Shuffle

1.) Put your music player on shuffle
2.) Press forward for each question.
3.) Use the song title as the answer to the question.
4.) Absolutely no cheating.

1.) How am I feeling today?
Piece Of Mind - Krezip

2.) Where will I get married?
Higher ground - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

3.) What is my best friend's theme song?
Slide Along Side - Shifty

4.) What is/was highschool like?
Blow - Parking Lot Pimp

5.) What is the best thing about me?
Over My Head - The Fray

6.) How is today going to be?
Unfaithful - Rihanna

7.) What is in store for this weekend?
Niki Fm - Hawthorne Heights

8.) What song describes my parents?
Angel - David Tao

9.) How is my life going?
Be My Escape - Relient K

10.) What song will they play at my funeral?
Rain Down - Planet Shakers

11.) How does the world see me?
Pimpin All Over The World - Ludacris ft Bobby Valentine (WHAT ?!!!)

12.) What do my friends really think of me?
Best Friend - 50 Cent (Wow..)

13) Do people secretly lust after me?
Starlight - Zed (makes no sense)

14.) How can I make myself happy?
Number 1 - Pharell ft kanye West

15.) What should I do with my life?
Heal Me, i'm Heart Sick - No Vacancy

16.) Will I ever have children?
Love Fool - The Cardigans (HuH !?)

17.) What is some good advice?
High Voltage - Linkin Park

18.) What do I think my current theme song is?
Old Newspaper - Jason Lo (Funny)

19.) What does everyone else think my current life?
Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends - Fall Out Boy

20.) What type of men/women do you like?
Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik

21.) Will you get married?
Only Once - Yellowcard

22.) What should I do with my love life?
El Manana - Gorillaz

23.) Where will you live?
Everything Is Not Broken - John Mayer

24.) What will your dying words be?
Take Your Time - Krezip

25.) When I'm having sex I say..
Praise You - Fat Boy Slim

26.) When I meet a guy/lady for the first time I say..
Differences - Ginuwine

27.) When my parents are angry I say..
Is It Any Wonder - Keane

This is just ridiculous , lol

This tag goes out to anyone, everyone, buzz me if you've done it.

Thanks to Jeremy.. Ass.. Lol

Love

Warning *I may be naive, and not making sense here*

This entry goes out to my friend, Lay Theng, and people who had lost hope in love.

"Love is like the sunshine; no matter how tightly you shut down your heart, the sunlight will find a way to shine into it. Love’s process is unstoppable." - Nurmuhemmet Yasin

Love, is a magical thing. There maybe no such thing as eternal love, but as close as it gets, there is such thing as true love. I believe that at this age, 18, the chapters of love starts to unfold (a lil dramatic, lol) . Love is like life, a process of learning. No, it's a part of life. Love comes in many different ways. A person can have many loves, but each experience will be different from the next. As we fall down, we pick up ourselves, move on, and learn from our mistakes. But usually, it takes time to get up again once hurt.

It all starts from the first step, the first love. People give a 100% in the first relationship, there you can see the hopes of eternal love, imature, after failing, the pain is unbearable, and people, once bitten twice shy, they will not allow themselves to open up anymore. But what I must say, that if you are afraid of getting hurt then you will never truly enjoy life. Love is serious, but also not at all. When you are too serious you limit yourself. Trusting your heart and simply having the courage to love, goes a long way.

" Have faith in who you love and love itself, chances are it'll last. " - someone

I've been there, done that. I've been hurt, i've hurt others, i've been cruel. i too developed a fear. It's hard to believe that love still comes around. And i met this girl, she made my heart skipped a beat, when i see her, i get butterflies in my stomach, and my mind just goes blank. She's such an angel. But with that fear i had, i think too much, i became paranoid, and maybe, i freaked her out. I wanted to reach out badly, and i took things seriously at times, i was naive, at the end, i was scared.

Surrender it to god, the lord's miracles work in many ways and i realize. I've been stupid but now, i saw through the fog that has been clouding my vision. I didn't have self confidence, there's no courage in me. So, back to basics, start all over again and this time, i learnt from my mistakes. That's what Ai Khim told me, people make mistakes, it's whether you dare to admit it and change, or just don't give a damn.

We are not perfect, so is love. Love isn't loving the perfect person, but loving the inperfect person perfectly ! People make mistakes. To have true love needs patience, trust, honesty and having faith in each other and love itself.

A piece of advice,

"Don’t waste your precious time trying to define the meaning of love. The best definition is already in your own heart and mind.” - Nurmuhemmet Yasin

How could a geek understand all this ? Not to say i'm in love. lol. Pardon me if i don't make sense, it's just my thoughts. Most probably what i just typed are all crap.

my little brain of stupid questions

As i lie down reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons, something struck me.

Eureka !

It has nothing to do with the book though.

I thought to myself, why am i sitting here moaning and complaining and yada yada. I don't see myself doing anything. I weep for my own faults, not because of what she has done. This is just so stupid. I should be doing something to show here that i care, let her know there's someone here for her. Instead of lying down thinking and making myself confuse. i'm suppose to be trying to impress her, to win her heart.

Naive i might be, but isn't this is what i should do ? If i continue to do nothing i'll end up nothing also right ?

Of course, i should take my time, take it slow, don't rush it, but anyhow, i should be doing something. And apply this concept on it.

Brilliant.

It struck me from this song , if you come to me. LoL.

What's sweet and simple ? *wonders*

thoughts

I've thought about god, where is god? is he real? Why do we believe in him ?

Surrender it to god, if nothing goes your way, he will lead the way, but has it ever occured to us that, god is merely a word, just like an excuse

"Aiya, god knows la"
"Let god decide"

Common, what we have now in life, is in our own hands, money doesn't come from above, we handle our own lifes, we have to work to get what we want.

And we say, god loves us, and will protect us from all evil.

But why is there still pain, hatred, evil? Evil is still lurking, we have all kinds of cases everyday, people that sin, deaths, war,terrible things happen in this world, starvation,sickness,if god was almighty, why didn't he stop all this from happening ?

whenever i face a problem, people always tell me, surrender to god and see how it goes, some times i believed more in the supernatural than god. It's surreal. When we surrender to god, doesn't it means that we give up ?

I know i'm not really a religious kinda person, i do believe in god, but for the past few years, i lose faith, i feel the real world is where we are living in. We have to fight to stay on top, no more the idealist world.

and then, i came upon this book,

to an individual:

If you had children, you would love him/her, you would do everything you can to protect them from danger, to prevent pain in his life. But would you let him ride a skateboard ? ride a bike? and when they grow up, would you let them drive a car, or maybe go to clubs ? Of course as a parent you would hestitate, but let them go and also advice them and telling them to be careful.

So as a parent, you would just give your child some basic, good advices and let them run along and make ther own mistakes ? You wouldn't expect to be around them all the time and catch them everyime they fall. And if this child made a mistake, maybe he fell from his skateboard, he would learned to be more careful right ?

So what we see, is god have the power to intefere and prevent mankind's pain, but choose to show his love by letting man learn our own lessons. Cause pain is part of growing up, and thats how we learn. Thats how we get through. We fall, and we pick ourselves up. God is always there to guide us. It's only whether we realize it or not.

I still believe god is looking, watching our every move.

fictions do make a point.

sometimes i miss you, but then i fall hard

i'm rushing things again..

*These kind of things don't need rush, it need time to nurture, time to grow, like a plant, needs sunlight, vitamins, i need to be a lil more patient, maybe i should to more garderning. I still have loads of time, unless someone took away my plant. LoL. But, seriously noel, let it flow, get a hold of yourself, be confident, take your time, it may just work out.*

mental note to self.. =)

blue

wonder of the day: If you and your dog could understand each other for one minute, what would you say to it? What might it tell you ?

blue is the color which runs through my mind, blur are the thoughts that i can't define, blue i am now, cause i'm missing you ; blue i will be, i just don't know why.

I might be consider the king of blues, not in the music industry though, lol.

Finally, i'm back home. Home sweet home. Missed the feeling of being in a cosy home. There's a couch to jump on, a spring bed to sleep on, air cond, big fridge, yay !

BUT !

Something happened. I reached here at 5am, slept. At 8am, Sis came shouting to me, saying that my dog ran out, and is currently getting humped. I ran out and i saw, that filthy disgusting with skin disorder dog's cock stuck in my dog and it can't escape. I was filled with anger and sadness. I could not do anything except look. Later when she got loose, she didn't want to come back. I got pissed and went back to sleep. Until sis came back, my dog only came back, sis bath her and took her to the vet. What a way to start my holidays.

Had brunch with my friends. Penang food rocks man. Spend the day at home, it rained. No football until tomorrow.

During dinner just now, i overheard a conversation between three men behind me. One man said " If you want to send your daughter to a girls school, don't send her to convent, cause it's filled with lesbians. " Sorry to all convent girls who is reading this. But ,he can be so wrong.

It is true that being in a co-ed school will be better for socializing between the male and the female gender but it's just wrong to say that lesbians are from girls school because they don't have guys in it. Some people turn into lesbians because it's just what they think is right, not to say that it's wrong. But there are also girls in convent being lesbians because PARENTS are giving her too much pressure. Havent you thought of sending your daughter to a girl school, thats fine, but then limit her from meeting other friends, you forbid her from meeting guys, and she can only express them with her friends. Sometimes it's also because of an individuals thinking. But i do have friends who's been in Convent for 12 years and still is straight. Same sex relationship aren't wrong. Maybe some people will get over it once they grow up. People make mistakes. It's just how they learn from it. And parents should guide them.

Funny.

I feel that something is missing. I'm missing her.

I don't know why i feel i stand a chance. It's no harm to try.

I don't know whats going through my mind.

Just talking to her sent my blueness away.

If only...

Storm - Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I’m so used to living underneath the surface

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

not myself..

Day Out

wonder of the day : why some people just take things for granted ?

Today's field trip day ! lol. Went to Ikea and The Curve. 6 of us in a MyVi, Me, Kok Chyuan, Hui Ping(Kok Chyuan's girlfriend), Way Shoon, Cher Ru and Wei Hun. Today just isn't my day. I had stomach ache again. From home to ikea, i think i went to the toilet like 5 times. Twice in Ikea. =/. I think i poo-ed blood. Gonna be sick d. LoL.

A bunch of penangnites and a KL girl on the highway, luckily we did not get lost. From Setapak to Damansara, i was the navigator and Kok Chyuan was the Rally Driver. lol. KL highways are just fun to drive on. But once you take the wrong turn, it'll be a long way back. Spotted a WHITE 350Z ! Damn Nice.

Funny thing is, while we were on the way to Ikea, we stopped at a traffic light, and someone beside us in a car asked us for directions. Luckily we have a local in the car. lol. Can't you notice that the number plate is PGT and has a P sticker on ? Maybe we just stopped right beside him and he had no other choice. haha.

Reached Ikea, first thing on my mind, TOILET !

So had brunch/tea-time in Ikea, fish and chips, mushroom soup and garlic bread. Yummy, cost me like RM17. Food is expensive but worth it. Lol. Some picts during makan session

From Left : Way Shoon,Kok Chyuan, Hui Ping, Cher Ru


From Left : Kok Chyuan, Wei Hun and Me.

Browsed Around In Ikea for stuffs, wanna buy back home, but manage to find nothing. If my mom was here, the car will be filled with plastic bags of Ikea. Lol. Bought a wall clock for our room. Cost only RM5.

The main objective is to get Radiance a gift for her birthday, but me and shoon can't find any. Went over to The Curve. It's like so freaking empty. It's like the same state like i've been there last year, not many shops opened yet. Walked around until leg pain.

Went to The Street, where all is food. That will be the best place at The Curve. Lol. Walked over to Cinemaleisure. It's still empty, went to the ciniplex and spent like 15 minutes watching trailers. There was this "hanging" platform for people to stand. Way Shoon said it's a little scary cause it vibrates when you stand on it. lol. I was even jumping on it to see if it's really tough. *wonder*, what if i fell ? lol

Top Of The World !

Decided to have supper at Starbucks. All of us are relieved to finally sit down. Endulge myself into the Caramel Frappuchino and a tuna danish. Yummy.

My Meal

Me And Wei Hun, and Way Shoon's Muffin

We just sat there and chatted, talked about our high school life. Reminiscences about the good old days when we were still young. Best of all, Penang is the place where the magic happens. Where we grew up, where we meet friends, where we found love. Hometown is always the best. Going back soon ! Sounds old eh, lol. Thinking back about the things that we used to do just wants to make me laugh.

Sat till 10 like that then chao, fetched Cher Ru home, and try to find our way back home, which we did. With no problems ! lol. It's like a big achivement to not get lost in KL.

Some random picts.

A White Savvy, Rare.

I Love This !


My Wierd Pict

Reached home, tempted Jason with pictures that we took of starbucks. Lol. He started complaining that why we did not bungkus for him. He only ate Bihun. Haha. But afternoon he already had steamboat at his friends house, so don't care d.

Talked to Lay Theng just now. Her friends coming down from KL. Asked her to bring them around Penang. She said Penang So SMALL ! Where want to bring them. LoL. But she got it all planned already which includes visits to Penang Hill, Musuems (!?), Beaches and of course FOOD !

Tomorrow maybe heading up to Genting. Depends on Kok Chyuan. Want go breathe fresh air. =p. Haven't been up there for like so long already.

I just don't feel safe sitting in the front sit, being a passenger of a car. I'll freak out, especially with people like Kok Chyuan driving. Even though he's a quite skilled driver, lol, but it's still scary. It'll be different when i drive. So long didn't drive don't know karat already not. The last time i drove, i can't park a car nicely also. =/

Time flies, when i was secondary, i was dreaming of how nice it would be being in college, still innocent and just want to have fun. And now, i finish my first semester already. Thinking has changed, being more matured. Making decisions wisely, but i still make stupid decisions. lol. Growing up into young adults. No more small kiddies. Anyhow, it's the process of growing up,we should enjoy life to the fullest !

Going yum cha later.. until then !

Before that, a riddle:
A Green Bean ran up 15 floors and jump down, *splat* . What did he turned into ?

honestly, i'm thinking of you..

Story Of A Girl

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears.
And I can be so insincere, Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!
How many days disappear?
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many lovers would stay?
Just to put of with this shit day after day!
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!
How do we get there today?
When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her-
When She Smiles...

Flavour Of The Day

wonder of the day : why do people do something even if the thing is not worth doing ?

It's over ! My battle with numbers and formulas has ended. I'm not really confident but i might pass pre-calculus. lol. Sem break here i come !

If only there are seasons here. Summer break in Malaysia would be fun! Beaches! Oh wait, there ARE seasons in Malaysia. Monsoon seasons. LoL.

Time passes real fast, i've finish semester one. Half of my housemates have already went back, gonna miss them.


People who have made B-15-7 such a chaotic place

Crystal - The one whom you should not make her laugh, cause when she starts, she won't stop.

Vivien - The big sister of the house. Looks like girl, but kicks your ass like a guy. LOL

Jeremy - Ho Laaaa ! If want to play CS ,do something destructive or just laugh, look for him.

Stephy - Looks are decieving. She can be a menace.

Wallace - The loud one. Very dangerous. Haha.

Kok Chyuan - Mr. Sexy. And also a big menace. Will annoy you to the max while make you laugh.

Way Shoon - Everyday do nothing. Last minute kaki like me.

Jason - The Cute One. Nothing More To Say

Well, these are the main people that made me had sleepless nights throughout the exam week. Thanks Guys.

Talked to Ai Khim today and i learnt something new !

z e r o p u l s e: hahaha
z e r o p u l s e: u memang thin wun la
-Ai Khim-: the more i eat... i'll be horizontally challenged
z e r o p u l s e: HAHA
z e r o p u l s e: nice way to say it
z e r o p u l s e: this will be the sentence of the day in my blog

Horizontally challenged ? thats like freaking physics man. lol.

-dinner break-

back. Went for dinner at our usual hang out place. The nasi kandar behind our place. The place do seem quieter. Seeing everybody going home already.

Cartel is actually a nice band. Their songs are just interesting. Eg. Matter of time, Say Something(Else) and of course, Honestly.

A little info about them :

Cartel is a five-piece American pop punk band from Atlanta, Georgia that formed in 2004. Although the band has not been together that long, they have already achieved a high status in the music scene. Their most recent album, Chroma, started the success that they have embraced since its release in 2005 on the indie label, The Militia Group. It also put them on Alternative Press's 2005 list of "Bands You Need to Know". In March 2006, they were also named Yahoo! Music's winner in the "Who's Next" competition and a Breaker artist by AOL music. Cartel has not only been heavily influenced by the punk and hardcore communities, but by more mainstream acts like Morrissey and The Smiths, Oasis, and even a slew of pop-punk bands such as Saves The Day.

I just remembered my Harry Potter book is still in EMSD (Extra Mural Studies Department). I was shorlisted for a book review contest but was forfieted cause i had to attend the PTPTN loan briefing. I hope they don't put it in the library. If they do, it'll totally be my fault for being so lazy to pick it up. Ketam (crap) !

I'm so into the oldies (our oldies, or called teenoldies. lol. starting from the year 2000). Downloaded Story Of A Girl by Nine Days, Be Like That by Three Doors Down, Flavour Of The Week by American Hi-Fi, Ride Wit Me by Nelly, Turn Of The Lights by Nelly Furtado and more. Those were the times.

I'm in a punk mood. Got my hands on a few demos by Fall Out Boy.Totally love them. Downloading all punk. But nowdays punk is no more punk anymore. It becomed pop-punk. Like Click Five cross Taking Back Sunday. I don't actually know how real punk sound like. Maybe a lil like good charlotte ? lol. Guess i'm not punk enough. Not even close.

Back to the days, where i wonder and wonder..

absence makes the heart grow fonder.. can you hear me ?

let go

It's been a few days (10 thousand years for my time) since i come online, i juz had my business paper just now. It was alright, ain't gonna fail, nor sufficient for an A. I should have prepared earlier, a little regret. Programming paper was a breeze, not counting if i'm careless or not. IT was the hardest paper until now.

I'm having pre-calculus two days from now. The subject i fear the most. I have 0% knowledge on it. I'll try to aim for a pass. I don't wanna resit, seriously.

Some of my housemates have already finish their exams, how nice. I'd be staying here till saturday and i'll follow Kok Chyuan back in his MyVi.

I had the feeling of eagerness to go back to Penang now. Starting to miss the place. The people. Can't wait !

First thing i'll do when i reach home, hug my dog, mum, dad and sis. Then i'll take my baby (dad's skoda fabia) for a ride. I miss driving ! Probably have dinner with family, and then hanging out with friends ! and play football at my place !!

Lay Theng had already went back today. Poor girl, she's home sick. Well now she's back home already.

Sometimes, when you let go, everything will turn out better. Thats what i think. Thinking about her just won't do any help. I'll just miss her more. and it makes no difference.

Go out, hang out with friends, have fun, chill, let go for a while.

Thats what Radiance would say to me. =)

After exams, heading out to get stuffs for people back home in penang !

First on my list
My Family

Second Would Be
Mon Ping (what should i get for her?)

Maybe get something for Radiance cause her birthday's coming. but she's in Subang. Better not look at her wishlist, i can't afford. Lol.

May Ching's birthday is also just around the corner. Nahh, i'll leave it to her boyfriend. haha.

Yawn, tonight's the night for calculus, get some rest before i go battle.

Until then..

fading away..

Cartel - Honestly

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say cause I'm, I'm being honest
When I tell you that you
You're part of the reason I'm so set on the rest of my life
Being a part of you
You tell me what you think about being open,About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same.

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Don't waste time getting to the point, cause I'm, I'm patiently waiting
For your next phone call, your next excuse for losing sleep again
Tell me what you think about being open,
About being honest with yourself

Cause things will never be the same.

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you to stay

Cause I can't stop it now
It's so amazing how
I know I can't, I could never walk away

How can we resolve this now
We let it go, and wonder how
This can ever be the same(Can never be the)
Can never be the same

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning, while falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you, I'm begging!

Cause I can't stop it now,
It's so amazing how,
I know I cant, I could never walk away.

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say, cause I'm, I'm being honest.

follow

Life is all about following ? routines ? scheduels ? same ol thing ? think again.

I read an entry of my friend, Jeremy's blog.

"Ever wondered why your life is so routine? Its cause you want it to be routine...you never wanna try anything new & exciting. You just rather stick to your own li'l schedule & be safe. I seriously pity fools like that.Everyday their just sitting their at their desk...typing...sending
e-mails...picking up so called "important" calls...talking to "important" people...their just oh so boring. Everyone should just stand up...lift their fat asses up & do something new. And if you don't like it...don't do it again...go try something else new. Heck, who cares what you wanna do...fuck a dog, fuck a cat, have an orgy, rob someone, eat scorpions & spiders, pray to satan...Whatever...I encourage you to get up & stop being so boring"

So, for people who think that life is boring, maybe you should just stand up and do something new. And thanks to Jeremy for that piece of advice. lol, if you happen to read this.

I used to think that life is seriously just a routined, i still think that way, sometimes we just gotta be a lil different. It's just the same in a relationship, things will get routined sooner than you think, after all the lovey dovey periods, you think it's just call, hug, kiss, hang out, whatever couples do. Relationships are like a bottle of water, when the water is almost empty, we gotta refill it. Maybe thats what happened to my past relationships, i did not bother to refill the bottle. I'm dead boring. My thinking is direct, follow the rules.

I guess it's the start of a new revolution . lol

First Paper tomorrow, IT.

I'm just being myself.

"Love is not what pulls you down, it's what lifts you up"

Exam Blues

I Can't Study !!

I'm so dead. Everything i read just won't go in. I don't wanna retake my exams but !! When i read my notes everything just goes blur. I gotta do something. I just realize my calculus is dead. I don't even know how to solve a simple question!! I need a miracle.

Here's Way Shoon, devastated. lol

While here's Wallace, study still sleep.


My first paper , Information Technology is on this Wednesday afternoon. Even though i studied, i think i almost forget everything. Tomorrow have to recharge again.

Maybe i'm just lazy.. =/

Vanessa called me today for no reason. Was kinda surprise. Guess what she called to ask about ? Song titles. She was listening to Fly Fm's moolah, i think thats what it's called. Trying to win some cash, in TUITION ! lol.

That day when i went KLCC bought Jay's album, i didn't empty my wallet after that, checked back yesterday, i found a coin, thought malaysian 20cents change design already, then i looked again and saw queen elizabeths face. It was an australian 10cent coin! Wonder how did it get into my wallet. It's now my lucky coin. lol.



Played CS with Jeremy just now at home, set all bots to knife mode only. We got ambushed badly. Once the bomb was planted, the bots came in like ants ! Well, only 16 of them, and to make things interesting, we only used knifes, but couldn't stand also, had to use hand gun. This is what u get when u mess with chucky (childs play).



I dreamt about her last night. It was something like a party i hosted, and she didn't come. Guess i'm still missing her. Though i don't talk much about her anymore. She still wanders around my mind. Hope things will get better soon.

Maple - Jay Chou

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
Dark clouds cast a shadow over our hearts
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
I listen intently to the feelings that have long been silenced
清晰透明
Distinct and clear
就像美丽的风景
Just like a beautiful landscape
总在回忆里才看得清
That can only be clearly seen in one's memories
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
Can a heart that's been thoroughly wounded continue to love me?
我用力牵起没温度的双手
I tried hard to hold (your) cold hands
过往温柔
The tenderness in the past
已经被时间上锁
Is locked in time
只剩挥散不去的难过
All that's left are sadness that cannot be dispersed


缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
Longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
I light a candle to warm this year-end's autumn
极光掠夺天边
The aurora steals across the horizon
北风掠过想你的容颜
The north wind flits across the face that's thinking of you
我把爱烧成了落叶
Ashes from my burning heart falls like leaves
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
But I can never regain (your) familiar face again

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
Longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
Why must I try to recover all before winter arrives?
爱你穿越时间
My love for you transcends all time
两行来自秋末的眼泪
Two streams of tears that were shed for the autumn's end
让爱渗透了地面
Let the love flood through
我要的只是你在我身边
I just want you by my side

addiction

At this moment i just have so many things flowing through my mind. I just can't stop thinking until now i'm just so confuse about everything. As they say, everything happens for a reason. Still, aren't we in control of what is going to happen to us ? And if we are in control, we know the reason, but still why it doesn't goes the way we want it to be ?? Sometimes i feel my life is seriously fucked up, or maybe i'm just thinking too much.

I'm missing something, the puzzle that puts it all together. Sometimes, things just come and go that we don't tend to realize it's importance. Life just past by too fast, i need to stop for a moment to figure out where i am at this moment. Or i'll fall to pieces in no time.

For some reason, i feel no matter where i am, back in penang or here in KL. It's still the same. Even with or without friends. It wouldn't change. My hearts turning into stone. I'm slowly turning into a zombie, or a robot, stuck in a cycle that never ends. There is no more emotions, though i'm kinda emo now.. Everything is just the same to me. I enjoy life, totally, but at some parts, it's just meaningless. Is this the potrait of a faithless person? i guess it is.

Maybe i will change, maybe something will change me. An impact in my life. For now i know, my family is my life, i'm glad i have some good friends. Hope things would get better soon.

-emo kid

Another day in life, Another chapter to be revealed

Phad Thai, Chicken and Cheese Pie, Maggi Noodles with Dumplings and Neslo

My stomach is seriously getting bigger after all the food i've eaten today..Ughh..i need to stop eating..

Slept early last night, at 2 ++.Couldn't study anymore. Programming is sucking away all my brain juice. Woke up at 11 this morning, continued studying. Manage to finish another past year paper, one more to go !

Does anyone know what day is today ??!!

Today is September 8 !! Which is the release of Jay's 7th album ! Went to KLCC with my friend to tower records to get the cd. Got it for RM49.90 with poster, 1cd and dvd. I wasn't the only guy buying his cd, lol. I saw another guy bought it. SO that proves his music is good! On the way, Mui Wan,my jie, msged me told me to go study.

"Study !!!"
"Actually Heading To KLCC..hee.."
"ish!! Bad Boy!"

I manage to finish a few questions before i came out !! lol.. After that went to Signatures Food Court with my friend. Had phad thai (thai noodles), the casheir was juz too friendly, freaked me out a little. lol. WHERE can you find such a polite person anymore !!?? After eating, felt i was still hungry, it was near 5, so i thought i have something else, chicken and cheese pie ! yummy !! Told myself that would be my dinner. haha.

Msged my godsis, jillian, she was playing futsal. I always get a little shocked when she says she's playing futsal. It's just a little out of order. haha. But if i can play, why can't she.

Went back at the wrong time, it's a friday, and the LRT was packed. Have to wait for another train. I realize i wasn't the only person with a jay chou poster sticking out of my bag, saw some other people too, even on the way back to my place!

Reached home. Placed the cd on the table. Slowly tear open the top plastic cover, retrieved the cd gently and Woo Hoo, Jay's 7th album.

The Outer Cover


The Inside

Tracklist (i'll write in pin ying la,lol):
1.Ye De Di Qi Zang (Second Single)
2.Ting Ma Ma De Hua (Love This Song)
3.Qian Li Zi Wai (First Single)
4.Ben Cao Gang Mu (Rap)
5.Tui Hou (Nice)
6.Hong Muo Fang (He Wrote It)
7.Xing Yu (Super Love This Song)
8.Bai Se Feng Che (This Song Too !!)
9.Mi Shi Xiang (New Style)
10.Ji Hua Tai (Somehow It Does't Sound Like Him)

A few of his songs are into the classic chinese style, and a few rap sounds, but i feel he has done great with this album. Most surprisingly would be his collobration with Fei Yu Qing in the song Qian Li Zi Wai. It's a little wierd but the result is just magical (a lil dramatic here.haha). My favourite would be tui hou, xing yu and bai se feng che. And if you guys notice, he does a lot of "woooos" in this album. lol. Something like micheal jackson but he sounds better. This is a great album and i'm loving it !

Mui Wan was on webcam juz now. She says she's fat, but she just look as thin as ever, maybe the webcam a little cacat. LoL

Well, i just couldn't stop myself from eating. Felt hungry and went cooked noodles, friend brought back dumplings, lagi worst, i still can feel them in my stomach, the little prawns just wanting to come out. lol.

Random picts

Someone Said I Looked Metrosexual..lol

Speaking bout metrosexual, my housemate, jason, has been a little funny these few days. LoL. He's developed the disease called " Self-Potrait". He's been taking lots of pictures of himself recently. But i guess it's normal, most people do that. HAHA.

Here's my friend trying out for a nescafe ad.

Just wondering if the nescafe directors would pass by here and maybe consider him as a nescafe ambassador.

Sunset at my place.

Since it's the exam season, this would be my table, forgot to take off the jay cd, lol, the papers all around.

Girls are complicated. Seriously. Lol. Can't stop repeating through Jay's songs now.

Theres something new in our house now, it's called the "bond". Well, our main target is usually Jason, when we say bond, we'll pin jason down and starts to tickle him, he says it feels like we are raping him. Imagine, four guys and one girl, 3 guys pin him down, the others juz tickle him badly and torture him. haha. starting to sound gay.

Lastly, something i found.

Unique. =)

Gotta study, until then..

Relationships are like water in a bottle, you need to refill it to keep it going.

TAG !

this is a tag post thanks to jeremy..lol..

Seven things that scare me
-computer breakdowns
-no internet
-crazy people dancing beside me
-life
-death
-girls
-losing loves one

Seven things I like
-my family
-my dog
-playing my guitar
-driving
-hanging out with friends
-singing
-laze around

Seven important things in my room
-my laptop (can't live without it)
-my bed
-my guitar
-my cupboard (all my clothes inside ma)
-my chair and table (for me to do my work)
-my handphone charger !

Seven random facts about me
-i'm lazy
-i freak out easily
-i'm childish
-i'm disgusting (burping,farting etc etc)
-i wanna be like teddy geiger + wayne rooney= superstar singer/footballer
-attention seeker
-lame joker

Seven things I plan to do before I die
-drive real fast on the autobahn
-be with my parents
-get married
-have kids
-travel round the world
-go to old trafford
-record my own song

Seven things I can do
-eat
-sleep
-simple programming
-playing guitar
-swim
-disturb people
-study and get distracted

Seven things I can't do
-study
-play the guitar like a pro
-tell a girl i like her
-drive a sports car
-run around naked
-stay in a haunted house
-stop eating

Seven things I say the most
-duh
-fuck
-ass
-hahaha
-maile
-err
-crap

Seven people who will have to do this
-1
-2
-3
-4
-5
-6
-7

true love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen..

unnecessory information you need to know about me before you kill me (does it sound like a Fall Out Boy song title ?)

1. i'm shy
2. i'm a nerd
3. i'm childish
4. i'm paranoid
5. i'm not addicted to alcohol
6. i wish i'm cool
7. i'm fat
8. i eat a lot
9. i'm trying to slim down
10. i suck in calculus
11. i think too much
12. i love jay chou's music
13. i'm an amatuer guitar player
14. i swim but i have a round tummy
15. i don't have lots of friends
16. i have a few close friends
17. i trust people easily
18. i'm a coward
19. i'm pretty neat
20. i have a dog
21. i try to be funny but usually i fail
22. i'm lame
23. i get negative comments all the time
24. i'm friendly though lots of people's first impression say that i'm stuck up.. lol
25. i care too much
26. i ask for too much
27. i seldom pray
28. i believe in god
29. i believe in the supernatural
30. i think i'm ugly
31. i sometimes think like a girl
32. i'm not a girl
33. i play football,basketball
34. i'm single
35. nobody wants me..lol
36. i'm a wannabe
37. i think negatively
38. i have 3 past relationships
39. i swear occationally but only in front of certain people
40. i don't like beer
41. i love sushi and pasta
42. i listen to all kinds of music
43. i love acoustic version of songs
44. i've been to only one concert in my life ( Linkin Park )
45. i sleep like a pig
46. i'm not from mars, i'm from penang
47. i envy my friends
48. i 'm a fan of manchester united
49. i'm crazy over a girl
50. it's hard for me to find my shoe size, i'm a size 11
51. i don't like having enemies
52. still i have people that do hate me ( i think )
53. i'm peace-loving
54. i hate people that are two faced
55. i'm not vain unless i'm meeting someone
56. i often have mood swings
57. i sometimes shout and talk to myself
58. i can get a little wierd sometime
59. i'm lazy
60. i'm emotional at times.

i think that's all for now..

Am studying programming..gawd..

A moment of peace for Steve Irwin aka Crocodile Hunter . Who passed away on the 5th Of september. Rest in peace . He died doing what he loved most.

Song Of The Moment - Daniel Bedingfield - I Can't Read You

I'm never shy but this is different
I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight
I'm losing control of my heart
Tell me what can I do to make you happy
Nothing I ever say seems to come out right
I'm losing control of my heart

And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can't hear what your thinking
Maybe if I just let go
you'd open up your heart

But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart defending I get left behind
I can't reach you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart protecting I get left behind

I like you so much I'm acting stupid
I can't play the game I'm all intense and alive
I'm losing control of my heart
I'm not supposed to be this nervous
I should play my hand all cool and calm
I can't breathe
I'm losing control of my heart

"i think i crashed your plane"

Being an official sleepy head, i woke up at 1 today, sunday morning. what to do, the bed was so comfortable for some reason. Still, it's not good to sleep beside the wall, cause i hit my head on the wall twice last night.I kena before a few days ago and again last night. I woke up with a headache, think i'm gonna lose my memory at some time.

Am i that BIG ? gosh, sleep also can hit the wall. Went jusco today,bought groceries, main thought was to get that Umbro shoe that cost only rm99. Got there, asked for size 11, and what i get, size 10 is the biggest. Gawd. I don't know where i'm gonna get my shoes anymore.

Yesterday...

Same thing happened in One Utama on saturday, went there to shop cause megasales gonna end. Went look for the Nike Joga Bonito Shoe, this lagi worst, I asked for size 11. GOT !! i was so happy until i wear the shoe. It feels like size 10, too tight. Had to leave it. Sigh. But i ended up getting 5 t-shirts. Spent rm180++. Guess i can shop too ! haha.

Had dinner at Bar-b-q Plaza. Korean style steamboat. I think, but the songs they play are thai and the ads are in thai too. It confuses me. LOL. My pal's girlfriends won't let me take picts. So i took the steamboat.

Haha. yes i went out with two couples. That makes me a big lamp post. Ughh. I want shop also kenot. I have to look at myself while they have girls to look at. haha. but i love shopping alone. Though i don't have good taste. It's fun. I can get anything i want. Still prefer to have friends around so they can judge. lol.

Here's my friend,wallace with the Bar-B-Q plaza mascot.lol. there was a honda road show where the Circuit Civic was on display. I LOVE the Civic man. Here are some picts.

Sexy Back ! How nice is that. Still prefer the EK-9 though, two door hatchback civic.

As i said i went Jusco today, i saw something funny. It was the cashier machine. This was what i saw on the screen.

"Have You Renew You J-Card?"
"Please Swipe The Card"
The Staff Swipes The Card
"Good Customer"

Good Customer ? Lol. I was laughing my ass off when i saw that. Only when you swipe your member card then you are considered a good customer.

Spend the afternoon studying before i went to jusco. Came back also study. This whole week is study week, 24/7 gonna study d.Here is my exam slip. I wasn't barred ! Din bother go check the barred list also.

"I think i crashed your plane" is a line from Lost. Desmond cause the crash of the plane because he did not input the number into the computer.At this part, most of you guys will go "Huh?". Lost is a tv series, go watch it. Lol.

I think i miss someone.

Here are some random picts.

Our friendly nasi kandar hero ! Viven took the pict....

Me and My Housmate, Vivien

Life is so completely messed up right now. Not mine, the world.

I Want To Go Back To Mars !

Earth sucks, seriously. I prefer what it's like down at Mars, where everything is sand and rocks, lots of space probes and more advance technology. Most importantly, people like you for who you are.

Well,Back to reality. Exams are in two weeks, started studying already but not really much information seems to be going in. My weakest subject is calculus, which i haven't really studied. If i were some nerd i'd be freaking out and soon i'll jump down from the 15th floor, err, i'm almost there.

I think god has given us a sign. Today, my friends computer broke down. My laptop keeps showing the Blue Screen Of Death Sign and the internet connection keeps breaking down. Scary.

Been really emo these few days. I think i need a brain washing therapy. I just can't stop thinking. It's actually healthy to think, but seriously, i think too much. Anybody have any tips for it ? My brains like a blender blending fruits, seafood, poultry, sugar, spice and everything ugly. Wonder if this recipe would make it to Fear Factor. LoL

As a martian, Malaysia is quite a nice place to be. It's politically stable, no dangerous natural disasters, no war. On this independence day, of the 18 years i've been on this soil, i'm still surviving. Although Malaysia isn't perfect, but i 'm loving it here. Well at least better than mars. Lol

Let's talk bout Penang,What I Love About Penang !

1. It's small, makes knowing people easier.
2. The food. How can we not love Penang food !
3. Penang Chicks are HOT !
4. Gurney Drive. Best Place Ever To Hang Out.
5. Penang Bridge.
6. Beach ! though it's not that clean. LoL
7. The Festivals Celebrations ( We Have Chinese, Indian, Malay, Japanese Celebrations !)
8. And Of course..Home Sweet Home

Penang is the best place to be..I shall contact the general to deploy more martians..LoL

I think i'm paranoid

I think i'm sick

I think i'm falling

" Cause I am barely breathing, I can't find the air,I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care "