody monday, where work starts and school resumes. While i'm having sem break. LoL. This is how i start my day on a Monday.

• Wake up at 12
• Watch football highlights of last night's matches
• Get fucked up for nothing (i was seriously restless and i don't know why, my mind is blank !)
• Watch MTV and V channel.
• Start your day with The Killers - When You Were Young. This song just has that energy to kick away the blues.
• Camp in front of my laptop, to find our limewire is not working.
• Waiting for someone to call me and say "I'm coming to fetch you", where i don't care cause i have no car.
• Play games
• Go back to sleep later.

I woke up with this uptight uneasyness in me. I feel so fucking fustrated. Funny thing is, my mind is blank and i'm watching man utd - newcastle ?? I need to go football. or someone give me a electric guitar, i need to let it out. It's like just air in a seal up bottle. Practically nothing but needs to come out.

I think i'm turning into a psychopath, i'm reaching that part of me which have no conscience. I'm a wolf in a sheeps clothing ! Psychopaths often do an excellent job of convincing people they do feel empathy and remorse. It's only with time that the sheen rubs off, then i'll start hunting each and everyone of you down, shed your skin and grill you alive. *Evil Laugh*. Beware. Someone lock me up !

Yawn, why are all my entries so fucking emo.

Song of the day
Teddy Geiger - These Walls

up, up and away

geek

I consider myself a geek, tech geek, though i may not have the latest gadgets, i stick to the computer and the internet every moment, even my career path leads to it.

But i realize one thing, it's slowly eating up my life. I'm such a geek that i would go for online dates, i would communicate with people online, everything is online ! Please someone wake me up from this nightmare, pull me away from my computer !

There is seriously more than just the communication through the internet, what about human touch ? Lingual communication ? feelings ? I'm losing all of that since i got myself stuck with the World Wide Web ! I don't often go out with friends except through a genius creation called instant messaging. I've been relying on the internet so much that i'm so lazy right now. I think it really has a big impact on my life. Positively and negatively.

Someone seriously have to wake me up, or i'll die with the net too.

So much about being a geek..

Was browsing blogs yesterday, and i stumbled into Chris's Abnormally Abnormal Critiques . A blog worth checking it out. He is just so funny. lol

It's been a week of hanging out with friends. I wonder what next week has in store for me. Looking foward !

Eugene is a Guru. haha

until then..